Nothing to Gain

Author's Notes: Read me!!! I am so very sorry! I must admit that I am a very big procrastinator and the fact that I'm almost done the second part of my original anime, Calidawn the Enchanted World. Gomen minna-san! I just hope it doesn't take me very long to write this chapter. Well I'll stop with the pleasantries, but just before I go some of you are probably wondering why any of the other DigiDestined haven't appeared yet…Just wait. They'll play out their roles in this story just like everyone else and hopefully I will get over this 'couples' block and write some couple scenes between any of the other Dig-iDestined and their boyfriend/girlfriend. I also have no clue what the legal drinking age is in Japan so, because it's my story, the age will be eighteen. (It's like 21 here, but I had a really good idea that couldn't be passed up!) Chao! –Ducky

Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon or the song that will be displayed at the beginning of this chapter. I do however own the concept of this story, as well as others, so this fic belongs to me…and what the Hell is that crawling up my wall! Eck! Bug! Wait a minute…it's the end of January and it's forty below! Why is there a really huge bug in my house!

Chapter 3: When I Grow Up

'Tryin' hard to fit among you

Floatin' out to Wonderland

Unprotected, God I'm pregnant

Damn the consequences…

When I grow up I'll be stable

When I grow up I'll turn the tables…' –Garbage

I'm such a complete and total idiot! Why would I ever expect to have her back in my life again, without her wanting to literally kill me? This is your entire fault you now that. I say to myself after I finally decide to get up from my spot under the tree where Dana had previously been sitting. I am now walking home. You're probably thinking I sound a lot like a computer or something electronic right now. Well that's thanks to the lovely Dana Izumi who shunned me. I did deserve what she said, after all I know for a fact that loud mouth himself told her about my other 'acquaintances' after she left.

What would you expect? I knew after what I said to her that day after the concert she would completely hate me. Actually I knew right at that moment from the look in her eyes that I had really hurt her. She probably wanted to walk over to me and give me a good kick… But the one thing I don't get is why was she accusing Izzy of telling me exactly why she came back in the first place? I don't see any reason for her to come back, except maybe to see her family, but Tai told me that she never once came back in the three years she was gone and that she made no attempt to contact them. And what did she mean when she said that everything wasn't all right?

I have to make you see Dana! I didn't want it to turn out this way, but because I'm a blundering idiot it did. I love you. None of the others could even compare to what I felt when you were around. I will make you see that this wasn't the way things were supposed to play out. I will not avoid you when I pass by you, but I won't call you either. I'll make you see that I still care.

*

One month later…

"Mom did you see my purse?" Dana called out to Mrs. Izumi who was in the kitchen preparing something for dinner that night. Dana, in the meantime was in her bedroom searching through her things for her purse, which held her credit card.

Dana suddenly spotted it in the back of her closet. She automatically went for it, but in her condition and because of her still growing abdomen she couldn't seem to get into a position that would allow her to bend down that far. "Screw this." She said finally standing up fully and giving up on the purse. She would have called for Izzy to come and help her but he wasn't home. He was out with the guys. "Great time to abandon me." She pouted.

"Did you find it dear?" Mrs. Izumi called as she finished up her cooking only to store it for later that evening. "Sora and the other girls will be here soon."

"Yeah I found it." Dana said rather annoyed at the situation when Mrs. Izumi popped her head in the doorway.

"Well then what's the problem dear?" Mrs. Izumi asked as she stepped into the room.

"I can't reach it." Dana said eyeing her mother, who in return gave her a questioning glance.

In a matter of seconds Mrs. Izumi clued in. "Oh! I'm sorry dear." She said as she walked over to the closet, picked up the purse and handed it to Dana, who had a rather far away look in her eyes. Mrs. Izumi took notice to this and immediately tried to sooth her fears. "Dana, look at me." She said to her adoptive daughter who had previously averted her eyes. "Everything will be alright."

"But how do you know that?" Dana stated. "I mean…I'm only eighteen years old. I'm not ready to be a parent. What if I screw up this kid's life or something? Maybe I should give up the baby."

Mrs. Izumi took her by the shoulders and looked her straight in the eye. "Dana, listen to me. You are going to be a wonderful mother to this child and you are not going to give it up." She said emphasizing her point to the fearful Dana. Dana looked at her as she continued giving the teen nothing but the truth. "You got yourself into this and your going to get through it and we are going to help you as best as we can."

Dana nodded, her eyes watering. She was about to speak when they both heard a knock at the door and then a voice calling, "Dana are you there?"

