Tamers: Stuck in Paradise
Part 14
by Christian "Sid" Lang
Notes:
Everything's dark, scary and hopeless.
You know what that would mean in a TV series:
Season ending and major cliffhanger! *mad laughter*
And it will take half a year until the next season is filmed!
Fortunately this is just my little fanfic.
So it won't end with a cliffhanger (I hope), but it will end soon.
Gatomon signs the letter with a sigh.
"I'm sorry. But I'm doing this for all of you." she whispers.
Then she covers her face with her paws and sobs.
I love her. It's a unique feeling. But I bet Hawkmon has stolen her heart long ago.
She shakes her head as she remembers her dreams. In these dreams she had killed Yolei's partner.
And then Renamon had told her that she didn't love Gatomon. Always.
Is this how Veemon feels? Competing with a rival? Fighting a hopeless battle?
Gatomon briefly wonders what keeps the lizard Digimon going.
Tsk. Love. What else. But he doesn't give up. she observes.
Then she realizes that Veemon has a stronger will than she has.
I'm such a weakling. Running from a challenge. But no. It's different here.
Gatomon would show her true feelings. Even if Renamon would laugh at her.
But doing so would disturb the friendship between Kari and their guests.
Her dreams have always ended in a catastrophe.
Ruki would yell at Kari, Kari kicks them out when she can't take it anymore.
No. She wouldn't let it go that far.
She puts the letter into an envelope and writes Kari's name on it.
Soon.
Renamon's life should be perfect.
Ruki has accepted her as a partner. She has digivolved. Hawkmon is in love with her.
The couch she is sitting on is fluffy. There's a Ranma-Marathon on TV. And Ruki is petting her.
So why am I feeling so hollow? she asks herself.
Of course she knows the answer.
You're in love. With the wrong Digimon. her inner voice answers.
Of course that's not completely true.
Gatomon is not the wrong Digimon. She's perfect.
But the circumstances couldn't have been worse.
What would Ruki and Kari say? God, what would Gatomon say?
She has had hints. Clues. But no proof of the cat's feelings for her.
I might be interpreting her actions completely wrong. she tells herself.
And she knows what would happen if she actually told Gatomon her feelings then.
Renamon is afraid of being rejected. It would ruin everything.
But it doesn't feel that great to sit there doing nothing. she dryly observes.
She decides that time would tell.
What about Patamon? And Veemon? Gatomon's inner voice protests.
"They'll understand." Gatomon whispers.
She carefully places the envelope on Kari's pillow.
They won't understand. the inner voice responds.
"I'm not responsible for them." Gatomon hisses.
Chicken. the voice mocks her.
Gatomon closes her eyes, knowing that the voice is right.
But it wouldn't be able to stop her.
"Time to go." she tells herself and sighs.
She approaches the door and fakes a perfect little-kitty-smile.
Then she enters the living room.
Kari, Ruki and Renamon are sitting on the couching, watching Ranma.
"Uhhh... Kari? I'm out, getting some fresh air." she says.
"Sure thing." Kari just replies, not even turning her head away from the screen.
Gatomon walks towards the corridor.
Then she turns around a last time and gasps. Renamon is watching her.
"Ummm... Bye!" Gatomon shouts at her, waving her paw.
The fox's eyes turn into narrow slits.
"See you." she just replies.
Gatomon gulps and heads towards the kitchen window.
Once outside, she tries to beat her own record time to get to her destination.
She chooses not to travel over the rooftops. Somebody might see her.
Instead she runs through the streets as if somebody is chasing her.
Renamon tries to analyse the recent events for some minutes.
She knows that something is wrong, but she can't quite name it.
Ruki's partner spends some minutes trying to see thing's from Gatomon's perspective.
But that's hopeless. She had considered following Gatomon, but had rejected that idea.
Maybe I'll find something in their- GEEZ, WHAT AM I THINKING?
Renamon feels like a thief already. Finally she sighs.
Thief or no thief. I have to find some answers. she decides.
"I'll be right back."she whispers into Ruki's ear.
Then she vanishes and reappears in Kari's room.
Renamon would have made a fortune as a thief. Even without her power of transportation.
She can move without making any noise. And her senses surpass those of any human.
The fox shakes her head and quickly takes a look around.
