DISCLAIMER: I own none! None! except for the plot. Everything else belongs to the goddess JKR. I'm sorry! I have no body parts left to sacrifice!!!!!!
RATING: R to PG-13! Be forewarned! Slashy-slash slash! I'm evil, I know, you don't have to tell me.... mwahahahaha
Chapter 4: More Conversations, and Good Times Roll
*I'm such an idiot,* Colin thought, sobs wracking his small body. *Why did I go and do that?* Colin pounded the pillow under his head, and turned onto his back.
In the boy's seventh year dorm, Harry did the same. *I can't believe this. How did this happen? I'm such an idiot. How could I have not seen this? But...... I'm not like that. I love Ginny, right? RIGHT?! I don't know.... I'm so confused....... Colin, he can be so beautiful. But I don't love him, I love Ginny...*
And with that thought, Harry got up, and grabbed his silvery Invisibility Cloak. He put it on, and crept out of his dormitory, down the hall to the sixth years' dorm. He prodded the door handle with his wand, causing it to swing out without a sound. Harry glided in, shut the door quietly behind him, and looked around. He could hear the gentle breathing of all the other boys sleeping. One sound stood out among the others: the sound of suppressed sobbing. Harry knew that was Colin, so he quietly stepped across the room to the four-poster that contained Colin. Even though the scarlet hangings were shut tightly, the crying came through the thick velvet clearly.
Harry pulled out his wand, whispered "Lumos!" , and wrenched the hangings open. The wandlight glinted off Colin's honey-blond hair. Colin, suddenly feeling the cool draft coming in from the hangings, sat up, and looked wildly around for the disturbance. His eyes were bloodshot, and his nose was bright red as well. Harry gazed at Colin for a second, still covered by the Invisibility Cloak, then lowered his hood. Colin's eyes grew wide, and he gasped audibly. VERY audibly. In a flash, Harry put a hand over Colin's mouth, got in the bed while tugging the hangings shut at the same time. As they sat in the dark, Harry fumbled with his wand, and mumbled "Silencio!" With a silencing spell, they could talk freely.
"What are you doing here?" sputtered Colin, hurriedly using his pajama sleeve to wipe his face.
"I came to see you. We need to talk," said Harry seriously, with wandlight glinting on his glasses.
"About?..........." Colin trailed off as Harry began to speak.
"Colin, what happened a couple of hours ago, it's turned my life upside down. I mean, I always thought I was straight, and even Neville teased me for being straight as an arrow. But...... I don't know. Everyone expects me to have the answers. I usually do, but not this time," Harry said, while puckering up his brow. "I just don't know,"
"I love you, Harry, I honestly do. All I know is that I want to be with you," replied Colin, with the red draining from his face.
"I have a girlfriend, Colin," Harry said warningly.
"I know! But do you honestly love her?" Colin said unbelievingly.
"I do!" Harry said. Then seeing the look on Colin's face, and feeling his own guilt, he amended. "I thought I did......."
"See?" said Colin, sounding a bit triumphant.
"Colin, it's not that easy! Everyone expects me to marry her, including Ron and the rest of his family. Not to mention the staff, our friends, and I could go on as to say that's what the entire wizarding world expects of us. It's a lot of pressure, and it's also my chosen path," Harry replied, looking saddened at the thought.
"Did you choose it, or did it choose you?" Colin asked slyly.
"I did..... actually, I didn't. It's so hard to be me, to have everyone's eyes on you, always asking you questions about things you can't remember, and I just want to let it go. Let loose, and do things that no one thinks I'll ever do," Harry said, looking thoughtful.
"Like what?" Colin asked.
"Hm?" Harry said, still thinking about the things that no one expected him to do.
"What would you do, if you could do anything?" Colin asked again.
Harry looked as though he had a good idea, and he studied Colin for a few seconds before moving closer, so that he sat next to the younger boy.
"Things like this," Harry said, before taking Colin in a forceful kiss.
Their kiss was passionate and desperate. Harry used his tongue to slide Colin's mouth open, and fenced gently with his tongue. Colin responded by deepening the kiss, and licking Harry's lips before kissing his neck, with butterfly kisses on the jawbone. Harry groaned softly, before he took his shirt off and proceeded to unbutton Colin's. Colin shivered when the cool air hit his bare skin, but Harry wrapped Colin tighter into his arms. Harry quickly extinguished the wandlight, and he proceeded to have a night unlike any others he had spent in his life.