"I'll be right there Mimi!" She yelled walking out of her room as Mrs. Izumi watched from where she was standing as the girl left. She looked down in thought and then popped her head back up when she realized Dana had pooped her head back in the room. "You're going to be with me when I get my ultrasound right?"

Mrs. Izumi nodded. "I'll be there. I wouldn't want to miss it."

Dana nodded happily. "Bye mom!" She said as she ran out the door to join Sora, Mimi, Kari, Maki and Yolei on their way to the mall.

*

"So are you guys ready for the game?" Willis asked as the other guys as they finished packing up their sweat clothes after and afternoon of working out.

Joe, being the health nut that he is, insisted that they should all at least work-out once a week after observing how lazy they were becoming. Everything just seemed so boring, compared to their prior adventures in the Digital World. Nothing was the same. After their adventures everything seemed to go downhill. First Dana had left and had not bothered to contact anyone for the past three years; she had also managed to get herself pregnant, second was the fact that communication also seemed to be lacking between all of the Digi-Destined, and third was the fact that their leader, the one who would never let anyone down had finally fallen and could not get back up. Tai was a wreck when he found out he wouldn't be able to play soccer anymore. That's something else that Joe had insisted upon…Tai's physical therapy.

"You bet! I can't wait to see those guys in action!" Tai yelled energetically. Tonight were the soccer playoffs between England and Germany, and it would prove to be quite a game. "So who'd turn is it to house the festivities?"

"Mine." Izzy said rather solemnly. Everyone looked at him with 'oh' looks on their faces, which Izzy had noticed. "Don't worry." He said with a look of total stupidity on his face. "Everyone's gone so we have the place to ourselves. My parents are going on a weekend trip and Dana won't be home until late tonight." He stated when he noticed that Matt had started to fidget.

"Okay, good because I plan to get plastered tonight." Tai stated. "Since I can't do it very often."

"Nice, very nice Tai. I'm sure Sora would love to see you in a drunken stupor." Joe stated. "Besides, if there's going to be booze no one is driving." He said. "I know for a fact that you Mr. Kamiya like playing drinking games."

"What! I said I couldn't do it often so I like to make it worth the time." Tai stated rather irritated. "Besides, I'm not as stupid as the guy who took away my future career."

"Whoa, calm down you guys." Izzy said trying to keep the peace. "Don't worry, you can spend the night at my place. My parents are gone for the weekend and Dana is out with the girls, so she won't be home until late tonight." He said as they made their way to their cars. Since he did have his own vehicle, Dana let Izzy borrows hers, not needing it because the other girls would be coming to pick her up.

"Hey, does anyone know where Davis, TK and Ken are?" Joe asked throwing his gym bag into the back of his car, noticing there were three of them missing.

"Oh well, since they're under age they decided to have their own party at Davis' place." Matt said, finally speaking up, adding to the conversation. All the while he had kept to himself, questioning whether or not to go to Izzy's that night, but after much deliberation he thought it would be a good idea. After all, Dana wouldn't be there. "So, when do you want us to show up?"

"The game starts around seven, so be there around six or six-thirty." Izzy said jumping into the car. "Well see you guys tonight!" He said speeding off out of the parking lot.

"Bye!" They yelled out in unison.

*

Dana shifted uncomfortably in the chair she was sitting on. Right beside her were dozens of bags full of clothes and toys. The girls had insisted that she buy herself some new clothes for her pregnancy instead of just wearing overalls all of the time trying to hide it. It was evident now that she was definitely pregnant, but despite her protests the girls had managed to sucker into the clothes that were, according to Mimi, very stylish for expecting mothers. Dana could still hear their insistent voices ringing in her head.

"Common on Dana! It doesn't matter if your pregnant or not you can still look good." Mimi said motioning for Dana to try on a very pretty summer dress.

"She's right Dana. No offense, but the overall look doesn't suit you enough for you to wear it all of the time." Sora commented and then stated on a more serious note. "Everyone knows that you're pregnant anyway."

Kari coughed. "Well not everyone." She pointed out. Sora, who blushed at her mistake nodded in understanding.

"How long do you think you can keep this a secret of him?" Yolei questioned. "You know he's going to find out sooner or later. Why do you keep it hidden? It's not like what he thinks matters to you anymore…" She said and then noticed Dana's look. Someone else seemed to notice as well.

"It does bother you, doesn't it Dana?" Maki said. "You're still not over him."

