From: sassychick southerngal@hotmail.com
To: lonewolf biteme@yahoo.com
Subject: In the middle of the night...

For some reason I can't sleep so I've decided to write to you. I know it's my turn anyway (sorry for taking so long!), but I had to write loads of papers for college applications and stuff. I'm not sure yet if I really do want to go to college and where, but since all my friends are going I pretend to be excited about the whole thing as well... I don't think anyone has noticed that it's fake.

Oh, I'm pretty sure we'd have ended up talking anyway - it's not as if there were a lot of people to choose from... Or were you interested in ,,keepmewarm" and ,,nakedfun" (or whatever those sickos called themselves) that were trying to get you to ,,cyber" with them? I just *had* to rescue you, hadn't I? *g*
*You* rescue *me*? I got the distinct feeling that ,,hotbabe's" conversation was starting to make you uncomfortable so you decided to use me as a cover up and hide in the private chat room! lol But we were sure lucky to find each other - I wouldn't have thought that there were that many wackos in the Alaska forum!

Serious, I really hope that you'll be healed one day and will be able to lead a normal life - and if not I'm sure you'll make the best of it!
I'm trying to! And on some days I think there might be hope, but on others I feel awful and nothing works... Oh well, that's life, I suppose. And luckily enough I have friends who stand by me! (As this terribly nice guy I met online... *hint* lol)

Hey, I didn't know that you like hockey! What's your favorite team? I enjoy watching a good game myself - I don't really care what team, as long as it's Canadian! (I'm from Canada as you might remember and I enjoy seeing my people beat the US teams to pulp! *g*) You're not the only one I know cheering whenever American blood flows. What is it with you Canadians? ;)

Yeah, I guess, it's only fair... Actually what I wrote earlier about treating someone you like like a bud... That's me, pretty much. Well, it wasn't always that way - for a long time I just, you know, enjoyed female company at every chance I had. But this girl... There are a lot of reasons why I shouldn't be having those kinds of feelings for her. I'm trying very hard to convince myself that casual is what I want but it's not really working... That's one of the reasons why I work a lot lately, so I don't have to be around her so much.
Hope that satisfies your curiosity - if not, ask away...
That's a very dangerous thing to say, my friend! *g*
Seriously, I'm flattered that you're so open - and I think your girl is one lucky lady! I'll give you some advice (since even if my experience *is* limited I've had some in *that* area, I think most women have...) - in things like that listen to your heart, not your head! (Now *I* sound like some love doctor! lol) Your head just piles reasons why not to do something in front of you until you don't see what's important anymore - that this girl is special and deserves to know the truth! So, go and tell her - because even *I* can see that you like her a lot!

Okay, enough of advice from an oh-so-wise girl who has read too much teen mags - don't want you to laugh your ass off! And to someone who listens to classical piano music in the evening I must seem like a kid... The concert was absolutely wonderful, btw - it *was* the piano version and I loved how different each ,,picture" sounded!

Take care!

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