* Chapter9*
Jo walks into the study and sits down on a sofa as she opens up a hardcorvered notebook
and starts to write.
May 18,2001.
*******************
A few days ago I got a call from Bruce Gaines,Mrs.G or Edna,Whatever you want to call
her is dying.I cant belive it,She was like a mother to me now im loosing her.This year as
you know has not been the best year for this family.
Frist back in November My father died.He died from cancer.I loved him so much how could he just die.I miss him so much.I still have my mother.Thank God.
Then a few weeks after that Rick started to hit us.That really turned things around.I had
just gotten over the loss of my father then Rick starts in.Well he only hit us once that month
if you want to count a week as one month.
Then about two months ago I had a miscarriage.That just killed me,Almost.I really did try
to kill myself because I could not take the pain of what was going on.Rick hitting and hurtting me.Then going after the kids.Callie hates him so much that she said that if he lays
a hand on her or Rosemarie that shes going to fight back harder then shes ever fought before.RoseMarie loves her dad and just thinks that when he hits her that its her fault not
his.I hate her thinking like that becase its his fault.The miscarriage did not kill me as much
as Rick almost did when I told him.
Now someone else I love is dying.I cant take this anymore I dont want to go on with my
life anymore but I have to for Callie and RoseMarie.If I did not have them I would have
killed myself years ago.I thank God eveyday that I have them.They'er my lifesavers.Every
time I want to die I look into their eyes and Know it would hurt them too much if I killed
myself.I know that the court would give them to their father and that Rick would hurt them
and might blame them for my death and I just cant do that to my girls.
Well Bruce wants my kids and I to spend part of the summer with them and Talk Mrs.G/
Edna into getting treatment.I know that I will make her get treatment I am not loosing two
people to cancer its not happening.
The worse part of this is that I have to spend Time with Blair,Natalie and Dorothy'Tootie'
I thought after I moved here that I would never have to even hear their names again and
here I am running off to New York to meet them.At least we get to stay in a hotel.Callie
cant wait to go.She said she'd go anywhere to get away from Rick.RoseMarie wants to
stay with Rick but I told her she had to come.We leave friday afternoon,Two days of driving is going to kill us but we are spending the yearly trip money on hotel's and on
food.Callie said we could sleep till noon and fake being sick or say that I have an important phone call to make so we only have to stay for five hours or less.She got her
evil but very smart thinking from me.
I hope that I win in court.I love RoseMarie and I cant let Rick take her away and hurt her.
I wish that this never happened that Rick never got drunk that night.Its amazing one drink
can do to a person.
When Rick brought the girls home last night I saw a bruise on RoseMarie's arm.I asked
Rick what happened.He told the girls to go upstairs then he said that she fell.Then he told
me that if I ever hurt the girls that he would kill me.He gave me something so I would not
forget.A black eye.
Later when I asked Callie what happened to RoseMarie she said that she 'Fell' right on
the edge of the coffee table.Callie said that she foght back and punched Rick in his stomach.Then he slaped her on the face leaving a small brusie that could easily be coverd
up by some make up.
I wanted to die right then and there.I could not stand to see Rick hurtting my babies.I wantted to go in to my closet and get out the gun but then I looked into RoseMarie's eyes
and saw that she need me to protect her.I cant take it anymore I just can't.
-Jo Bonnor
As Jo signed her name she stated to cry.Jo buried her in her hand as she starts to shake
as she cries harder.
Jo walks into the study and sits down on a sofa as she opens up a hardcorvered notebook
and starts to write.
May 18,2001.
*******************
A few days ago I got a call from Bruce Gaines,Mrs.G or Edna,Whatever you want to call
her is dying.I cant belive it,She was like a mother to me now im loosing her.This year as
you know has not been the best year for this family.
Frist back in November My father died.He died from cancer.I loved him so much how could he just die.I miss him so much.I still have my mother.Thank God.
Then a few weeks after that Rick started to hit us.That really turned things around.I had
just gotten over the loss of my father then Rick starts in.Well he only hit us once that month
if you want to count a week as one month.
Then about two months ago I had a miscarriage.That just killed me,Almost.I really did try
to kill myself because I could not take the pain of what was going on.Rick hitting and hurtting me.Then going after the kids.Callie hates him so much that she said that if he lays
a hand on her or Rosemarie that shes going to fight back harder then shes ever fought before.RoseMarie loves her dad and just thinks that when he hits her that its her fault not
his.I hate her thinking like that becase its his fault.The miscarriage did not kill me as much
as Rick almost did when I told him.
Now someone else I love is dying.I cant take this anymore I dont want to go on with my
life anymore but I have to for Callie and RoseMarie.If I did not have them I would have
killed myself years ago.I thank God eveyday that I have them.They'er my lifesavers.Every
time I want to die I look into their eyes and Know it would hurt them too much if I killed
myself.I know that the court would give them to their father and that Rick would hurt them
and might blame them for my death and I just cant do that to my girls.
Well Bruce wants my kids and I to spend part of the summer with them and Talk Mrs.G/
Edna into getting treatment.I know that I will make her get treatment I am not loosing two
people to cancer its not happening.
The worse part of this is that I have to spend Time with Blair,Natalie and Dorothy'Tootie'
I thought after I moved here that I would never have to even hear their names again and
here I am running off to New York to meet them.At least we get to stay in a hotel.Callie
cant wait to go.She said she'd go anywhere to get away from Rick.RoseMarie wants to
stay with Rick but I told her she had to come.We leave friday afternoon,Two days of driving is going to kill us but we are spending the yearly trip money on hotel's and on
food.Callie said we could sleep till noon and fake being sick or say that I have an important phone call to make so we only have to stay for five hours or less.She got her
evil but very smart thinking from me.
I hope that I win in court.I love RoseMarie and I cant let Rick take her away and hurt her.
I wish that this never happened that Rick never got drunk that night.Its amazing one drink
can do to a person.
When Rick brought the girls home last night I saw a bruise on RoseMarie's arm.I asked
Rick what happened.He told the girls to go upstairs then he said that she fell.Then he told
me that if I ever hurt the girls that he would kill me.He gave me something so I would not
forget.A black eye.
Later when I asked Callie what happened to RoseMarie she said that she 'Fell' right on
the edge of the coffee table.Callie said that she foght back and punched Rick in his stomach.Then he slaped her on the face leaving a small brusie that could easily be coverd
up by some make up.
I wanted to die right then and there.I could not stand to see Rick hurtting my babies.I wantted to go in to my closet and get out the gun but then I looked into RoseMarie's eyes
and saw that she need me to protect her.I cant take it anymore I just can't.
-Jo Bonnor
As Jo signed her name she stated to cry.Jo buried her in her hand as she starts to shake
as she cries harder.