A
A/N
= *grins happily* I had a block and couldn't decide how to write this chapter…
but I'm finally over it! *cheers* You don't know how happy your reviews make
me =) You're amazing, all of you,
and I thank you for all the reviews and mails I'm receiving *teary eyed*
A/N
2= The people of Gaia use Gil as money. I shamelessly took the name from the
Final Fantasy series, since I couldn't come out with anything better… ^^;;
A/N
3= *blushes terribly* Please no comment on my Dai-obsession, okay? Please? *blush*
I know I take every occasion to describe him as handsome as a God but, ehy…
there must be a reason if everyone in this fic loves him! ^^;;
A/N
4 = with Kelly's permission, Miyako's quoting her in this fic. "See the
light" is something Kelly said in one of her reviews to this story… and I
just =had= to use it. ^^v
Disclaimer
= Digimon and its characters are going to be mine someday (-- actually
believing it)… right now… they aren't. ^^
Couples
= In this chapter… well, Daiken, Hikasuke (and before you get angry at me, NO,
Daisuke did NOT give Hikari her ring.) Hikari-SURPRISE!, Taisuke and… dare I
say it? Kensuke? Finally…? Uhm… sort of. You'll see.
Warning
= PG-13 for what can be found in later/previous chapters.
Heart
of Steel – part 3
~*~
Hikari's POV~*~
I
wake up to the sound of Daisuke's soft snoring. I look around groggily, and
find him sprawled on my bed in a very inelegant way, tangled in a heap of dirty
clothes and white sheets. I muffle a giggle as I sit up, my laughter immediately
turning into a tired yawn. I can't resist the urge to steal a glance at him
out of the corner of my eye, and that's exactly what I do, smiling softly when
he murmurs something in his sleep and burrows under the covers. I can't help
but giggle, for this reminds me too much of our childhood, when Daisuke and me
would spend every stormy night in his bed or mine, his arms wrapped protectively
around my curled form.
And
Taichi would find us and yell, enraged, embarrassed and a lot of other things I
couldn't understand at that time. But me and Dai knew him better than that,
and with a little bit of wheedling we'd get him into letting us sleep with him
in his bed, so that we would curl in each others arms, safe from the scaring
rage of the storm. Soon enough that stopped to be a rite reserved for stormy
nights to become a tradition, something that would happen every night… until
Taichi thought me and Dai were too old to sleep together and do =just= it.
As
if Daisuke would ever think about that…
He's
too naïve for his own good. He's so innocent and oblivious of the ways life
works, I'm sure he wouldn't know what sex was even if I… or Takeru… or
anyone else would jump on him, tie him on the bed and actually =show= him.
//Bad
thoughts, Hikari…// I scold myself silently. //You're
such a bad, bad girl…//
Once
again I'm giggling, covering my mouth with my hand to cover the sound and not
wake him up. Something cold presses over my lips and I move my hand to admire
the ring shining in the lazy sunlight.
"Yup."
I whisper. "An very bad girl… an =engaged= bad girl…" Thirteen and
engaged. It's a tradition of our country to marry young. When I was littler I
complained about this, but… when there's love, there's everything that's
needed to bond two souls together, whichever age they're.
Slipping
off the bed reveals to be a hard task, due to the heap of covers I'm trapped
in. Somehow I manage to make it from the bed to the door, though, and once there
I can't suppress a sigh of relief. Opening the door as quietly as possible, I
try my best to avoid making any noise lest I wake him, and slip on the dimly lit
corridor.
The
first night he spent here after coming back two days ago, he has cried himself
to sleep, and since then his nights has been plagued with nightmares. He has
refused to tell me what's wrong, but Takeru told me it's about that boy that
comes from Slayelth –Ken- and… this Ken and Daisuke spending two days and
nights holding each other.
Naked.
Okay.
I =know= Daisuke did it to save him. I know. Ken's life was in danger and Dai
had to help him. I know. And that's not what troubles me, really. What
troubles me… is that despite Daisuke's obvious affection, Ken seems to enjoy
ignoring him. And… the fact Daisuke cried… troubles me beyond belief.
I've
know Daisuke since childhood and never, *never*, I saw him cry. He was always
the brave one, the proud and confident little Dai that lit up my whole day. My
little knight with the shining armour.
I
let out an involuntary little sigh as I stroll downstairs, retiring to the
bathroom for a good many minutes whereupon I methodically ready myself for the
day ahead.
Thereafter
putting some clothes on, I reach the kitchen and busy myself at the stove. I've
missed these little things while Daisuke was away… looking at his peacefully
sleeping face… cooking him his favourite dainties… My eyes narrow against
the bright morning sunshine of Aria, a sigh trusting against my lips. My gaze
falls on my ring, electric purple glimmering like an admonition on my white skin.
Remember Kari, it seems to be whispering to me, when you'll be
married you won't…
"…'morning."
I turn around, and find Daisuke leaning on the doorframe, yawning and passing a
hand through his spikes. We smile softly at each other, but when he notices what
I've been staring at, he folds his arms in front of his chest, his smile
shifting to a smirking grin.
"If
you keep staring at it, your fiancée will have to buy you a new ring, 'cuz
you'll have consumed this one!"