"Of course I am. What are you talking about?" Dana protested automatically taking the dress from Mimi and moving towards the change room. "I think I will try this on. It is rather nice." She said and then shut the door to the change room.

Dana's thoughts lingered on the last words her cousin had spoken to her. "Your still not over him." Dana sighed in agitation. Her mother was still not there. Oh where is she? She thought to herself and then smiled when she noticed the familiar face in the doorway, but someone else was with her. "Mom…Aunt Chris, I had no idea that you would be coming."

"You're mother thought it would be nice for me to come." She said.

Dana nodded. "I was afraid that you wouldn't get here in time. I must admit, I'm kind of afraid. This is the first time I've ever done this." She said and then noticed the looks on bother her mother and her aunt's faces. "What?"

Her aunt was about to say something when a nurse appeared right behind Dana. "Miss Izumi, you may go in now." She said softly to Dana, who nodded in return.

Dana was about to walk off with the nurse when she suddenly turned back towards her mother and aunt. "Excuse me." She said to the nurse, who quickly turned around. "May they come in as well?" She motioned towards the two elder women.

"I'm afraid that only one other person can be in the room with you and the doctor." She said.

"Go ahead Suzanne." Dana's aunt said. "I'll come to the next one, besides someone has to watch her stuff." Christine said pushing the other woman towards her niece.

Suzanne nodded in thanks as she walked with Dana and the nurse down a hall and out of view.

The nurse led the two women down a hall with several doors to a room near the end. The door was open and on a stool sat a woman with short blue hair and bright green eyes. "Doctor Kido." The nurse said handing her the chart with all of Dana's medical information on it.

The woman flipped through the pages and a smile crossed her face. "Thank you." She said to the nurse, who then let Dana and Mrs. Izumi enter. She directed them in and then left the room to attend to her other duties.

"Well Dana, it's nice to finally meet you." Doctor Kido stated and held out her hand. "Joe has told me stories and so has his father for that fact. I'm gathering that your leg is much better."

"Your Joe's mother." Dana said shaking her hand.

Mrs. Kido nodded. "Yes I am." She said and then continued. "Shall we get started then?" Dana nodded. "Just hop up on that table and lay on your back."

Dana did as she was told and hopped up onto the padded table. "This isn't going to hurt, right?" Dana questioned as the doctor flipped switches all around her.

Mrs. Kido smiled. "No it won't dear. I just need you to relax. Now Dana, I need you to undo your overalls and lift your shirt a little so that I can get a clear picture of the baby." Dana nodded and undid the overalls, slipping the oversized pants so that they rested just below the navel of her large abdomen. She slid her shirt up so that is rested just below her breasts. "Okay this may be a little cold." The doctor said as she squirted a clear cream onto the younger girl's abdomen. Dana shivered and Doctor Kido let out a good-natured laugh. "You never get used to that stuff." She said as she placed a paddle on Dana's abdomen. She began to make circular motions, searching for the unborn child.

A smile came across her face when she finally located what she was looking for. "You see that blob right there Dana?" She said pointing to the screen across from her.

Dana turned her head towards the black and white screen. "Yes, I see it." She said.

"That's your baby Dana." Mrs. Kido said.

Mrs. Izumi, who was sitting down quickly stood up to join the doctor and her daughter, who stared mesmerized at the sight before her. For the first time in a long time Dana smiled a genuine smile as she stared at the picture before her. My baby. She thought to herself as a stray finger glided across the screen.

*

"Come on! Open net!" Tai yelled at the screen with a drunken slur as he watched the English team gain control over the ball. "Are you guys sleeping or something!" He yelled again. Even though Tai couldn't play the sport anymore he still watched it with just as much passion.

Everyone groaned when England finally scored. Tai, who had yelled with glee turned to Izzy, Willis and even Joe, who were all smashed with a questioning look. "Bottoms up!" He said merrily as he chugged half of his beer. Tai had made it so that every time England had scored a goal they would take a shot. Everyone else, except for Matt, went along with it not expecting England to win…

Now, after several scores and shots Tai, Izzy, Willis and Joe lay unconscious and snoring on the couch and floor. Popcorn and chips adorned the carpet and couch. Willis who lay sprawled out on the floor had a licorice stick up one of his nostrils, causing a whistle effect when he drew breath, this was punishment for passing out too early. Izzy lay on the couch, half on and half off. Joe lay on the floor in between Willis and the coffee table and Tai, lay happily dreaming of who knows what, with a half eaten licorice stick in his mouth.

