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to the band Puddle of Mudd.
Said: Part II
A/N: Is pretty much the same events as Part one, but from Matt's POV now.
"Emotionless I slip into the black
And there's no turning back now
Everyone around me is smoking crack
This tunnel is blinding
Hallucinating, I'm debating life
But it's still moving forward
If I could change the hands of time
Well, I'd do it better"
"Matt! Hurry up!"
"Jesus, Adam, hold your horses," Matt grinned. He looked into the mirror, checking out his hair. Adam looked into the bathroom, sticking his tongue out at Matt.
"The more you try and make me hurry, the slower I'm going to be."
"Maaatt!" Adam groaned.
Matt giggled and brushed his long, dark hair back. They heard the door to the room being opened. Matt walked out of the bathroom to get dressed and saw that it was his brother. "Hey, Jeff!"
"Hey, Matt," Jeff muttered back, walking over to his bed. He lay down with his face in the pillow.
Matt looked at his brother's back. Jeff was wearing all black more and more lately. His hair, which used to be bright colors, was now a deep navy blue. 'I wonder if something is bothering him. Maybe I shouldn't go out with Adam tonight. Jeff and I hardly spend any time together anymore.'
"Matt?" Adam said from behind him. Matt jumped.
"What? Oh, sorry." He quickly got dressed and went out the door with Adam. But he looked back at his brother on last time and he could have sworn that Jeff was crying.
"Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away"
All that night at the club, all Matt could think about was Jeff's body lying there on his bed. He had a feeling that there was something bothering him.
"Matt? Have you heard anything I've said?"
"Sorry, Adam," Matt grinned sheepishly.
"Dude, what's wrong with you? You're such a spaz lately!"
'Maybe I'm sick of all your bullshit and this partying. It's gets old after awhile. Maybe I want to settle down some.' Out loud, he said, "I don't know, man. I just can't seem to concentrate on anything."
"Maybe that brother of yours is finally wearing off on you," Adam joked.
"His name is Jeff," snapped Matt.
Adam's eyes got big at this outburst. "Whoa, dude. Chill out. I know his name."
"Then why don't you ever use it?" Matt got up and walked away from the startled Adam.
Fearless I have fell into trap
And there's no way around it
Everyone is crying in the back
My kin is around me
Hesitating, there's no second chance
When you know you're a loser
Keep on trying to keep an open mind"
Matt watched his brother. As usual, Jeff was standing alone. He often wondered why Jeff did that. He could have easily made friends with many of the people around them. He started to walk towards Jeff, but Jay stopped him.
'Damn you, Jay.'
"Adam and I were wondering if you wanted to go out to the bars with us tonight," Jay said.
"Yeah, sure," Matt said hastily. "Tell Adam that I'm sorry about walking out on him the other night."
"I will. See you later, Matt."
"Bye, Jay," Matt said, turning his head to where Jeff had been just seconds ago. He wasn't there anymore. 'Damnit, where did he go?' His music started to play just then and Jeff appeared out of nowhere to walk down the ramp with him and stand in his corner. After Matt won the match, they went back up the ramp together and then Jeff disappeared as usual.
Adam and Jay appeared and dragged him away. He saw Jeff standing outside, waiting for a taxi, staring at him with hurt in his eyes. He bit his lip and paused, but then Adam shoved him into the car.
They went back to the hotel and went to the room that Adam and Jay shared, then Matt told them to meet him at his room, and he went back to his room. Jeff was already there.
"Jeff?" He looked into the bathroom. Jeff was looking at a bottle of ibuprofen with an intent look on his face. "Jeff? What's wrong?"
"I have another headache," Jeff muttered.
"Another one? Jeff, maybe something is wrong with you." Matt studied Jeff's unshaven face. "It's not normal to have that many headaches." Matt felt the urge to be close to his brother all of a sudden, so he leaned over and gave Jeff a hug.
Jeff pushed him away and muttered something that sounded like, "I guess not."
"Hey, is something bothering you?" He was really concerned for Jeff. "You've been…different lately." Jeff didn't answer him. "Ya know, Jeff, you can always talk to me when something's wrong. I'm your brother and I love you."
He heard a knock on the door and opened it. It was Adam and Jay and the two of them wanted to leave immediately. 'They always show up at the worst times!' "Bye, Jeff! Don't do anything stupid!"
"I'm caught in a circle
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away"
Matt felt horrible for leaving Jeff. The look on his brother's face was eating away at him. 'I shouldn't have left him. I always leave him. It's not right. I gotta go back.' He had a horrible feeling in his stomach. 'God, I keep thinking that something is wrong. I'm going back to the room.' He got up from the bar and ran as fast as he could back to the hotel, which was only a few blocks away.