"Oh,
shut up!" I warn, spraying him with the water that's dripping from my
fingers. He laughs, holding his palms open in a gesture of surrender. But when I
stop my attack, I'm no sure who's the one that lost… if he lost against my
attack, or if I lost against his cuteness. He's in the process of growing into
a beautiful man, but still has that touch of immature childishness in him. He's
so adorable…
An
ancient pain blossoms in my heart to weaken my smile. When I'll be married…
I'll have to kill this feelings I've for him… to say goodbye to my first
love…
Sensing
my eyes water, I swirl around quickly, once again focusing on cooking his
breakfast.
"Smells
wonderful, what's that?" he asks, peeking from behind my shoulders to my
busy hands.
"Your
favourite." I reply with a shrug. "Sit down." I feel his chin dig in my
shoulder a couple of times as he nods, and then he moves away, moving his arms
from around my waist.
"Taichi?"
Again I shrug, hardly stifling a sigh.
"Somewhere
readying the city for the meeting. He's called all the other leaders of the
resistance, they should arrive today to meet…" I bit my bottom lip, wincing.
Oh, no…
"Ken…"
He whispers, and it's both amazing and horrifying to hear how his voice
saddens. How his tone softens, filling with the glassy echo of unshed tears. I
turn around, watching him as he carefully walks up the window, his gaze loosing
itself in the far distance.
"Dai…
what happened…?"
He
says nothing, but nods at the window, gesturing me to come closer. I immediately
comply, jogging up to him to stare at what he's staring to… and my breath
catches in my throat. Under a shower of rosy petals, surrounded by the baby
grass, shielded in the umbra of a huge tree there are… Miyako. And Ken. And
they're chatting, laughing gently, and occasionally I can see Miyako patting
Ken's shoulder affectionately. Breathless, I snuggle up close to Dai, feeling
his warmth like a blanket over me. My chest contracts painfully, and I've to
swallow the sudden lump searing my throat.
"Why…
why does it hurt…?" It seems difficult for him to talk, as if he can't get
enough air. I look up at him and, as if reading the question crossing my mind,
he shakes his head, biting his bottom lip. His eyes linger on the chatting pair
longingly as he speaks, his voice hushed, his tone soft. "I can't describe
this… nor explain it. It just… hurts."
"What…?"
I ask slowly, and he shrugs.
"Seeing
Ken happy with her. They've been together since we came back to Aria, you
knew?" I shake my head no and he mirrors my action, slowly. "I saw them.
From my window."
"That's
what troubles you?" I blink, almost relieved, my voice barely above a whisper.
"I know Miyako better than that, Daisuke. She's caring and sweet, the
kindest girl I've ever met. She isn't trying to seduce him or anything.
He's alone, in a foreign country… and she's trying to help him. You should
trust her. I do."
"I
do too, but… It hurts that Ken's so happy with her… even if it's good to
know he's happy. I want him happy. Look." He gestures toward the pair, his
voice a soft tune of awed delight. "Look at Ken."
Obediently,
I lift my eyes to look at him. He's smiling, his pale cheeks flushed with
laughter. "He's beautiful when he smiles, isn't he?"
"Yeah…"
I breathe, and Daisuke nods fervently, his voice even softer when he speaks
again.
"I
wish… I wish I could make him so happy." He sighs, and when I look up at him
there's a smile on his face, yet a distinctly distant expression clouds his
eyes, making them less sparkling than I remembered. "I'd be so glad if I
could make him so happy…" His dreamy expression falls down, crumbled under
the weight of a frown. "But I can't, because he hates me… and it hurts."
"He…?"
I blink, shocked, and Daisuke looks down at me, eyes begging for answers I'm
not sure I'll ever have.
"Why?!
Why does he hate me so much?!"
"Dai…
Dai I don't know… no one can know what's inside his heart and mind if not
Ken himself…" Daisuke shakes his head, shoulders sagged.
"Do
you know why does it hurt, then? Why… why do I want to be with him? Why being
far from him pains me? And why being with him seems the only thing that eases
this pain? Why…" he licks his lips, and I slowly begin to put the pieces of
the puzzle together, frowning in thought. "Why… do I dream of him? Why can I
feel his hands, smooth and warm, over my skin, when I close my eyes? Why… I…
want to touch him? To have every inch of my skin explored by his fingertips…
and mouth…?" An almost horrified expression crosses my features as he keeps
explaining, his cheeks flushing when he whispers the last statement. Daisuke…
seems to… "Why… every time I see him it's like my body's on fire? Wet
and hot all together? What does it mean?! Why does he make me feel like this?"
I
back away, mouth ajar. I can't explain what I'm feeling now. I'm
horrified, maybe. Surprised, disorientated. Saddened, perhaps. I'm… surely
shocked. If I gave up my feeling for him, it was because I thought Dai, who
seems to love everyone, would never be able to love one of us in that special
way… and now Daisuke's… Daisuke's… I shake my head, shocked and
confused all at once.
"Daisuke."
I whisper. "You're the only one that can understand your feelings, I can't
explain them, for I'm not you." His shoulders sag and he lowers his head,
nodding slowly. "But if being with him makes you happy, then fight with all
your mind to just be with him." His head snaps up, and his wide eyes quickly
fills with hope. I smile at him, clasping my hands behind my back. "I want to
see you happy Daisuke." I breathe out. "That's why I'm telling you this.
