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A Missing Heart
Chapter 12
He looked back to see both cats, Mamoru, and Minako following him... albeit hesitantly. He glanced at his fellow pilots and wasn't at all surprised at the looks that he was receiving from them. He then locked gazes with Usagi, his eyes softening for a brief moment, and then left the room.
Heero walked down the hallway, leaving a safe distance from the nurse's room. He straightened and finally locked eyes with the people that were following him. He frowned and finally relinquished his hold on his gun, putting it back behind his pants. "Talk."
Minako looked at him uncertainly, not sure how or where to start. She looked down at both Artemis and Luna, trying to receive an answer as to how she should begin the explanation.
Then she looked back up at Mamoru, only to see that Mamoru and Heero had their eyes locked in a gaze... the gaze wasn't exactly friendly either.
Heero waited patiently, not at all happy to see them. He locked gazes with who Usa-chan had told him was her ex-boyfriend. Sending him a warning look if he dared try anything with his Usa-chan again. He growled and spoke again. "Well, talk. I know all of you can talk... including the cats."
A gasp was heard from Luna and she finally spoke. "How did you know?"
Heero sent her a scornful look. "How else would I?"
Mamoru then finally broke the silence. "You haven't changed at all. You're still exactly like how you were when Usako introduced you to me before I left again for America."
Heero just sent him a glare, not at all bothering to speak about the comment... both of them silently reliving the moment.
*Flashback*
"Mamo-chan..."
Mamoru turned around, surprised to hear the voice. "Usako, what are you doing here?"
Usagi giggled and smiled. "To say good-bye of course. You didn't expect me to not wish you farewell did you?"
Mamoru shook his head, a smile making its way on his face. "Of course not." He then turned his attention to the teenage boy whose hand she held. "Now this must be the Heero-chan, that I've heard so much about." He said teasingly.
Usagi immediately started blushing, while Heero just silently watched the exchange. "This is Heero. I thought that you might want to meet him."
Mamoru then kept his gaze on Heero, both of them meeting each other's gazes. Silently, sizing each other up. "It's good to finally meet you."
Heero nodded his head and relinquished the gaze that the both of them were holding. Seeing as he found the other man not in the least bit threatening.
An announcement was then heard in the airport, announcing that Mamoru's flight was about to leave.
He looked at the both of them, inwardly happy that his Usako had finally found someone. "I better go."
Usagi nodded, unshed tears seen on her face. "I'll see you soon right?"
"Of course."
Usagi then let go of Heero's hand and gave Mamoru a hug. "Luna and Artemis are going to come and visit you in a few days." He nodded in understanding and then she whispered softly. "Thank you."
Mamoru looked at her surprised. "For what?"
"For understanding what no one else seems to understand. For just being there."
Mamoru gave her a soft smile and ruffled her hair. "Anything for you." He laughed, then turned his gaze on Heero. "Take care of her."
Heero nodded his head and spoke. "With my life."
Mamoru looked at him, startled by his answer. He loves her. He then gave Heero a beaming smile, proud and relived to know that his Usako, his only family was going to be taken care of.
Picking up his bag, he turned to leave, but not before saying, "Don't let them control you, Usako. Live your life the way you want to. Don't let them control it. Don't let destiny decide for you." And with that he walked away.
Usagi stared after him, tears making its way down her face. Heero then suddenly pulled her to him, holding her close. Pained to see the tears on her face.
Usagi then spoke, silently whispering a promise. "Don't worry, I won't let them Mamo-chan. I'll sooner die then let them take him away from me."
Heero pulled her even closer to him, startled by her admission. He gave her a soft kiss on the forehead, then softly started to kiss her tears away. Just holding her close and giving her the comfort that she needed.
*End of Flashback*
Heero shook his head, to rid himself of the reverie. "Start talking."
"We came here to protect Usako."
Heero gave him a sharp look. "Protect her from what?"
Minako then spoke up, no longer afraid of Heero. "Protect her from the other senshi. They want to bring her back to our world."
