Konnnnnnichiwa! Finally, the long awaited 4th chapter. Gomen ne, minna-san. Homework was piling up again…(I swear…my English teacher is insane! ^_^) aaaaaanyhow, here it is, hope you enjoy it!

On the Pages of a Magazine

Chapter 4

By: Suteki Sakura

The auburn haired boy stared up at the ceiling of his apartment. He was laying on the sofa, munching on a pack of Pocky. (A/N: yummmmm) He had just come home from the practice shoot with Tomoyo and Sakura.

'I can't believe you did that, Syaoran. You IDIOT! Hey, shut up okay? Its not like I can help something like that…Great, now its impossible that Sakura doesn't know I like her!'

Earlier that day, at Sakura's house, she and Syaoran were in a pose where Sakura was wrapped around Syaoran in a cat-like fashion. It was Tomoyo's idea, and of course, she pretended that something on her camera wasn't working. So she made them freeze for about a minute while she tried to figure out what was wrong. It became all too much for Syaoran then, who eventually fainted from the rapid blood rush to his head.

'Well…that's okay…I guess. I'm going to have to tell her sooner or later, right? Might as well be now…'

Syaoran sighed. A sudden ring of the phone jolted him off the sofa.

"N…nanda?!" he turned around and reached for the cordless phone on the side table. He climbed back onto the sofa as he answered. To his surprise, a pleasantly familiar voice played on his ears.

"Sakura?"

"Hai! Syaoran-kun, I just called to see if you were okay…because you know how at my house earlier how you fainted. And your face was all red…so I…was just worried 'cuz maybe you had a fever…or something."

Syaoran answered with an awkward silence.

"S…Syaoran-kun? Daijoubu?" Sakura asked. Her voice conveyed worry through the phone.

"N-nan demo nai! I…uh…" Syaoran desperately tried to start up a conversation, but sadly his mind was blank at the moment. His face was flushed red and he was grateful that Sakura couldn't see him right then.

"Ano…so, don't you think Tomoyo-chan's outfits today were normal for once?" the emerald-eyed girl giggled, and Syaoran felt a small smile play on his lips.

'Her laugh…makes me happy…'

"And your smile makes me happy too…" He said, unconsciously. Suddenly his eyes widened in horror as he realized what he just said. Sakura was silent. Syaoran fell back on the arm of the sofa.

'OH CRAP! I just said that out loud, didn't I? NOOOOOO'

At hearing this shocked Sakura. Until now, she never really knew how Syaoran felt about her. Sure they were friends, but he didn't talk about much to her except if it was about the Clow Cards. She truly didn't know what to say.

"Na…nani? Syaoran-kun? A…arigato!" even though she was confused, she still thanked him cheerfully.

'You should say it now, Syaoran…'

"Sakura…There's…um…something…I…ah…have…to um…" Syaoran stuttered, blushing furiously.

'Who knew this could be so hard? And…I'm already only on the phone!'

"What is it, Syaoran-kun?"

'SAY IT!'

"Sakura, I…" he mumbled.

'What is it that Syaoran-kun wants to tell me…?' Sakura thought to herself, feeling her heart beat quicken.

"Sakura, I… I love you!" he finally blurted out. Syaoran winced and shut his eyes, bracing himself for Sakura's rejection. He heard her soft gasp on the other line.

'Syaoran…loves me? Is he the one I love the most?' Sakura thought back from when Syaoran first came from Hong Kong. She knew she cared for him as a friend. But did she really love him? 'I can't tell him I love him back…when I'm not totally sure…it wouldn't be...true...demo…will I hurt his feelings?'

"Syaoran-kun…thank you…" she smiled into the phone "I…uh…well…I'll see you tomorrow then…at the photo shoot, ne?"

'She…doesn't love me…'

"…Yeah…tomorrow…" Syaoran answered sadly and clicked off the phone. He leaned forward and held his face in his hands. He knew the truth now, that his Sakura didn't love him.

'How could I have been so stupid to think she could love me back?' he glanced down at the phone next to him and glared. 'Why should I even go to that photo shoot now?'

Just then, Syaoran realized something. If Sakura didn't have any feelings for him at all, why ask him to come to the photo shoot still? Surely she'd want to avoid him now…His hopes rose then suddenly fell again. 'Of course, it has nothing to do with me…she just wants to get this modeling job…and Kazeshi-san asked for both of us to try out…'

Syaoran sighed and got up to get ready for bed. He had a long day ahead of him tomorrow…having to see the girl of his dreams knowing she could only be his…in his dreams.

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nanda – What the? What's this?

daijoubu? – are you okay?

nan demo nai – its nothing

nani – what

-kun – a suffix at the end of the name of people you don't know that well yet, or for boys

That's the end of this chapter! Kinda sad isnt it? But no worries! Syaoran is in good hands, so I won't let anything happen to him! Just watch out for the next chapter, ne! ^_-

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