Love; Breakdown Part II - Tom´s POV.
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The other day, I think it was the other day anyway, Sandrine asked how i was feeling.
How I am feeling?
I feel stupid, empty, lost.
I walk around at this Holodeck with a constant hangover. I don´t know how many drinks I´ve had today, I can´tcount them. I can´t count the onesI had yesterday either, I can´t remember what i did last week. But I was probably here at Sandrine´s. Is this the first sign that I´m turning in to an alcoholic? No, probably the tenth.
When B´Elanna told me that she didn´t love me anymore, my whole world inside fell apart. I know that she could see my decay through the expression in my eyes, she was always good at that.
After rushing out of Holodeck I went to my quarters and stayed there for a long time.
I don´t know how long, but it felt useless to leave, be nice to other people, do my work.
I *know* they wanted me to come out and talk to them, they knocked at my door, hailed me, sent me several messages. With 'them' I mean B´Elanna and Harry.
My ex-girlfriend and my ex- best friend. I wonder if it´s something between *them*.
I was also aware that Doc examined me, and that he declared me psychically unstable.
I know I´m not, it´s some kind of block in my mind. I *seem* far away but I *feel* near.
Captain Janeway came in here one day a few weeks ago I think, she putted the Medal For Valour on the bardesk in front of me.
I don´t want a cold medal, I want B´Elanna.
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continue?
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The other day, I think it was the other day anyway, Sandrine asked how i was feeling.
How I am feeling?
I feel stupid, empty, lost.
I walk around at this Holodeck with a constant hangover. I don´t know how many drinks I´ve had today, I can´tcount them. I can´t count the onesI had yesterday either, I can´t remember what i did last week. But I was probably here at Sandrine´s. Is this the first sign that I´m turning in to an alcoholic? No, probably the tenth.
When B´Elanna told me that she didn´t love me anymore, my whole world inside fell apart. I know that she could see my decay through the expression in my eyes, she was always good at that.
After rushing out of Holodeck I went to my quarters and stayed there for a long time.
I don´t know how long, but it felt useless to leave, be nice to other people, do my work.
I *know* they wanted me to come out and talk to them, they knocked at my door, hailed me, sent me several messages. With 'them' I mean B´Elanna and Harry.
My ex-girlfriend and my ex- best friend. I wonder if it´s something between *them*.
I was also aware that Doc examined me, and that he declared me psychically unstable.
I know I´m not, it´s some kind of block in my mind. I *seem* far away but I *feel* near.
Captain Janeway came in here one day a few weeks ago I think, she putted the Medal For Valour on the bardesk in front of me.
I don´t want a cold medal, I want B´Elanna.
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continue?
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