Hey I'm back for my next chapter and I wanted to say before I posted it that I do have the intentions to have clark/lana in this story I have my reasons for everything….lol you'll see…please R&R thanx so much!
"Clark….what are you doing here?" Lana asks opening the door
"Did Crystal come over?…… She left early my parents told her they didn't want her to see Lex anymore." Clark explains
"That wont stop her."
"I know it wont and I know that she's with Lex right now" Clark admits his voice softening
"Yet here you are, on my front porch." Lana says softly
"Yea…" Clark trails off looking away
"…………do you want to come in?"
"Thanks, I would" Clark walks in as Lana opens the door wider
"I think we need to talk."
"All right, what's up?"
"Well it's complicated….." Lana tells him
"And it has nothing to do with Crystal I'm guessing." Clark observes
"I want to be honest with you, honesty is best." Lana says taking a seat
"Yea, honesty is good."
"Don't talk though….it will make this easier…ok?"
Clark sat there in the chair with a coy smile on his face.
Lana caught onto his act and smiled. "Funny, Clark. I'm trying to be serious."
"All right, tell me, I'm listening and I want to know."
Lana takes a deep breath and stood up and began pacing "I don't think Crystal should be with Lex, he's to old for her." Lana began
"Lana you wanted to be honest about that? And I thought this wasn't about Crys."
"You said you wouldn't say anything." Lana protests before she continues "But I told Crystal that you can't help who you love, and that sometimes what you think is right it wrong and what you think is wrong is right…….. I think that the entire time I was talking about you."
Clark looks at Lana carefully to see if she was kidding, but her face was serious.
"I feel safe with Whitney and it feels right…too right. I don't like it, deep inside it feels more like an obligation then a relationship. So then I tell Crystal all of this, and I feel like such a huge hypocrite I mean I'm telling her maybe she should be with Lex and she tells me she loves Tom. Then she tells me maybe I should be with you, and I think she's right….but then I get so confused because Tom is dead and now Crystal is proclaiming her love for Lex. But I really think it was Lex she loved all along. I don't know what to do Clark and I couldn't tell this to Whitney or even Crystal because it's so indifferent right now. Like everything can change in a single second." Lana says finally stopping her pacing and looking into Clark's eyes
"Would this really be what you want, everything else aside?" Clark asks carefully
"I'm just so scared, it feels like my life can break like glass right now… I think this is what I want I feel like it is."
Not saying anything Clark gets up and cups Lana chin in his hands and kisses her. "Did that help any?" He whispers
"Yes."
"For the better?"
"Most definitely." Lana answers kissing him again. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"For listening to me, your the first person to listen to me in a while."
Clark closes his eyes
"What's wrong?" Lana asks worried
"Maybe that's our problem."
"What is?"
"Not listening to Crystal."
Lana nods in agreement "You're right, we're not."
"I don't want to be rude and after you just tell me all this for us to go and run to Crys."
"What should we do?" Lana asks
"Are you sure?"
"We have forever to work this out, but we may not have as much time to fix this with her." Lana answers firmly
"I don't know what do to though." Clark admits
"Did we really screw ourselves up so much in this stupid town that we don't even know how to listen to each other anymore or how to help each other?" Lana asks getting upset
"It's the secrets that keep us apart Lana, secrets and lies."
"Well then I don't want anymore of them, I want to be your girlfriend. I broke up with Whitney today before you came over, it was time."
"I want you to be my girlfriend too." Clark replies
"Good, so then we have to make this work and we have to be there for Crystal in any way."
"Right."
"So no more secrets and lies. All right Clark?"
Clark's breath catches in his throat. "R-right no more secrets."
"Good" Lana kisses him "Let's go find your sister."
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"Lana, Clark it's nice to see you both, together…." Martha says as they walk into the Kent house and she notices their entwined hands.
"Is Crys here? We need to talk to her." Clark says
"She is, she's not in the best of moods though. She skipped dinner went straight to bed. I don't blame her it hasn't been easy for her."
"We'll be upstairs if you need us." Clark tells his mom
"Good luck, trying to get her to talk I mean" Martha says
"Thanks." Clark replies
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"Crystal? Ow Lana watch out." Clark warns
"It's not my fault I can't see anything it's pitch black in here."
"Here's the light. Crystal!" Clark exclaims when he sees her sitting in a ball in the corner crying.
"Are you ok?" Lana goes over to her "Crystal talk to me."
"My….life…..is…a….mess…." Crystal cries through her sobs
"What's wrong I thought everything was going good." Lana asks while Clark hovers closer to the doorway feeling uncomfortable.
"Tom's dead. I know you both don't approve of Lex and I and neither do my parents. I don't even know if I should be with Lex now. I mean was it really worth it?"
