Friday, December 18th, French
This morning, I got another chance to see William's absolutely charming personality. We were having breakfast with Grand-Mere and dad, he just kept mesmerizing them by being the idea of a perfect prince. He said the right things at the right moments and didn't put his elbows on the table, a skill that I haven't mastered yet. The thing was, he looked genuinely happy and it seemed all that he said was true, but I just got this weird feeling. I can't feel comfortable around him. He irks me somehow but I can't explain why. Female intuition maybe? This guy simply bugs me. Dad, acting out his new role as matchmaker, asked William if he would please be kind enough and escort me school. If he was supposed to protect me, why was Lars still on dad's payroll then? I tried convincing him that that was a stupid idea but William already accepted. I really didn't want him there because I still had to talk to Michael and Lily, I didn't really want my maybe-future-husband to meet my current boyfriend. I didn't have a choice so I had to let William get in the limo. This was practically a playback of my date with Josh Richter. We had nothing to say to each other and he looked bored and annoyed. Well, gotta say that he asked for it. When Lily and Michael saw him, they had identical looks of astonishment on their faces. The one with the mouth in an "O" and every muscle frozen in place. This was gonna be a long, long day. After a few rushed greetings, silence fell in the limo again. I wanted to blurt everything out so I wouldn't go crazy from all this pent-up emotion, but I couldn't really do that with William right THERE in front of me. When the limo pulled away from school, Michael was the first one to react:
- You're going to marry him after all?
He looked so hurt and sad, I wished that I could have said no.
- I don't know.
- YOU DON'T KNOW?
- No! This is really complicated.
- How complicated can it be? Either you like HIM, or you like me!
Then he stormed away and left me there with Lily:
- I think you need a major venting session with your best friend.
- Where to start? First I learn that I'm a future queen, now, I might get married to a prince that I don't even like.
- Didn't you talk to your family about your unwillingness to marry against your will?
- Yeah, I did. The things that my dad told me were so true, I couldn't insist that I didn't want to marry him.
- So you like William?
- NO!!!
- But you might marry him?
- It's not up to me to decide.
So I continued confessing everything to Lily during gym and I felt amazingly better. I finally got her to see this whole thing from my point of view. Not that it mattered really. I just needed to vent it all out. I decided to hunt Michael down after school and tell him that, no matter what, I loved him. I just hope that that will be enough, since I can't promise him much more.
This morning, I got another chance to see William's absolutely charming personality. We were having breakfast with Grand-Mere and dad, he just kept mesmerizing them by being the idea of a perfect prince. He said the right things at the right moments and didn't put his elbows on the table, a skill that I haven't mastered yet. The thing was, he looked genuinely happy and it seemed all that he said was true, but I just got this weird feeling. I can't feel comfortable around him. He irks me somehow but I can't explain why. Female intuition maybe? This guy simply bugs me. Dad, acting out his new role as matchmaker, asked William if he would please be kind enough and escort me school. If he was supposed to protect me, why was Lars still on dad's payroll then? I tried convincing him that that was a stupid idea but William already accepted. I really didn't want him there because I still had to talk to Michael and Lily, I didn't really want my maybe-future-husband to meet my current boyfriend. I didn't have a choice so I had to let William get in the limo. This was practically a playback of my date with Josh Richter. We had nothing to say to each other and he looked bored and annoyed. Well, gotta say that he asked for it. When Lily and Michael saw him, they had identical looks of astonishment on their faces. The one with the mouth in an "O" and every muscle frozen in place. This was gonna be a long, long day. After a few rushed greetings, silence fell in the limo again. I wanted to blurt everything out so I wouldn't go crazy from all this pent-up emotion, but I couldn't really do that with William right THERE in front of me. When the limo pulled away from school, Michael was the first one to react:
- You're going to marry him after all?
He looked so hurt and sad, I wished that I could have said no.
- I don't know.
- YOU DON'T KNOW?
- No! This is really complicated.
- How complicated can it be? Either you like HIM, or you like me!
Then he stormed away and left me there with Lily:
- I think you need a major venting session with your best friend.
- Where to start? First I learn that I'm a future queen, now, I might get married to a prince that I don't even like.
- Didn't you talk to your family about your unwillingness to marry against your will?
- Yeah, I did. The things that my dad told me were so true, I couldn't insist that I didn't want to marry him.
- So you like William?
- NO!!!
- But you might marry him?
- It's not up to me to decide.
So I continued confessing everything to Lily during gym and I felt amazingly better. I finally got her to see this whole thing from my point of view. Not that it mattered really. I just needed to vent it all out. I decided to hunt Michael down after school and tell him that, no matter what, I loved him. I just hope that that will be enough, since I can't promise him much more.