Nothing to Gain

Author's Notes: I'm going to apologize ahead of time incase this takes me a really long time to write, but I hope you will continue to read the story as it continues. There will be many twists and turns and some surprises, not to mention the birth of Dana's baby. (I have such a good idea for that part…hehe.) So far this story is going as planned, although I may not focus on all of the characters, them having their own parts. So this is just a warning. Again, if you get confused please email me. I jump from first to third person quite often. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own it! If I did I wouldn't be sitting here wasting my precious homework time writing this. I would be animating it for your viewing pleasure! (Sorato...booo! Sorry Sorato fans!) Now if you'll excuse me I have to go and deal with the Hell Beast that lives in the napkin dispenser…stupid little thing sliced my hand! I'm not kidding either! * lol *

Chapter 2: Brother, My Brother

I can't believe she could be so stupid and selfish. I can't believe I just said that. After all it's my entire fault. I wasn't there like I was supposed to be. I just stood back and watched as my parents and she fought. Then I found myself watching as she walked out the door. She hasn't been home in a month or so. Well, since she got back. Actually know that I think about it, she did the exact same thing three years ago, she just got up and left.

We know that she is staying with Tai and Kari for the time being. My mother has been crying ever since she left, my father is still somewhat furious, mostly disappointed and me, well I've visited her and we've talked never once mentioning what happened when she had first arrived back. I'm glad to say that she seems happy, despite her situation. Her belly is getting bigger everyday and she is into her second trimester. I'm just happy that Tai was there when he was and along with the help of Kari and Sora they are able to take care of her…and her cravings. * shiver * Dill pickles and ice cream with peanuts is not my idea of something edible.

I know that my parents want her to come home. I just wish that they would come to their senses and go and talk to her and try to persuade her to come home because it just isn't the same without her. Before she left she said that I snore. I miss the times when she would come into my room in the middle of the night and plug my nose and then laugh when I woke yelling and gasping for air. Lay on your side or something Izzy. You could wake the dead with that snore. She would say before going back to her own room.

I just hope this plan I have to get her to come home doesn't fail. My mom and dad are going out of town for about four days and I've decided to get Dana to come back during that time. I've already talked to Tai about this and he in turn has told the select few that know of the unborn child. It's just gonna be me and her. That's it, just brother and sister catching up on old times and what has happened during that last three years.

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"I'm not sure about this Izzy." Dana said stepping into her home. Baggy jean overalls were concealing her somewhat small figure and she was wearing a blue and white baseball T-shirt. This was her home, the place which she had tried to get away from for so long, only to come back and find herself banished once again. But now she was once again stepping back into the life that was once Dana Izumi and she felt safe and whole. "What happens if mom and dad come home and their not to thrilled to see me?"

"Trust me, I'm doing all three of you a favour." He said as he led the way to her room where he placed her bags and things. "Besides," He said pulling out a pair of car keys. "This arrived for you about two weeks ago."

"Why didn't you tell me!" She screeched as she grabbed the keys and ran out of the house, Izzy trailing behind. Both soon arrived at what seemed to be a storage shed. Dana watched as Izzy pulled out another key and unlocked the door. They stepped inside and Dana's eyes lit up. She suddenly squealed in delight as they both looked at the brand new silver corvette in front of them. She jumped in and started up the engine. "Well, are you coming or not?" She asked.

"You can drive?" Izzy asked bewildered. Dana looked at him questioningly. "What, I didn't think big time stars had time to take their driver's exam."

"Oh, I had lots of time, trust me." She said. "Well, ya comin' or not. Or are you afraid I might crash us into a hydro poll just as soon as I leave the driveway?"

"I'm coming, I just have to go and lock the front door." He said. Dana nodded and Izzy left to lock the door to the house. He soon emerged from the front of the house where Dana was parked, waiting. He ran up and jumped into the vehicle.

"Fasten your seat belt." Dana stated and then put the car into first gear. "It's gonna get a little fast." She said and then pushed on the gas pedal, so that it was touching the floor. "Woooohoooo!" She yelled as they went speeding off down the street.

Passers by watched as a flash of silver whipped past them, causing a trail of wind and dust as it drove past. A few small children yelled in delight as they watched the car race by. Dana soon decreased her speed when they finally came to a highway intersection.

"So what did you have planned for this weekend?" Dana asked as she waited for the traffic light to turn green.

"Anything." Izzy said.

"Okay." Dana said as she continued to drive on when the traffic light turned green. "Oh, I know what we can do." She said with a smile.

"What?" Izzy said as he looked out the side window and then back to his sister when she replied to his question.

"Sit around and watch movies all night and eat nothing but junk food." She said and then put a hand on her tummy. "I have a really big craving for chips and chocolate ice cream."

"Sounds good. I haven't lazed around in a while. What with college and all." He said.

