She watched the garage door close behind him unable to move. Since their
wedding Spike had never once walked out of this house angry. She heard the
familiar thrum of the Desoto start up - he was actually leaving. It was broad daylight!
Did he even have his blanket? Her mind whirled as she ran into the garage just
as the Desoto left the driveway. His blanket must be with him, he would be okay,
he would calm down and then he would be okay, right? She hadn't meant to make
him angry - she had just been so counting on this to work and when it didn't it seemed
easiest to take it out on him - thats what he always let her do.
She sat down on the couch a pillow hugged close to her chest going over her hurtful words, she
had to admit to herself that Spike hadn't left in anger he left in pain, pain she had
caused him. What did he mean - Angel had left her for the right reasons? He couldn't give
her normal? Those were old arguments she thought they had gone over all that
a long time ago - it had been settled. Well settled until now - until the glaring truth
of her biolgical clock tick tocking reminding her of what she didnt' have made her
lose sight of what she did have. She loved him with all of her heart and yes she wanted
a child but not if it came at the price of losing Spike. If he wasn't going to be part
of her family she didn't want one!
She stood and began to pace, what to do? Did she go find him? Where should
she even look? She needed to talk to someone - she picked the phone up to
call Dawn. Dawn would know what to do.
***********
The Desoto made its way through streets slowly. Spike watched the children
playing in the yards through his darkened windows. He pulled up in a familiar
driveway and grabbed his blanket, he hated that blanket right now, it represented
just one more way he wasn't normal.
Spike made a dash for the shade of the front porch and pounded on the door.
"It's me Bit, let me in."
"Spike? Is something wrong?" Dawn asked anxiously as she ushered him into
the house.
"Yeah Bit, theres something wrong." He sighed as he sat down.
"Is Buffy okay?" Dawn's eyes grew wide with fear.
"She will be." He muttered as he examined his hands.
"Okay.......what happened?" Dawn asked as she plopped down next to him on
the sofa.
"Well, she's not pregnant." He sighed as he slumped against the sofa pillow.
"Is there something more you want to tell me, Spike?" Dawn asked with
strange look on her face.
"Well, me and Buffy decided that a baby might be nice. I mean you have two
great kids and Buffy...well she was getting those motherly feelings. And me well
I'd love to have a baby with Buffy." Spike sighed yet again and continued, "So
we go to the doc and learn about this artificial insemination stuff, I admit I kind of
felt weird about Buffy carrying some strange guys baby, but if it made her happy and
I *was* going to be the daddy anyway - well I could do it for her."
"So you two have decided to do this?" Dawn asked trying to hide her shock.
"We did it! But it didn't work and now Buffy is all mad at me about it!" Spike
shook his head, "And you know what now I'm wondering maybe she's right.
Maybe I've been selfish about this, mabye I was wrong to think I could always make
her happy."
"Spike, I'm not sure I understand everything going on here, but I do know that
Buffy loves you no matter what. She may be hurting now, but she loves you." Dawn
lay her hand on his arm, "Never think that she doesn't love you and want to spend
the rest of her life with you."
"Well, if she found someone normal........" He leaned his head back and closed his
eyes.
Dawn stood as she heard Jordan come in, "Hey, " she called softly as she hugged him
and kissed his cheek.
Jordan peeked at Spike and raised his eyebrows in question at Dawn, "Rough day,
I'll explain later." She whispered as Jordan went to change.
The phone rang as Dawn walked back to the sofa, "Hello."
"Dawn, it's Buffy. Is........is Spike there?" Dawn could almost see her sister biting
her bottom lip.
"No, he's not Buffy. Whats wrong?" DAwn answered.
Spike looked up at the mention of Buffy's name.
"Nothing, I mean everything. Can I come over?" Buffy sobbed into the phone.
"Sure, sweetie, come on over." Dawn said goodbye and hung up the phone,
"Spike, you and Jordan" she looked at her husband as he entered the room are
going out for a drink. Now."
"Buffy is coming over?" Spike asked with mild surprise.
"Yes, she is. Now you need to get out of here. Take Jordan with you." Dawn
smiled at Jordan as he walked towards her.
"What do you want me to do?" Jordan asked his wife with a smile, "I've never
got to be in on one of your covert operations before."
Dawn giggled slightly at him, "I love you - you know that?"
Jordan nodded his head, "I know."
"Please go with Spike just talk to him okay?"
"I can do that." Jordan smiled at Spike, "Come on. before Buffy gets here!"
Spike started the car and looked suspiciously at the man in the seat next to him,
"No offense, Jordan. Your're a good guy but we don't really know each other
well."
"Well we are brother in laws, married to two incredible sisters." Jordan replied with
a grin.
"There is that, but really we don't know a lot about each other." Spike sighed.
"Oh you mean that I don't know the reason for your "sun" allergy - never really
talked about it, but I assumed it had to do with being a vampire." Jordan smiled
at Spike matter of factly.
TBC
If Spike could have choked he would have right then and there, thankfully the sun
had gone down and he didn't have to worry about handling the blanket when
they got of the car at the place Jordan had directed him too. "You know?" Spike
sputtered as they went into the small Wafflehouse.
