A/N This is really short but I realized i was waiting too long to bring this aspect in. The next chapter will be up almost immediately as I have it written.
Lodessa stood in the entrace hall, feeling like a first year once more. The wonder of Hogwarts once more leaving a strong impression. This time though, she was all grown up, or so they said. The 20 years since she had graduated had been filled with many things, but nothing seemed as clear on that brillant autumn day, as her years as a student. Many claimed those years as the best years of their lives, Lodessa wasn't sure whether she was one of them or not. Yet she was glad to be back, and now, unlike when she was 16. Lodessa admitted to herself why. She was going to see him again. Not that anything was to happen, after all he was most certainly as bitter and stubborn as ever. Lodessa would not be discouraged though. He had loved her once, she was sure of it. He was not a man to say or do anything he did not mean. Perhaps, she thought, he might have learned. After all he was now twice as old as he had been, and she had not seen him even once in the last 5 years. Maybe he had learned to forgive...no, she knew better than that. He would never forgive, never understand. Well, that might be but she was an adult and could deal with him. And she'd be damned if she wasn't going to give it another try. She didn't need him, but she would make him need her.. .she would.
"You?"said the silky smooth voice that haunted all here dreams, "what are you doing here?"
She nearly fainted before even turning around to face him. That voice, she felt 15 once more. She turned around to face him. Both could hardly breath, as the studied each other. The most intense mixture of emotions in their eyes. Then he abruptly both eye contact and hurried away.
Lodessa was wrong, she did need him. She needed him more than anything else. "Severus!" she cried mentally, "Why do you always leave me vulnerable and needing you!"
She had to, she must, she needed to make him hers. Yet all she could do was try, and at the same time try to live up to the expectation Dumbledore had for her. She must seem desperate, had 7 years among the likes of Narcissa, Lucius and Maximillian taught her nothing? Wasn't she a Slytherin for a reason? She could do this. No one needed to know. She had fooled Narcissa for years, when they were supposed to be best friends; she had fooled Max when they were going out. She could fool students, who knew nothing of the matter. She would make them love her. She would conquer...and she was going to have fun while she was at it.
Lodessa stood in the entrace hall, feeling like a first year once more. The wonder of Hogwarts once more leaving a strong impression. This time though, she was all grown up, or so they said. The 20 years since she had graduated had been filled with many things, but nothing seemed as clear on that brillant autumn day, as her years as a student. Many claimed those years as the best years of their lives, Lodessa wasn't sure whether she was one of them or not. Yet she was glad to be back, and now, unlike when she was 16. Lodessa admitted to herself why. She was going to see him again. Not that anything was to happen, after all he was most certainly as bitter and stubborn as ever. Lodessa would not be discouraged though. He had loved her once, she was sure of it. He was not a man to say or do anything he did not mean. Perhaps, she thought, he might have learned. After all he was now twice as old as he had been, and she had not seen him even once in the last 5 years. Maybe he had learned to forgive...no, she knew better than that. He would never forgive, never understand. Well, that might be but she was an adult and could deal with him. And she'd be damned if she wasn't going to give it another try. She didn't need him, but she would make him need her.. .she would.
"You?"said the silky smooth voice that haunted all here dreams, "what are you doing here?"
She nearly fainted before even turning around to face him. That voice, she felt 15 once more. She turned around to face him. Both could hardly breath, as the studied each other. The most intense mixture of emotions in their eyes. Then he abruptly both eye contact and hurried away.
Lodessa was wrong, she did need him. She needed him more than anything else. "Severus!" she cried mentally, "Why do you always leave me vulnerable and needing you!"
She had to, she must, she needed to make him hers. Yet all she could do was try, and at the same time try to live up to the expectation Dumbledore had for her. She must seem desperate, had 7 years among the likes of Narcissa, Lucius and Maximillian taught her nothing? Wasn't she a Slytherin for a reason? She could do this. No one needed to know. She had fooled Narcissa for years, when they were supposed to be best friends; she had fooled Max when they were going out. She could fool students, who knew nothing of the matter. She would make them love her. She would conquer...and she was going to have fun while she was at it.