'God, he better be okay,' he thought as he ran. Grabbing the key card out of his back pocket, he quickly opened the door. "Jeff?" There was no answer. 'Shit!' He walked further into the room and his heart stopped for a second. "JEFF!" he screamed. His brother lay on the bed bleeding. There was blood all over the sheets and Jeff's clothes and body. A knife lay next to him, as well as an empty bottle of pills. Matt ran to the phone and called for help. As soon as he hung up, he turned back to his brother. Matt collapsed next to the bed, crying.
"Emotionless I slip into the crack
Feel as if I've fell into the blue
Hallucinating there's no turning back
Everyone around me is smoking crack"
"Jeff, how could you do this?" he asked his motionless brother. He heard a knock at the door and the paramedics came in. He went to the hospital with them.
The next day, when he was finally allowed into Jeff's room, he sat next to the bed and looked at his brother's form. The doctor had assured him that physically, Jeff would heal, but mentally and emotionally, he would need a lot of help getting over his problems. 'I'm gonna help him. I will be there for him.'
"Matt?"
Matt's eyes flew open and he looked at Jeff. He reached over and held Jeff's hand. He was startled when Jeff pulled it back.
"Damn you, Matt."
"Jeff?"
"Why the hell did you do it?"
"I couldn't let you die. I can't let you die." Matt's eyes filled with tears. "I love you so much, Jeff. You can't die."
"You love me? Gee, coulda fooled me."
The tears slid from Matt's eyes. "Jeff…I-"
"Shut up, Matt, just shut up. I know what you're gonna say. You're gonna say that you're sorry and that you didn't know that it hurt me that much and that you won't do it anymore. Well, BULLSHIT!"
Tears were now streaming down Matt's face. "Jeff…I…you…Jeff," he said helplessly, desperately.
"I hate you, Matt."
"No! Jeff!"
"Just leave me alone."
Matt somehow made it out of the room and onto the street. He walked in the general direction that he thought the hotel was in. As he crossed a street, the tears blinded him, and he didn't see the car racing towards him at a high speed.
"Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
If you've even heard a thing I've said"
~The End~
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Said: Part II
A/N: Is pretty much the same events as Part one, but from Matt's POV now.
"Emotionless I slip into the black
And there's no turning back now
Everyone around me is smoking crack
This tunnel is blinding
Hallucinating, I'm debating life
But it's still moving forward
If I could change the hands of time
Well, I'd do it better"
"Matt! Hurry up!"
"Jesus, Adam, hold your horses," Matt grinned. He looked into the mirror, checking out his hair. Adam looked into the bathroom, sticking his tongue out at Matt.
"The more you try and make me hurry, the slower I'm going to be."
"Maaatt!" Adam groaned.
Matt giggled and brushed his long, dark hair back. They heard the door to the room being opened. Matt walked out of the bathroom to get dressed and saw that it was his brother. "Hey, Jeff!"
"Hey, Matt," Jeff muttered back, walking over to his bed. He lay down with his face in the pillow.
Matt looked at his brother's back. Jeff was wearing all black more and more lately. His hair, which used to be bright colors, was now a deep navy blue. 'I wonder if something is bothering him. Maybe I shouldn't go out with Adam tonight. Jeff and I hardly spend any time together anymore.'
"Matt?" Adam said from behind him. Matt jumped.
"What? Oh, sorry." He quickly got dressed and went out the door with Adam. But he looked back at his brother on last time and he could have sworn that Jeff was crying.
"Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away"
All that night at the club, all Matt could think about was Jeff's body lying there on his bed. He had a feeling that there was something bothering him.
"Matt? Have you heard anything I've said?"
"Sorry, Adam," Matt grinned sheepishly.
"Dude, what's wrong with you? You're such a spaz lately!"
'Maybe I'm sick of all your bullshit and this partying. It's gets old after awhile. Maybe I want to settle down some.' Out loud, he said, "I don't know, man. I just can't seem to concentrate on anything."
"Maybe that brother of yours is finally wearing off on you," Adam joked.
"His name is Jeff," snapped Matt.
Adam's eyes got big at this outburst. "Whoa, dude. Chill out. I know his name."
"Then why don't you ever use it?" Matt got up and walked away from the startled Adam.
