Merry stood outside the door of Pippin's room. Galadriel was in there.
Luckily Merry had not panicked, he had ran straight to her knowing that she
could do something. Hopefully she would be able to save him…hopefully it
was not too late. "Oh Pippin…why would you want to hurt yourself?" he
murmured and began to cry. A few minutes later the door creaked open and
the Lady of the Wood stepped out. Merry looked up and wiped his eyes,
there was something about this elf that struck hope in his heart. "Is
he…?" Merry began. Galadriel raised her hand to silence him. "Meriadoc,
your friend has suffered a great deal…not only physically but emotionally…"
she looked into the hobbit's eyes and smiled, "he's ok. Luckily he had only
slit his left wrist, we were able to save him." Merry brightened
considerably. "Can I see him?" Galadriel nodded. Be careful, little
one, Pippin has suffered…. Merry could hear her voice in his head. He
nodded and slipped into Pip's bedroom. He lay there quietly. His eyes were
shut and he looked peaceful. Merry crept closer and looked at his bandaged
wrist, a small sob escaped his lips. Pippin stirred and looked up at him.
"Pippin…?" Merry asked quietly "are you awake?" Pippin nodded. "I'm so
glad you're ok…I was so scared…Pippin…why?" Pippin sat there looking into
Merry's eyes but not seeing them at all, why was he still here? "Pippin?"
the quiet voice brought him back to reality. "Why did you try to hurt
yourself?" he asked again. "I don't know…I guess that I…" suddenly a
spasm passed over his face, "IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
He screamed. "Pippin…" Merry's face was anxious. "LEAVE ME ALONE, ALL OF
YOU, WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE!" Merry backed away to the door and
whimpered. He was scared; Pippin had never raised his voice, what was
wrong with him? He left the room.
Little Peregrin collapsed on his bed. Stupid Merry, couldn't even let me die… His face was contorted with anger but slowly relaxed into a puzzled expression. Why does he care about me? Is it just friendship or something else? then it slowly changed to sorrow. Why can't I just die in my sleep? Little one…do not think such thoughts Pippin was startled and looked up, Galadriel was in his room. You hold too much grief and fear in your heart…you have to let go, let things be. Pippin's face changed back to anger. "Why should I let go? Maybe I don't want to! I don't want to let things be…" His face relaxed "when they could have been different…when Gandalf could be alive." Tears poured down his face. "Hush, even though you believe that if you hadn't accidently knocked that skeleton into the well, things would have been the same…everything happens for a reason, Peregrin, hopefully you will see that in time."
The next few days Pippin rarely left his bed and rarely ate. The rest of the Fellowship were worried too, but none as much as Merry. Pippin emerged from his bed and looked up. His eyes were on the ceiling where a few rafters were. Pippin had a plan in his head. He had acquired a length of rope in the last few days and decided now was the time. He moved a chair under one of the rafters. Since his room was small he could just reach the ceiling. He threw the rope over the rafter and secured it, nice and tight. Then carefully with shaking hands Pippin tied the end in a noose. He carefully placed it around his neck. He like the feel of it…not rough but smooth and soft. It wouldn't chafe his neck. He took a deep breath and prepared to leap from the chair. The door opened and Legolas stepped in the room. Pippin cursed the elf in his head, it was like he knew what his plans were. "PIPPIN!" before he could even more, Legolas had him in his arms. He kicked and flailed but stopped and hung limply in the elf's arms. Tears were in his eyes. "Pippin, you are a danger to yourself."
Legolas went to Galadriel. "He attempted to hang himself, oh Lady of the Wood." He said bowing. Pippin was still in his arms. She looked at the limp form of Peregrin. Then in elfish she told Legolas that Pippin was not allowed to be alone anymore, someone must be with him at all times and to inform the others, but to be careful when breaking the news to Merry. He nodded left Pippin alone with her.
