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Author's Note: This was originally just the first chapter, but some people didn't seem to get what I was working to do. So in order to clear things up here's Chloe's POV on the situation. Once again, I appreciate constructive criticism, if this works out better good, if not tell me why and I'll try and work it so it's more understandable. Thank you, please read and review, I need the help.
Taste in Men.
Once again I stand here on the outside looking in. Clark's with Lana, I actually don't mind that he wants to be with her what I mind is that he hasn't spared three minutes tonight to keep his promise to me. One dance, one lousy dance, he can't even give me that when she's in the room, how did I ever expect him to give me a second look while she's around. Well screw Clark Kent; I'M going home.
Oh great, just what I need Lex Luthor. How do I always manage to have days like this? But since he's here, I now have the means to get Clark's attention, he never cares what I do until he thinks he might lose me. At least I know how this will turn out.
Lex is really a great dancer, better than Clark, not just because he doesn't tread on my toes, but he makes me feel like he actually wants to dance with me. When I dance with Clark I feel like he's trying not to look like he's dancing with me, like he's worried someone might see and get the wrong idea. Lex doesn't care; he just dances with me and makes me feel… good about me, like there's no one he'd rather be out here with than me. Too bad the song's almost over.
Lex has so many layers, dancing around the kitchen with his mum! Not something you'd expect from a Luthor, at least not something you'd expect one to admit in public.
He holds me close, and then lets me go, but in a second I'm back in his arms. Why does this feel so good? Why does this feel so right? Don't I have a huge crush in Clark? Why am I feeling so whole in the arms of a man five years older than me? It's just the attention, I'd feel the same if it was from anyone, then why the rebuffs earlier? And why am I so happy that he likes I'm not like other girls, when all I've wanted for years is to be like them so guys, okay Clark, will notice me? Could it be I'm falling for him? No, I hardly know him. But that could change.
Clark came over, and I turned him down. And when I did it feels like I've turned down more than a dance, it's like I've turned down what he stands for, what he represents. Maybe I'm growing up, growing out of my crush for Clark; it's been a while since I last had one of my dreams about him. Maybe I never really liked him like that and it was some knee-jerk reaction to his accepting me despite my outsider status, maybe because of it he's never really been a 'joiner' either. Maybe I'm just coming to realise it's not Clark I want, maybe I want someone who looks at me and sees Chloe the woman, not Chloe the friend, Chloe the editor, Chloe the weird outsider, just Chloe.
Lex is looking at me like I've just given him a pardon. All I've done is tell Clark I don't want to dance with him, or have I? That look Lex shot me just now tells me different. I'm not naïve enough to think that Lex would want what I have to offer, but maybe I want what he has to offer. As we get older our tastes change, our taste in food, clothes, music. Mine have been changing regularly since before I could communicate they were changing. If all my other tastes our open to change, why not my taste in men?
Gee Chloe, overanalyse much, your dancing with Smallville's most eligible bachelor, and you're questioning his motives? For once on your life kick back and enjoy. Maybe he does have an ulterior motive, but who cares? You're doing something no other girl in Smallville has achieved yet. So less thinking and more dancing.