You don't need to figure out what these feeling are, to follow them. You've
a talent for working your way into a person's soul. Be yourself Dai, and Ken
will soon like you. Be with him is the only way you have to figure out your
feelings."
Daisuke
blinks, eyes wide in awe, before smiling widely. The one he's giving me is the
kind of innocent smile he used to have when we were younger, far different from
the almost smirking grin he's learned from Tai and that he's been proud to
show lately. He nods fervently, trapping me in a hug. And when he moves
away, the hope that never left his eyes is now burning, untarnished and
blinding, in their cinnamon-hued depths.
"Thank
you." He says, before picking me up to swirl me around, switching place with
me when he puts me down, and dashing full-speed toward the front door.
"Where
are you going?!" I yell to his retreating form.
"Training!"
He yells back excitedly, darting outside madly. I run up to the door, leaning
against the doorframe. "I haven't had action for way too much! I need
some!"
"But
Dai!" I whine, waving my fists in the air in a hopeless, angry action.
"You've been hurt! And you haven't eaten yet! Not to mention you didn't
take the Angel Du--"
"I
don't need that thing! Tell Jyou to store it for someone who needs it! I'm
fine!" He turns around, grinning widely. "I'm gonna go training at the
Rainbow Cascades either if you like it or not!" Then, he swirls around,
rushing toward the lake. I blink several times, his words slowly sinking into my
brain.
Daisuke…
training… at the cascades… this means…
"Oh
my…" I whisper to my self. My face's hot, the sure indication of a bush,
and I suck a sharp breath in, closing my fingers around the cold doorknob in
search of support.
//
…Daisuke training at the waterfall… oh, these are bad thoughts, Hikari…
such bad thoughts… Daisuke training at the waterfall… Hikari, you're
getting married in two months!!! But… Daisuke's training… at the
waterfall… Hikari… you're an engaged girl… Daisuke training at the
waterfall… shirtless… or even… oh, Hell!!//
"Daisuke,
wait for me!" I yell, running after him for all I'm worth. Hell, I may be
about to get married, but Daisuke training is a sight no one with some sanity
left would miss…
~*~
Ken's POV~*~
This
place… is wonderful. It took me less than 24 hours to fell in love with its
quietness, its endless plains, its shining sun and sweet-smelling air. Once we
left Slayelth territory, a strange nostalgia has set in and I'm feeling the
effects of it, now. Looking around at Aria and the warm blue sky above it, I
can't help but think back to my home. The sky is darker there, the air dryer
and colder despite my home is located in the southern part of our continent, but
the feeling of warm familiarity that wavers in the breeze is just the same.
Nostalgia
and a mixture of bittersweet memories play in my mind, and my smile saddens for
a heartbeat. I long to go back home…
…but
I wouldn't go back there for anything.
"What
are you thinking about…?" I shift my gaze, aligning it with soft hazel eyes.
Miyako's smiling at me, playing with a loose strand of grass. "A Gil for
your thoughts."
"I'm
thinking… about my home." I reply sincerely. It seems I can't lie to her.
Miyako has been the first one to be really friendly with me… even if…
thinking about it, Motomiya too has been…
"Stop."
She reaches out to slap my shoulder. I massage it with a look of confusion
crossing over my countenance, and she raises one finger to point at me. "You
were frowning all of a sudden." She explains with a shrug, reaching down to
finger the hem of her skirt. After a long pause, she raises her gaze again,
looking at me sideways. "Love problems?"
I
blink at her, incapable to do nothing but blink for what feels like eternity.
"What?" I squeak rather unceremoniously, at last. She crosses her arms,
puffing out her cheeks indignantly.
"You
gotta spill out what's troubling ya, Ken." She says. I shake my head,
honestly confused, and watch in amazement as her scowl fades into a smile.
"But I think I know who has made you frown."
"W-who…?" I reply, licking my lips cautiously. I don't understand
what she's trying to do, but her next words shock me to the very core of my
being.
"Daisuke."
I
blink, inhaling sharply, reeling backward as if hit by a whiplash. Miyako's
grin doesn't even waver as she watches, quite amused, as I back away, moving
on my hands and feet. I soon find my back pressed against the tree that's been
providing us shelter from the blazing sunlight, and once there I hug my arms
tight.
"That…
that *freak* as nothing to do with me or my thoughts! And I wouldn't even
dream of loving…" I pause, not even able to say it. To my horror, Miyako
chuckles, a rather predatory smirk blossoming over her lips.
"I
never related my conviction of you having love problems with my fact I though
you were thinking about Daisuke, Ken." I gasp, looking around as if in search
for help. "What made you think about… being in love with him?"
"I
never said that." I know I'm blushing. Out of rage, of disgust, of embarrass
at being mocked or at falling in such simple trap so easily, I'm not sure, but
I know I'm blushing rather clumsily. The amused look in her eyes tells me so.
"Why,
aren't you the one that first came to the supposition you could love Dai?"
"I
said I could =never= love him." I reply, pouting like a child. "Don't
twist my words around, I don't like it."
Miyako
laughs whole-heartedly, waving her hands with a grin. "This doesn't change
the fact you =were= the one that first thought about you being in love with
Dai." I open my mouth to reply, but she waves me to silence, still grinning.