"And you're not here to do that?"
Luna gave an indignant yelp. "Of course not. We came here to make sure that she found you and to protect her from the other senshi. We only want what's best for her."
Heero raised a brown eyebrow. "And what exactly is best for her?"
"You."
Heero looked at Mamoru startled. He regained his composure once more and put up an indifferent look. "What makes you think that I'm what's best for her?"
Minako looked at him sadly. "Because she risked and gave up everything to be with you once more."
Heero scowled at Minako and sourly replied. "She wouldn't have had to do that, if you senshi had just accepted what she wanted."
Minako looked down ashamed, tears making its way down her face. "I know and for that I'm sorry."
Before another word could be spoken between the two, Artemis interrupted. "Look it doesn't matter what happened. All that matters now is that we have to somehow protect Usagi from the other senshi. They're bound to arrive anytime soon."
Heero turned his glare on the white-furred cat. "That's where your wrong. I want to know what happened to her to cause her to not even have any memory or recollection of me or her past."
"She died."
Heero looked at Minako sharply. "What?"
Mamoru then spoke up. "She committed suicide shortly after you were sent away. I wasn't there, but this was what I was told."
Luna then continued. "She died and because of her importance in the world, she wasn't allowed to rest in peace.... the higher gods wouldn't let her die. So she appeared to be dead to everyone, when in reality she was just sent to this dimension, to this world. The only drawback of it all is that she was sent here with no memory of her past."
Heero nodded his head, accepting the answer given, clenching his fist, pained and angered to know that his Usa-chan had died because of him.
Artemis then spoke once more, contributing to the story that was given. "Now her memory's resurfacing, probably because her subconscious knows of the oncoming danger and is trying to prepare her for it."
Heero contemplated everything that he was told. It all made sense. It was no wonder that Usagi kept on fainting. It was because her brain was over loading because of all the memories that were resurfacing.
And now the other senshi were going to try and bring her back to the other world... try to take her away from him once more. They can surely try, but they won't succeed this time.
"We need to work together to make sure that they don't take her away." Mamoru said. "We need to protect her from them and we can only do that with your help."
Heero once again nodded his head. "Mission accepted." He whispered softly, then spoke to them once more. "How much time do we have?"
"We don't know." Minako replied softly. "They can come at any moment."
Heero looked away, lost in his own thoughts. "I won't let them succeed."
"Neither will we. We won't let them take her." Minako whispered fiercely.
Heero looked at them dangerously. "They won't take her away. I'll kill them if they do."
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The others looked on as Heero and the man, the blonde teen, and the 2 cats left the room. Surprise clearly seen on their faces, that Heero, the unsociable one, the Perfect Soldier, would know these people that just seemed to appear in the room.
"What the hell is going on?" Duo nearly shouted, not liking that he had no idea of what was occurring. He didn't like being left in the blue. He was the guy's best friend, or at least he liked to think so... he should know these things.
Wufei looked at him irritated. "That's what we'd all like to know Maxwell."
"I wasn't aware that Heero knew of others."
"None of us knew, Trowa. He never did tell us much of himself. We know almost nothing of his past except for... you know." Quatre replied hesitantly.
"And we still don't know what happened to him when he disappeared a year ago. He won't tell us... He won't tell ME!!!" Duo cried out indignantly.
Wufei looked at him skeptically. "Why would Yuy ever tell you anything?"
Duo started sputtering. "Because... because he's my best friend."
Wufei looked at him and laughed. "Of course he is, Maxwell.... of course he is."
Before an argument could take place between the two, Milliardo stepped in. "So none of you know those people?"
They all looked at him and shook their heads. "We've never seen them before..." Quatre replied.
"But they seemed to know Usagi." Trowa interrupted.
"Yes, they did." Quatre insisted.