"Oh that's right. Computer Sciences. I believe I'm sitting beside the next Bill Gates." Dana said laughing. "As soon as I can I want to go to college."

Izzy nodded. "What are you planning to study?"

"I have no clue, probably astrophysics or something." She said. "Hey there's Yolei's store. Let's go see her."

Izzy nodded once again and Dana drove down the street and found a small parking spot behind the store and quickly made their way into the store, hopping that Yolei was working today. They walked into the store and spied around for Yolei, but there was no Yolei. One of her sisters was a the cash register.

"Izzy, you find out where Yolei is and I'll get the movies and munchies." Dana said and quickly sped off down the chip isle where she proceeded to pick the flavours that she was craving. Izzy looked on with a shocked and somewhat embarrassed look on his face as Dana eyed a bag of sour cream and onion chips and opened it only to shove a handful in her mouth, while trying to hold the small basket. Dana noticed smiled and waved as she continued to eat.

"You think she could control herself a bit." Izzy heard someone say from being him. He immediately turned around and saw Ken with a basket full of groceries. His hair was shorter now and he no longer wore the uptight grey suit that he had always worn. "Geez, she even puts Davis to shame." He said with a smile.

"Hey Ken." Izzy said and spied the grocery basket he had in his grasp. "Grocery shopping again I see." He said with a wink as if hinting something to him.

Ken blushed pink. "If that's what you would call it." He said smoothly.

Izzy smiled. "Where is Yolei anyway?" He questioned looking around to see if he could spot his lavender haired friend.

"She's upstairs. We've planned to go on a picnic today at the park." He said and then turned back to the isle, but there was no Dana. Ken took this time to inquire about his friend. He had obviously heard about her situation and had never once mentioned that he did, even though he knew that Dana knew herself that the news was spreading amongst their group of friends. There was only one thing that they agreed on, without Dana and that was not to tell Matt. Not only that she was pregnant, but that she was actually back. "So how is she doing?"

"Actually, not that bad. I think she getting used to the idea of becoming a mother." Izzy replied in all honesty. "We're going to have a little 'brother-sister lazy night' tonight just to get her re-adjusted to home."

"And let me guess," Ken said with a grin. "She put herself in charge of getting the snacks."

Izzy laughed. "You know that she once ate shrimp with honey, ketchup, and whipped cream." He said. "That's not my idea of edible. I can't believe she actually thought it was good." He said rather disgusted at the fact that the baby in her stomach was eating the exact same things.

"Yeah, poor kid." Ken said as if reading Izzy thoughts.

"I'm guessing that your talking about what Dana has been eating lately." Yolei said as came down the stairs to stand behind them. Her hair was short now and she had let her bangs grow out. Her glasses were no longer giant discs but oval shaped, to fit her face. She was wearing a pair of cargo shorts and a white tank top.

"How could you tell?" Izzy inquired.

"By the looks of disgust on your faces. Where is Dana anyway?" Yolei asked.

"Right here!" She said popping up suddenly out of the snack food isle. She had possession of several movies along with two full basket of junk food. Everyone spotted the two opened bags of chips and looked from the bags to Dana who had a smile on her face. "Sorry, but this little guy couldn't wait." She said as she patted her abdomen.

"Don't worry about." Yolei said with a smile. "Well I'm sorry that we can't talk any longer, but we have to go." Yolei stated eyeing her wristwatch.

Ken nodded in return. "It was nice talking with ya Izzy. I hope we see you guys at the Summer Fair." Ken said. When he and Yolei were about to leave Dana suddenly piped up.

"What summer Fair?" She asked.

"Oh, the one next week that's being held at the college." Yolei stated. "Didn't Izzy tell you?"

Dana eyed her brother with an evil look apparent in her glare. "No he didn't." She said flatly. Meanwhile, Izzy was grinning like and idiot. It had never occurred to him that Dana would want to go. After all she was once a rock star…A very popular one who just happened to mysteriously disappear.

"Well why don't you come with us. It'll be tones of fun." Ken said, as if trying to persuade her to come with them.

"I'd love to go." Dana said with a bright smile while walking over to the cash register. "As a matter of fact I think it would be a lot of fun."

"Good." Yolei said waving goodbye to them as she and Ken stepped out of the store. "Can't wait to see you there! We'll have loads of fun!"

Dana nodded as she paid the cashier. "Thanks." She said taking the many grocery bags, some of which Izzy took whilst leaving the store. They made their way to Dana's car and put the bags in the backseat. Once they were both in the car Dana stared at the steering wheel.

"Dana are you alright?" Izzy asked.

Dana suddenly turned to her brother, which in turn made him jump back. "Why didn't you tell me there was going to be a fair!" She practically yelled, which caused some pedestrians to look their way.

"Um, it slipped my mind?" He said not thinking of a better answer. He didn't really have an answer anyway. He must have forgotten about the fair.

