Emotions
Chapter One: Broken Heart
The raven-haired girl walked slowly, her pink lips curving into a small smile. Her small feet walked steadily and quietly along the marble floor. Moonlight seeped in from open windows, bathing her ivory skin, giving her an ethereal appearance. Balamb Garden was so quiet at night…So quiet it was almost silent.
"Squall," she whispered, dark eyes bold and daring, shining like onyxes in her heart-shaped face. "I've got to tell Squall!"
A careful waltz turned into a desperate sprint as the dark-haired woman ran hastily around a curve in Garden's hall, her sky blue cape dancing like an afternoon sky behind her.
"Squall!" She whispered loudly, wondering deeply if he could actually hear her.
Her feet moved quickly along the shimmering floor. She was desperate to reach her lover. She had magnificent news for him.
"Squall," she panted again, becoming tired after only a few feet of jogging. It was obvious why it took her so long to make it into SeeD. She didn't have any endurance, whatsoever.
A tired walk evolved from her declining jog, and she miraculously made it up to the mysteroius swordsman's private dorm.
Knocking slowly on the door, she hit the door quietly with her fist, not wanting to wake up any other student but Squall.
"Squall?" she whispered loudly, standing on upright toes, peeking into the tiny peek hole.
Frowning at the fact that she couldn't see a thing through the tiny peek hole, the porcelain-faced girl lowered her feet to her regular height, and then shook her head, raven hair flying out like a calm explosion of black feathers.
"Come on, Squall! I know you're in there! Open up!" she called out impatiently, yet keeping her sweet voice oh so easily.
Tilting her head to the side, she rose an eyebrow in bewilderment. She could hear small sounds coming from behind the closed door. Like muffled voices, and quiet foosteps.
"Wha…?" she managed, shaking her head in utter confusion.
Placing her ear up to the door, her small hands pressed up against the cold metal surface, giving her body good support while she desperately tried to listen into the strange noises coming from Squall's dorm.
"Squall?" she called once more, desperate to hear his cold voice in response.
"Coming," he called out dully.
And so, the door flung open, and a surprisingly scantily clad Squall stood in the open doorway, a smile curving across his pale lips.
"What's going on?" she asked him, threads of confusion sewing throughout her simple question.
"Notta' damn thing," Squall said, shaking his head at nothing in particular. "So watcha' come by for? You got somethin' you needa' tell me?"
She looked up at the stormy-eyed brunette, wondering exactly *why* she had come to visit him in the first place. It had to be at least one in the morning…Why did she come so late? Why was it so important?
"Um…yes!" she managed, searching through her thoughts to find out what it really was she had to tell her lover.
"Well…what is it?" he said in a smart tone, slyly degrading her.
"Um…" the raven-haired girl thought for a moment, reaching deep into her very thoughts, desperate to find out what she had so desperately wanted to tell her boyfriend.
Squall cocked his neck at an angle, his lean chest and stomach pale from the lack of sunlight he got. He let out a soft sigh, wondering why the dark-haired woman had even bothered to visit him in the middle of the night.
"Oh!" she finally cried out, smiling beautifully. "It's Quistis! Ah, Instructor Trepe! She just called me a while ago! She told me the results of the SeeD exam I took today! I passed it! I got a 78 on it, Squall! I'm a SeeD now! Isn't that incredible?!"
An expressionless look stood still on Squall's face. Finally, a lightning bolt of realization struck into his mind, and he forced a look of bliss to bleed from his snow-white face.
"That's great, Rinoa!" he cried out, picking up the black-haired girl in a warm embrace.
"Oh, yes it is, isn't it?! I mean…I'm a SeeD now! Me! Of all people! Just like…all of you!" Rinoa said, smiling cheerfully after they ended their friendly hug.
"Yeah…" Squall trailed off, silently wishing that his happy-go-lucky lover would go back to her dorm.