"Aragorn, Boromir, Gimli, Sam, Frodo, I have unfortunate new to tell you of. Little Peregrin attempted to take his own life again…fortunately he was not successful" "He tried to kill himself…again? How?" Boromir asked. "He attempted to hang himself from one of the rafters in his room" Frodo wept silently and rested his head against Sam's shoulder, who in turn stroked his head. " I have to inform Merry, do you know where he is?" Legolas asked. "I last saw him eating under a tree, over in the meadow." Aragorn told him. Legolas thanked him and ran to find him.
"Merry." Merry jumped at hearing his voice. "Sorry, didn't mean to startle you but I have news of Pippin." Merry stared at the grim face and despair began to well up in his heart. "Pippin has attempted to take his own life again. He tried to hang himself from the rafters in his room." Merry swayed. He looked into the elf's eyes and uncontrollable sobs escaped his lips. Legolas embraced him and he too began to cry.
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Little Peregrin collapsed on his bed. Stupid Merry, couldn't even let me die… His face was contorted with anger but slowly relaxed into a puzzled expression. Why does he care about me? Is it just friendship or something else? then it slowly changed to sorrow. Why can't I just die in my sleep? Little one…do not think such thoughts Pippin was startled and looked up, Galadriel was in his room. You hold too much grief and fear in your heart…you have to let go, let things be. Pippin's face changed back to anger. "Why should I let go? Maybe I don't want to! I don't want to let things be…" His face relaxed "when they could have been different…when Gandalf could be alive." Tears poured down his face. "Hush, even though you believe that if you hadn't accidently knocked that skeleton into the well, things would have been the same…everything happens for a reason, Peregrin, hopefully you will see that in time."
The next few days Pippin rarely left his bed and rarely ate. The rest of the Fellowship were worried too, but none as much as Merry. Pippin emerged from his bed and looked up. His eyes were on the ceiling where a few rafters were. Pippin had a plan in his head. He had acquired a length of rope in the last few days and decided now was the time. He moved a chair under one of the rafters. Since his room was small he could just reach the ceiling. He threw the rope over the rafter and secured it, nice and tight. Then carefully with shaking hands Pippin tied the end in a noose. He carefully placed it around his neck. He like the feel of it…not rough but smooth and soft. It wouldn't chafe his neck. He took a deep breath and prepared to leap from the chair. The door opened and Legolas stepped in the room. Pippin cursed the elf in his head, it was like he knew what his plans were. "PIPPIN!" before he could even more, Legolas had him in his arms. He kicked and flailed but stopped and hung limply in the elf's arms. Tears were in his eyes. "Pippin, you are a danger to yourself."
Legolas went to Galadriel. "He attempted to hang himself, oh Lady of the Wood." He said bowing. Pippin was still in his arms. She looked at the limp form of Peregrin. Then in elfish she told Legolas that Pippin was not allowed to be alone anymore, someone must be with him at all times and to inform the others, but to be careful when breaking the news to Merry. He nodded left Pippin alone with her.
"Aragorn, Boromir, Gimli, Sam, Frodo, I have unfortunate new to tell you of. Little Peregrin attempted to take his own life again…fortunately he was not successful" "He tried to kill himself…again? How?" Boromir asked. "He attempted to hang himself from one of the rafters in his room" Frodo wept silently and rested his head against Sam's shoulder, who in turn stroked his head. " I have to inform Merry, do you know where he is?" Legolas asked. "I last saw him eating under a tree, over in the meadow." Aragorn told him. Legolas thanked him and ran to find him.
"Merry." Merry jumped at hearing his voice. "Sorry, didn't mean to startle you but I have news of Pippin." Merry stared at the grim face and despair began to well up in his heart. "Pippin has attempted to take his own life again. He tried to hang himself from the rafters in his room." Merry swayed. He looked into the elf's eyes and uncontrollable sobs escaped his lips. Legolas embraced him and he too began to cry.
A great big thank you to all those who reviewed! I'm so glad you liked it, I really hope that you like the second chapter too.