"My ass it did." She said turning back to the steering wheel, placing the key in the ignition. "I should make you walk home…What are you laughing at Koushiro Izumi!" Dana said turning back to Izzy who was going into fits of giggles.

"Nothing." He said giggling. Dana started talking to him, but he didn't notice. He automatically stopped laughing when he saw someone approaching them. "Start the car Dana." He said not averting he gaze from the person walking towards them.

"What?" She said. "Oh no you don't, this is some lame excuse to get of explaining to me why you didn't tell me about the fair. I can see right through you Izzy." Dana said holding the keys firmly in her palm.

"Dana would you just start the car." He said finally looking at her. The seriousness of his eyes and voice were making Dana edgy now.

"Why? Izzy what's wrong?" She said looking at him with a degree of concern.

"I, uh…" He said trailing off as he looked up past Dana's shoulder. She slowly turned around and the one person that she had always dreaded seeing again was right in front of her.

"Dana?" Matt said with a look of disbelief in his eyes. Dana was about to scream bloody murder, but her brain would not allow her mouth to open. She just looked at him for what seemed to be an eternity. His hair was shorter now and he had definitely grown quite a bit in the past three years. She suddenly came out of her trance when Izzy poked her in the back. She quickly shook off her gaze to stare her ex in the face.

"Whoa, I hardly recognized you." Matt said noticing her shortened hair cut. "When did you get back?" He asked as Dana shifted uncomfortably in her chair.

Dana couldn't find the words so Izzy took it upon himself to answer. "About four months ago." He said without even thinking. Dana gasped when she heard him say that and quickly turned to him only to give him a wicked glare.

"Oh, four months." He said rather disappointed.

"Yeah, well I've been really busy settling back in. You know being away from home for three years and all." She said somewhat sarcastically, but Matt didn't pick up on it. "But a change was needed and I was getting tired of being a celebrity." She said.

"Dana." Izzy hissed.

Matt suddenly picked up on her attitude and looked straight at her, now noticing her hurt and defiant glare. He really felt like a dunce now. He wondered if something had happened to make her want to come back home after all of this time. He knew perfectly well when she stormed out of the concert hall that day that he would probably never hear from her again. It's all your fault pal. She wanted to stay. Couldn't you see that? He would repeat time and time again in his mind. You don't deserve her.

Matt shrugged of the lingering voice in his mind and turned his attention back to Dana and Izzy. "So are you guys going to the fair?" He asked, somewhere deep down hoping that Dana would say yes, just so he could see her again and have a real conversation with her.

"Yes…No." Izzy and Dana said at the same time.

"What are you talking about Dana?" Izzy said. He knew what was going on. Even though Dana said that she and Matt were completely through and that she had completely forgotten about him like the rest of her past, he knew that she still loved him. You're gonna hate me for this Dana. He thought to himself. "You just told Yolei and Ken that you were going to go and you were just yelling at me because I didn't tell you about it!" He said a little harsher than he would have liked to.

Dana just looked at him, her eyes giving a very distinct message as tears threatened to fall from her glassy eyes. How could you…

Matt all the while looked on as was very surprised when he heard Dana hiccup. He was suddenly being pushed out of the way by the car door when she opened it. She quickly jumped out and without thinking twice about how she looked she turned around and shot her car keys at Izzy. "I'm going for a walk!" She said and then ran off in the direction of the park. "Don't expect me home for a while!"

"Dana!" Izzy yelled, but she didn't turn around, she just kept running. He quickly jumped into the driver's seat and started up the car.

Without thinking twice, Matt rushed of in the same direction the Dana had been going in.  Izzy upon noticing tried to call to him to stop, but he was out of earshot. Is she ever going to hate me. He thought as drove off towards their house wanting to get the ice cream in the freezer before it melted all over the place.

*

Dana ran and ran paying no heed to any of the people around her. She just wanted to get away. She always seemed to want to get away. Why does everything always seem to go completely wrong? She asked herself mentally as she sat under a shady tree in the park. She looked over the horizon as she sat at the edge of a fairly large lake. Birds chirped merrily as they sung to one another and children laughed as they played in the park on the other side of the lake.

Dana closed her eyes relishing the thought of total peace. She rested on the large tree trunk as the soft summer breeze tugged gently at her hair and clothes. Her tears had since ceased and she couldn't figure out why she had started to cry in the first place. Yes she heard what Izzy said and was simply mortified when he had told Matt that. So you're not over him? Her conscience questioned. Yes I am. I've moved on…just like him. She answered back. Oh yes Dana, keep telling yourself that.

Dana quickly shrugged off the annoying voice and turned her gaze towards the lake, putting a hand on her still growing belly. "I wonder what it will be like?" She said rubbing her stomach in circular motions when she felt the need to sing something that might some how describe how she was feeling…Lost and alone.

