A Letter To Alex…Love Liz
AUTHOR: Sunnycouger
E-MAIL ME AT: sunnycouger@yahoo.co.uk
RATING: As low as it gets without being horizontal...we'll say PG for arguments sake but probably lower.
AUTHORS NOTE: This is REALLY important people so please read!! This is based on rumours about future episodes but none of it is set in stone. If you don't want to know what these rumours are then I suggest you DON'T read this story. I don't want any of you to be spoiled.
DISCLAIMER: You all don't honestly think that I own any of this do you? Roswell and all its characters are property of Melinda Metz and Jason Katims..I just take them out to play sometimes...
DISTRIBUTION: If you want to put this story on to another site (please do!) will you please, please, PLEASE let me know first. Thanx!
SPOILERS: Based on rumours about the episodes Cry Your Name and It's Too Late And It's Too Bad. Last chance to not read it if you don't want to know!
Hi Alex,
Well, this is certainly new. I don't usually write to other people- everything I write is usually in my journal...this feel's wrong in a way. Of course it feels wrong because I should be able to call you up and tell you this but since I can't do that...this will have to do. How are you? Things here are going ok, you know...stumbling along - life goes on right? That's what they say- no matter how bad things are you have to keep going. If you go far enough the pain eventually..it's supposed to stop. That's right isn't it? Do you know how far I'll have to go Alex for that to happen? It's hard to see any of us lasting that long. It's hard to see me lasting too much longer...but I will. I promise you I will.
I keep asking myself why? You know I'm a science geek- you and Maria made fun of me often enough about that. And like all science geeks- I like answers...I need answers for this Alex. Why did it happen? Why did you have to leave? What did you mean with the message you left me? Why was it important? Will you ever tell us? Everyone thinks I'm crazy thinking that you left something important behind, I don't talk to them about it anymore. I'll work it out though Alex..I swear to you I will. I don't know why I find it so important; that's a lie, I do know. I think..no. Think is the wrong word, I know it's crazy. But I feel..I hope that if I work this out then it will all be over, and it will be some...misunderstanding. God, that sounds lame. What I mean is that if I work on this and it turns out to be some crazy evil alien "hoax"...you'd come back..right? It wouldn't be real and you would be here. That's possible isn't it? Oh god...seeing it on paper...I sound so..pathetic. It sounds like I can't accept it..I guess I can't.
It's just, this doesn't feel like it was supposed to happen..there must be another reason this happened.
My mom and dad miss you. My dad says that he feels weird not seeing you sitting at the counter waiting on Maria and me to finish our shifts..he feels weird? He should try being Maria or me. Hey, do you remember that time when we were..I don't know 11 or 12 and we "broke into" the Crashdown in the middle of the night? You, Maria and me decided to have a mid night snack when my parents were in bed. We couldn't work anything but we wanted a milkshake so we decided that it would be easy 'cause we had seen it done so often. I remember after a dozen failed attempts my mom and dad came down looking for burglars and found us with these extravagantly flavoured milkshakes all over the place.... and all over us. We were determined we could create a new flavour, do you remember? Maria had banana and strawberry, you had chocolate and strawberry and I tried a vanilla and strawberry. Uggh, I still feel ill thinking about it...we were all sick for days and we were forced to clean the whole place everyday after school for a week...I can't believe me and Maria still decided to work there after that. Come to think about it, I'm not surprised that you stuck to soda after that, it should have put us all off milkshakes for life.
The Crashdown...the place we spent most of our time...it's not the same with you not here. We haven't really eaten at there in a while...it's still too strange. It's too strange for all of us.
Hey, do you want some good news? Well, kinda good news. Tess and me have been getting on a lot better recently. She..has actually been really sweet to me and Maria. She..it's hard to hate her now. Even though I know she's still trying to get her claws into Max...I think. I don't know, sometimes I see her with Kyle and I see how good they are for each other and then she gives Max this look that shows how much she wants him. I don't know what she's thinking; maybe you've got a better insight. What does Tess Harding want in life? Do you know that Max and me got back together, are you surprised? I umm, I told him about the whole "future" thing. He took it well..I think. It feels so right with us together..it's so hard to explain. He, he makes me feel invincible, like he won't let anything hurt me again. I really needed to feel like that. He's still worried about Isabel; she didn't take it well. She's seemed a lot better recently though, but every now and then you'll look at her and she'll just be "different". Then a second later and she'll look fina again. You'd be able to tell when it was an act though wouldn't you? You could see right past her defences...she trusts you with her heart. She hasn't really spoken to anyone else about how she's feeling. She doesn't realise that we can't help her if she doesn't let us in.