"No point in denying it, Ken. You know it's true." I grunt, drawing my
legs closer to my torso and resting my folded arms over my knees, hiding my chin
between my hands. Miyako shakes her head and sinks backwards on the grass until
she's propping herself up on her elbows, her gaze loosing itself in the
sapphire brilliance above. "Ken… Daisuke's special, why can't you see
it?"
"I
can't see what all of you seems to find in him!" I rage, whipping my head to
the other side. "He isn't… good-looking. He has skin and hair of the same
colour as dirty mud. And he's… we can't even say his beauty is in the
inside, for I find him childish and stubborn."
"Daisuke's
sweet." She replies slowly. "He's kind, handsome and strong. He's proud
and untamed, a rebel soul with a golden heart. You can't deny his eyes burn
with a mesmerizing force. Or the way his skin almost glistens in the sunlight,
can you?" Another grunt bounces out my throat and Miyako shakes her head,
closing her eyes. "When are you going to see the light, Ken?"
"What
light?" I reply, stubbornly. "You all here seem to be in love with that boy.
I just can't see what you find so appealing in him."
Miyako
lets out a chuckle, and I gulp, realizing it holds the stunning tremble of
tears. I turn around, looking at her as she runs one hand through her lavender
hair, complying the action slowly, almost thoughtfully. "Love is a sad
hide-and-seek game, Ken. Remember that." She looks up again, sighing at a
passing cloud. "You can't always have what you want. It's difficult to
find happiness in this dying world, but why deny it to yourself when you're
one of the few lucky ones that find it? Don't deny happiness to yourself Ken.
You deserve more than self-imposed loneliness."
"What
are you saying…?" I inquire softly, reaching out to touch her.
She
grasps my hand in hers, reaching out with her other hand to touch my shoulder.
"You're scared because Daisuke's gay, right?"
I
nod, unable to deny the truth. "Whoever likes people of their same gender is
sick. They scare me."
"Ken?"
She says slowly, squinted eyes pleading me for… something. "I'm getting
married in two months." I cast a quick glance to the ring glimmering quietly
on her right ring-finger, nodding absent-mindedly. "To a girl." I look up at
her and nod. "Ken? I'm lesbian."
I
blink. Then I take my time to look around before blinking again, when finally my
eyes meet hers again. "…so?"
Miyako's
whole attitude changes drastically. She cocks her head to one side, taking a
long, narrow-eyed look at my face. A grin that might be slightly malicious,
hadn't it been for the wacky delight setting her wide eyes on fire, spreads
across her face, and I find myself wondering if I should be worried. But as he
grin grows wider and more mischief fills her now narrowed eyes, I wonder how
impolite it would be if I bolted.
"Ken-kun!"
She cries in a high-pitched voice, and I involuntarily
twitch in response. Her grin turns almost scary and I'm suddenly reminded of
what I'm expected to do. Turning pale, I struggle free of her grasp and touch,
backing away with a blush.
But
she just holds up a finger, shacking it left and right with a grin.
"Uhn-uhn,
Ken. Too late." I groan, massaging my forehead intently, the grass wavering
around me turning suddenly to the most fascinating show I could ever meet with.
She must find my embarrassment amusing, since she reaches out to slap me on my
back. "Scared of gay people, uh? Nice try."
"Miyako…"
I mutter, shacking my head slowly. "This is different. You're a girl. The
fact you're lesbian almost makes me feel all the more comfortable around
you."
"Uh…?"
She blinks owlishly down at me, her hand freezing in mid-air. "Wha--?"
I
duck my head, dark hair swinging down to shield my face in a straight curtain.
"You won't ever touch me… with second intentions, if you are."
Her
eyes are growing huge, I don't need to look at her to know that. My gaze's
fixed, mesmerized on my hands folded ashamedly on my lap. I sense her discomfort
grew, hand in hand with my own, as she shifts, her hand dropping lifelessly on
the ground.
"You're
scared… of… being touched?" I merely nod, daring to cast a glance up at
her. "But… you've no problems with me touching you, Ken… if only gay
boys trouble you, then…" All of a sudden, her fingers tighten around my
shoulder tightly, nails digging in the flesh almost to the point of pain,
forcing me too look up at her. I surrender at last, feeling trapped, and watery
indigo drifts and meets worried brown. "Ken, have you been…?" I duck my
head once again, shacking it fervently. She lets out a sigh, and I can feel ever
muscle of her body sag with relief. "Thank Goddess."
Here
she takes a pause, and I can feel her burning eyes on my shivering form. "What
happened, then…?" I hope my mouth, moving it slowly, but no sound comes out.
I shake my head and try again, only to feel the all too familiar sensation of
tears burning the back of my eyelids. I… I'm not ready to say it. I'm…
even weirder that Daisuke and Takeru are. Far more dangerous. I could easily
become like my brother… minister Joan… my father, and all of them…
I've… I'm… I…
I
snap my head upward, hair swirling around my face to face a shocked Miyako. I
force my mouth open, hoping she can understand… that she can help… when a
girl's scream catches my attention. I immediately swirl toward the source of
noise, and meet with the sight of a strawberry haired girl waving at us, with a
blinding smile grazing her lips. She throttles gracefully toward us, her heels
clicking almost musically on the ground as she approaches. A dance of pink veils
accompanies each move of what seems to be a young dancer, and she places her
hands on her chest as she finally reaches us, bowing her head slightly before
clasping her hands behind her back in an almost shamed gesture.