"Yes, I've known for a while. Dawn's my wife...we share things.
wedding Spike had never once walked out of this house angry. She heard the
familiar thrum of the Desoto start up - he was actually leaving. It was broad daylight!
Did he even have his blanket? Her mind whirled as she ran into the garage just
as the Desoto left the driveway. His blanket must be with him, he would be okay,
he would calm down and then he would be okay, right? She hadn't meant to make
him angry - she had just been so counting on this to work and when it didn't it seemed
easiest to take it out on him - thats what he always let her do.
She sat down on the couch a pillow hugged close to her chest going over her hurtful words, she
had to admit to herself that Spike hadn't left in anger he left in pain, pain she had
caused him. What did he mean - Angel had left her for the right reasons? He couldn't give
her normal? Those were old arguments she thought they had gone over all that
a long time ago - it had been settled. Well settled until now - until the glaring truth
of her biolgical clock tick tocking reminding her of what she didnt' have made her
lose sight of what she did have. She loved him with all of her heart and yes she wanted
a child but not if it came at the price of losing Spike. If he wasn't going to be part
of her family she didn't want one!
She stood and began to pace, what to do? Did she go find him? Where should
she even look? She needed to talk to someone - she picked the phone up to
call Dawn. Dawn would know what to do.
***********
The Desoto made its way through streets slowly. Spike watched the children
playing in the yards through his darkened windows. He pulled up in a familiar
driveway and grabbed his blanket, he hated that blanket right now, it represented
just one more way he wasn't normal.
Spike made a dash for the shade of the front porch and pounded on the door.
"It's me Bit, let me in."
"Spike? Is something wrong?" Dawn asked anxiously as she ushered him into
the house.
"Yeah Bit, theres something wrong." He sighed as he sat down.
"Is Buffy okay?" Dawn's eyes grew wide with fear.
"She will be." He muttered as he examined his hands.
"Okay.......what happened?" Dawn asked as she plopped down next to him on
the sofa.
"Well, she's not pregnant." He sighed as he slumped against the sofa pillow.
"Is there something more you want to tell me, Spike?" Dawn asked with
strange look on her face.
"Well, me and Buffy decided that a baby might be nice. I mean you have two
great kids and Buffy...well she was getting those motherly feelings. And me well
I'd love to have a baby with Buffy." Spike sighed yet again and continued, "So
we go to the doc and learn about this artificial insemination stuff, I admit I kind of
felt weird about Buffy carrying some strange guys baby, but if it made her happy and
I *was* going to be the daddy anyway - well I could do it for her."
"So you two have decided to do this?" Dawn asked trying to hide her shock.
"We did it! But it didn't work and now Buffy is all mad at me about it!" Spike
shook his head, "And you know what now I'm wondering maybe she's right.
Maybe I've been selfish about this, mabye I was wrong to think I could always make
her happy."
"Spike, I'm not sure I understand everything going on here, but I do know that
Buffy loves you no matter what. She may be hurting now, but she loves you." Dawn
lay her hand on his arm, "Never think that she doesn't love you and want to spend
the rest of her life with you."
"Well, if she found someone normal........" He leaned his head back and closed his
eyes.
Dawn stood as she heard Jordan come in, "Hey, " she called softly as she hugged him
and kissed his cheek.
Jordan peeked at Spike and raised his eyebrows in question at Dawn, "Rough day,
I'll explain later." She whispered as Jordan went to change.
The phone rang as Dawn walked back to the sofa, "Hello."
"Dawn, it's Buffy. Is........is Spike there?" Dawn could almost see her sister biting
her bottom lip.
"No, he's not Buffy. Whats wrong?" DAwn answered.
Spike looked up at the mention of Buffy's name.
"Nothing, I mean everything. Can I come over?" Buffy sobbed into the phone.
"Sure, sweetie, come on over." Dawn said goodbye and hung up the phone,
"Spike, you and Jordan" she looked at her husband as he entered the room are
going out for a drink. Now."
"Buffy is coming over?" Spike asked with mild surprise.
"Yes, she is. Now you need to get out of here. Take Jordan with you." Dawn
smiled at Jordan as he walked towards her.
"What do you want me to do?" Jordan asked his wife with a smile, "I've never
got to be in on one of your covert operations before."
Dawn giggled slightly at him, "I love you - you know that?"
Jordan nodded his head, "I know."
"Please go with Spike just talk to him okay?"
"I can do that." Jordan smiled at Spike, "Come on. before Buffy gets here!"
Spike started the car and looked suspiciously at the man in the seat next to him,
"No offense, Jordan. Your're a good guy but we don't really know each other
well."
"Well we are brother in laws, married to two incredible sisters." Jordan replied with
a grin.
"There is that, but really we don't know a lot about each other." Spike sighed.
"Oh you mean that I don't know the reason for your "sun" allergy - never really
talked about it, but I assumed it had to do with being a vampire." Jordan smiled
at Spike matter of factly.
TBC
If Spike could have choked he would have right then and there, thankfully the sun
had gone down and he didn't have to worry about handling the blanket when
they got of the car at the place Jordan had directed him too. "You know?" Spike
sputtered as they went into the small Wafflehouse.
"Yes, I've known for a while. Dawn's my wife...we share things.