Matt, who didn't really feel in the mood had only had a beer and was no sitting on the couch watching the television, trying to see if there was anything remotely good on at eleven o'clock at night. He finally settled on the music channel where a rather gothic looking rock video was playing. He was about to change the channel when he noticed a familiar red head with two other girls floating around in the air.

"Whoa." Matt stated when he noticed the way the Dana look in the video. He gathered that it was probably just made last year, since she looked more like a woman now than a fifteen year old. Like the other girls, her clothing wasn't very modest. They all wore black and their make-up was equally black. The make-up made Dana look more like a ghost because of her somewhat pale skin. Her hair was also very long with black streaks in it. "She definitely changed." He said as he sat in silence watching the rest of the video.

*

Dana sighed opening the front door. After getting a clean bill of health for both her and the baby, Dana had gone out for dinner with her mother and aunt. She was sad when she found out that her mother had to leave rather early to join her father because they were going out of town for their anniversary. Dana seemed equally happy to have found out that she would be giving birth to a baby girl. Mimi was right. She thought to herself as she placed the many bags on the floor so that she could shut the door.

After locking the door she made a mad dash for her room, wanting nothing more than to get the many shopping bags that she had had to carry around all day. She was glad she took Mimi's advice and bought both genres of baby clothing…but most of it was girls'. She quickly discarded the many bags onto the floor near the closet of her room, only to head back to the kitchen, she was famished.

Matt had noticed the door open and shut and then someone walking down the hall towards the bedrooms. He quietly got up and made his way to the door that separated him and the others from the kitchen, all that while trying not to step on or trip over someone while trying to get there.

He opened the door and quickly made his way over to the sink. He had made up the excuse to himself that he was thirsty, but he already knew who had just entered the house. He removed a glace from the cupboard and turned on the water, leaving it run so that it would be cold. When he was satisfied with the amount of water in his glace he shut off the tap and began to drink the water, as if he were someone lost in a desert that had stumbled upon an oasis. His body suddenly went rigid when he heard a gasp from behind. He slowly turned around knowing who it was.

"What are you doing here?" Dana questioned rather angrily. "Where's my brother?"

"Izzy, Tai, Willis and Joe are all passed out on the floor in the living room because we were invited to watch a soccer game and they got drunk." He stated, staring her directly in the eye. Dana crossed her arms over her abdomen. She looks a lot bigger than when I last saw her. Matt thought to himself. "Go see for yourself if you don't believe me." Matt said, actually hoping that she would stay where she was, hoping that she hadn't lost all hope in what was left of their relationship.

"Fine." She simply stated before turning on her heel and opening the door to the living room, exposing the four unconscious men.

"Am I right or not?" He questioned, a little sarcastically.

Dana shook with furry and she turned around to meet his gaze and for a split second Matt was actually contemplating to run away. "Why are you still here then!" She nearly yelled.

"Because I thought I ought to keep an eye on them, like a good friend should..." He stated and then continued. "And not leave without saying a word."

"You above all should know why I left!" Dana said.

"But for three years Dana, without ever contacting anyone…most importantly your family." He stated going a little further than he should have.

"I said I had my reasons! I don't answer to you or to anyone else for that matter anymore! I…" Dana said but then stopped when she felt a sharp pain run through her abdomen. She just shook it off as if nothing had happened, until another came sending her to her knees.

Matt noticed and hurried over to her, kneeling beside her figure. "Dana what's wrong?" He asked, somewhat frantically.

Dana's face cringed in pain as another came, forcing her to release a cry. "It too early." She said in raspy breaths. This is not happening…please don't let this happen! She yelled to herself mentally.

"Too early for what?" Matt asked looking down at Dana, who's eyes had began to droop. "Dana?" He questioned just as she passed out. "Dana!" He said frantically shaking her. "Hang on." He said lifting her form into his arms and making his way to his car as fast as his feet would carry him.

*

"Doctor Matsumoto please report to pediatrics."  A female voice sounded over the intercom as Matt sat patiently waiting. It seemed as if every time he was around Dana she seemed to end up in the hospital. "Doctor Matsumoto to pediatrics." The voice repeated. Matt looked at his watch. "Almost one." He said and then sat back, trying as hard as possible to stay awake. He had tried several times before to contact Dana's parents, but it seemed that where they were they could not be reached. He had no clue where her aunt and uncle were and her brother along with three more of his friends were passed out on the floor at her house. "This is just great." He said to himself as he leaned over so that he could rest his head in his hand.

