Here's the final chapter…Sorry if this was a short, stupid fic! I'm working on a long one now, it's called Age Ain't Nothin' But A Number. I'm sure you'll love that one, it's not yaoi though. O_O *Don't hurt me!* But back to this story…This is the final chapter of Emotions. Yes, it's a songfic chapter…Zell finally finds out what he really feels for Squall…It's a sweet ending, really…I hope you enjoy it. And thank you all so much for reviewing! I think I reviewed for all of you, too…I do that for whoever reviews my stories. If I didn't, then please tell me! I'm so sorry if I forgot. Now, on to the final chapter! I worked my butt off on this! (And uploaded the first chapter of Age Ain't Nothin' But A Number and wrote the sequel to Ex Girlfriend, called Happy Now?) So, yeah! Here's the final chapter. Enough of my babbling, lol. Enjoy!
Disclaimer:The song Emotions is owned by Destiny's Child. It's a beautiful song, and it's what I named my fic after. Sure, the song's sad, but…this chapter is just…quite possibly my favorite one. I hope you enjoy it. Oh, and the FF VIII franchise is owned by Squaresoft, and if you try to sue me then :P on you.
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Chapter Eight: Emotions
It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?
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"Rinoa's…done with me," Zell sighed, walking sulkily back to his dorm. "I…she used me, I…really…can't believe it…It was such a…shock…"
He felt a strange sting at his eyes, realizing that he was about to cry. Did Rinoa really mean that much to him?
"The heartache…it's…so strong," Zell murmured. "I…I don't think I can take it anymore…Rinoa? Where…where the hell are you? Who are you thinking of right now? Are you…already in love with someone else? Have you…already forgotten me?"
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And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
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Feeling the tears stream from his beautiful blue eyes in tragic rivers, Zell nodded sadly. "Where…did you go? I'm…sorry I got so angry…It's okay if you used me…I just need you…I'll cry you a thousand rivers…Just…come back to me…"
Holding onto the necklace that hung around his neck, Zell shivered. He felt the tears fall from his eyes like waterfalls. He wanted someone to hold so badly…
"I'll…cry a river that'll lead you, Squall…I know that…you have feelings for me, but…I just…couldn't…"
Squall?
Zell's eyes opened wide at himself. Did he just say "Squall?"
"Why did I…say Squall?" Zell asked, bewildered at himself for saying his best friend's name.
Zell looked up at the starry night sky, his eyes moist from tears. Shaking his head, Zell wondered what he really felt for Squall.
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In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
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"My heart's broken," Zell said, looking into the stormy eyes of his pale-faced friend. "It's…broken in…in half. I…Rinoa she…used me…"
Zell looked away from Squall, as if he were too ashamed to look into his eyes.
Squall closed his eyes in sadness for his broken-hearted friend, embracing him into a warm hug. But unlike the other two hugs…this one had more too it. There was a certain air or romance to it. Zell wrapped his arms around Squall's waist, resting his head on his shoulder. He cried, his shoulders bobbing up and down. Squall had his arms wrapped around Zell's broad shoulders, holding him close.
"Shhh…" Squall hushed. "It'll be okay…It's just emotions…You're…sad because of what Rinoa…did to you…Just…don't pine for her. You're better than that, Zell…"
Squall backed his head away from Zell's neck, looking into the teary eyes of his close friend. "If…she doesn't come running back…then please…come home with me…my sweet baby…"
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I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
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Zell took Squall's lips in a hungry kiss, gently probing through his mouth with his tongue, tasting at all of his mouth's features.
It was a slice of heaven that lasted for only a few seconds.
Zell broke the kiss, smiling shyly at his scarred friend. He unwrapped his arms around Squall's waste, taking a couple steps back. He felt embarrassed.
"I'm…sorry," Zell murmured. "It's just…you're…always here for me. Ever since we were kids…you're…here for me…"
"You don't have anything to be sorry about," Squall replied. "I'm…I'm part of you, Zell. And you're part of me…but…there's a little part of Rinoa blocking us away from each other…"
Zell winced at that simple name. A name he once loved.
Rinoa.
"It's up to you, Zell," Squall said. "It's up to you to find your way."
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And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
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"Where are you?" Zell asked, looking deep into Squall's mysterious eyes. "I need you, Squall. More than I've ever needed anyone before…If…I can't be with you, I'll cry…You healed me, Squall! You did!"
Squall nodded, reaching out to touch Zell's cheek gently.
"I need you just as badly, sweet baby…" Squall whispered, smiling weakly at his new lover.
Squall reached in for a warm kiss, taking the spiky-haired youth by surprise. His tongue poked into Zell's mouth, rubbing at his sweet tongue and smooth features.
After the kiss ended, Squall looked into those blue oceans that Zell had for eyes.
"If we're ever separated…then we'll cry rivers. And…our rivers'll lead to our oceans…And we'll be together again. You'll never see me let you down."
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In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
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Squall and Zell fell onto the bed, hugging each other closely. They didn't want to lose the love they shared, the love that felt so strong.
Squall looked up at Zell with eyes that seemed hurt, and pained. Eyes of longing. "Zell?"
"Yeah?" Zell asked, looking down at Squall with his beautiful eyes.
"You…you wouldn't hurt me, would you?" he asked.
"Of course not…It was just emotions," Zell said. "Just like you said. Rinoa's not here anymore. It's just you and me."
"This…this is a love song," Squall murmured, looking up lovingly into Zell's blue eyes. "If you ever leave…then please come back to me…"?
Zell smiled, shaking his head.
"You don't have to worry about that. I'll never leave you," Zell replied.
"…Thank you," Squall said. "Now…please…love me…"
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And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
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Zell sat up in bed that night, not being able to sleep. He looked over at Squall, who was sleeping like an angel.
"But…what if you leave me?" Zell whispered, forcing a sad smile. "Then what would I do? Even if I did cry a river…it'd never lead to your ocean. I…I don't think I can handle this. I can't let him see me fall apart."
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In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
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"Zell?" a soft voice asked, muffled from the pillows. It was Squall.
He sat up, looking over at Zell with those stormy eyes. Even in the moonlight, Zell's beautiful blue eyes shimmered like oceans.
"Squall," Zell said softly. "I'm sorry…I must've waken you."
"No," Squall replied. "It's just…Sorry, I heard what you were saying…Our love'll last, Zell…I'd never leave you. I love you…with all my heart. I would never break your heart."
Zell nodded, smiling warmly. "Thank you…it's…really, it's just these damn emotions…"
"You were lost," Squall said.
He reached over to kiss Zell on the cheek.
"And now I've found you," he replied.
Zell reached up to touch at the cheek Squall had just kissed.
"I wouldn't dream of kissing anyone else goodnight…you're the man for me, Zell," Squall soothed, smiling at his lover.
Zell nodded, smiling a small grin.
"Thanks…Goodnight, Squall…" Zell murmured.
"Goodnight, sweet baby…" Squall said back.
COMPLETED/PLZ R&R
~ ~ ~Additional Notes:
Okay, I'm sorry if you thought this sucked…I tried my best! I mean, I've really never done yaoi, and I didn't want it to turn into a porno. Sorry, sorry! Don't hurt me! But…seriously, what do you people think? Please r/r…This was the last chapter, and it'd mean a great deal to me. Thank you very much.