Dana quickly thought of the perfect song, or at least one of her favourites that had a deeper meaning to her. She once again rested against the large tree trunk and began to sing softly to herself and her unborn child.

"You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in fields of gold
So she took her love to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold…"

*

Matt was now walking through the park, which was usually crowded at this time of day and year. He quickly searched the grounds until he came across Dana sitting under a tree with her hands on her abdomen. He quickly rushed over, but when he realized that she was singing hid on the opposite side of the tree, listening to her voice.

"…Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley?
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in fields of gold
See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold…"

He heard her sing softly as if she were the only person in the world. He listened to every word as it left her lips. Only after three years had he forgotten her voice?

"I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold…"

The song was that of someone longing to be held and maybe a promise to herself about her future. Even though it was an old song, probably a favorite of hers, her whole heart was being poured into it as if she had written it herself.

"Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold…"

Her voice had matured during the last three years. He barely ever watched her concerts, interviews or anything that would remind him of her or what he had done to her that day at the concert hall. He saw that pain her eyes when he told her those things. He just wished that she would've know that it was killing him to say those things. But that was in the past and he had since forgotten about her…or so he kept telling himself. That's why he dated as much as possible after she left, to forget her and start over.

Without noticing the stale branch at his feet Matt was about to walk away, not wanting the inevitable to happen, when he stepped on the small twig, causing it to snap and give away his position. Dana's eyes shot up and she quickly stood walking around the tree only to see Matt trying to pretend that he was walking away casually, as if not noticing her.

"Going so soon?" She asked her voice void of all emotion as she confronted him. Matt froze in his tracks and turned back around to face her. "Or are you just trying to get away from me?"

"Dana, I…" He said.

She lifted a hand to silence him. "No, I know what you're doing. You're trying to make things right by going all noble." Dana stated, her voice showing hints of the rage within her. "Izzy told you why I came back, didn't he! That's why you came after me! To see if everything was okay! Well it's not!" She said finally getting her anger off her chest.

"What are you talking about!" Matt yelled back. "Izzy didn't tell me anything! The only reason I came to find you because it was on impulse!"

"What…" Dana said quietly as she stared back at him.

"I...Don't you see Dana?" Matt said softly.

Dana shrugged off his comment and placed her hands on her ears but just as quickly she removed them and stood firm. "No I don't. I'm tired of this. My life has filled with nothing but pain, loss and sadness." She said as he listened to her, fearing what she might say next. "But when you told me that you were tired of being with me that took the cake. For the first time I had experience the worst kind of rejection ever…from someone I loved." She stated as a tear slid down her cheek.

The look on Matt's face then was one of sadness. He had done this too her! Why did it have to be that way when he broke it off with her? He could tell now that she would have gladly stayed in Japan…with him. He was about to say something when she stopped him again.

"Don't say anything." She said as her gaze became firm once again, but still the crystalline tears fell. She was about to make the worst decision of her life, but she didn't know it. "I don't want to see you and I don't want to know you…you've given me nothing but pain." She said and then walked away.

"Dana!" Matt said as he began to walk after her.

She suddenly turned towards him. "Stay away from me!" She said and then ran of into the crowd of people in the distance.

Matt stood in silence. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. Without even thinking he walked over to where Dana had just been sitting underneath the tree and sat down, thinking about what had just happened. His conscience laughed at him as he sat in his own world of bleakness. Nice going Matt. I've never scene something so pathetic. It laughed. She just told you that she loved you and what do you do, come and sit under this tree to sulk. Boo-hoo, poor wittle Matt got told off. You're pathetic! Why didn't you go after her!

Matt never answered the question that plagued his mind. Quite frankly, he didn't know why he hadn't gone after her.

*

Izzy stood quickly when he noticed Dana stumble through the front door. Her eyes were bloodshot and her cheeks red. She was crying. They both noticed each other's presence and Dana quickly ran over to Izzy collapsing in his outstretched arms. With her hands covering her face as to not get his shirt wet Dana cried. She didn't just sob softly, she let everything out.

"I hate him Izzy! I hate him." She said as she cried. Now slightly taller than she Izzy hugged her. "Why did I have to see him again? Everything was finally starting to go the right way and he came back! I hate him!"

Izzy simply stood there. This was his entire fault, if he had went after her none of this would have ever happened. He knew that one day they would meet again and it wouldn't be on the best of terms, but why did it have to be now? He sighed when she calmed herself down a bit. Brother and sister night will have to wait I guess. He thought to himself as he continued to hug his sister, like she was a porcelain doll that could be broken at anytime.

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tbc…

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I'm not sure what I have planned for the next one but it will have to do with the Fair and Izzy and Dana's 'Brother-Sister Night'. The song that Dana sung was a song called 'Fields of Gold' and was written by Sting. It's one of my all time faves. -Ducky