Author's Notes: Told in Wills POV. Warnings: Girl/girl love mentioned here. No sex. Title came from The Long Goodbye by Brooks and Dunn.
The Long Goodbye:
By: LOSTwitch
I didn't mean to do what I did. I thought I was helping Buffy and Tara when I did that spell to make them forget. I had no idea that it was going to make everyone forget. Now, Tara is gone. All because of me! Why couldn't I just go one week without magic?
It's not just the magic though. It's love in general. First, it was Xander. I loved that boy for the longest time. At first I thought it was just a schoolgirl crush but it was more. I've known him forever and it came to this, a crush. I tried so many times to tell him but that's hard to do. So, I just kept quiet. Only Buffy knew about it. She told me once 'I had it bad'. Buffy was right of course.
The first time I found out him and Cordy, I went nuts. It wasn't fair! How come Cordy got my man? Then I gave up on him and her because I saw the love in his eyes for her. I knew him and me could never be together. Now he's engaged to Anya. An ex-demon, none the less. Oh well, the good thing is, I'm happy for him. I really am. I'm just not happy that I have no one anymore.
Then came Oz. Oh, Oz. How I missed him when he left me. I tried to understand, I really did but it was just hard. He loved me for me and didn't care what anyone else thought of me. And I didn't care if he was a werewolf. We all have our problems, and that just had to be his. He left because he didn't want to hurt anyone else. I didn't care about anybody else! He didn't know how bad I was hurting on the inside. Like Xander, he was left me for something/someone else.
Finally, came Tara. I fell in love with her the first time I saw her. I was a little scared, because that meant I was gay. I didn't even want to tell the others because two reasons. One: I didn't know what they would think of two and me: I wanted her to be just mine. You when you're part of the Scobbies you have to share things. I wanted her to be just mine. Tara told me that she was mine. When she met the others everything went well. Everyone went well. Well, until one day I told Buffy that I was gay. She freaked but she learned to accept it and was happy for me. The others soon knew about Tara and I and they too were happy for me.
I don't really know the word 'happy' anymore. It's been two weeks since Tara left and I feel alone. I have friends I know that but I just feel empty. I want some one to love. I guess that'll never happen for me. I now believe Buffy about what she said about Her, Xander, and me, we won't find true love like normal people will. Gosh, I wish I were normal! Having to say: "Goodbye" to the ones you love most hurts more then a lot of people think.