"Was what worth it?" Lana asks softly sitting next to her
"Tom's parents dying, Tom dying? I just went to my boyfriend's parents funeral and now I'm supposed to go to my boyfriend's funeral? This is crazy I should be thinking about what I should wear to school tomorrow or about my history test. Or anything like that…….what don't I know?" Crystal asks her intuitions kicking in
"Uh….Clark and I, we're going out, we want to give it a try make it work. We were both right, I did feel too right with Whitney." Lana explains
"You think you two will be able to make this work?" Crystal asks
"Yes, we decided to be honest and open, it'll be for the best."
Crystal looks up and catches Clark's eye, he looks nervous, she understands immediately. "Lana, take it slowly, don't try to rush it ok?"
"Yea sure." Lana answers hesitantly "Listen I need to go, it's late, but I do want to talk to you again, but I think a night's sleep will do us all good." Lana says getting up. She gives Clark a kiss on the cheek "Night."
Clark watches her walk down the hall and then shuts the door.
"I don't want you to blame yourself about this." Clark says
"You said you'd be completely honest with her?" Crystal exclaims "I can't even be completely honest with anyone I ever meet, I'll have a husband and kids one day and I can never tell them! And you tell Lana honesty is best? Clark I know you love Lana, and you'd go to the ends of the world for her but you have to think about this." Crystal says trying to keep calm. "You didn't tell mom and dad you were thinking of telling her did you?"
"I don't even know if I will yet. We were talking about helping you get better, and honesty came up. We wanted you to be honest and you were and I'm being honest with you, this isn't your fault, Tom and everything I mean."
"Yes it is and don't change the subject no matter what happens with me and Lex I will never tell him. You can't tell Lana, what if she reacts badly and tells someone? She's my best friend and I've never even told her."
"Crystal it's not your choice, it's-"
"Do you know how this could affect my life? Mom and dad's lives? Did you even think about that? "
"How could this affect your life?" Clark retorted angry
"If I lost my brother I don't think I could handle that all right? I lost my boyfriend but losing you would affect me even more ok?" Crystal hissed
Clark froze. "I'm sorry Crystal I didn't even think about that."
"Try to think about these kind of things ok?" Crystal answers wiping the tears off her face. "Everything is so screwed up. You couldn't even understand, I am going to have to attend the funeral of my boyfriend, well ex. But even though I'm with Lex I still feel so tied to Tom, I don't even know how to handle myself right now. And………" Crystal trails off looking at the doorway the color draining from her face. Clark turns slowly facing his greatest fear. Lana stood in the doorway looking at the two of them.
"What's going on?" She asks
OK cliffhanger lol sorry I told everyone I would have Clark/Lana in my story and don't worry I'm not going to break them up I could never do that….lol please R&R and if you have any suggestions I'm open to them. THANX!
"Clark….what are you doing here?" Lana asks opening the door
"Did Crystal come over?…… She left early my parents told her they didn't want her to see Lex anymore." Clark explains
"That wont stop her."
"I know it wont and I know that she's with Lex right now" Clark admits his voice softening
"Yet here you are, on my front porch." Lana says softly
"Yea…" Clark trails off looking away
"…………do you want to come in?"
"Thanks, I would" Clark walks in as Lana opens the door wider
"I think we need to talk."
"All right, what's up?"
"Well it's complicated….." Lana tells him
"And it has nothing to do with Crystal I'm guessing." Clark observes
"I want to be honest with you, honesty is best." Lana says taking a seat
"Yea, honesty is good."
"Don't talk though….it will make this easier…ok?"
Clark sat there in the chair with a coy smile on his face.
Lana caught onto his act and smiled. "Funny, Clark. I'm trying to be serious."
"All right, tell me, I'm listening and I want to know."
Lana takes a deep breath and stood up and began pacing "I don't think Crystal should be with Lex, he's to old for her." Lana began
"Lana you wanted to be honest about that? And I thought this wasn't about Crys."
"You said you wouldn't say anything." Lana protests before she continues "But I told Crystal that you can't help who you love, and that sometimes what you think is right it wrong and what you think is wrong is right…….. I think that the entire time I was talking about you."
Clark looks at Lana carefully to see if she was kidding, but her face was serious.
"I feel safe with Whitney and it feels right…too right. I don't like it, deep inside it feels more like an obligation then a relationship. So then I tell Crystal all of this, and I feel like such a huge hypocrite I mean I'm telling her maybe she should be with Lex and she tells me she loves Tom. Then she tells me maybe I should be with you, and I think she's right….but then I get so confused because Tom is dead and now Crystal is proclaiming her love for Lex. But I really think it was Lex she loved all along. I don't know what to do Clark and I couldn't tell this to Whitney or even Crystal because it's so indifferent right now. Like everything can change in a single second." Lana says finally stopping her pacing and looking into Clark's eyes
"Would this really be what you want, everything else aside?" Clark asks carefully
"I'm just so scared, it feels like my life can break like glass right now… I think this is what I want I feel like it is."
Not saying anything Clark gets up and cups Lana chin in his hands and kisses her. "Did that help any?" He whispers
"Yes."
"For the better?"