Fearless I have fell into trap
And there's no way around it
Everyone is crying in the back
My kin is around me
Hesitating, there's no second chance
When you know you're a loser
Keep on trying to keep an open mind"
Matt watched his brother. As usual, Jeff was standing alone. He often wondered why Jeff did that. He could have easily made friends with many of the people around them. He started to walk towards Jeff, but Jay stopped him.
'Damn you, Jay.'
"Adam and I were wondering if you wanted to go out to the bars with us tonight," Jay said.
"Yeah, sure," Matt said hastily. "Tell Adam that I'm sorry about walking out on him the other night."
"I will. See you later, Matt."
"Bye, Jay," Matt said, turning his head to where Jeff had been just seconds ago. He wasn't there anymore. 'Damnit, where did he go?' His music started to play just then and Jeff appeared out of nowhere to walk down the ramp with him and stand in his corner. After Matt won the match, they went back up the ramp together and then Jeff disappeared as usual.
Adam and Jay appeared and dragged him away. He saw Jeff standing outside, waiting for a taxi, staring at him with hurt in his eyes. He bit his lip and paused, but then Adam shoved him into the car.
They went back to the hotel and went to the room that Adam and Jay shared, then Matt told them to meet him at his room, and he went back to his room. Jeff was already there.
"Jeff?" He looked into the bathroom. Jeff was looking at a bottle of ibuprofen with an intent look on his face. "Jeff? What's wrong?"
"I have another headache," Jeff muttered.
"Another one? Jeff, maybe something is wrong with you." Matt studied Jeff's unshaven face. "It's not normal to have that many headaches." Matt felt the urge to be close to his brother all of a sudden, so he leaned over and gave Jeff a hug.
Jeff pushed him away and muttered something that sounded like, "I guess not."
"Hey, is something bothering you?" He was really concerned for Jeff. "You've been…different lately." Jeff didn't answer him. "Ya know, Jeff, you can always talk to me when something's wrong. I'm your brother and I love you."
He heard a knock on the door and opened it. It was Adam and Jay and the two of them wanted to leave immediately. 'They always show up at the worst times!' "Bye, Jeff! Don't do anything stupid!"
"I'm caught in a circle
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away"
Matt felt horrible for leaving Jeff. The look on his brother's face was eating away at him. 'I shouldn't have left him. I always leave him. It's not right. I gotta go back.' He had a horrible feeling in his stomach. 'God, I keep thinking that something is wrong. I'm going back to the room.' He got up from the bar and ran as fast as he could back to the hotel, which was only a few blocks away.
'God, he better be okay,' he thought as he ran. Grabbing the key card out of his back pocket, he quickly opened the door. "Jeff?" There was no answer. 'Shit!' He walked further into the room and his heart stopped for a second. "JEFF!" he screamed. His brother lay on the bed bleeding. There was blood all over the sheets and Jeff's clothes and body. A knife lay next to him, as well as an empty bottle of pills. Matt ran to the phone and called for help. As soon as he hung up, he turned back to his brother. Matt collapsed next to the bed, crying.
"Emotionless I slip into the crack
Feel as if I've fell into the blue
Hallucinating there's no turning back
Everyone around me is smoking crack"
"Jeff, how could you do this?" he asked his motionless brother. He heard a knock at the door and the paramedics came in. He went to the hospital with them.
The next day, when he was finally allowed into Jeff's room, he sat next to the bed and looked at his brother's form. The doctor had assured him that physically, Jeff would heal, but mentally and emotionally, he would need a lot of help getting over his problems. 'I'm gonna help him. I will be there for him.'
"Matt?"
Matt's eyes flew open and he looked at Jeff. He reached over and held Jeff's hand. He was startled when Jeff pulled it back.
"Damn you, Matt."
"Jeff?"
"Why the hell did you do it?"
"I couldn't let you die. I can't let you die." Matt's eyes filled with tears. "I love you so much, Jeff. You can't die."
"You love me? Gee, coulda fooled me."
The tears slid from Matt's eyes. "Jeff…I-"
"Shut up, Matt, just shut up. I know what you're gonna say. You're gonna say that you're sorry and that you didn't know that it hurt me that much and that you won't do it anymore. Well, BULLSHIT!"
Tears were now streaming down Matt's face. "Jeff…I…you…Jeff," he said helplessly, desperately.
"I hate you, Matt."
"No! Jeff!"
"Just leave me alone."
Matt somehow made it out of the room and onto the street. He walked in the general direction that he thought the hotel was in. As he crossed a street, the tears blinded him, and he didn't see the car racing towards him at a high speed.
"Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
If you've even heard a thing I've said"
~The End~
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