From: lonewolf biteme@yahoo.com
To: sassychick southerngal@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: How was it?

Hey there!

How did your business trip go? Not that I want to pry in your private affairs or something -but you said something about there being some risk involved when we chatted last week. I know we agreed that we wanted to keep our ,,real lives" out of this - but I couldn't help but worry a bit... As I've said before - you don't have to worry about me. I'm pretty experienced in my line of work, I know exactly what I can do... But it's a good feeling to know you care, so don't feel as if you're intruding or something.

Sorry, don't mind my rants - but this guy can drive me absolutely crazy! I know you're not one of these macho guys, so don't take it personally...
Rant away, girl! Sometimes one needs to vent - and telling someone is better than wrecking your room, believe me! *g*
Well, about me not being a macho - there are probably quite a few people out there who think that I'm stuck in stone age. But just because a guy is no pansy doesn't mean he's stupid or something... (I'm thinking of one guy who works with me here - if you get right down to it he's my boss, but I'll be d**ned if I let myself be ordered around by someone who irons his underwear! - See, now *I'm* venting, hope you don't mind...)

I remember you asking me if I've ever been in love - and no, it's not too private! After all we've been chatting for some time now...
That's true - but privacy is still important. But just so you know - you can ask me anything you want, too!

Well, to answer your question - I'm not sure if what I feel for him (yes, the annoying macho guy!) is love. People keep telling me that I only have a crush on him - like two thirds of the girls I know. I guess it's possible that they're right - perhaps it's only physical. I've always thought that being able to talk about everything is as much part of a relationship as kissing and stuff - and he's just not much of a talker...
Most people say that if you're not sure than it's not the real thing... I'm not sure about that - sometimes it's hard to tell whether what you feel is friendship or more - but normally that kind of guy is not worth much. Believe me, many men think having a good time is enough. I used to think that myself - but lately I've begun to doubt that that's all there is to it...

With you, it's different - perhaps because the physical (which makes me very nervous as you know) is completely unimportant. All we do is talk - well, write... and I like it! But it also shows me what's missing in my relationship with him - we hang out but we hardly ever talk about important stuff. And I don't know if it's because that's just the way he is or if it's because he doesn't want to talk with *me*.
I feel different with you, too - it's much easier to tell what you're thinking when it's not face to face! I remember you telling me about having ,,skin issues" - but you didn't want to explain and I won't pry if you don't wanna talk about it. But just so you know - if you really love someone the physical really is only a small part. I mean, hugging and kissing and stuff is fun - but it's nothing more than sports if you don't feel love... (Now I feel like one of these love doctors! *g*)

Keep me posted about macho guy (I've already begun to dislike him, sorry!) and what else you feel like ,,rambling" about...

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