Her
angelical features lights up with a smile and her cheeks flush when she grins
down at us.
"Miyako!!"
She squeaks happily, moving a stray of pink from her forehead. "Daisuke and
Taichi…"
"What
are you doing there?!" A red-haired girl shouts from the main street of the
village, waving almost angrily at us. She pauses, and pulls at the hem of her
skirt, before looking up at us, her cheeks puffed out in a look of annoyance, of
angry hurry. "Daisuke and Taichi are fighting at the Rainbow Cascades!"
"F-fighting…?"
I choke out, looking around in confusion. My eyes fall on Miyako's face and
I'm startled to see the mix of fear and excitement revealing over her
features.
"Are
you sure?!" she squeals, a sound between a cry and a shout of joy leaving her
mouth. The redhead grins, waving at us to follow. The pink-haired dancer bows
quickly and picks up her long skirt to rush after the other girl.
"What's…
going on…?" I ask, licking my lips, mouth the least bit dry.
"You
heard 'hem." Miyako replies, scrambling up to her feet almost goofily.
"Taichi and Daisuke are fighting at the Rainbow Cascades…" she dusts
herself off, offering me a hand to stand up. I rise to an upright position
without her help, looking around at the excited crowd gathering to the eastern
part of the village.
"And
is this… good?" Miyako stands, with a long look behind her at me and
Wormmon, who came back from his exploration trip to tug at my pants.
She
has this look… that puzzles me. Maybe it's the type of expression. Maybe it
was the way her fists clench, the way her teeth clash as she draws her lips back
in a grimace halfway between a grin and a scowl.
"You'd
never imagine." She answers with a sly grin, her features settling on a look
of madcap delight, as she pulls on my sleeves. I let her drag me downhill,
hearing the roar of the crowd escalate at a sickening quick pace. We almost roll
downhill, and Wormmon begins to scurry after us, his many feet clicking on the
muddy streets.
Miyako
has stopped running after she nearly ran into a tall raven-haired man, but she
isn't walking slowly, either. Wormmon has gotten that pause as a chance to
jump in my arms, and I hold tightly onto him as Miyako increases her pace again.
She keeps pushing people aside rather forcefully, yelled curses escaping her
mouth every time some foolish bystander dares to stop her mad rush. She nearly
growls at them, not slowing down at all, while I keep yelling my apologies to
everyone.
We
run past the dancer and the redhead, who were just few feet in front of us. Past
a startled group of people I recognize from two days ago –the young,
emerald-eyed kid, the redhead with the obsidian eyes and the tall, blue haired,
bespectacled young man-when we first reached Aria. We run down the streets of
the town, while I hold onto Wormmon fearfully. He watches everything intently,
not bothered in the slightest. His silence worries me slightly, but is a relief
to find him so relaxed. He's sworn servitude to me when I saved his life years
ago, swearing to protect me with his life. That's why his calm behaviour clams
me, taming the frantic beating of my heart. If there were danger, he would sense
it, trying his best to save me, no matter what.
Finally,
Miyako's mad rush comes to an abrupt stop when she bumps into someone, and
falls unceremoniously on her back, her feet threw in the air. I let go of
Wormmon and stifle a giggle, covering it with a cough when she glares up at me,
standing up with as much dignity as she can muster. The blonde boy turns around,
blue eyes widening. "Miyako!" Takaishi shouts, almost jumping around.
"Have you seen =them=?!"
"NO!"
She whines, gripping his shoulder to use it as a support to pull herself up.
"Where?! Where?! Water or not?! Magic? Blades? Fists?! Shirts or not?!" she
asks fervently, her voice reaching a pitched peak on the last few words.
"Water."
The blonde replies dreamily. "No magic, bare hands. And *no* shirts."
Miyako
squeaks in delight, holding onto my wrist tightly to drag me further forward,
nearer and nearer to these Rainbow Cascades. I… what's going on…? Miyako
pauses after few steps. She looks around her quickly, breathing hard. It's
obvious she's somewhat nervous and I must admit this troubles me a little.
Every fibre and synapse in my body's fizzling with anticipation, and I've no
idea why. This isn't related to… Motomiya… fighting… covered in sweat
and water in a rainbow hued lake, cheered by the soft gurgling of a cascade…
shirtless. I… hope… not. No, no, this isn't related to that. At all.
I'm
startled out my thoughtful daydream when Miyako whoops, and I'm suddenly
shoved rather roughly forward. I look behind my shoulder helplessly as Miyako
grins at me, wrapping an arm around my feminine twin's shoulder proudly. They
look at each other, a look of pleading apology crossing Miyako's features,
while a cross of teasing rage flickers in the other girl's eyes. She's
smiling teasingly, pouting cutely as she whips around. Her smirk leaves her face
when Miyako turns her face back
towards her with soft, gently hands. The brunette closes her eyes and takes in
the feeling of Miyako's warm skin for a moment and when her eyes open again,
they're the most brilliant golden, the deepest ginger, and they twinkles. With
her hands, she tenderly caresses Miyako's face. And the lavender haired girl
leans in closer, brushing her lips against hers softly.
