Disclaimer: None of the mentioned below belongs to me. If they do, I'd be better off from where I am now. So lay off the lawyer. I watched EoE many times, but there are things I still don't understand. So just assume this happened after EoE and it got mixed up with the last 2 episodes of NGE.
Title: The Perfect World
Chapter 4
Shinji stood at the front door of Misato's apartment, his hand barely touching the knob. He just froze on the spot for minutes, his mind still wondering if he should enter. He knew what was behind the door, it was none other than Asuka. However, it was not Asuka that mattered to him, it was the memories that he had inside that same apartment. The good and bad times, things that happened which made him remember everything in the previous world. Little droplets of water slipped from his fingers, landing themselves on the doorknob. //Maybe...it's not the time yet// He pulled his hand away, breathed a sigh of relief. He was not prepared to see her, or tell Asuka everything that he had just learned from Rei.
"There must be another way..." Shinji turned his back on the door, headed straight for the lift. He was not sure why he did what he did, turning his back on the door of his apartment, his home. His room and his SDAT player had been his sanctuary for years, he stood firm through them all. Now as he stood there waiting for the lift to arrive, he had neither. *TING~* The lift arrived, he stepped into the small compartment. For once he felt a sense of desertedness, which he had not felt before, last time it had been rather lonely. Now it was the feeling of being deserted, which made matters worse. He had both Rei and Asuka, yet he chose to be alone. //Funny...I needed people but, ironically neither of them are with me now...// Shinji continued to lean against the wall of the small lift, buttons were left untouched. He slit down to the floor, thinking of too much at too short a time.
"This is going to be hard...and difficult..." His head on top of his arms as his legs curled up towards his body. Tears would flow easily but he forbid them to fall.
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Rei had looked outside the window the moment Shinji left her apartment. She was worried about Shinji when she heard the sound of thunder in a distant. Rain poured generously like as if the heavens were overflowing with precious liquid. Watching Shinji walking in the rain was a little unbearable for Rei. He had after all send her back for the night, in return she gave nothing that was of physical value. //You could have invited him to stay for tea...// She sighed at the memory of her and Shinji at the exact same spot where she was. Her apartment. English tea. Their little discussion about Shinji's life and his relationship with his father, Ikari.
"He had been chosen..." Rei whispered to the gods, praying for the safety of 3rd child as he proceeded to start his long and tiring walk home. Though he could just take the train, but he mentioned to just walk home. Rei could never understand the human emotions, it was an ever-changing history. Once sad, then happy, then again scary. These were the very same feelings which Rei felt, it made her think logically for the first time. It had been odd for her to shed tears last time, she knew why. This time her tears were a question to her, why had they fallen so suddenly. Loneliness was a choice, she had preferred it very much. Her mind longed for peace, yet her heart felt the bitter chill of being alone.
"Maybe there's more to life than this..." Just then she silently wiped her tears away and got herself another cup of tea. It was the tea, which he taught her how to make. The color still fascinated her for some reason, the warmth was welcomed. //Would he feel the coldness I'm feeling? // One sip. Then the other. Time stood still for her small little apartment, yet memories seem to pop up every now and then.
~tsujiku~
Author's note: Just wanna share a lil'
I'll be on vacation...well sorta...moving to Tokyo next week...so I might not be able to post new chapters for a month or so. For those who follow the manga series, you'll know where I got the 'tea' from. For those who don't...where have you been?! Go get one now!! This chapter is written at 4 am, so I might revise this. But still I love your reviews...keep em' coming.
Title: The Perfect World
Chapter 4
Shinji stood at the front door of Misato's apartment, his hand barely touching the knob. He just froze on the spot for minutes, his mind still wondering if he should enter. He knew what was behind the door, it was none other than Asuka. However, it was not Asuka that mattered to him, it was the memories that he had inside that same apartment. The good and bad times, things that happened which made him remember everything in the previous world. Little droplets of water slipped from his fingers, landing themselves on the doorknob. //Maybe...it's not the time yet// He pulled his hand away, breathed a sigh of relief. He was not prepared to see her, or tell Asuka everything that he had just learned from Rei.
"There must be another way..." Shinji turned his back on the door, headed straight for the lift. He was not sure why he did what he did, turning his back on the door of his apartment, his home. His room and his SDAT player had been his sanctuary for years, he stood firm through them all. Now as he stood there waiting for the lift to arrive, he had neither. *TING~* The lift arrived, he stepped into the small compartment. For once he felt a sense of desertedness, which he had not felt before, last time it had been rather lonely. Now it was the feeling of being deserted, which made matters worse. He had both Rei and Asuka, yet he chose to be alone. //Funny...I needed people but, ironically neither of them are with me now...// Shinji continued to lean against the wall of the small lift, buttons were left untouched. He slit down to the floor, thinking of too much at too short a time.
"This is going to be hard...and difficult..." His head on top of his arms as his legs curled up towards his body. Tears would flow easily but he forbid them to fall.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*^*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Rei had looked outside the window the moment Shinji left her apartment. She was worried about Shinji when she heard the sound of thunder in a distant. Rain poured generously like as if the heavens were overflowing with precious liquid. Watching Shinji walking in the rain was a little unbearable for Rei. He had after all send her back for the night, in return she gave nothing that was of physical value. //You could have invited him to stay for tea...// She sighed at the memory of her and Shinji at the exact same spot where she was. Her apartment. English tea. Their little discussion about Shinji's life and his relationship with his father, Ikari.
"He had been chosen..." Rei whispered to the gods, praying for the safety of 3rd child as he proceeded to start his long and tiring walk home. Though he could just take the train, but he mentioned to just walk home. Rei could never understand the human emotions, it was an ever-changing history. Once sad, then happy, then again scary. These were the very same feelings which Rei felt, it made her think logically for the first time. It had been odd for her to shed tears last time, she knew why. This time her tears were a question to her, why had they fallen so suddenly. Loneliness was a choice, she had preferred it very much. Her mind longed for peace, yet her heart felt the bitter chill of being alone.
"Maybe there's more to life than this..." Just then she silently wiped her tears away and got herself another cup of tea. It was the tea, which he taught her how to make. The color still fascinated her for some reason, the warmth was welcomed. //Would he feel the coldness I'm feeling? // One sip. Then the other. Time stood still for her small little apartment, yet memories seem to pop up every now and then.
~tsujiku~
Author's note: Just wanna share a lil'
I'll be on vacation...well sorta...moving to Tokyo next week...so I might not be able to post new chapters for a month or so. For those who follow the manga series, you'll know where I got the 'tea' from. For those who don't...where have you been?! Go get one now!! This chapter is written at 4 am, so I might revise this. But still I love your reviews...keep em' coming.