The Bishonen of February
Chapter 17
"And do you remember the flying cereal?" Shiva laughed.
"Yeah! Man, those where the good old days!"
"Here we are." Shiva opened the door into the Ankoku Touki Dojo. Miss Kenji we have a visitor!" Shiva's voice bounced off the gym's walls as Kina glanced at her surroundings. The gym wasn't very big but it made up for that in interior design. The walls where painted elaborately with a pattern of different scenery, one wall had a lake with swans while another had a forest scene. The tile floors made a beautiful diamond-like design also and the room smelled like cleaning-oil.
"What do you know, she's gone on a trip for a few days. Guess you'll just have to hang out with me until Miss Kenji returns! Hey Chichiri and Mitsukake can you both make us some dinner?" Shiva's grin widened as she told her two bishonen her request and hugged them both.
"Oh great I'll have to hang with you! Hi Chichiri and Mitsukake!" Kina joked with her friend while rolling her eyes then thought to herself, "I hope I have a few days. And I hope those three haven't come looking for me!"
"You can stay in here." Shiva led her friend to the guest bedroom as Kina sat down her luggage on the bed. Out of her bag she produced Bunny.
"Remember this?" She held up Bunny as Shiva laughed, remembering the tiny stuffed animal Kina always had with her.
"You still have that thing?"
"Yeah, but he's getting a bit shabby."
"Oh well, you can always fix him up!" Shiva picked up Bunny and examined him, "Hey, there's a little hole here!" She noticed and then proceeded to stick her finger into it, "I think there's something in here!" Her eyes widened as her finger touched a papery material.
"Are you serious?!" Kina grabbed Bunny from Shiva and ventured to pull the item out while trying not to drag all of Bunny's stuffing out also.
"It looks like a letter." Shiva observed the folded sheet of paper in Kina's hand. The paper appeared old and it smelled of vanilla and cinnamon. It had Kina's name written on it. Trembling, she opened the letter slowly, she knew that smell and she knew who it was from but her mind wouldn't believe it. Tears formed in her eyes as she recognized the handwriting, then she began to read it out loud.
~~
Dear Kina, I don't know when you will find this letter but if you are reading it right now, you obviously found it. It is February 5th, almost time for your twelfth birthday. I know I don't have much time so I placed this letter for you inside Bunny so it is most likely I am not with you anymore. How are you doing my little angel? Is life treating you well? Did you wake up feeling good? Never let that good feeling leave you. Today you are who you are and that is my little angel Kina. Are you alone or do you have a wonderful person by your side? I'm sure you're causing all kinds of trouble for lots of different people. But I know you're sorry, you don't mean to, but it's all right. That's part of life too, isn't it? You're not perfect but you've got a lot to give so remember, I'll always be cheering you on. I'm sorry I couldn't be here for you but I will always be with you. I'll be in the stars smiling down at you; I will be in the wind that cools your face on a hot day. I will be in the ground that catches you when you fall, I will be in the water that kisses your face and most importantly I'll be in your heart watching over you always. I may be gone physically from this world, but I will always, ALWAYS be with you and so will your father and we are so proud of you. No matter what you do, we're always proud of you. I know it hurts angel, but you must heal that pain and be strong. I know it will most likely always hurt but you are my daughter and I know you will be fine. Remember this little poem I once learned by Ralph Walter (oh dear I forgot his last name!)
"To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children. To earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty and to find the best in others. To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition. To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
I want you to know I left the world without any regrets, the only thing I am saddened by is that I couldn't be there for you while you grow up. So live your life to the fullest in whatever time you have to live; you never know what might happen the next day. Don't ponder on little things like what you will do tomorrow or what you wanted to change about yesterday. When you say you're going to do something, do it. In your time, I'm no longer there but I am here today and I'll always be cheering for you. Right here, cheering for you, my little angel Kina.
Love, Mom (and Dad)
~~
Hot tears freely streamed down Kina's face and Shiva quickly hugged her friend as Kina buried her face into her shirt and cried. Not tears of anger or of hate, but of loss. She was letting go and it hurt, but it would be ok tomorrow.