I
whip around, cheeks flushed in embarrassment, but I suppose I did the wrong
thing, since my breath catches painfully in my throat. The Lake is a feast of
crystal azure and shimmering purple, opalescent hues dancing over the rippled
surface. The magnificent cascades stands, proud, as a passageway between earth
and heaven, roaring its enchanting rage for both the mortals and immortals to
hear. And in the middle of the magnificently set backdrop, two boys are
fighting, or dare I say, dancing, at the rhythm of a music I fail to hear.
Shining
little drops dance around them as they move, quivering crystals run down their
skin. Motomiya's hair is plastered to his face, swaying wildly with each step
of this dance. His skin glistens, like Miyako told me, water running lazily down
his rippling muscles to hide under the hem of his pants, whose first button is
undone teasingly. I…
"Look
at him, Ken." Miyako whispers from behind me. "Can you still say his skin is
repelling to the eye? Doesn't it…"
"Look
like honey?" The girl in her arms breaths out softly, snuggling closer to
Miyako.
"Or
sweet, hot cocoa?" Takaishi offers, walking up to me to rest his elbow over my
shoulder, his chin dug in his forearm. I shake my head slowly, swallowing rather
soundly.
"And
the way the light sets his burgundy hair in fire? Isn't =that= appealing?"
Miyako presses on. I shake my head again, denying… everything they'd like me
to admit. No… he's not… no…
"Aren't
they… mesmerizing, though?" Takaishi whispers a little too close to my ear,
and this time I've to nod, carefully. "Unlike you people of Slayelth, we
train our bodies, minds and souls since childhood. I bet all you people do is
train your nobles to act politely and you soldiers to use magic…" I nod
again, frowning a little. "You'll never see us using Tear Orbs while
training. They kill Gaia, you know?"
I
move away from Takaishi's touch, unaware of the grin he flashes to me and then
to Miyako. I know… but… I'm too carried away by the scene playing in front
of me to really care. I've never seen someone move like that, and focus
becomes a difficult task. So strong and gently, swiftly and elegantly all at
once, they move. When I was permitted to see our soldiers practicing, it was
only to see them throwing Tear Orbs to one another. Opening wounds and slices
they'd afterwards heal with Green healing Orbs. But this… I never saw
anything like this. There's rage and quietness, force and ease mixed together
in something unique. Mesmerizing, even.
As
I keep staring, mutely, there's a swift change in the rhythm of the dance. It
becomes angrier, quicker. Taichi leaps forward, swinging his balled fist around
swiftly, aiming it at Motomiya's face. The
boy twists his head to a side at the last instant, the wind ruffling his spikes
as the punch flies past him. He snaps backward sharply, and swings his left leg
upward, connecting with Taichi's shoulder, while his right leg flew past his
left and continues, flipping him upside down. Using his hands as support, he
burrows them in the swallow water and jumps again, trying to kick the other boy
in the process, to land once again on his feet, knees bent and legs spread in an
attacking stance.
The
two exchange a smirk, each waiting for the other to do the first move. And then
they're suddenly running toward each other… as if to meet in an embrace…
only to once again let their bodies meet in a fistfight. Taichi tenses his
muscles and shots forward, suddenly. As predicted Motomiya dodges to the right
with amazing agility, a frantic dance of shimmering droplets accompanying his
every move. The older boy turns in mid-air, baring his teeth, and with all his
strength swings a fist into Daisuke's body and, surprisingly, misses him. His
own hands curling around Taichi's arm, and using his grip as support, Motomiya
ducks, managing to deliver a fast uppercut to the older boy's chin.
As
Taichi flies backward, Motomiya grins… and that's when he notices me. Our
eyes lock, and he smiles at me, almost glowing in golden sunlight. I find my
lips curve up in a smile, hunching
my shoulder instinctively. And it's amazing to see
how this little gesture makes his whole face light up. He moves a step toward
me, when, with a low growl, Taichi swoops, catching Motomiya in an unbreakable
grip, pinning his arms to his sides and his back to the ground, bringing their
faces closer to whisper something to him …
I
watch numbly as he moves closer…and closer… and closer… and closer…
and…
I…
I… I…
~*~
Dai's POV~*~
I
struggle madly under Taichi's grip,
pinned in place by both his strong hands and his intense stare.
"Let
me go!" I cry, struggling even harder than before.
"Not
quite yet." He replies, the grin on his face turning in a more mysterious one.
"I still have to pay you back for what you did to me before you left for
Slayelth."
"I
said I'm sorry." I glare up at him, electrocuting him with an evil glare.
"Isn't that enough?"
"Nope."
He answers, pressing his whole body against mine. "You've been a bad boy,
Dai. Not only you went against your boss's orders, but even tricked him and
mortified him."
I
smirk up at him, feeling bold. "Oh? Your naked butt froze while waiting for
someone to get you out of that bathroom?"
"Nope."
He smirks yet again, lowering his face closer to mine. As I'm about to open my
mouth to reply to him sharply, I quickly shut it, realizing he has a strange
look in his eyes… He has something in his mind, his whole face exclaims it…
and it surely isn't an argument. I suddenly panic and he smirks, his eyes
lowered to tiny slits.
"That
was the funniest part of the whole thing. You're an awesome seducer Dai, you
knew that?" I shake my head no, an uncertain and apologetic smile tugging the
corners of my lips.
"N-no…?"