Usagi watched the whole exchange with blank eyes. Uncertain emotions and feelings were resurfacing from her. The visions and the flashbacks suddenly coming to mind. I know them. She was certain that she did. The familiarity that she felt around the man, the girl, and the two cats was uncanny. Could I be this Usagi that she seemed to think I was? Could I be Usagi and Serenity?
She suddenly gasped and fell to the ground, as her head started to pound... immediately getting everyone's attention on her. Her vision started to blur, she couldn't see straight. Her heart and head was pounding.
"Usagi, what's wrong?" That was Milliardo.
"Are you alright Usagi?" Trowa.
"Ms. Usagi..." Quatre.
"Whoa... what the hell?" Duo.
"What's wrong with the onna?" Wufei.
Usagi held onto her head tightly. Trying to squeeze away the pain, trying to make it stop. It hurt... so much. What's wrong with me? She suddenly got a flash in her head and she chocked out. "Venus.... Endy...." And with that she saw nothing more than darkness. (AN. I know she seems to be fainting a lot... but come on, if you had all those things going around in your head and all the pain cuz of it, wouldn't you be fainting or wanting to faint too?)
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I found her.
She got out her communicator without wasting another moment. Pressing the all-call, so that all the senshi would see her face and hear her, she told them. "I found her." She was then met with cries of disbelief and joy. Ignoring them, she replied. "Meet at Rei's temple. We'll discuss what we will have to do there."
And with that said, the Senshi of Pluto closed her communicator and leaned against her garnet rod in exhaustion. Silently preparing herself for what would undoubtedly become a difficult battle in trying to bring back Usagi.
Pluto looked up once more to watch the events that were occurring. We have to get there soon... get there before the princess remembers everything. It would be much easier if we did. Frowning, she left the Time Gates to go meet everyone at the temple.
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There was too many things going through her head. She couldn't handle it all. Too many people... too many faces... too much emotion...
It hurt. Her head hurt so much. And her heart. Her heart seemed to be in as much pain as her mind. Why is this happening to me? She held onto her head in pain... Make it stop, make it stop...
But it didn't stop. Her mind just kept on getting assaulted with image after image. Never stopping, never halting... it just kept on flashing with different images. Different visions of what she now had come to accept as her past. Different images of her in a beautiful white gown... known as Princess Serenity. Different images of the people in her life.
Queen Serenity, her mother.
Prince Milliardo, her brother.
Venus, Jupiter, Mars, and Mercury, her own royal court and protectors.
Luna and Artemis, her mother's advisors.
Prince Endymion, her beloved Prince of Earth.
I don't want any of this. Make it go away... But it wouldn't go away. Her mind wouldn't listen to her, she touched her face and was surprised to feel tears. She had been crying. Crying over the images that she was seeing. Why?
"Because they were of your past... and your past was a painful one."
Usagi looked up in surprise, finally taking in the surroundings she was in. It was just a white void, nothing more, nothing less. She searched for the holder of the voice and found a beautiful woman, whose light lavender-white hair was done in the same hairstyle as her own. Soft lavender eyes were watching her every movement and the pure, white gown that she was wearing showed her rank.
She's beautiful... and is the one from my dreams...
The woman gave a small laugh, the sound like chimes. "You were never one to keep quiet, so speak your mind, little one."
Usagi looked up at the woman in surprise. "You're the woman that was in that vision I saw... the flashback. You were Serenity's mother."
The lavender haired woman nodded, her eyes holding a motherly look to them. "Yes, I was and am Serenity's mother... your mother, Queen Serenity."
Usagi gasped in shock. "That's not possible..."
"It's very much possible." Queen Serenity paused and studied her closely. "You're memories are awakening, you know that what I say is true."
"I just can't believe it." Usagi shook her head in denial, but asked. "So what I'm seeing is my past?"
"It is... you can say that what your seeing is your two past lives." Queen Serenity replied.
Usagi shook her head once more. "I don't understand."
"Your first life was as my daughter Princess Serenity of the Moon Kingdom. Your memories of that time have almost all awakened, so you know this." Queen Serenity said softly. "Your second life, when you were reincarnated because of the occurrence in the Moon Kingdom was as Tsukino Usagi."