~*~
Yue angrily kicked a rock that flew and nailed the back of Nuriko's leg.
"HEY WATCH IT!" The boy turned around and yelled at Yue who winced and hid behind Hotohori.
"Don't hide behind me!"
"I'm sick of walking! Can't we just find Kina! WHERE IS SHE!?" Yue screamed and fell on his knees, exhausted from walking, "I want to find her and marry her! And tell her I love her! Then she can never leave me! BWAHAHAHAHA!"
"Oh-my-gosh. He's lost it." Hotohori glanced at Yue then Nuriko.
"Yeah. The sun must have fried his brain. The sun is beginning to set so let's camp here then it's one more day and we'll be at the Dojo and with Kina!" Nuriko sat down his bag and began to pitch up their tent and start small bon fire. Yue pulled out a small picture he had stuck into his bag; he had found it in one of the drawers in his room. It was of Kina. His fingers traced the outline of her hair and he held back so many emotions. ~~ To watch the leaves grow on the trees with you is out of question.
I walk into this summer all alone, the usual session.
You feel your instinct then you act but was it your intention?
To leave me down and broken now you've ended our ascension, yeah.
~~ Slowly he pulled his sleeping bag up trying to block out the noises of Nuriko and Hotohori happily laughing and fooling around. He could hear them talking about him. "What's up with him Hotohori? He's been so sad and mean ever since Kina left." Nuriko questioned sounding very clueless. "Oh you have so much to learn Nuri. He loves her and misses her."
"Hori?"
"Yeah?"
"Please don't leave me."
"I won't." "How did they have the right to talk about me like that?" Yue thought to himself, "He loves her and misses her. Is it true? I always told myself that is what I feel but I've never heard someone else say it. And yet when Hori said it, I could feel the truth of his words. I do love her." ~~
I still can feel the beach sand in my shoes, remember when,
We talked along the ocean's song until blue from black fade in.
But that was then I learned to live without you far within.
I ask you why you're back to try to let me lose again.
You brought me here, you wet my taste.
You disappear without a trace.
It wasn't me who made the call.
Cause now I wanna be.
Where you sleep,
Where you laugh,
Where you breathe,
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away
~~ She had taken him to the beach; no one had taken him anywhere. And she wanted to make him happy and to open his eyes. Kina had done just that, she had shown him the world in only two weeks and yet it seemed like a lifetime. But he didn't like the world without her. He turned towards Hotohori and muttered to his friend, "I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I just don't know what to do." Quietly Hotohori replied, "Tell her how you feel and if she doesn't feel the same move on. But if she does then go for it." "You mean I have to tell her?" Yue blinked, hoping he could find enough courage in him to tell her one day. ~~
Should I feel some closure I deserve if that at least.
And would you be so kind to show reasons for your release.
You woke me up from a distant past I left behind complete.
The message that you sent that night now falls to bittersweet.
Was it me, my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
It wasn't me who made the call.
Cause now I wanna be,
Where you sleep,
Where you laugh,
Where you breathe,
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away ~~ Yue whispered softly, "Kina I love you." ~~
Was it me, my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
You brought me here, you wet my taste.
You disappear without a trace.
Did you think I'd ever lead you wrong?
Just know I'll save all of our moments that we are.
Still I wanna be
Where you sleep
Where you laugh
Where you breathe
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away
~~ Kina sat up in her sleep, she could have sworn she heard someone say "Kina, I love you." and it sounded so much like Yue. Unknowingly, she whispered back, "I love you too." After Shiva and Kina had found the letter and cried to their hearts content they both had retired to bed. ~~
Now I wanna be,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you sleep,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you laugh,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you breathe,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
And I hate to say,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Still I sway
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Brown your eyes
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Gone away
(Someday you'll wish you never)
You took it all away.
You took it all away.
Chapter 17
"And do you remember the flying cereal?" Shiva laughed.
