Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer. There is not real hinting at who the couple is but whom I wrote them as is, Willow and Spike. I do not own What I Really Meant To Say. That belongs to Cyndi Thompson, and who ever else own the rights to it.

HER P.O.V.

What I Really Meant to Say

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It took me by surprise

When I saw you standing there

Close enough to touch

Breathing the same air

You asked me how I've been

I guess that's when I smiled and said just fine,

Oh but baby, I was lying

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I walked into the party and there you were. I hadn't seen you in a few weeks. I missed you so much, but you were there with a date. I guess there was never anything between us after all.

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What I really meant to say

Is I'm dying here inside

And I miss you more each day,

There's not a night I haven't cried

And baby here's the truth

I'm still in love with you,

That's what I really meant to say

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God I miss you so much, but I can't tell you. How could I? You never loved me…

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And as you walked away

The echo of my words

Cut just like a knife

Cut so deep it hurt

I held back the tears

Held onto my pride

And watched you go

I wonder if you'll ever know

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After you walked away, I listened to what I had said, and I kicked myself. I should have told you the truth. I should have told you…

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What I really meant to say

Is I'm dying here inside

And I miss more each day

There's not a night I haven't cried

And baby here's the truth

I'm still in love with you

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I said it… now If only I could say it to you. But I can't do that; I'm not strong enough…

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What I really meant to say

is I'm really not that strong

No matter how I try

I'm still holdin' on

And here's the honest truth

I'm still in love with you

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I wish I could hold you one last time, to see that smile that you'd smile just for me… but they were never mine. Just like you never were. Oh god… I miss you so much; I never should have left…

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Yeah, that's what I really meant to say

That's what I really meant to say

That's what I really meant to say.

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That's what I should have said. Not that I was just okay and fine. I should have said the truth…

The-End