Maria had a hard time dealing with it at first. Michael actually helped her through it..they two are solid at the moment. Finally. Nothing's going to come between them in a while...hopefully. She wouldn't be able to handle it I don't think. Truth be told, I don't think I've been much of a friend to her recently. She's needed me and i..I haven't really been around for her. I'll fix that soon though, life's too short for regrets..right? That's what I keep telling myself. That's why I told Max the truth…if I lost him and he didn't know I would hate myself. I sometimes think that maybe, if I hadn't changed things like I did, everything would be good. If I had been honest with Max earlier or if we had taken our chances with the cards we had been dealt without trying to change things..maybe, just maybe things would have been different. Don't you think? I wish I could turn back time, I would have done so much differently. I would never have lied to you..EVER. I would never have jeopardised our friendship for anything. For anyone! I would have made sure you knew how much I needed you…you always made me feel better. You always made us all feel better. Who's going to do that now? No one will ever be you!
Dammit, I better go it's nearly time for school. The thought of that place is horrible; I can't wait until summer comes. I need to escape from here for a few weeks…I think we all do. Where do you think we should go? Anywhere but Vegas again! I'm still recovering from the first trip! I've got to go but I still have so much I want to say, it's just hard to find the words. I'm sure you know. Don't you?
I have to go Max is here. I promise you I'll find out what you wanted me to know Alex and...I know I didn't really treat you like it all the time but you really were one of the most important people in my life. I really miss you. I always will!
Everyday.
Forever.
I'll speak to you soon, look after yourself!
Love you forever
Liz
xxx
AUTHOR: Sunnycouger
E-MAIL ME AT: sunnycouger@yahoo.co.uk
RATING: As low as it gets without being horizontal...we'll say PG for arguments sake but probably lower.
AUTHORS NOTE: This is REALLY important people so please read!! This is based on rumours about future episodes but none of it is set in stone. If you don't want to know what these rumours are then I suggest you DON'T read this story. I don't want any of you to be spoiled.
DISCLAIMER: You all don't honestly think that I own any of this do you? Roswell and all its characters are property of Melinda Metz and Jason Katims..I just take them out to play sometimes...
DISTRIBUTION: If you want to put this story on to another site (please do!) will you please, please, PLEASE let me know first. Thanx!
SPOILERS: Based on rumours about the episodes Cry Your Name and It's Too Late And It's Too Bad. Last chance to not read it if you don't want to know!
Hi Alex,
Well, this is certainly new. I don't usually write to other people- everything I write is usually in my journal...this feel's wrong in a way. Of course it feels wrong because I should be able to call you up and tell you this but since I can't do that...this will have to do. How are you? Things here are going ok, you know...stumbling along - life goes on right? That's what they say- no matter how bad things are you have to keep going. If you go far enough the pain eventually..it's supposed to stop. That's right isn't it? Do you know how far I'll have to go Alex for that to happen? It's hard to see any of us lasting that long. It's hard to see me lasting too much longer...but I will. I promise you I will.
I keep asking myself why? You know I'm a science geek- you and Maria made fun of me often enough about that. And like all science geeks- I like answers...I need answers for this Alex. Why did it happen? Why did you have to leave? What did you mean with the message you left me? Why was it important? Will you ever tell us? Everyone thinks I'm crazy thinking that you left something important behind, I don't talk to them about it anymore. I'll work it out though Alex..I swear to you I will. I don't know why I find it so important; that's a lie, I do know. I think..no. Think is the wrong word, I know it's crazy. But I feel..I hope that if I work this out then it will all be over, and it will be some...misunderstanding. God, that sounds lame. What I mean is that if I work on this and it turns out to be some crazy evil alien "hoax"...you'd come back..right? It wouldn't be real and you would be here. That's possible isn't it? Oh god...seeing it on paper...I sound so..pathetic. It sounds like I can't accept it..I guess I can't.
