Ch.2- Brother, My Brother
Chapter 2 in Solo Saxophone.
Kari looked at me in a weird manner. "Takeru, are you okay?" she asked me, apprehensively. She layed a passionate kiss on me cheek and I backed off as if a dagger had just pierced through my heart. Everything I knew, everyone I loved, turned to crap.
Tai looked at me in a weird manner. I wondered if he sensed it in me. Perhaps he could, he sensed it in Matt. He and Matt, my older brother, had been dating since Piedmon had been destroyed. Ever since then, the only thing that could seperate them was death. Tai smiled at me afterwards. "Well, I have places to go and things to do see ya guys." Tai said.
"Bye Tai!" Kari and I answered in unison.
"Kari, can you run along and line up for the tickets, I have to talk with T.K for a second." Tai said.
"Sure big bro!" Kari answered with a smile on her face. I could still see it though, the look of worry and shock on her face. What could I do though? Tell her I don't love her and that Davis has been my love all along. How had Tai and Matt done it without hurting their girlfriends? Did they just tell them straight out.
"Well?" Tai asked.
"Well what!" I shot back angrily. Tai backed up a couple of steps. "Oh, I didn't mean it that way."
"I think I know what's going on with you, do you have anything to tell me." Tai asked, sounding like he actually cared. But he didn't. I felt so alone in the world, it was as if I were a mere thought that just happened to receive a spark of life, able to havea consciousness, but have no impact upon the physical realm in anyway.
"I do have something to tell you. It's that I... I..." The huge lump in my throat called fear was way too much for me. I cracked under it's power. "No Tai, I have nothing to tell you."
"Well, I can't force it out of you. There will come a time where you must admit it, otherwise, it will destroy you." Tai read me like a book. "Goodbye, T.K" Tai went into his car and drove off into the distance. I walked over towards Kari and laid a soft kiss on her cheek. Her flesh, which I had once longed for, now felt uninviting and, frankly, was disgusting.
"Two for Double Jeparody." she said to the ticket lady. As we received the tickets, I focused on something which I had never thought would be a last resort; her breasts. "Nice, round breasts," I thought to myself. "Perfect in every manner. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful round breasts. They are so lovely almost as lovely as Daisuke." no matter how much I tried, Daisuke was on my mind. I couldn't focus on the movie, the constant surge of emotions kept breaking my attention span. I couldn't feel the warmth that came from her hugging my body anymore, nor did I feel *ahem* tight in the pants. I was emotionless. She went over to my face and hungrily, she kissed me, and when she found that my mouth did not open to kiss her back, she stopped. I heard a quiet sob come from her.
"Kari, I'm sorry, I... I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know who I love. Fuck, I don't even know who I am." I said with passion. I didn't know what to expect from Kari. She sat there, emotionless. Unblinking, not crying, her face perfectly stil. Suddenly, she jerked her body for ward and stood up.She ran out of the movie theater swiftly and left me where I am now, without as much as a goodbye. I started crying silently, then I screamed. The lady in front of me turned, with a look of concern. She asked me if I was okay, and I told her I would be fine. I stood up and ran after Kari, but outside of the movie theater, there was no one. EVerything was a shade of grey that I had never seen before, then suddenly I heard a voice.
"T.K, T.K!" I thought I was going insane, really, I did. That is, until I turned around and saw my brother, Matt, running after me, yelling. He seemed out of breath, and I had never been so happy to see him. "Come on T.K, let's go walk home." he asked me.
"Isn't the house a long way from here." I asked him.
"Yes, but we need to have a long talk, don't we." Matt replied back to me. Tai must have spoken to him, Tai always gets through to him. They have that warm loving bond, the two of them, a bond that could overcome all obstacles. A bond so inseperable, Death couldn't even tear them apart. So, we started our long walk home. Five minutes were kept in silence, but the Matt started.
"So, what's on your mind, little bro."
"Nothing."
"You know, T.K, you are such a horrible liar."
"I just..."
"Yes?"
"Well, you see..."
"Go on T.K."