"So, what should we do to celebrate?" Rinoa asked innocently, waltzing rudely into his dorm. "Watch a video, go out for dinner tomorrow night? What do you think?"
She turned to face him, a joyful smile spreading across her lips like a forest fire.
He let out a heavy sigh.
"…Whatever you want," he forced out, wincing at another lie he let escape.
Why did he let himself go on? It had been going on for three months now. Sure, it wouldn't seem like that long to anyone else, but…Deep down, Squall *really* did care for Rinoa…He just didn't love her in a sexual way. Sure, he loved her for her carefree attitude, and for breaking his shell…But he just couldn't find himself to find her sexually desirable. He, in fact, was a homosexual…He had his eyes set on Seifer Almasy for quite some time, the two sharing a bittersweet romance off and on since their early teen years.
"Are you feeling okay?" Rinoa asked in a sweet voice, her dark eyes shining like rare gems.
"Fine," Squall lied, scoffing at the lies that spewed from his mouth like a fountain.
"Are you sure?" Rinoa inquired, tilting her head at an angle, placing her hands steadily upon her hips.
"Of course I'm sure," Squall replied, forcing a slow nod.
"Well…if you insist," Rinoa managed, offering a small smile at the pale brunette.
Squall simply stood there, nodding.
Turning to leave, Rinoa walked steadily to the door, and turned to smile once more at her star-crossed lover.
"I'll see ya' tomorrow!" Rinoa cried, and then prepared to jog back to her dorm, when she heard it. That single word.
"Damn!"
It wasn't Squall's voice…But it came from Squall's dorm. What the hell was going on?
Turning to look at Squall, a look of hurt and fear crawled onto Rinoa's face. Her eyes were moist with tears, and her lips trembled softly.
"What was that, Squall?" she managed, desperately fighting away the tears.
"What was what?" Squall asked, a pale pink color coming over his cheeks. It was obvious that he was lying. He had been found out.
"What was that voice, Squall?! Who said that?!" Rinoa cried, stomping angrily over to him, rage crawling over her porcelain face. Pure anger cut into her words like a hot knife into butter.
"Who said what?" Squall managed, his eyes becoming wet with tears. He didn't want Rinoa to get angry with him.
"Oh, forget it, Squall!" Rinoa cried, disgust leaping onto her statement, crashing disastrously into Squall, who never meant to hurt anyone. Innocent on the inside, he followed his body. He never wanted to hurt anyone…He was just too cowardly to sort things out in his life.
Walking over to the area of his dorm from which Rinoa had heard the crude word, the raven-haired girl smiled angrily once she discovered a closet, which was slightly open in the bedroom area of Squall's dorm.
"Aha," Rinoa said, steadily approaching the closet with quiet foosteps.
Ignoring Squall's desperate pleas from behind her, the beautiful dark- haired woman reached for the door handle, and pulled the door open.
Dark eyes turned from anger to shock at who she found in the closet.
Seifer Almasy.
He stood, half-naked in the closet, clad in nothing but navy blue boxers. He offered a small grin, and then shrugged at the stupidity of the situation.
"I see," Rinoa said. She nodded, a gentle hand finding it's way to her face. "So it was you," she finally managed.
"I'm sorry," Seifer offered in a truthfully sad voice.
"You don't have anything to be sorry about. You just stole…him," Rinoa said, smiling a hurtful smile at the muscular blonde.
Turning quickly, Rinoa ran from the bedroom and into the living room, where she found Squall sitting in the corner, his shoulders slumped over in emotional pain.
He was crying.
"It was Seifer!" Rinoa cried out dumbly at the tragic brunette, nodding desperately. "You cheated on me with the man you hate most!"
Squall wouldn't stand up. He wouldn't dare do that. He wanted to sit in the corner, holding himself. He wanted to show Rinoa how pathetic he really was.
"I'm sorry," Squall whispered.
Ignoring his feeble apology, Rinoa lowered her voice slightly with her next question.
"How long?"