It takes her less than a second to notice the letter.
Her paw moves towards the envelope, trmbling wildly.
If you back away now, nobody will ever know you've been here. her consciousness tells her.
She sighs and grabs the envelope. She opens it carefully and takes out the sheet of paper.
What should I do? What should I do? she asks herself.
She reads the letter again. The message remains the same.
But suicide? she asks herself.
Renamon bites her lower lip. In the background, she can hear Kari's analogue clock.
Tick. Tack.
Tick. Tack.
She's been away for more than ten minutes now.
Tick. Tack.
Tick. Tack.
She loves me.
Tick.
And I love her.
Tack.
Then why am I still standing here?
Ti-
Renamon stuffs the letter into her glove.
She'd follow Gatomon. Stop her. Tell her.
Everything would be fine. She wouldn't forgive herself if she came too late.
But she needs help. Renamon nods when she has worked out the small plan.
-ck.
"Ruki!" Renamon hisses as she appears in front of the girl.
"What's the matter? Ranma's being chased by-" Ruki complains.
Renamon grabs her shoulders and looks her directly into her eyes.
"This is really important. I need you to slash a card for me. NOW!" she hisses.
Ruki gulps, but nods as she takes out her card holder.
Renamon quickly browses throught the cards and finally hands her one.
"That one. Now. Don't ask, and don't follow me."
Ruki blinks as Renamon disappears again.
Still she does as she has been told and takes out her D-Arc.
"Card slash - Hypersonic speed!" she yells as she drives the card through the D-Arc.
Renamon is already running through the streets, following her nose.
She has always been proud of her ability to sniff out Digimon.
Now she is following Gatomon's scent.
Finally she feels the added power rush through her body.
And Renamon accelerates to her top speed.
Ruki frowns as she stares at her D-Arc.
She is watching a little timer, similar to a stopwatch.
It's a detail that is unimportant during a fight. A gimmick.
The timer indicates how long the effect of a card has been used.
Some effects like Alias are one-time only, not triggering the timer.
But upgrades are timed.
"Why're you watching a dumb stopwatch?" Kari asks her.
Ruki ignores her and watches the timer.
This can't be... she thinks.
Finally the timer stops.
"Holy..." she mutters and blinks.
"Care to enlighten me?" Kari asks with a raised eyebrow.
"It started before we got here. In our world." Ruki begins her story.
"Renamon asked me if she could test herself. Of course I agreed, thinking of training.
She took me to a velodrome. You know, where the indoor cycle races are held.
I had to slash the same speed upgrade I just used. You've seen it in the park, remember?"
Kari nods, remembering how Renamon had caught the unsuspecting Hawkmon.
"Well, I slashed it, and Renamon ran. She made several laps in one minute. It was amazing.
The whole track seemed to have a golden glow. I've been unable to pinpoint her location.
She wanted to test her limits. To see how far she could push herself.
After 62 seconds, Renamon skidded to a halt next to me and simply collapsed.
I guess she expected me to catch her or something. However, back then I didn't even think of it.
Renamon quickly recovered. She told me that she could have done a little more.
But she wanted to stay able to fight. Her legs have been shaking as if they were made of rubber."
Ruki blinks and shakes her head.
"Wow. I'm impressed. But I don't see what-" Kari begins to protest.
She stops talking when Ruki shows her the display of the D-Arc.
Kari is unable to answer that question.
"Should we look for her?" the DigiDestined finally asks.
"No. She told me not to follow her. And I have learned to respect her wishes."
Kari nods. Then she frowns.
"What could have caused her to do this?" she asks Ruki.
"I don't know." Ruki answers with a shrug.
I'm just wondering if she is still conscious. she silently adds.
Renamon had been barely able to walk after the velodrome incident.
Have you pushed yourself over the edge this time? she wonders and closes her eyes.
Notes:
I know you hate me, but I let this chapter end here.
Is Gatomon still alive? Is Renamon still alive?
Or will this fanfic end like Romeo and Juliet?
Part 14
by Christian "Sid" Lang
Notes:
Everything's dark, scary and hopeless.
You know what that would mean in a TV series:
Season ending and major cliffhanger! *mad laughter*
And it will take half a year until the next season is filmed!
Fortunately this is just my little fanfic.