"I have this friend that, oh God, please stop doing this to me." I yelled out and in a sudden surge of emotions, I started crying. Matt ran over to me and hugged me, trying to make things all better. Why was I sso scared to hide my emotions. Matt was gay to, wasn't he. But the thing is, was I gay or had I just fallen in love with a boy? Hell, I didn't even know I was in love with him.
"Matt, how was it when you and Tai fell in love with each other?"
"It felt like heaven on earth. Everything I wanted was right here. The feel of his embrace on me was the happiest day of my life. If I were to look in a mirror that could show me my heart's desire, I would see my own reflection."
"But why?" I asked.
"Because there is no way I could get any happier."
"No, I mean, why did you fall in love with someone of the same sex?"
"I am happiest with Tai, even happier than I was with Mimi."
"I thought you loved Mimi." I had told my brother.
"Love is such a strong word. When you have a crush on someone, you can say you love them, and really mean that you like them. However in our relationship, we really do love each other. This may seem so hard for you to understand, isn't it."
"No, you see, it's not hard for me to understand. I, I love Daisuke." I didn't realize I had just blurted out the innermost secret of my heart. I wish I could take it back, I wish I had responded to Kari's kiss, or none of this would've happened."Please, don't tell anyone."
"Why do you think I would tell. Telling is you're job. You can be the only one to tell people. Only then will they actually believe you."
"So, what do you think I should do?"
"Talk to Daisuke. Tomorrow in school. And I'll even ask him if you talked to him."
"And If I don't?"
"Then I'll just have to tickle you till you blow up!" Matt said, then started to tickle me with all his might. I felt a lot better talking to Matt, but there were still things that were on my mind. I had to break this to Davis, or else I, I'd just blow up. Gabumon met us halfway, as Matt probably planned. He digivolved Gabumon into Garururmon and we rode home. Then that night, when Matt tucked me into bed and kissed me goodnight, like mom used to, I saw him again. I like to think that Davis kissed me to sleep that night, not Matt, for I would never feel the sweet kiss of Davis ever again.
Chapter 2 in Solo Saxophone.
Kari looked at me in a weird manner. "Takeru, are you okay?" she asked me, apprehensively. She layed a passionate kiss on me cheek and I backed off as if a dagger had just pierced through my heart. Everything I knew, everyone I loved, turned to crap.
Tai looked at me in a weird manner. I wondered if he sensed it in me. Perhaps he could, he sensed it in Matt. He and Matt, my older brother, had been dating since Piedmon had been destroyed. Ever since then, the only thing that could seperate them was death. Tai smiled at me afterwards. "Well, I have places to go and things to do see ya guys." Tai said.
"Bye Tai!" Kari and I answered in unison.
"Kari, can you run along and line up for the tickets, I have to talk with T.K for a second." Tai said.
"Sure big bro!" Kari answered with a smile on her face. I could still see it though, the look of worry and shock on her face. What could I do though? Tell her I don't love her and that Davis has been my love all along. How had Tai and Matt done it without hurting their girlfriends? Did they just tell them straight out.
"Well?" Tai asked.
"Well what!" I shot back angrily. Tai backed up a couple of steps. "Oh, I didn't mean it that way."
"I think I know what's going on with you, do you have anything to tell me." Tai asked, sounding like he actually cared. But he didn't. I felt so alone in the world, it was as if I were a mere thought that just happened to receive a spark of life, able to havea consciousness, but have no impact upon the physical realm in anyway.
"I do have something to tell you. It's that I... I..." The huge lump in my throat called fear was way too much for me. I cracked under it's power. "No Tai, I have nothing to tell you."
"Well, I can't force it out of you. There will come a time where you must admit it, otherwise, it will destroy you." Tai read me like a book. "Goodbye, T.K" Tai went into his car and drove off into the distance. I walked over towards Kari and laid a soft kiss on her cheek. Her flesh, which I had once longed for, now felt uninviting and, frankly, was disgusting.
