Love; Breakdown Ch. 5 - Chakotay's POV (His Resolution)
"So, his sister died?"
My words, my stupid question.
"Yes."
BElanna's answer was barely audible. I had to exert myself to hear any of what she told.
Kathryn asked if anyone had any ideas about how we could get Tom back.
"One thing is for sure, Captain; he won't get any better if someone walks in there and says ` I know what happened to Anna, and I can understand you'."
Harry was right. We couldn't do it that way, Tom wouldn't believe it, nobody can understand how he feels right now.
At least he's awake again, he woke up yesterday.
A few uneasy days went by, we didn't know if he would make it or not.
Even I worried, though I've never liked Tom Paris.
But, I too have a heart, and noone deserves this faith, alcoholized , trapped in oneself.
That's why I revealed the idea which had been nibbling at my mind for weeks.
"Why don't we do a holographic Anna Paris, and let her tell Tom to come out of his shell and stop drinking?"
Again; my words, my stupid, ridiculous idea.
I had to catch my breath after saying that, it felt like if I breathed during the time I talked, it wouldn't come out right, if it came out at all.
Feeling pretty embarrassed, I looked up at the other people in the briefing room.
They all nodded encouraging.
It might not have been such a bad idea anyway.
At least, Kathyrn seemed to think it was good, because she started giving orders.
"BElanna, you search the Database for pictures of Anna Paris.
Harry, doctor, your job will be to make that hologram, use the same technics as when you did Gul Lamere. And Chakotay... thank you."
She winked and smile at me, that day was the best I'd had on months.
"Wait."
Neelix' voice.
"Will Tom fall for it?"
Joy-killer.
"He will fall for it, Neelix. He want's his big, strong sister to tell him it's allright, tell him to move on with his life. That's what I'd like to be told if I was... like Tom."
Poor BElanna, she hurts so much. I just wish I knew why.
I mean it's not like it's *her* fault or something?!
Six days later was the holographic Anna finished.
The Bridge, as it looked after Tom's return to civilian were gathered in a corner at the free Holodeck .
Kathryn, Tuvok, BElanna, Harry, Neelix, Doc and me.
"OK, here it goes."
Harry swallowed, I could see how very nervous he was. Ill bet he was thinking `will this work or not?' Anyway, he closed his eyes and pressed a button on the console he stood in front.
The room shimmered but for once the walls didn't change to a garden, a bar, a beach or what it was.
But there was one thing different, in the middle of the Holodeck stood a girl, maybe ten years old, looking around curiously.
She's clad in a pair of black jeans, a blue sweater and a pair of white sneakers. The tip of her long, flaxen pony-tail reached down between her shoulder blades.
"Hello." Kathryn took another step towards the girl.
"I'm Kathryn Janeway."
"Hello, Captain. I'm Anna Paris. Where am I?"
"You're at the Federation's starship U.S.S. Voyager."
How could she sound so professional? She's talking to a dead girl.
"*When* am I?"
"This is the year 2376."
"But that's not what it was this morning. I checked."
"Look here, Anna, follow our Doctor to Sickbay. He'll answer all of your questions.
Computer, end program."
The room shimmered once again and Anna Paris was gone.
I suddenly felt evidently cold, like shed filled the room with warmth and happiness, and it disappeared with her.
I got the impression she would have been a wonderful person id she had gotten the chance to grow up.
Tom Paris might have had the potential of being a wonderful person once too, but his life has been filled with too much tragedy, too much for that potential to be used.
My thought was interrupted by Kathryn's firm voice.
"Harry, install the matrix in Sickbay.
B`Elanna, go and get some rest, you look horrible.
Doctor, prepare to give up your ticket to the Bridge for a while, our little messenger needs it in order to walk in and out of Sandrine's natural and properly.
Chakotay, you have the Bridge."
~
Tha1n0nlYVoy_Girl 9/2 2002
continue?
"So, his sister died?"
My words, my stupid question.
"Yes."
BElanna's answer was barely audible. I had to exert myself to hear any of what she told.
Kathryn asked if anyone had any ideas about how we could get Tom back.
"One thing is for sure, Captain; he won't get any better if someone walks in there and says ` I know what happened to Anna, and I can understand you'."
Harry was right. We couldn't do it that way, Tom wouldn't believe it, nobody can understand how he feels right now.
At least he's awake again, he woke up yesterday.
A few uneasy days went by, we didn't know if he would make it or not.
Even I worried, though I've never liked Tom Paris.
But, I too have a heart, and noone deserves this faith, alcoholized , trapped in oneself.
That's why I revealed the idea which had been nibbling at my mind for weeks.
"Why don't we do a holographic Anna Paris, and let her tell Tom to come out of his shell and stop drinking?"
Again; my words, my stupid, ridiculous idea.
I had to catch my breath after saying that, it felt like if I breathed during the time I talked, it wouldn't come out right, if it came out at all.
Feeling pretty embarrassed, I looked up at the other people in the briefing room.
They all nodded encouraging.
It might not have been such a bad idea anyway.
At least, Kathyrn seemed to think it was good, because she started giving orders.
"BElanna, you search the Database for pictures of Anna Paris.
Harry, doctor, your job will be to make that hologram, use the same technics as when you did Gul Lamere. And Chakotay... thank you."
She winked and smile at me, that day was the best I'd had on months.
"Wait."
Neelix' voice.
"Will Tom fall for it?"
Joy-killer.
"He will fall for it, Neelix. He want's his big, strong sister to tell him it's allright, tell him to move on with his life. That's what I'd like to be told if I was... like Tom."
Poor BElanna, she hurts so much. I just wish I knew why.
I mean it's not like it's *her* fault or something?!
Six days later was the holographic Anna finished.
The Bridge, as it looked after Tom's return to civilian were gathered in a corner at the free Holodeck .
Kathryn, Tuvok, BElanna, Harry, Neelix, Doc and me.
"OK, here it goes."
Harry swallowed, I could see how very nervous he was. Ill bet he was thinking `will this work or not?' Anyway, he closed his eyes and pressed a button on the console he stood in front.
The room shimmered but for once the walls didn't change to a garden, a bar, a beach or what it was.
But there was one thing different, in the middle of the Holodeck stood a girl, maybe ten years old, looking around curiously.
She's clad in a pair of black jeans, a blue sweater and a pair of white sneakers. The tip of her long, flaxen pony-tail reached down between her shoulder blades.
"Hello." Kathryn took another step towards the girl.
"I'm Kathryn Janeway."
"Hello, Captain. I'm Anna Paris. Where am I?"
"You're at the Federation's starship U.S.S. Voyager."
How could she sound so professional? She's talking to a dead girl.
"*When* am I?"
"This is the year 2376."
"But that's not what it was this morning. I checked."
"Look here, Anna, follow our Doctor to Sickbay. He'll answer all of your questions.
Computer, end program."
The room shimmered once again and Anna Paris was gone.
I suddenly felt evidently cold, like shed filled the room with warmth and happiness, and it disappeared with her.
I got the impression she would have been a wonderful person id she had gotten the chance to grow up.
Tom Paris might have had the potential of being a wonderful person once too, but his life has been filled with too much tragedy, too much for that potential to be used.
My thought was interrupted by Kathryn's firm voice.
"Harry, install the matrix in Sickbay.
B`Elanna, go and get some rest, you look horrible.
Doctor, prepare to give up your ticket to the Bridge for a while, our little messenger needs it in order to walk in and out of Sandrine's natural and properly.
Chakotay, you have the Bridge."
~
Tha1n0nlYVoy_Girl 9/2 2002
continue?