To all those who loved me I have nothing to say. I know I have loved, have been loved and may yet love again but none of that really matters now. I have avenged her spirit and now she may rest. I have saved her child and he is at peace. All that is left is me, the missing link, and the end of the line. When I am gone the story will be over, the game will end but I do not care. When I looked into his shining green eyes, so much like hers, I thought I saw him smile at me and right then I knew that I had to go on. We understand each other now and I long for the day when we can talk about things. I need his forgiveness still, my dear sweet child. He is my child, no matter what Hojo may have believed. We are so alike he and I. Even in our choice of lovers it seems. I guess that is why I am here sitting once again on the roof of a rotting house. I can see the lights in his house from here. Sometimes he comes to the window and looks outside but can't see me. I wonder what he is searching for now.
I can see why Sephiroth loved him when he was younger. I am the only person who knows about the deepest love and affection they once had for each other. As we sat on the Highwind waiting for Holy he told me everything; late night walks, stolen smiles and kisses under the moon. That was the first time I touched him with a gentle arm around his shoulder. And as it seemed like the world was ending I held him in my arms as he cried for his lost love. That was a year and a day ago. Last night we all got together and sat in Cosmo Canyon watching the stars. I sat beside him as I had done a year before. Maybe it was childish of me to hope I could hold him again. He told us, last night, that he loved her and was going to marry her.
It's hard to describe how that feels. In the tiniest second I felt every emotion it was possible to feel. Love, anger, hate, joy and betrayal. Betrayal most of all. I honestly thought he would love my silver-haired son forever. As least if not him then he should have loved me. I honestly could have killed him in that moment. But then he looked at me and smiled. It was a sad smile, a smile very much like the last look Sephiroth gave me and now I understand. He knows, he knew all along and there is something so strong holding him away that he has betrayed his own heart in order to hide it. It isn't love for her of that I am certain. Does he regret the past? Does he think that any love for me would be repeating the mistakes of his teenhood? Or does he just want to be normal? If it is any of those reasons I have already forgiven him but I cannot forget and I cannot move on. Oh sweet Lucrecia have I finally found a love stronger than ours? I am destined to be this way am I not, destined to lose any love I could find. Oh yes I am sure I could love again and that others will love me but always I will see his face in my mind and it will always be a face smiling at me with my arms around him. Eyes filled with tears that I feel now. He knew. Look again out the window little one. Look out for the one who waits in the darkness for you. I love a man and his name is Cloud Strife and until I hold him in my arms once more the story will not be over, and the game will never end.
I can see why Sephiroth loved him when he was younger. I am the only person who knows about the deepest love and affection they once had for each other. As we sat on the Highwind waiting for Holy he told me everything; late night walks, stolen smiles and kisses under the moon. That was the first time I touched him with a gentle arm around his shoulder. And as it seemed like the world was ending I held him in my arms as he cried for his lost love. That was a year and a day ago. Last night we all got together and sat in Cosmo Canyon watching the stars. I sat beside him as I had done a year before. Maybe it was childish of me to hope I could hold him again. He told us, last night, that he loved her and was going to marry her.
It's hard to describe how that feels. In the tiniest second I felt every emotion it was possible to feel. Love, anger, hate, joy and betrayal. Betrayal most of all. I honestly thought he would love my silver-haired son forever. As least if not him then he should have loved me. I honestly could have killed him in that moment. But then he looked at me and smiled. It was a sad smile, a smile very much like the last look Sephiroth gave me and now I understand. He knows, he knew all along and there is something so strong holding him away that he has betrayed his own heart in order to hide it. It isn't love for her of that I am certain. Does he regret the past? Does he think that any love for me would be repeating the mistakes of his teenhood? Or does he just want to be normal? If it is any of those reasons I have already forgiven him but I cannot forget and I cannot move on. Oh sweet Lucrecia have I finally found a love stronger than ours? I am destined to be this way am I not, destined to lose any love I could find. Oh yes I am sure I could love again and that others will love me but always I will see his face in my mind and it will always be a face smiling at me with my arms around him. Eyes filled with tears that I feel now. He knew. Look again out the window little one. Look out for the one who waits in the darkness for you. I love a man and his name is Cloud Strife and until I hold him in my arms once more the story will not be over, and the game will never end.