"Two for Double Jeparody." she said to the ticket lady. As we received the tickets, I focused on something which I had never thought would be a last resort; her breasts. "Nice, round breasts," I thought to myself. "Perfect in every manner. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful round breasts. They are so lovely almost as lovely as Daisuke." no matter how much I tried, Daisuke was on my mind. I couldn't focus on the movie, the constant surge of emotions kept breaking my attention span. I couldn't feel the warmth that came from her hugging my body anymore, nor did I feel *ahem* tight in the pants. I was emotionless. She went over to my face and hungrily, she kissed me, and when she found that my mouth did not open to kiss her back, she stopped. I heard a quiet sob come from her.
"Kari, I'm sorry, I... I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know who I love. Fuck, I don't even know who I am." I said with passion. I didn't know what to expect from Kari. She sat there, emotionless. Unblinking, not crying, her face perfectly stil. Suddenly, she jerked her body for ward and stood up.She ran out of the movie theater swiftly and left me where I am now, without as much as a goodbye. I started crying silently, then I screamed. The lady in front of me turned, with a look of concern. She asked me if I was okay, and I told her I would be fine. I stood up and ran after Kari, but outside of the movie theater, there was no one. EVerything was a shade of grey that I had never seen before, then suddenly I heard a voice.
"T.K, T.K!" I thought I was going insane, really, I did. That is, until I turned around and saw my brother, Matt, running after me, yelling. He seemed out of breath, and I had never been so happy to see him. "Come on T.K, let's go walk home." he asked me.
"Isn't the house a long way from here." I asked him.
"Yes, but we need to have a long talk, don't we." Matt replied back to me. Tai must have spoken to him, Tai always gets through to him. They have that warm loving bond, the two of them, a bond that could overcome all obstacles. A bond so inseperable, Death couldn't even tear them apart. So, we started our long walk home. Five minutes were kept in silence, but the Matt started.
"So, what's on your mind, little bro."
"Nothing."
"You know, T.K, you are such a horrible liar."
"I just..."
"Yes?"
"Well, you see..."
"Go on T.K."
"I have this friend that, oh God, please stop doing this to me." I yelled out and in a sudden surge of emotions, I started crying. Matt ran over to me and hugged me, trying to make things all better. Why was I sso scared to hide my emotions. Matt was gay to, wasn't he. But the thing is, was I gay or had I just fallen in love with a boy? Hell, I didn't even know I was in love with him.
"Matt, how was it when you and Tai fell in love with each other?"
"It felt like heaven on earth. Everything I wanted was right here. The feel of his embrace on me was the happiest day of my life. If I were to look in a mirror that could show me my heart's desire, I would see my own reflection."
"But why?" I asked.
"Because there is no way I could get any happier."
"No, I mean, why did you fall in love with someone of the same sex?"
"I am happiest with Tai, even happier than I was with Mimi."
"I thought you loved Mimi." I had told my brother.
"Love is such a strong word. When you have a crush on someone, you can say you love them, and really mean that you like them. However in our relationship, we really do love each other. This may seem so hard for you to understand, isn't it."
"No, you see, it's not hard for me to understand. I, I love Daisuke." I didn't realize I had just blurted out the innermost secret of my heart. I wish I could take it back, I wish I had responded to Kari's kiss, or none of this would've happened."Please, don't tell anyone."
"Why do you think I would tell. Telling is you're job. You can be the only one to tell people. Only then will they actually believe you."
"So, what do you think I should do?"
"Talk to Daisuke. Tomorrow in school. And I'll even ask him if you talked to him."
"And If I don't?"
"Then I'll just have to tickle you till you blow up!" Matt said, then started to tickle me with all his might. I felt a lot better talking to Matt, but there were still things that were on my mind. I had to break this to Davis, or else I, I'd just blow up. Gabumon met us halfway, as Matt probably planned. He digivolved Gabumon into Garururmon and we rode home. Then that night, when Matt tucked me into bed and kissed me goodnight, like mom used to, I saw him again. I like to think that Davis kissed me to sleep that night, not Matt, for I would never feel the sweet kiss of Davis ever again.