So it won't end with a cliffhanger (I hope), but it will end soon.
Gatomon signs the letter with a sigh.
"I'm sorry. But I'm doing this for all of you." she whispers.
Then she covers her face with her paws and sobs.
I love her. It's a unique feeling. But I bet Hawkmon has stolen her heart long ago.
She shakes her head as she remembers her dreams. In these dreams she had killed Yolei's partner.
And then Renamon had told her that she didn't love Gatomon. Always.
Is this how Veemon feels? Competing with a rival? Fighting a hopeless battle?
Gatomon briefly wonders what keeps the lizard Digimon going.
Tsk. Love. What else. But he doesn't give up. she observes.
Then she realizes that Veemon has a stronger will than she has.
I'm such a weakling. Running from a challenge. But no. It's different here.
Gatomon would show her true feelings. Even if Renamon would laugh at her.
But doing so would disturb the friendship between Kari and their guests.
Her dreams have always ended in a catastrophe.
Ruki would yell at Kari, Kari kicks them out when she can't take it anymore.
No. She wouldn't let it go that far.
She puts the letter into an envelope and writes Kari's name on it.
Soon.
Renamon's life should be perfect.
Ruki has accepted her as a partner. She has digivolved. Hawkmon is in love with her.
The couch she is sitting on is fluffy. There's a Ranma-Marathon on TV. And Ruki is petting her.
So why am I feeling so hollow? she asks herself.
Of course she knows the answer.
You're in love. With the wrong Digimon. her inner voice answers.
Of course that's not completely true.
Gatomon is not the wrong Digimon. She's perfect.
But the circumstances couldn't have been worse.
What would Ruki and Kari say? God, what would Gatomon say?
She has had hints. Clues. But no proof of the cat's feelings for her.
I might be interpreting her actions completely wrong. she tells herself.
And she knows what would happen if she actually told Gatomon her feelings then.
Renamon is afraid of being rejected. It would ruin everything.
But it doesn't feel that great to sit there doing nothing. she dryly observes.
She decides that time would tell.
What about Patamon? And Veemon? Gatomon's inner voice protests.
"They'll understand." Gatomon whispers.
She carefully places the envelope on Kari's pillow.
They won't understand. the inner voice responds.
"I'm not responsible for them." Gatomon hisses.
Chicken. the voice mocks her.
Gatomon closes her eyes, knowing that the voice is right.
But it wouldn't be able to stop her.
"Time to go." she tells herself and sighs.
She approaches the door and fakes a perfect little-kitty-smile.
Then she enters the living room.
Kari, Ruki and Renamon are sitting on the couching, watching Ranma.
"Uhhh... Kari? I'm out, getting some fresh air." she says.
"Sure thing." Kari just replies, not even turning her head away from the screen.
Gatomon walks towards the corridor.
Then she turns around a last time and gasps. Renamon is watching her.
"Ummm... Bye!" Gatomon shouts at her, waving her paw.
The fox's eyes turn into narrow slits.
"See you." she just replies.
Gatomon gulps and heads towards the kitchen window.
Once outside, she tries to beat her own record time to get to her destination.
She chooses not to travel over the rooftops. Somebody might see her.
Instead she runs through the streets as if somebody is chasing her.
Renamon tries to analyse the recent events for some minutes.
She knows that something is wrong, but she can't quite name it.
Ruki's partner spends some minutes trying to see thing's from Gatomon's perspective.
But that's hopeless. She had considered following Gatomon, but had rejected that idea.
Maybe I'll find something in their- GEEZ, WHAT AM I THINKING?
Renamon feels like a thief already. Finally she sighs.
Thief or no thief. I have to find some answers. she decides.
"I'll be right back."she whispers into Ruki's ear.
Then she vanishes and reappears in Kari's room.
Renamon would have made a fortune as a thief. Even without her power of transportation.
She can move without making any noise. And her senses surpass those of any human.
The fox shakes her head and quickly takes a look around.
It takes her less than a second to notice the letter.
Her paw moves towards the envelope, trmbling wildly.
If you back away now, nobody will ever know you've been here. her consciousness tells her.
She sighs and grabs the envelope. She opens it carefully and takes out the sheet of paper.