I half-reply, half-ask, licking my lips slowly. His eyes travels downward to my
mouth immediately, and his voice lowers to a husky tone that makes me shiver.
"Well,
you're." He says slowly, his hot breath fanning against my cheeks. "And I
want to get the taste you promised me."
"YOU?!"
I squirm madly, feeling the blush tingeing my cheeks, hot and wet. He isn't
serious… is he?! I panic, looking at his face inching closer painfully slowly.
I swallow, realizing we're so close that just a couple of millimetres and he
could brush his lips against mine. "T-Tai...?" My voice decides to leave me
on my own when I notice with a gulp that Taichi's creeping even closer,
slowly. His lids flutter down, and I'm not sure of what I should do. My first
kiss… I wanted it to be with Ken, dammit! But… Ken hates me…
Give
a kiss to someone you don't like… isn't this wrong? I thought so… does
Taichi like me, then? I know he cares, but… I thought… that was different.
And I… no matter how much I like him, I don't *like* him. Not enough to give
him my first kiss, though… but a kiss… only a kiss… if Taichi wants it…
does that make it right? Oh, what do I do?! Will I do it? Will I…? Will…
I…?
Taichi
moves closer, his breath a moist hot caress over my face.
Will
I?
Y-yes…
a kiss. Only one kiss. I close my eyes, gently tilting my head up. I'm doing
it. I'm…
"NOO!"
the cry, desperate and high, snaps me back to reality. My eyes snap open and I
roughly push Taichi away, while he's busy searching for whoever screamed, and
send him splashing unceremoniously on the water. He yelps as he sinks down
underwater, re-emerging only to cough out a mouthful of water. I look around,
surprised and relieved that someone stopped be from doing what could have
revealed to be the biggest mistake of my life, when I spot Ken.
His
clenched fists are pressed almost painfully against his chest, his beautiful
features twisted in a look of pain. Immediately, his fists unclench and damp
palms presses against his mouth, a look of horror tingeing his face. He looks at
me with wide eyes, shacking his head slightly. I look at him as he lowers his
hands, revealing a delicious blush that makes me blush in response. I watch,
with my eyes reaching the size of teacups as he shakes his head again and bites
his bottom lip, mortified.
That's
when it finally clicks. I blink, incredulous. Ken… Ken stopped me from kissing
Tai?! Ken... Ken didn't only stop me, dammit! He yelled 'no'! And he
sounded rather scared by the possibility to see me kiss Tai!! This means… he
cares? I mean… that he…? Oh, my… my cheeks turn hotter, and I bet
they're redder and brighter than a Fire Orb when it's casting a spell.
Ken's blushing too… this delicious tone of pink tinges his high cheekbones
as he licks his lips carefully, his hands clasping and unclasping against his
chest. He shots me a glance, glassy purple staring at me from underneath velvet
black lashes, and he suddenly ducks his head again, turns around and runs.
I
scramble to my feet without even processing a complete thought on what I'm
doing, slipping several times on the squashy mud. The crowd opens as Ken passes
through it and, luckily for me, it doesn't close in on me when I dash madly
after him. I notice his Wormmon trying his best to run after him, but it's
clear is rather difficult for him to reach such a quick pace. Swooping, I swing
out a hand to tug him to my chest. The green thing looks up at me questioningly,
but I shrug, my eyes following Ken's every movement.
"I
know buddy, we gotta catch Ken." I let out a screech, gritting my teeth in
panic when I notice him throwing himself in the depths of the Sleeping Forest.
"Goddammit Ken, that place's =dangerous=!!" I shriek, holding Wormmon
closer to my chest.
"D…a…i?"
"Shh,
save the words for later, little buddy. I've the slight feeling Ken will
rather talk to you than to me. After all, talk's difficult for you, ne?"
Mutely, the digimon lowers his eyes to the ground, nodding almost ashamedly, and
I find my jaw clenching. Damn… Ken seems so attached to this digimon… if he
goes crazy, what will be of Ken? Wormmon has been the only one he's allowed to
approach him, save for Miyako, since he got here. And I think I'm right when I
say if they're so close is because Wormmon has been the only one he's
allowed to approach him for a long, long time.
Finally,
we reach a little clearing, and in the middle there's Ken, curled in a ball of
muffled sobs. I let out a sigh, gently placing Wormmon to the ground and looking
silently as he crawls toward Ken, casting a galnbce back at me from time to
time. I take a deep breath and stand, leaning against a tree for the time being.
As soon as Wormmon's green paw pats Ken's arm, he looks up, his
midnight-blue hair swinging softly as his head snaps upward. Tears pour down his
cheeks one after another until it becomes uncontrollable. He holds onto Wormmon
like he's a stuffed animal, bringing his face up to the hollow of his neck.
Seeing Ken sob like that, his whole form racked by heavy shivers, makes my heart
skip a beat.
Wormmon
looks up me then, gesturing me to come closer. I comply, resisting the urge to
dash to Ken's side and hug him, and slowly knelt beside him. I reach out to
touch him, but then decide against it, dropping my hand.
"I…Ichijouji?"
He looks up into my eyes, a quivering tear sliding down his cheek and leaving a
red trail behind. I'd wipe it away if I didn't know how much he despites my
touch.