It's just, this doesn't feel like it was supposed to happen..there must be another reason this happened.
My mom and dad miss you. My dad says that he feels weird not seeing you sitting at the counter waiting on Maria and me to finish our shifts..he feels weird? He should try being Maria or me. Hey, do you remember that time when we were..I don't know 11 or 12 and we "broke into" the Crashdown in the middle of the night? You, Maria and me decided to have a mid night snack when my parents were in bed. We couldn't work anything but we wanted a milkshake so we decided that it would be easy 'cause we had seen it done so often. I remember after a dozen failed attempts my mom and dad came down looking for burglars and found us with these extravagantly flavoured milkshakes all over the place.... and all over us. We were determined we could create a new flavour, do you remember? Maria had banana and strawberry, you had chocolate and strawberry and I tried a vanilla and strawberry. Uggh, I still feel ill thinking about it...we were all sick for days and we were forced to clean the whole place everyday after school for a week...I can't believe me and Maria still decided to work there after that. Come to think about it, I'm not surprised that you stuck to soda after that, it should have put us all off milkshakes for life.
The Crashdown...the place we spent most of our time...it's not the same with you not here. We haven't really eaten at there in a while...it's still too strange. It's too strange for all of us.
Hey, do you want some good news? Well, kinda good news. Tess and me have been getting on a lot better recently. She..has actually been really sweet to me and Maria. She..it's hard to hate her now. Even though I know she's still trying to get her claws into Max...I think. I don't know, sometimes I see her with Kyle and I see how good they are for each other and then she gives Max this look that shows how much she wants him. I don't know what she's thinking; maybe you've got a better insight. What does Tess Harding want in life? Do you know that Max and me got back together, are you surprised? I umm, I told him about the whole "future" thing. He took it well..I think. It feels so right with us together..it's so hard to explain. He, he makes me feel invincible, like he won't let anything hurt me again. I really needed to feel like that. He's still worried about Isabel; she didn't take it well. She's seemed a lot better recently though, but every now and then you'll look at her and she'll just be "different". Then a second later and she'll look fina again. You'd be able to tell when it was an act though wouldn't you? You could see right past her defences...she trusts you with her heart. She hasn't really spoken to anyone else about how she's feeling. She doesn't realise that we can't help her if she doesn't let us in.
Maria had a hard time dealing with it at first. Michael actually helped her through it..they two are solid at the moment. Finally. Nothing's going to come between them in a while...hopefully. She wouldn't be able to handle it I don't think. Truth be told, I don't think I've been much of a friend to her recently. She's needed me and i..I haven't really been around for her. I'll fix that soon though, life's too short for regrets..right? That's what I keep telling myself. That's why I told Max the truth…if I lost him and he didn't know I would hate myself. I sometimes think that maybe, if I hadn't changed things like I did, everything would be good. If I had been honest with Max earlier or if we had taken our chances with the cards we had been dealt without trying to change things..maybe, just maybe things would have been different. Don't you think? I wish I could turn back time, I would have done so much differently. I would never have lied to you..EVER. I would never have jeopardised our friendship for anything. For anyone! I would have made sure you knew how much I needed you…you always made me feel better. You always made us all feel better. Who's going to do that now? No one will ever be you!
Dammit, I better go it's nearly time for school. The thought of that place is horrible; I can't wait until summer comes. I need to escape from here for a few weeks…I think we all do. Where do you think we should go? Anywhere but Vegas again! I'm still recovering from the first trip! I've got to go but I still have so much I want to say, it's just hard to find the words. I'm sure you know. Don't you?
I have to go Max is here. I promise you I'll find out what you wanted me to know Alex and...I know I didn't really treat you like it all the time but you really were one of the most important people in my life. I really miss you. I always will!
Everyday.
Forever.
I'll speak to you soon, look after yourself!
Love you forever
Liz
xxx