"Ahem, Mr. Ishida." Came a gentle, but gruff voice in front of him. Matt stood up automatically realizing the presence in front of him. "I'm Doctor Hamano," The woman in front of him said. "The girl you brought in, Miss Izumi I believe, suffered from a stress related attack. But both of them should be fine."

Matt gave the doctor a questioning look before speaking. "What do you mean by 'both of them'?"

It was the doctor's turn to give Matt a questioning glance. "Miss Izumi is pregnant and suffered from a form of stress related premature labor pains." Doctor Hamano said and then noticed Matt's extremely shocked expression.

This has got to be some kind of sick joke. He thought to himself, trying to process the new information. I mean…not Dana. Wait a minute…the mood swings, the 'everything is not okay', her weight…I should have picked up on it sooner.

"Mr. Ishida are you alright?" The doctor asked.

Matt nodded. "Can I see her?"

The doctor nodded. "Down that hall, room 234." She said pointing down the long corridor. "We will need to keep her for just a few more hours and then she can be released."

"Thanks." Matt said and then made his way down the hallway. When he was finally in front of his destination he stared at the closed door for a few moments before opening it to reveal Dana, once again in a hospital bed.

Dana noticed the new presence in her room, but she simply stared out of the window. It was a single room, she was thankful for that. She needed space right now. The doctors had told her that it would be best that she go somewhere more relaxing as soon as possible after her release. Finally she had an excuse to use that beach house in Kyoto that she had purchased with her millions. She had always loved Kyoto. The house, though wasn't like those gargantuan celebrity houses that you see on Entertainment Tonight. It was small and simple. Basically it was a place to relax.

"Thanks for bringing me here, but you don't have to stay." Dana said turning her gaze towards Matt, who seemed lost in his own little world. He was starring at her, possibly as if she had just murdered someone. What's his problem? She thought to herself.

"How are you both doing?" He asked silently with complete innocence in his voice.

Dana froze and then managed to say; "What are you talking about?"

"The baby Dana." He said rather harshly. Dana, by now was sitting up, the evidence of her pregnancy clearly showing through the thin blanket that was draped over her. Dana cast her glance downward not being able to make eye contact with him anymore. "Do the others know?" He asked, but she didn't answer. "I'll take that as a yes…damn it Dana why didn't you tell me?" He asked, while frantically pacing around the room.

"Because it was on a need-to-know basis and you," She emphasized. "Didn't need to know." Dana stated trying to calm herself. She would not let him get to her. Not this time. Not when the baby could be in danger if she got too stressed out.

Matt, who was finally able to stand still, was trying to find the words to say but none would come. Oh who saw this one coming? Raise your hand! The annoying voice inside his head laughed, mocking him. You know Matt, it can't get any worse that this right now so why don't you just say something? He thought to himself and then said the first thing that came to mind. "Who's the father?"

Dana's mouth hung open and her face was red with both embarrassment and anger. She clutched the blanket that covered her so tight that her knuckles were turning white. "How dare you ask such a question!" She yelled.

I think it just got worse…smooth move man. The voice said again, in a fearful tone.

"Well what do you want me to say?" Matt stated and the continued rather sarcastically, "Wow, your pregnant Dana…I never expected that you'd be a mother so soon! Well congratulations!" He said, a little more cold-hearted than he would have liked to.

Dana's eyes began to water and quiet tears crept down her face. "You asshole." She said quietly but continued. "Well why don't I just give you all of the necessary details. I'm now a total of five months pregnant expecting the birth of my first child at the age of eighteen. The father doesn't even know that he is expecting his first child because he was too drunk to stick around and the father of this child is of no concern of mine, or yours or anyone else's for that matter. Now, if you don't mind leaving me alone, I would like to get some rest so that I can be released. Now leave!"

Matt was utterly speechless at this point. His chance of salvaging what feelings she had left for him were probably gone. She had said what he was and he believed it, because he had acted like a total asshole. Stupid mouth of mine…doesn't know when to quit! He yelled mentally as he was walking out of the room…it was definitely better if he left her alone right now. Just as he was walking out of the door he uttered one last sentence to her. "For what it's worth…I am sorry." He said and then shut the door.

"So am I." Dana said to herself as fresh tears crept down her face as she cried herself to sleep.

*

To be continued…MWA HAHAHA! I'm really sorry this was so late, lots of homework and junk to finish, ya know. Well anyway, I have no clue when the next chapter will be out…probably not anytime soon, but March break is coming so I'll hopefully be able to get some serious writing in. Oh yeah and the legal age for drinking here is 19, so I'm only a year off…lol! -Ducky