"Most definitely." Lana answers kissing him again. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"For listening to me, your the first person to listen to me in a while."
Clark closes his eyes
"What's wrong?" Lana asks worried
"Maybe that's our problem."
"What is?"
"Not listening to Crystal."
Lana nods in agreement "You're right, we're not."
"I don't want to be rude and after you just tell me all this for us to go and run to Crys."
"What should we do?" Lana asks
"Are you sure?"
"We have forever to work this out, but we may not have as much time to fix this with her." Lana answers firmly
"I don't know what do to though." Clark admits
"Did we really screw ourselves up so much in this stupid town that we don't even know how to listen to each other anymore or how to help each other?" Lana asks getting upset
"It's the secrets that keep us apart Lana, secrets and lies."
"Well then I don't want anymore of them, I want to be your girlfriend. I broke up with Whitney today before you came over, it was time."
"I want you to be my girlfriend too." Clark replies
"Good, so then we have to make this work and we have to be there for Crystal in any way."
"Right."
"So no more secrets and lies. All right Clark?"
Clark's breath catches in his throat. "R-right no more secrets."
"Good" Lana kisses him "Let's go find your sister."
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"Lana, Clark it's nice to see you both, together…." Martha says as they walk into the Kent house and she notices their entwined hands.
"Is Crys here? We need to talk to her." Clark says
"She is, she's not in the best of moods though. She skipped dinner went straight to bed. I don't blame her it hasn't been easy for her."
"We'll be upstairs if you need us." Clark tells his mom
"Good luck, trying to get her to talk I mean" Martha says
"Thanks." Clark replies
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"Crystal? Ow Lana watch out." Clark warns
"It's not my fault I can't see anything it's pitch black in here."
"Here's the light. Crystal!" Clark exclaims when he sees her sitting in a ball in the corner crying.
"Are you ok?" Lana goes over to her "Crystal talk to me."
"My….life…..is…a….mess…." Crystal cries through her sobs
"What's wrong I thought everything was going good." Lana asks while Clark hovers closer to the doorway feeling uncomfortable.
"Tom's dead. I know you both don't approve of Lex and I and neither do my parents. I don't even know if I should be with Lex now. I mean was it really worth it?"
"Was what worth it?" Lana asks softly sitting next to her
"Tom's parents dying, Tom dying? I just went to my boyfriend's parents funeral and now I'm supposed to go to my boyfriend's funeral? This is crazy I should be thinking about what I should wear to school tomorrow or about my history test. Or anything like that…….what don't I know?" Crystal asks her intuitions kicking in
"Uh….Clark and I, we're going out, we want to give it a try make it work. We were both right, I did feel too right with Whitney." Lana explains
"You think you two will be able to make this work?" Crystal asks
"Yes, we decided to be honest and open, it'll be for the best."
Crystal looks up and catches Clark's eye, he looks nervous, she understands immediately. "Lana, take it slowly, don't try to rush it ok?"
"Yea sure." Lana answers hesitantly "Listen I need to go, it's late, but I do want to talk to you again, but I think a night's sleep will do us all good." Lana says getting up. She gives Clark a kiss on the cheek "Night."
Clark watches her walk down the hall and then shuts the door.
"I don't want you to blame yourself about this." Clark says
"You said you'd be completely honest with her?" Crystal exclaims "I can't even be completely honest with anyone I ever meet, I'll have a husband and kids one day and I can never tell them! And you tell Lana honesty is best? Clark I know you love Lana, and you'd go to the ends of the world for her but you have to think about this." Crystal says trying to keep calm. "You didn't tell mom and dad you were thinking of telling her did you?"
"I don't even know if I will yet. We were talking about helping you get better, and honesty came up. We wanted you to be honest and you were and I'm being honest with you, this isn't your fault, Tom and everything I mean."
"Yes it is and don't change the subject no matter what happens with me and Lex I will never tell him. You can't tell Lana, what if she reacts badly and tells someone? She's my best friend and I've never even told her."
"Crystal it's not your choice, it's-"
"Do you know how this could affect my life? Mom and dad's lives? Did you even think about that? "
"How could this affect your life?" Clark retorted angry
"If I lost my brother I don't think I could handle that all right? I lost my boyfriend but losing you would affect me even more ok?" Crystal hissed
Clark froze. "I'm sorry Crystal I didn't even think about that."
"Try to think about these kind of things ok?" Crystal answers wiping the tears off her face. "Everything is so screwed up. You couldn't even understand, I am going to have to attend the funeral of my boyfriend, well ex. But even though I'm with Lex I still feel so tied to Tom, I don't even know how to handle myself right now. And………" Crystal trails off looking at the doorway the color draining from her face. Clark turns slowly facing his greatest fear. Lana stood in the doorway looking at the two of them.
"What's going on?" She asks
OK cliffhanger lol sorry I told everyone I would have Clark/Lana in my story and don't worry I'm not going to break them up I could never do that….lol please R&R and if you have any suggestions I'm open to them. THANX!