Author: Stefanie Galvin
Email: eyesonlyangel@hotmail.com
Summary: Kim reflects.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in Third Watch…which is rather unfortunate, I think. I don't own the song "Damaged" by Plumb. If you haven't heard it, try and listen to it - it is a fantastic song (that's my opinion anyway). I'm not making any money out of this, so you could sue me, but you wouldn't get much.
Author's Notes: I never saw an episode with Bobby (apparently I've been deprived), so you'll have to bear with me. Also, I'm not a major Kim fan, but this just screamed to be written. I know it's short – it was never going to be long. Enjoy, *Stef
Dreaming comes so easily'Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairytale
I'm damaged, so how would I know
I sit and watch as the rain falls outside, the droplets of water creating illusions upon the glass. I'm here by myself – when I should be with you. I would have been with you, had it not been for the other people that I love. I know not whether I should thank them, or hate them.
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know
I tried to save you. I tried and tried and tried. I even begged you to stay with me.
I begged you not to leave.
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
The steady beat of the falling rain matches the falling of my tears. I loved you and I never told you. And now it is too late.
Healing comes so painfully
And it chills me to the bone
Will anyone get close to me
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
I don't know why I didn't see it before…how could I have been so naïve? Now I'm being criticized – people saying I'm sick. I know that I'm sick. I'm sick and I'm missing you.
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm ashamed
And I need for you to know
You cared about all whom you saved, all whom you healed. I remember the little boy…I remember you. I remember how we used to tell each other everything that annoyed us.
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but I can't go back
I remember hating you for dying. Hating you for leaving me when I started falling in love. But looking back, it wasn't hate…or maybe I've learned to forgive you. But I so desperately want you to come back to me, to take care of me. To tell me everything is alright.
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
You loved me through thick and thin. Through my trouble's with my ex-husband. You made sure I was alright, and that my son was happy. I suspect that you loved him, too, as I loved your own family as my own.
Can't go back
Can't go back
Can't go back
Can't go back
Can't go back
I can't go back
I can't go back
Now I must move on. Not from you, but from your death. You will always have a place in my heart. Forever.
I must go on
I must go on
I must go on
I must go on
I must go on
I must go on
I must go on
I love you.