Amidala had nothing to say to that. All the words inside her head are as stubborn as her and decide to just stay in there forever. No matter how hard Amidala tries the words just won't come out. Her eyes are glazed over with a coat of tears that gathers at the corner of her eye. "Anakin, aren't you asking for just a little much?" She chokes out.
"Am I?" Anakin's ice-cold stare pierces right through Amidala's heart. "You are right, I just set the standards to be too high for anyone to follow. Forgive me your majesty for even considering the idea of you and I..." Anakin sucks in a breath of air. "You know, reality hurts. Before when I actually believed in you and I, those words are like music to my ears." Anakin bites his lower lip, "And now, it is just he harsh truth, of how stupid I am."
"Anakin, maybe the one angel you are asking for, doesn't exist." Amidala replies.
"I know, she only exists in my head. You were just the dream, one that is there to keep me hoping." Anakin replies. "But now, I don't even have that hope. All this time I have been living a lie. You only wanted me there for filling in a void. You were bored and I was the toy."
It's been a month since Anakin left the Queen standing speechless by the lake. Anakin was steaming mad that day he had no idea what came over him. He knew he shouldn't have blown up on the love of his life that day. Ever since that day, Anakin wants to pick up the comlink and call her up. Even though he only gets the machine, Anakin would be left satisfied hearing his angel's voice.
'You are so sad Anakin' He thought to himself.
Anakin never leaves a message; he is still trying to be a man about the situation. He need to stick by his believes. This is more or less a now or never deal, he will no longer initiate all the calls, all the letters, and all the conversations. He doesn't want to look desperate. Either Amidala is as stubborn as him or she just simply doesn't care about Anakin and just wants this thing to blow over. Finally Anakin gave in and leaves a voice mail on Amidala's private line.
"Hey, how is everything going? Things are pretty much the usual around the temple; some training and I started to teach now.... Is everything ok around Naboo? U'Loc is so happy right now since Rabe is over for a visit. I haven't even seen Rabe yet, only the force knows where those two are... Call me back, leave me a message, whatever you can... when you have the time of course..." Anakin hangs up nervously.
It's been three days since he left that nerve wrecking message and finally he sees that there is a message on his comlink for him.
"Hey, it is great to hear from you. So how have you been? Things are great with me. I got to go now. Talk to you later." And that was it... that was the message that Anakin waited for three days. There has to be more right? He thought to himself. Pushes a couple of buttons and wishes that there is some miracle that the comlink forgot to pick up a few messages. O.K. A few might have been pushing it but one isn't that much more is it? That ONE message, no ONE more word, would turn Anakin's world into a heaven. Nope, none at all. NADA. Anakin sucks in a lung full of air and exhales. He doesn't really know what's going on. Did the whole thing just blow over? Did Amidala forget about their fight? How can this be it? What in the name of the force was she thinking? Certainly not him. Is she worth all the attention that Anakin is giving her? She IS the center of his universe.
"Am I?" Anakin's ice-cold stare pierces right through Amidala's heart. "You are right, I just set the standards to be too high for anyone to follow. Forgive me your majesty for even considering the idea of you and I..." Anakin sucks in a breath of air. "You know, reality hurts. Before when I actually believed in you and I, those words are like music to my ears." Anakin bites his lower lip, "And now, it is just he harsh truth, of how stupid I am."
"Anakin, maybe the one angel you are asking for, doesn't exist." Amidala replies.
"I know, she only exists in my head. You were just the dream, one that is there to keep me hoping." Anakin replies. "But now, I don't even have that hope. All this time I have been living a lie. You only wanted me there for filling in a void. You were bored and I was the toy."
It's been a month since Anakin left the Queen standing speechless by the lake. Anakin was steaming mad that day he had no idea what came over him. He knew he shouldn't have blown up on the love of his life that day. Ever since that day, Anakin wants to pick up the comlink and call her up. Even though he only gets the machine, Anakin would be left satisfied hearing his angel's voice.
'You are so sad Anakin' He thought to himself.
Anakin never leaves a message; he is still trying to be a man about the situation. He need to stick by his believes. This is more or less a now or never deal, he will no longer initiate all the calls, all the letters, and all the conversations. He doesn't want to look desperate. Either Amidala is as stubborn as him or she just simply doesn't care about Anakin and just wants this thing to blow over. Finally Anakin gave in and leaves a voice mail on Amidala's private line.
"Hey, how is everything going? Things are pretty much the usual around the temple; some training and I started to teach now.... Is everything ok around Naboo? U'Loc is so happy right now since Rabe is over for a visit. I haven't even seen Rabe yet, only the force knows where those two are... Call me back, leave me a message, whatever you can... when you have the time of course..." Anakin hangs up nervously.
It's been three days since he left that nerve wrecking message and finally he sees that there is a message on his comlink for him.
"Hey, it is great to hear from you. So how have you been? Things are great with me. I got to go now. Talk to you later." And that was it... that was the message that Anakin waited for three days. There has to be more right? He thought to himself. Pushes a couple of buttons and wishes that there is some miracle that the comlink forgot to pick up a few messages. O.K. A few might have been pushing it but one isn't that much more is it? That ONE message, no ONE more word, would turn Anakin's world into a heaven. Nope, none at all. NADA. Anakin sucks in a lung full of air and exhales. He doesn't really know what's going on. Did the whole thing just blow over? Did Amidala forget about their fight? How can this be it? What in the name of the force was she thinking? Certainly not him. Is she worth all the attention that Anakin is giving her? She IS the center of his universe.