"Three months," Squall said through gritted teeth.
"We really are sorry, Rinoa," Seifer said from behind her, coming into the living room while putting on a plain white T-shirt.
"But why?" Rinoa managed, surprised at how well she handling the situation.
"I'm gay," Squall said dumbly. "I've been gay…for a while now. I always just thought I was bi but…It just got too serious, ya' know? I mean, I just lost my attraction for women. But I…I really did love you. I loved your personality, and I loved you for helping me through the tough times. You broke my shell, Rinoa. You did."
Seifer nodded. "He just didn't want to hurt you."
"I see," Rinoa said, nodding weakly. "But of course I'm hurting. I spent allot of my life to you, Squall. I wouldn't have been hurt as bad if you would have just told me. Keeping this…keeping this all to yourself? That's just…stupid. I can't believe you'd do something like this to me. I thought you were so much smarter than that. But…I guess I was wrong all along. Wasn't I?"
Squall just let out a soft sigh. He knew what Rinoa was saying. But she always wanted to be polite…Even if she was burning with anger. She was saying he was pathetic.
"You deserve each other," Rinoa replied just before she left, just as a maelstrom of pain and sadness crushed her.
Running away from the pain, Rinoa left Squall's dorm in a desperate haste, running down the empty halls of Garden like a screaming bullet heading at an unknown target. Her tears ran down her face like rivers, blurring her vision. Then Rinoa turned a sharp corner, and let out a sharp cry when she collided into a strong body.
"Ah!" she cried out, preparing to fall down until two powerful hands grabbed her, steadying her emotionally frail body.
"Rinoa?! Are you all right?"
Looking up, Rinoa's tear-stained eyes lit up with a small hint of happiness. Yet, the pain was still there. There would always be a little bit of pain in her eyes. Squall had just broken off a piece of her heart. He had left her with a broken heart.
"…Oh, Zell!" Rinoa managed, weak from all of her emotions.
TO BE CONTINUED/PLZ R&R
Chapter One: Broken Heart
The raven-haired girl walked slowly, her pink lips curving into a small smile. Her small feet walked steadily and quietly along the marble floor. Moonlight seeped in from open windows, bathing her ivory skin, giving her an ethereal appearance. Balamb Garden was so quiet at night…So quiet it was almost silent.
"Squall," she whispered, dark eyes bold and daring, shining like onyxes in her heart-shaped face. "I've got to tell Squall!"
A careful waltz turned into a desperate sprint as the dark-haired woman ran hastily around a curve in Garden's hall, her sky blue cape dancing like an afternoon sky behind her.
"Squall!" She whispered loudly, wondering deeply if he could actually hear her.
Her feet moved quickly along the shimmering floor. She was desperate to reach her lover. She had magnificent news for him.
"Squall," she panted again, becoming tired after only a few feet of jogging. It was obvious why it took her so long to make it into SeeD. She didn't have any endurance, whatsoever.
A tired walk evolved from her declining jog, and she miraculously made it up to the mysteroius swordsman's private dorm.
Knocking slowly on the door, she hit the door quietly with her fist, not wanting to wake up any other student but Squall.
"Squall?" she whispered loudly, standing on upright toes, peeking into the tiny peek hole.
Frowning at the fact that she couldn't see a thing through the tiny peek hole, the porcelain-faced girl lowered her feet to her regular height, and then shook her head, raven hair flying out like a calm explosion of black feathers.
"Come on, Squall! I know you're in there! Open up!" she called out impatiently, yet keeping her sweet voice oh so easily.
Tilting her head to the side, she rose an eyebrow in bewilderment. She could hear small sounds coming from behind the closed door. Like muffled voices, and quiet foosteps.
"Wha…?" she managed, shaking her head in utter confusion.
Placing her ear up to the door, her small hands pressed up against the cold metal surface, giving her body good support while she desperately tried to listen into the strange noises coming from Squall's dorm.
