Chapter 1

Tuxedo Kamen rushed to her side. It was to late as he checked her pulse. SHE had died. HER. He was crying openly. Silently. Just CRYING. He couldn't stop. He didn't care who saw it. There was no getting her back this time. She wasn't just in a stasis. She was DEAD! He barley realized the rest of the senshi moving towards him. The enemy was long gone. Probably angered with himself that he lost what he wanted by killing her. He didn't care. WHY should he? He not only killed the one he loves. But the princess who was needed to make everything right. He had an onset of flash backs. As he rocked back and forth with her in his arms ignoring the world and blood soaking into his clothes.

* Flash back*

"Ordangoed Princess why can't you do anything right?"

"Ordango? I- HOW DARE YOU CALL ME THAT! I COULD HAVE YOU PUT IN JAIL!" Endymion loved to tease Serenity at the tender age of 9.

"You can't. Mother wouldn't allow it."

"OOOHHH, you make me so mad!"

He had laughed then but later he would see how much time he wasted by denying his feelings.

*End flash back*

*Flash back*

"Sere- Have I told you how much I loved you?"

Serenity looked thoughtful. She finally drawled it out. "Not… recently no…"

Endymion growled and tackled her. They laid on the ground side by side. "Then I'll say it now. I love you more than anything."

"Oh Endy, I love you too!" They ended that conversation and every conversation after that until they bid good night with a kiss.

*End flash back*

(AN: I'm just going to skip the ending of the silver millennium. I mean you all know it and the first season ones…)

*Flash back*

"Usagi, I'm sorry but I don't love you any more. I thought I did but I was fooling my self. I only loved Serenity and you're not her." Oh how he lied. He left with out looking back and seemed to ignore all her cries. His heart shattered into a million pieces as he listened to her cry. He thought this was the hardest thing he was ever going to have to do.

"Mamo-chan." Usagi's last desperate plea, made him halt when she thought he was out of range. If only she knew.

*End flash back*

(If people are going to do the nightmares then do them right…)

*Flash back*

And do you Chiba Mamoru, take Tuskino Usagi to be your lawfully wedded wife… (I don't know what they say in Japan.) I do…

And do you Tuskino Usagi take Chiba Mamoru to be your lawfully wedded husband?

I do.

Any one against this couple speak now or forever hold your peace… I now pronounce you man and wi…

Usagi screamed out as everything got pitch black. She was being pulled away. Mamoru dived for her. Grabbing her hand. They were transported to the roof tops of the starlight tower. For a grime second he thought of the irony of the situation always ending up there. Mamoru was currently trying to pull Usagi back onto the roof. He was loosing his grip when he was pushed from behind. His grip slipped and he almost lost her. She was sinking mm. By mm. But he was talking to her trying to grab her again. When she slipped totally he was going to get a better grip with his other hand. NO!! "That is why you must stay away from Serenity." A mysterious voice said.

Mamoru woke sweating. He's had that dream for a month now. And he had broken up with her a little over 3 days ago and he was still getting the nightmares. He couldn't be with her because if her was he would be the cause for her death. He'd rather have her emotionally harmed and still living.

*End Flash Back*

(AN: I'm skipping any get back together scenes.)

*Flash back*

Usagi was up ahead talking animatedly to her friends not yet knowing he was there. He smiled. 'Kami I love her.' Minako pointed him out to her. Much to the disappointment of Rei. She must still hate it that I get so much of her best friend's time. He forgot all about Rei as Usagi bounced over to him. He put his arm around Usagi's waist as he started to lead her away from her friends. Usagi waved good bye to them as we walked she talked non-stop. I was just watching her and I smiled. Usagi missed it. We stopped by the docks to watch the sunset. I was only watching Usako. I wrapped my arms around when she seemed a little chilled. I'm sure the other girls were watching. We seemed to be the only entertainment for them. I pulled Usagi close and bent to whisper in her ear.

"Kami, I love you Usako." I felt Usako smile and turn towards me. Wrapping her arms around my neck she replied with a few choice words that held great meaning. In a breathy tone she whispered back.

"I've been waiting all day for you to say that. I love you too." And with that we kissed. I'm sure if her father saw us at that point I would be a dead man. Even if I did fight Youma on a daily basis.

*End flash back*

(An: I'm sure you're getting tired of me and my flash backs by now… So good news only one left!)

*Flash back*

I turned around from my own mini battle with a male, part frog, part human, and part spoon youma when I heard Mars shout at Usako. I turned to see her destroy one while another attacked. I forgot my own situation as I raced for my love. Dodging Youma seemed to slow me down tremendously. I think I shouted out to her. I remember hearing the rest of the senshi do the same while the enemy shouted out a single no. Then all youma blocking me ceased to exist, in its place a warming light that faded out. I knew then that it was Usako's last gift to us. She didn't want to leave us with out her and if she had to then she didn't want to leave us weakened to any extant.

I was maybe 20 feet from her when I heard her whisper 1 last word. 'No USAKO,' I shouted mentally. My heart felt like it was being ripped out shred by shred. I was wrong the hardest thing I was going to do was learn how to say good bye. 'Don't Usako, don't talk, save your strength. She whispered the only word that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Gomen. I reached her just as she fell to the ground.

*End flash back*

As Tuxedo Kamen rocked back and forth with his love in his arms he whispered over and over again. "I should have been closer. I should have been closer." The rest of the senshi wanted to try and comfort him but no comfort was to be given. Their thoughts were all akin.

Don't you hate me yet? Well I've ended another chapter. Let me explain about the spoon you're all wondering about. I couldn't think of anything and I was looking for a stupid prop and I had just finished squash/soup and I saw the spoon inside the bowl that was in front of me.