This story about Carter's life after the stabbing. In my imagination Lucy was pregnant but they managed to save the baby. The main meaning with this story is how Carter would have handled the situation if he'd responsibility for a child including the death of Lucy and pain.
I usually don't do Carter/Lucy fics, I'm more of a Carol/Doug type so it's basically a Carol/Carter fic. BUT! The only relationship that's between Carter and Carol is friendship. Remember that, this is not a romantic story! Please forgive me for my spelling mistakes, I'm not from a English speaking country.
The Rich Man's Sorrow
Peter Benton walked into the ICU. A nurse was checking up on Carter.
"Hi, how's he doing?"
"Up and down. He had some bleedings but Romano was able to stop it. We'll be checking him from time to time to make sure there's no more bleedings".
"Ok, thanks. I'll be sitting here for a while looking after him", Benton said and the nurse left.
As the hours went by Benton was watching Carter who was lying in his bed. Peter could feel his tiredness but he had too much on his mind to sleep. Suddenly he heard a little noise.
"It hurts".
Benton turned around. "Carter! Carter! Can you hear me?" He looked into two eyes that was filled with pain. "Help me. . . ", his voice was very weak.
"Have you any pain?"
"Pain. . . pain. . . ."
"Ok, I'll give you some more morphine. You'll soon feel much better. Carter, do you remember what happened?"
Carter closed his eyes. "Pain. . . . blood. . . . Lucy. . . . blood. . . .pain. . .". "Calm down, Carter. Everything is going to be ok".
"No!"
"Peter!" Romano entered the room. "Hi, Romano".
"How's he?" Peter walked over to Robert. "He's still very groggy. How's miss Knight?"
"She died on the table 20 minutes ago". "Oh man. . .", Benton said and looked at John who started crying and screaming. "Oh no! Oh God!"
"Hey, hey, Carter. Easy, calm down. You have to be careful with your wounds". Benton sat down by the bed and took Carter in his arms. Suddenly he knew how much he cared about the young man who only was a boy when they first met.
Over at Doc Magoo's were the others sitting. They were waiting for news about Lucy and Carter. "They've been working for a while now. Shouldn't they be finished soon?" Abby said and took a slurp of her coffee. She didn't notice that Luka was looking at her. He'd almost been staring at her the whole day.
'She's so cute', he thought and smiled at her, and when she smiled back he felt like in heaven in spite of the terrible stabbing Carter and Lucy had been a victim for.
"I hope everything is ok", Jing-Mei said.
"Corny and Pete will fix them up in no time", Malucci joked trying to lighten up everybody".
"Corny?" Haleh asked. "Ok. Corday then. I was trying to get you guys to smile. What have happened is so terrible that I can't even put words on it but I can't keep going being sad. I'm sorry but I can't. I know I goof around a lot and make jokes almost all the time but. . . "
Lydia, Haleh, Chuny and the rest could see a few tears in his eyes. "I'm not capable of handling sad things like this. Inside I feel helpless and scared, and all I want is to run away from everything and forget. Even though it doesn't seem like it, I'm very sensitive and right now I'm scared to death. Scared of loosing people that I love. Carter's on of my best friends and Lucy. . . We can't loose them. . ". Chuny took her hand in hers.
"You're right. We can't loose anybody, but that's part of life. Without sorrow and loss there's no life". As Chuny said those words Abby took Luka's hands into hers. She could see that this was tearing him apart, not just because of the stabbing but of what he'd experienced in his life in Croatia. His eyes were wet and his hands were shaking.
"Dave's right. We can't just sit here and feel sorry for ourselves. Of course we can talk about Lucy and Carter but just not as they already are dead. Within we hear something new should we talk about the good part. How good we are working together and how good friends we are besides work. That count too".
Meanwhile at the hospital Elizabeth almost had swallowed the fact that she wasn't able to save Lucy. She sat on the floor outside the OR thinking when Romano came. "Hi, Lizzie".
"Hello, Robert. Have you told him?"
"Carter?"
Elizabeth nodded.
"Yes, I told him. Peter was there and he said he was still a little groggy but as far as I understood it, he knows about miss Knight".
"How did he take it?"
"Na. . .you know. As he was expected to take it. It must be awful to loose someone you love. How's the baby?"
"Oh, I completely forgot!" She rose and started walking with Romano to the Paeds ICU where the baby was.
Right after Elizabeth had realised that no matter what she did would give Lucy her life back, she'd told Mark who now was at Doc Magoo's with the others. When he told them that Lucy had died while Carter would live, they got sad again, and Luka took Abby in his arms.
"What about the baby? He asked. "The surgeons were able to get her out right away. She'll be fine", Mark said.
"Does Carter know about this?" Haleh rose without taking her eyes of Mark.
"I'm not quite sure what he knows and what he doesn't know but let's go back now. Although we're closed to traumas there are still some "small" patients and we can't abandon them because of this".
The next day Carter awoke early. He paged a nurse who came running.
"Could you please get dr. Benton.?"
"Is there anything wrong, doctor?"
"Just get him, ok!!?" The nurse left and a few minutes later Peter came. "Hi, Carter. How are you doing?"
"You've got to help me in that wheelchair".
"Where are you going?" "I'm sick of not knowing! I want to see my daughter!"
"Ok, ok. But I'm not letting you go all by yourself. You're stuck with me".
Peter helped Carter in a wheelchair and took him to the Paeds ICU where the little baby was sleeping peacefully in her crib.
"Look at her. . . ", John couldn't take his eyes of the child. "I've never seen a more beautiful baby girl in the world".
Benton looked down and smiled at his friend. "Yeah, she's gorgeous, man. Do you want me to pick her up for you?"
"No", Carter said, "Let her sleep. You're taking me down stairs!"
"Carter, I don't think that's a good idea. . . ".