"Squall?" she called once more, desperate to hear his cold voice in response.
"Coming," he called out dully.
And so, the door flung open, and a surprisingly scantily clad Squall stood in the open doorway, a smile curving across his pale lips.
"What's going on?" she asked him, threads of confusion sewing throughout her simple question.
"Notta' damn thing," Squall said, shaking his head at nothing in particular. "So watcha' come by for? You got somethin' you needa' tell me?"
She looked up at the stormy-eyed brunette, wondering exactly *why* she had come to visit him in the first place. It had to be at least one in the morning…Why did she come so late? Why was it so important?
"Um…yes!" she managed, searching through her thoughts to find out what it really was she had to tell her lover.
"Well…what is it?" he said in a smart tone, slyly degrading her.
"Um…" the raven-haired girl thought for a moment, reaching deep into her very thoughts, desperate to find out what she had so desperately wanted to tell her boyfriend.
Squall cocked his neck at an angle, his lean chest and stomach pale from the lack of sunlight he got. He let out a soft sigh, wondering why the dark-haired woman had even bothered to visit him in the middle of the night.
"Oh!" she finally cried out, smiling beautifully. "It's Quistis! Ah, Instructor Trepe! She just called me a while ago! She told me the results of the SeeD exam I took today! I passed it! I got a 78 on it, Squall! I'm a SeeD now! Isn't that incredible?!"
An expressionless look stood still on Squall's face. Finally, a lightning bolt of realization struck into his mind, and he forced a look of bliss to bleed from his snow-white face.
"That's great, Rinoa!" he cried out, picking up the black-haired girl in a warm embrace.
"Oh, yes it is, isn't it?! I mean…I'm a SeeD now! Me! Of all people! Just like…all of you!" Rinoa said, smiling cheerfully after they ended their friendly hug.
"Yeah…" Squall trailed off, silently wishing that his happy-go-lucky lover would go back to her dorm.
"So, what should we do to celebrate?" Rinoa asked innocently, waltzing rudely into his dorm. "Watch a video, go out for dinner tomorrow night? What do you think?"
She turned to face him, a joyful smile spreading across her lips like a forest fire.
He let out a heavy sigh.
"…Whatever you want," he forced out, wincing at another lie he let escape.
Why did he let himself go on? It had been going on for three months now. Sure, it wouldn't seem like that long to anyone else, but…Deep down, Squall *really* did care for Rinoa…He just didn't love her in a sexual way. Sure, he loved her for her carefree attitude, and for breaking his shell…But he just couldn't find himself to find her sexually desirable. He, in fact, was a homosexual…He had his eyes set on Seifer Almasy for quite some time, the two sharing a bittersweet romance off and on since their early teen years.
"Are you feeling okay?" Rinoa asked in a sweet voice, her dark eyes shining like rare gems.
"Fine," Squall lied, scoffing at the lies that spewed from his mouth like a fountain.
"Are you sure?" Rinoa inquired, tilting her head at an angle, placing her hands steadily upon her hips.
"Of course I'm sure," Squall replied, forcing a slow nod.
"Well…if you insist," Rinoa managed, offering a small smile at the pale brunette.
Squall simply stood there, nodding.
Turning to leave, Rinoa walked steadily to the door, and turned to smile once more at her star-crossed lover.
"I'll see ya' tomorrow!" Rinoa cried, and then prepared to jog back to her dorm, when she heard it. That single word.
"Damn!"
It wasn't Squall's voice…But it came from Squall's dorm. What the hell was going on?
Turning to look at Squall, a look of hurt and fear crawled onto Rinoa's face. Her eyes were moist with tears, and her lips trembled softly.
"What was that, Squall?" she managed, desperately fighting away the tears.
"What was what?" Squall asked, a pale pink color coming over his cheeks. It was obvious that he was lying. He had been found out.
"What was that voice, Squall?! Who said that?!" Rinoa cried, stomping angrily over to him, rage crawling over her porcelain face. Pure anger cut into her words like a hot knife into butter.
