Chapter 3: Don't Forget
Hermione's skin against her tounge. Warm, sweet, salt, sugar. A natural intoxicant. Robes taken off. More areas to explore. Gasps. Hands caressing. Blood. Blood? Cries of pain. Terrified eyes looking at the spot that just a second before was caressed and now bleeding. "I can't stand you touching me…"
Ginny woke up and sighed. The dream felt too close to reality to be classified as a nightmare. She would never let me touch her. Wouldn't find it weird if she actually started to bleed.
i'm my worst critic
maybe the only one
but it doesn't matter
i still feel like none
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Suicide safe. Ginny looked around in the bathroom. Not even a mirror. Maybe I could drown myself in the toilet but that would be too disgraceful, even for me. She sat down on the toilet seat and looked down on her wrist. Wonder if they've seen my other scars. My 'Hermione'.
A knock on the door. Madam Pomfrey's worried voice asking if she's ready. No peace for little Ginny. She stood up with a sigh and walked out.
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"Why Ginny?"
"I don't know."
"Did we do anything wrong?"
"Yes. If it weren't for you everything would be perfectly fine! For fuck sake! Don't look like that. I was being sarcastic. Don't ask so stupid questions!"
Ginny tought back on the mornings conversation. It had felt ok to talk to them. Not that good. Just ok. She really felt she needed to state the fact that everything wasn't suddenly fine. So that I don't forget.
i always believe them
i always forget
and sooner or later
i'm down there again
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Wonder what Hermione was doing here. She's a friend. I'm jut being paranoid. Of course she looks at me with pity. I'm fucking mental case. She doesn't know anything. She can not know! Ginny was completely unaware of the fact that she was tearing her arm open by scratching it furiously.
Again she was put to sleep by Madam Pomfrey. This is growing into a habit…
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A/N: It's been a while. I'm lazy.. Bad Nest! *kicks herself* Flowers to all the reviewers and readers. And everybody else too. Just because i'm so nice!