"You can't stop me. If you don't want to help me, I'll go by myself. I want to see Lucy".
I usually don't do Carter/Lucy fics, I'm more of a Carol/Doug type so it's basically a Carol/Carter fic. BUT! The only relationship that's between Carter and Carol is friendship. Remember that, this is not a romantic story! Please forgive me for my spelling mistakes, I'm not from a English speaking country.
The Rich Man's Sorrow
Peter Benton walked into the ICU. A nurse was checking up on Carter.
"Hi, how's he doing?"
"Up and down. He had some bleedings but Romano was able to stop it. We'll be checking him from time to time to make sure there's no more bleedings".
"Ok, thanks. I'll be sitting here for a while looking after him", Benton said and the nurse left.
As the hours went by Benton was watching Carter who was lying in his bed. Peter could feel his tiredness but he had too much on his mind to sleep. Suddenly he heard a little noise.
"It hurts".
Benton turned around. "Carter! Carter! Can you hear me?" He looked into two eyes that was filled with pain. "Help me. . . ", his voice was very weak.
"Have you any pain?"
"Pain. . . pain. . . ."
"Ok, I'll give you some more morphine. You'll soon feel much better. Carter, do you remember what happened?"
Carter closed his eyes. "Pain. . . . blood. . . . Lucy. . . . blood. . . .pain. . .". "Calm down, Carter. Everything is going to be ok".
"No!"
"Peter!" Romano entered the room. "Hi, Romano".
"How's he?" Peter walked over to Robert. "He's still very groggy. How's miss Knight?"
"She died on the table 20 minutes ago". "Oh man. . .", Benton said and looked at John who started crying and screaming. "Oh no! Oh God!"
"Hey, hey, Carter. Easy, calm down. You have to be careful with your wounds". Benton sat down by the bed and took Carter in his arms. Suddenly he knew how much he cared about the young man who only was a boy when they first met.
Over at Doc Magoo's were the others sitting. They were waiting for news about Lucy and Carter. "They've been working for a while now. Shouldn't they be finished soon?" Abby said and took a slurp of her coffee. She didn't notice that Luka was looking at her. He'd almost been staring at her the whole day.
'She's so cute', he thought and smiled at her, and when she smiled back he felt like in heaven in spite of the terrible stabbing Carter and Lucy had been a victim for.
"I hope everything is ok", Jing-Mei said.
"Corny and Pete will fix them up in no time", Malucci joked trying to lighten up everybody".
"Corny?" Haleh asked. "Ok. Corday then. I was trying to get you guys to smile. What have happened is so terrible that I can't even put words on it but I can't keep going being sad. I'm sorry but I can't. I know I goof around a lot and make jokes almost all the time but. . . "
Lydia, Haleh, Chuny and the rest could see a few tears in his eyes. "I'm not capable of handling sad things like this. Inside I feel helpless and scared, and all I want is to run away from everything and forget. Even though it doesn't seem like it, I'm very sensitive and right now I'm scared to death. Scared of loosing people that I love. Carter's on of my best friends and Lucy. . . We can't loose them. . ". Chuny took her hand in hers.
"You're right. We can't loose anybody, but that's part of life. Without sorrow and loss there's no life". As Chuny said those words Abby took Luka's hands into hers. She could see that this was tearing him apart, not just because of the stabbing but of what he'd experienced in his life in Croatia. His eyes were wet and his hands were shaking.
"Dave's right. We can't just sit here and feel sorry for ourselves. Of course we can talk about Lucy and Carter but just not as they already are dead. Within we hear something new should we talk about the good part. How good we are working together and how good friends we are besides work. That count too".
Meanwhile at the hospital Elizabeth almost had swallowed the fact that she wasn't able to save Lucy. She sat on the floor outside the OR thinking when Romano came. "Hi, Lizzie".
"Hello, Robert. Have you told him?"
"Carter?"
Elizabeth nodded.
"Yes, I told him. Peter was there and he said he was still a little groggy but as far as I understood it, he knows about miss Knight".
"How did he take it?"
"Na. . .you know. As he was expected to take it. It must be awful to loose someone you love. How's the baby?"
"Oh, I completely forgot!" She rose and started walking with Romano to the Paeds ICU where the baby was.
Right after Elizabeth had realised that no matter what she did would give Lucy her life back, she'd told Mark who now was at Doc Magoo's with the others. When he told them that Lucy had died while Carter would live, they got sad again, and Luka took Abby in his arms.
"What about the baby? He asked. "The surgeons were able to get her out right away. She'll be fine", Mark said.
"Does Carter know about this?" Haleh rose without taking her eyes of Mark.
"I'm not quite sure what he knows and what he doesn't know but let's go back now. Although we're closed to traumas there are still some "small" patients and we can't abandon them because of this".
The next day Carter awoke early. He paged a nurse who came running.
"Could you please get dr. Benton.?"
"Is there anything wrong, doctor?"
"Just get him, ok!!?" The nurse left and a few minutes later Peter came. "Hi, Carter. How are you doing?"
"You've got to help me in that wheelchair".
"Where are you going?" "I'm sick of not knowing! I want to see my daughter!"
"Ok, ok. But I'm not letting you go all by yourself. You're stuck with me".
Peter helped Carter in a wheelchair and took him to the Paeds ICU where the little baby was sleeping peacefully in her crib.
"Look at her. . . ", John couldn't take his eyes of the child. "I've never seen a more beautiful baby girl in the world".
Benton looked down and smiled at his friend. "Yeah, she's gorgeous, man. Do you want me to pick her up for you?"
"No", Carter said, "Let her sleep. You're taking me down stairs!"
"Carter, I don't think that's a good idea. . . ".
"You can't stop me. If you don't want to help me, I'll go by myself. I want to see Lucy".