"Yeah! Man, those where the good old days!"
"Here we are." Shiva opened the door into the Ankoku Touki Dojo. Miss Kenji we have a visitor!" Shiva's voice bounced off the gym's walls as Kina glanced at her surroundings. The gym wasn't very big but it made up for that in interior design. The walls where painted elaborately with a pattern of different scenery, one wall had a lake with swans while another had a forest scene. The tile floors made a beautiful diamond-like design also and the room smelled like cleaning-oil.
"What do you know, she's gone on a trip for a few days. Guess you'll just have to hang out with me until Miss Kenji returns! Hey Chichiri and Mitsukake can you both make us some dinner?" Shiva's grin widened as she told her two bishonen her request and hugged them both.
"Oh great I'll have to hang with you! Hi Chichiri and Mitsukake!" Kina joked with her friend while rolling her eyes then thought to herself, "I hope I have a few days. And I hope those three haven't come looking for me!"
"You can stay in here." Shiva led her friend to the guest bedroom as Kina sat down her luggage on the bed. Out of her bag she produced Bunny.
"Remember this?" She held up Bunny as Shiva laughed, remembering the tiny stuffed animal Kina always had with her.
"You still have that thing?"
"Yeah, but he's getting a bit shabby."
"Oh well, you can always fix him up!" Shiva picked up Bunny and examined him, "Hey, there's a little hole here!" She noticed and then proceeded to stick her finger into it, "I think there's something in here!" Her eyes widened as her finger touched a papery material.
"Are you serious?!" Kina grabbed Bunny from Shiva and ventured to pull the item out while trying not to drag all of Bunny's stuffing out also.
"It looks like a letter." Shiva observed the folded sheet of paper in Kina's hand. The paper appeared old and it smelled of vanilla and cinnamon. It had Kina's name written on it. Trembling, she opened the letter slowly, she knew that smell and she knew who it was from but her mind wouldn't believe it. Tears formed in her eyes as she recognized the handwriting, then she began to read it out loud.
~~
Dear Kina, I don't know when you will find this letter but if you are reading it right now, you obviously found it. It is February 5th, almost time for your twelfth birthday. I know I don't have much time so I placed this letter for you inside Bunny so it is most likely I am not with you anymore. How are you doing my little angel? Is life treating you well? Did you wake up feeling good? Never let that good feeling leave you. Today you are who you are and that is my little angel Kina. Are you alone or do you have a wonderful person by your side? I'm sure you're causing all kinds of trouble for lots of different people. But I know you're sorry, you don't mean to, but it's all right. That's part of life too, isn't it? You're not perfect but you've got a lot to give so remember, I'll always be cheering you on. I'm sorry I couldn't be here for you but I will always be with you. I'll be in the stars smiling down at you; I will be in the wind that cools your face on a hot day. I will be in the ground that catches you when you fall, I will be in the water that kisses your face and most importantly I'll be in your heart watching over you always. I may be gone physically from this world, but I will always, ALWAYS be with you and so will your father and we are so proud of you. No matter what you do, we're always proud of you. I know it hurts angel, but you must heal that pain and be strong. I know it will most likely always hurt but you are my daughter and I know you will be fine. Remember this little poem I once learned by Ralph Walter (oh dear I forgot his last name!)
"To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children. To earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty and to find the best in others. To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition. To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
I want you to know I left the world without any regrets, the only thing I am saddened by is that I couldn't be there for you while you grow up. So live your life to the fullest in whatever time you have to live; you never know what might happen the next day. Don't ponder on little things like what you will do tomorrow or what you wanted to change about yesterday. When you say you're going to do something, do it. In your time, I'm no longer there but I am here today and I'll always be cheering for you. Right here, cheering for you, my little angel Kina.
Love, Mom (and Dad)
~~
Hot tears freely streamed down Kina's face and Shiva quickly hugged her friend as Kina buried her face into her shirt and cried. Not tears of anger or of hate, but of loss. She was letting go and it hurt, but it would be ok tomorrow.