His
eyes are as dark as the sky above, shadowed by hundreds of intertwined dark
branches and black foliage. Ken's dark hair wavers in the cold breeze, like a
blackbird's wings beating slowly. Despite it's still morning, everything
here talks about night and darkness. A miasma of fireflies dances around us, and
casts its twinkling glow onto us. That's with all the probability the most
beautiful sight I've ever seen, and Ken is no small part of the stunning
scenery.
"What…
do you want…?" He asks, slowly, and for once there isn't hatred in his
voice.
"I…"
He looks at me questioningly, and then shakes his head, adverting my gaze
carefully.
"If
you've nothing to say, please leave me alone I… I don't feel ready to go
back yet. You can go tell the others I'm here."
"I…
If you don't mind… I want to stay here with you…." He looks up at me,
wide eyes filled with tears. Then he looks away again, shacking his head madly.
"Why
are you making it so difficult?!" He shouts, holding onto Wormmon as if his
life depends on that little contact. "You're making it so difficult! So
difficult!" He shouts, his voice hitting a high note on the last few words.
He's trembling madly now, and I'm not sure if touching him I'll ease these
shivers or double them. Helplessly, I seek answers in Wormmon's light blue
gaze, but his look is a mirror of my own worried confusion. I tentatively touch
my fingertips to his shoulder, but Ken crawls away, before looking up at me.
Tears cascade down his face and I feel so terribly helpless…
"I
can't need you…" he whispers, soft voice tinged with pain. "I
can't… I can't… I don't!" Ken has started
to shake his head, biting down on his bottom lip. His whisper escalades in a
shout and he whips around, pressing his back against a tree. "I don't need
you, no!" He screams, the shaking in his arms increasing. I shake my head in
response, completely lost. What… who said anything about him needing me? I…
I need him, though. And even if he doesn't want me
near him, I can't leave him alone in such a place.
I
begin to crawl over him on my hands and knees, and in an agitation or
nervousness he lets out a scream, squeezing his eyes shut. I hear a sharp
cracking sound directly behind him and Ken immediately turns around, sucking in
a sharp breath. A greenish elfin creature bares his teeth at him in a grimace
that can barely be described as a grin. Ken backs away, but stops immediately
when the creatures lets out a loud shrieks, his sharp canines and claws growing
visibly longer.
The
creature flies back, and then dives like a rocket at him. Ken shuts his eyes
tightly, expecting his life to be torn away from him any second, and to have
peace. As I dash toward Ken too, the monster suddenly changes trajectory, and
crashes into the ground in front of him, showering him with sharp rocks. A cloud
of dust emerges from the scattered ground to hide the monster, now free to move
as it pleases. I scramble toward Ken as the creature emerges from the ground
behind him and dives on him with a sickening high speed.
It
misses its target, though, his sharp canine meeting tanned skin instead of
ivory. I'm shielding Ken, holding him close to my chest with one arm, with the
elfin gripping my other one hard with his teeth and both hands and feet,
growling at me madly. I hit him carelessly, pummelling it on the ground. I let
go of Ken and crawl after the creature when, with a shriek, it lets go of my arm
leaps in the air, scurrying across the grassy ground to the hide in the depths
of the forest.
I'm
on my knees now, watching as the elfin retreats. I'm letting out laboured
mouthfuls of ragged breath, holding my wounded arm close to my chest. That's
when soft, warm fingers close around my wound carefully. I spin around, and find
that Ken's crawled toward me. His head ducked, his hair a shiny curtains that
shields his face, he's fingering the smoking welt halfway between my wrist and
elbow.
He
shakes his head slowly, and reaches out to undo the tie that holds his purple
hair in place. He frees himself from the silky tie giving a slight toss to his
head, eyes closed and lips parted. I inhale sharply as his long hair swirls
around his face like a fly of shiny purple ravens. Long, disparate tendrils of
silk frame his face, grazing his chin gently. On his back, his hair is longer,
and covers his shoulders like a fine, silky mantel. And even this bizarre
hairstyle doesn't spot his stunning gorgeousness.
He
proceeds to carefully bandage my wound, his eyes never quite meeting mine. In
fact he keeps staring to the ground even when he's done and I'm currently
admiring his handwork.
"Idiot."
He whispers at last, and I blink down at his bowed head, shocked.
"…what?"
"Idiot."
He repeats, curling his fingers gently around my wrist. "You always hurt
yourself… because of me… always…" he mutters between trembles.
"Always… because of me… you bleed… you're… an idiot." He looks up
at me for a moment, and I'm stunned to see the tears running down his cheeks.
He rests his forehead against my chest, his hand uncurling from around my wrist
to lay, soft and smooth, next to his clammy cheek, now pressed tightly in my
shirt.
I
move my hands tentatively, not knowing what to do. I want to hold him, but I
can't. I shouldn't hold him, but I want. I can hold him, but I won't. God,
everything's so confusing… and as I stand, motionless, listening to Ken's
muffled sobs, he keeps whispering something that sounds suspiciously like,
"You're making it so difficult…"
And
this just makes no sense at all.
~*~
End of chapter 03~*~
*dazed*
wow… I beat that b@$+@rd writer's block and finally wrote this. @_@ this
isn't half as good as I hoped it to be, and I honestly think I may have rushed
things a little, but… you're the judges. That was for you all that read
this, and I sincerely hope you enjoyed it. =)
See
you in the next chapter!