Dear Kari. When you are reading this, I will be long gone. It hurts me to tell you that I won't return to you. I have fallen in love with a very special Digimon. Unfortunately, I would ruin everything by admitting it. Normally I would keep my feelings down, but they're too strong. The last few days have been like hell. To say the least. So I have decided to end this life of misery. I really hope that you will understand me one day. Even if it sounds feeble-minded, I do this for your own good. I've failed you and I'm sorry for this. Please forgive me. GatomonRenamon grits her teeth to prevent herself from cursing loudly.
What should I do? What should I do? she asks herself.
She reads the letter again. The message remains the same.
But suicide? she asks herself.
Renamon bites her lower lip. In the background, she can hear Kari's analogue clock.
Tick. Tack.
Tick. Tack.
She's been away for more than ten minutes now.
Tick. Tack.
Tick. Tack.
She loves me.
Tick.
And I love her.
Tack.
Then why am I still standing here?
Ti-
Renamon stuffs the letter into her glove.
She'd follow Gatomon. Stop her. Tell her.
Everything would be fine. She wouldn't forgive herself if she came too late.
But she needs help. Renamon nods when she has worked out the small plan.
-ck.
"Ruki!" Renamon hisses as she appears in front of the girl.
"What's the matter? Ranma's being chased by-" Ruki complains.
Renamon grabs her shoulders and looks her directly into her eyes.
"This is really important. I need you to slash a card for me. NOW!" she hisses.
Ruki gulps, but nods as she takes out her card holder.
Renamon quickly browses throught the cards and finally hands her one.
"That one. Now. Don't ask, and don't follow me."
Ruki blinks as Renamon disappears again.
Still she does as she has been told and takes out her D-Arc.
"Card slash - Hypersonic speed!" she yells as she drives the card through the D-Arc.
Renamon is already running through the streets, following her nose.
She has always been proud of her ability to sniff out Digimon.
Now she is following Gatomon's scent.
Finally she feels the added power rush through her body.
And Renamon accelerates to her top speed.
Ruki frowns as she stares at her D-Arc.
She is watching a little timer, similar to a stopwatch.
It's a detail that is unimportant during a fight. A gimmick.
The timer indicates how long the effect of a card has been used.
Some effects like Alias are one-time only, not triggering the timer.
But upgrades are timed.
"Why're you watching a dumb stopwatch?" Kari asks her.
Ruki ignores her and watches the timer.
This can't be... she thinks.
Finally the timer stops.
"Holy..." she mutters and blinks.
"Care to enlighten me?" Kari asks with a raised eyebrow.
"It started before we got here. In our world." Ruki begins her story.
"Renamon asked me if she could test herself. Of course I agreed, thinking of training.
She took me to a velodrome. You know, where the indoor cycle races are held.
I had to slash the same speed upgrade I just used. You've seen it in the park, remember?"
Kari nods, remembering how Renamon had caught the unsuspecting Hawkmon.
"Well, I slashed it, and Renamon ran. She made several laps in one minute. It was amazing.
The whole track seemed to have a golden glow. I've been unable to pinpoint her location.
She wanted to test her limits. To see how far she could push herself.
After 62 seconds, Renamon skidded to a halt next to me and simply collapsed.
I guess she expected me to catch her or something. However, back then I didn't even think of it.
Renamon quickly recovered. She told me that she could have done a little more.
But she wanted to stay able to fight. Her legs have been shaking as if they were made of rubber."
Ruki blinks and shakes her head.
"Wow. I'm impressed. But I don't see what-" Kari begins to protest.
She stops talking when Ruki shows her the display of the D-Arc.
02:13"You know, I'm actually worrying about her. She's tough, but is she really that tough?"
Kari is unable to answer that question.
"Should we look for her?" the DigiDestined finally asks.
"No. She told me not to follow her. And I have learned to respect her wishes."
Kari nods. Then she frowns.
"What could have caused her to do this?" she asks Ruki.
"I don't know." Ruki answers with a shrug.
I'm just wondering if she is still conscious. she silently adds.
Renamon had been barely able to walk after the velodrome incident.
Have you pushed yourself over the edge this time? she wonders and closes her eyes.
Notes:
I know you hate me, but I let this chapter end here.
Is Gatomon still alive? Is Renamon still alive?
Or will this fanfic end like Romeo and Juliet?