~*~
Yue angrily kicked a rock that flew and nailed the back of Nuriko's leg.
"HEY WATCH IT!" The boy turned around and yelled at Yue who winced and hid behind Hotohori.
"Don't hide behind me!"
"I'm sick of walking! Can't we just find Kina! WHERE IS SHE!?" Yue screamed and fell on his knees, exhausted from walking, "I want to find her and marry her! And tell her I love her! Then she can never leave me! BWAHAHAHAHA!"
"Oh-my-gosh. He's lost it." Hotohori glanced at Yue then Nuriko.
"Yeah. The sun must have fried his brain. The sun is beginning to set so let's camp here then it's one more day and we'll be at the Dojo and with Kina!" Nuriko sat down his bag and began to pitch up their tent and start small bon fire. Yue pulled out a small picture he had stuck into his bag; he had found it in one of the drawers in his room. It was of Kina. His fingers traced the outline of her hair and he held back so many emotions. ~~ To watch the leaves grow on the trees with you is out of question.
I walk into this summer all alone, the usual session.
You feel your instinct then you act but was it your intention?
To leave me down and broken now you've ended our ascension, yeah.
~~ Slowly he pulled his sleeping bag up trying to block out the noises of Nuriko and Hotohori happily laughing and fooling around. He could hear them talking about him. "What's up with him Hotohori? He's been so sad and mean ever since Kina left." Nuriko questioned sounding very clueless. "Oh you have so much to learn Nuri. He loves her and misses her."
"Hori?"
"Yeah?"
"Please don't leave me."
"I won't." "How did they have the right to talk about me like that?" Yue thought to himself, "He loves her and misses her. Is it true? I always told myself that is what I feel but I've never heard someone else say it. And yet when Hori said it, I could feel the truth of his words. I do love her." ~~
I still can feel the beach sand in my shoes, remember when,
We talked along the ocean's song until blue from black fade in.
But that was then I learned to live without you far within.
I ask you why you're back to try to let me lose again.
You brought me here, you wet my taste.
You disappear without a trace.
It wasn't me who made the call.
Cause now I wanna be.
Where you sleep,
Where you laugh,
Where you breathe,
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away
~~ She had taken him to the beach; no one had taken him anywhere. And she wanted to make him happy and to open his eyes. Kina had done just that, she had shown him the world in only two weeks and yet it seemed like a lifetime. But he didn't like the world without her. He turned towards Hotohori and muttered to his friend, "I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I just don't know what to do." Quietly Hotohori replied, "Tell her how you feel and if she doesn't feel the same move on. But if she does then go for it." "You mean I have to tell her?" Yue blinked, hoping he could find enough courage in him to tell her one day. ~~
Should I feel some closure I deserve if that at least.
And would you be so kind to show reasons for your release.
You woke me up from a distant past I left behind complete.
The message that you sent that night now falls to bittersweet.
Was it me, my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
It wasn't me who made the call.
Cause now I wanna be,
Where you sleep,
Where you laugh,
Where you breathe,
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away ~~ Yue whispered softly, "Kina I love you." ~~
Was it me, my honesty?
You fail to show I never know.
You brought me here, you wet my taste.
You disappear without a trace.
Did you think I'd ever lead you wrong?
Just know I'll save all of our moments that we are.
Still I wanna be
Where you sleep
Where you laugh
Where you breathe
And I hate to say
Still I sway
Brown your eyes
Gone away
~~ Kina sat up in her sleep, she could have sworn she heard someone say "Kina, I love you." and it sounded so much like Yue. Unknowingly, she whispered back, "I love you too." After Shiva and Kina had found the letter and cried to their hearts content they both had retired to bed. ~~
Now I wanna be,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you sleep,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you laugh,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Where you breathe,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
And I hate to say,
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Still I sway
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Brown your eyes
(Someday you'll wish you never)
Gone away
(Someday you'll wish you never)
You took it all away.
You took it all away.