"Who said what?" Squall managed, his eyes becoming wet with tears. He didn't want Rinoa to get angry with him.
"Oh, forget it, Squall!" Rinoa cried, disgust leaping onto her statement, crashing disastrously into Squall, who never meant to hurt anyone. Innocent on the inside, he followed his body. He never wanted to hurt anyone…He was just too cowardly to sort things out in his life.
Walking over to the area of his dorm from which Rinoa had heard the crude word, the raven-haired girl smiled angrily once she discovered a closet, which was slightly open in the bedroom area of Squall's dorm.
"Aha," Rinoa said, steadily approaching the closet with quiet foosteps.
Ignoring Squall's desperate pleas from behind her, the beautiful dark- haired woman reached for the door handle, and pulled the door open.
Dark eyes turned from anger to shock at who she found in the closet.
Seifer Almasy.
He stood, half-naked in the closet, clad in nothing but navy blue boxers. He offered a small grin, and then shrugged at the stupidity of the situation.
"I see," Rinoa said. She nodded, a gentle hand finding it's way to her face. "So it was you," she finally managed.
"I'm sorry," Seifer offered in a truthfully sad voice.
"You don't have anything to be sorry about. You just stole…him," Rinoa said, smiling a hurtful smile at the muscular blonde.
Turning quickly, Rinoa ran from the bedroom and into the living room, where she found Squall sitting in the corner, his shoulders slumped over in emotional pain.
He was crying.
"It was Seifer!" Rinoa cried out dumbly at the tragic brunette, nodding desperately. "You cheated on me with the man you hate most!"
Squall wouldn't stand up. He wouldn't dare do that. He wanted to sit in the corner, holding himself. He wanted to show Rinoa how pathetic he really was.
"I'm sorry," Squall whispered.
Ignoring his feeble apology, Rinoa lowered her voice slightly with her next question.
"How long?"
"Three months," Squall said through gritted teeth.
"We really are sorry, Rinoa," Seifer said from behind her, coming into the living room while putting on a plain white T-shirt.
"But why?" Rinoa managed, surprised at how well she handling the situation.
"I'm gay," Squall said dumbly. "I've been gay…for a while now. I always just thought I was bi but…It just got too serious, ya' know? I mean, I just lost my attraction for women. But I…I really did love you. I loved your personality, and I loved you for helping me through the tough times. You broke my shell, Rinoa. You did."
Seifer nodded. "He just didn't want to hurt you."
"I see," Rinoa said, nodding weakly. "But of course I'm hurting. I spent allot of my life to you, Squall. I wouldn't have been hurt as bad if you would have just told me. Keeping this…keeping this all to yourself? That's just…stupid. I can't believe you'd do something like this to me. I thought you were so much smarter than that. But…I guess I was wrong all along. Wasn't I?"
Squall just let out a soft sigh. He knew what Rinoa was saying. But she always wanted to be polite…Even if she was burning with anger. She was saying he was pathetic.
"You deserve each other," Rinoa replied just before she left, just as a maelstrom of pain and sadness crushed her.
Running away from the pain, Rinoa left Squall's dorm in a desperate haste, running down the empty halls of Garden like a screaming bullet heading at an unknown target. Her tears ran down her face like rivers, blurring her vision. Then Rinoa turned a sharp corner, and let out a sharp cry when she collided into a strong body.
"Ah!" she cried out, preparing to fall down until two powerful hands grabbed her, steadying her emotionally frail body.
"Rinoa?! Are you all right?"
Looking up, Rinoa's tear-stained eyes lit up with a small hint of happiness. Yet, the pain was still there. There would always be a little bit of pain in her eyes. Squall had just broken off a piece of her heart. He had left her with a broken heart.
"…Oh, Zell!" Rinoa managed, weak from all of her emotions.
TO BE CONTINUED/PLZ R&R