"How come I don't hold much memories of my life as Tsukino Usagi?" She asked curiously, her eyes searching her mother's.
Queen Serenity avoided her eyes. Not wanting or able to tell her daughter of all the pain that she had had to endure in that life. She answered simply, not revealing anything. "Because you were to receive your memories of your first life first... and then the second one."
Usagi nodded her head in understanding, not entirely believing the answer. Then she noticed that the pain in her mind had stopped. She could think clearly again. And all she could think about was the awakened memories of her first life.
"It doesn't hurt anymore because you have now acknowledged the memories that you were receiving. You no longer deny the knowledge of your past."
"Will all my memories awaken soon?" Usagi asked. She wanted to know more of her past. She never thought it possible that her past would be this confusing... but interesting, yet painful.
Queen Serenity nodded her head sadly. "You will... but you may regret having ever remembered."
Usagi looked up in surprise. "What do you mean?"
"There's more to your life than what it seems." She answered cryptically.
"So who am I really? Am I Princess Serenity or Tsukino Usagi? Is my name now, Usagi Merquise, my third life?"
Her mother looked at her sadly. "Understand this, little bunny. You have technically only lived 2 lives... not 3. Usagi Merquise was just a name that you acquired when you were brought into the care of Noin and Milliardo, with no memories of how you ended up with them in the first place."
"I don't understand this." Usagi whispered, her eyes holding unshed tears. "Help me understand. I understand my life as Serenity, but as Tsukino Usagi... There's too many gaps in my memory... and most of what I've seen have been painful... and some don't make sense at all."
Queen Serenity gathered her daughter in her arms... holding her shaking form. "I wish I could help, but I can't. You must remember it yourself. Just know this, you are both Serenity and Tsukino Usagi... Usagi Merquise was a name just made up, you were never born with that name, so technically you are not Usagi Merquise."
"Why can't you tell me, mother? I want to know." Usagi whispered hoarsely. "Is my past that painful that even you cannot tell me?"
Queen Serenity just held her close and whispered. "It is, little one... it is." Usagi looked up at her in surprise. "You are Serenity and Usagi, but since Serenity was reincarnated into Tsukino Usagi, then you are Tsukino Usagi."
Usagi was released from her mother's arms. "So I'm Tsukino Usagi. As soon as my memories of Tsukino Usagi is awakened, I will remember as to why I ended up with no memory at all in the first place?"
Queen Serenity nodded her head. "You will. You already hold all of your memories as Princess Serenity. It is only a matter of time before you remember your life as Usagi."
Usagi nodded her head. Losing her thoughts in the images that she witnessed before her mother came. Milliardo, my brother.... Venus, Jupiter, Mercury, and Mars, my court... Luna and Artemis, my advisors... Endymion, my love...
Queen Serenity looked at her sadly, as she was lost in her reverie. This is only going to complicate matters... with her incomplete memories. She hardly remembers her life as Usagi... and with what she does remember, she can't make sense of... so she ignores them... an unwise decision, little one.
So I finally figured out a part of my past. My name's Tsukino Usagi and I am the reincarnated Princess Serenity. My mother succeeded in our rebirth after the Moon Kingdom's destruction. Usagi suddenly got a dreamy look on her face, contemplating on her life as Serenity... and at the moment forgetting everything else but that. I can't wait to see Endy again... now that I finally remember him.
So??? *laughs* Hope you guys like this new chapter. For the people that are slightly confused this is what happened : Usagi remembers her life as Princess Serenity, she has all her memories of it. But her life as Tsukino Usagi, she can't make sense of what she does remember cuz she doesn't have all her memories for it, so she ignores them, leaving her with only the memories of Princess Serenity and her life as Usagi Merquise. Don't worry this is still a Usagi/Heero story. PLEASE REVIEW!!! Thanx.
~Akiko