Author: Zierra
Disclaimer: I wish……
Story: Just something my weird mind came up with. Just for the record:
this is how I see the characters, so don't kill me….
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I've been encouraged enough. Here's chapter 2!
This one's about Seifer, if you won't notice. As I've said before: I like Seifer, so if you consider what I'm about to write as offensive towards Seifer, I apologize. I just think he likes who he is…… ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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CONFESSION OF THE RAT
Shit happens. A common expression, and also a true one. Shit do happen. Especially to me, it seems.
I've fallen hard for the most unlikely person imaginable.
Squall, you think, and I would agree, if it didn't make him the most obvious choice.
No, it's Zell.
Damn! I think that was the first time I've actually used his real name. I call him Chickenwuss, and with all right, he is a Chickenwuss. But a damn sexy one. Unbe-fucking-lievable.
It was one of those love-at-first-sight crushes, with only one minor difference. It wasn't the first time I saw him… Hell no! We grew up together. But things have changed, apparently, life didn't ask me what I wanted, it just ruled by it's own will, and this was what it came up with. Thanks a fucking lot!
Life made it so I no longer see him as a good-for-nothing crybaby, but a lean, mean, sexy killing machine.
It was during the prom, and Zell was there (duh!), looking all fine… Didn't think too much of it, until he came up to me, to congratulate me for becoming a SeeD. I was in chock for a while, wondering if I was dreaming or just had a bad hearing day. But then he said the three magic words (for me) and I no longer cared if I dreamed or not.
" You deserve it."
It was like getting a bucket of ice poured inside your shirt, and after that, I was sold, Zell being the (un)lucky (and unaware) buyer.
Don't like to admit it though. Kinda feels like it makes me a wuss…. Heh, although it seems rather suiting, don't you think?
Zell's like a drug, a cliché, I know, but it doesn't make it any less true. When he's not around or when I haven't seen him during the entire day, I start to get withdrawal symptoms. I get this fix idea that I need to find him, and I don't give up until I do. Get a life, Seifer Almasy, or at least a picture you can ogle over. What did I just say!? Ogle? I *don't* ogle. I never have, nor will I ever! I'm a fucking asshole, I.DON'T. OGLE!!!
Well, one thing that is clear, is that my addiction/obsession of Zell isn't very healthy…
You wanna know what I thought when I first realized my feelings? That I had developed a severe mental illness. I still think so, on occasions. I must have some sort of malfunction in my brain, because until I all of a sudden fell over a cliff into the sea of Zell, I was straight. No one switches that fast…. Then again, it's me I'm talking about.
Garden bad ass number 1!
The only thing worse, than my totally obscene feelings for Zell, is that I think Squall has the same feelings. That little…….. Well, guess I should explain why I suspect this.
Squall is the silent type, right… Don't talk much (because he doesn't have anything important to say) and seems like his insides is made of metal.
Well, I know him well enough (I've hated the bastard for over 17 years now, I like to think I have a clue about him) to see that he is different around this fiery blonde martial artist (with the greatest ass). He's too obvious in his ignorance, and to persistent in his questions. And the only thing I could think of that would make Squall act like that would be that he think the same way I do:
Zells the hottest ever walked through Garden.
Ah, well, it really doesn't matter. Zell's straight, he even has a girlfriend. Don't know her name, and I don't fucking care. She's a skinny bitch who walks around, acting like she owns Zell. She can't *possibly* give Zell what he needs. But I know I can, and one day, she's gonna pay for all of the times she's smiled her superior smile when she walks past with Zell, for the times she's gone out with him, so I can't "ogle" at him…
She's going down….
Zell needs a real man, so Squall can kiss my ass if he tries anything.
As you probably noticed, I'm a self-centred asshole (I think that words suits me) and I really don't care. I actually kinda like it. People fears me and avoids me, and it's all fine with me. I guess my bad ass image (which really isn't an image) doesn't work for Zell.
My loss then……
Fuck, that's depressing!
Just to summon things up (like our GF's):
I'm one bad son-of-a-bitch!!!!
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# So, is this any better than Squalls? It's was much easier to write, for some reason. Next one in line is either Rinoa's or Xu's, but that depends on how many ideas I have.
Maybe you can help with that? Since you know a little bit what I think about Rinoa, you can guess what I'm looking for. As for Xu, she's in love with Squall (duh) and I need some plot in her confession (except for the interference of Rinoa). Well, I trust your good judgement!
# So, Seifer fans. Was it as bad as you thought? I'm rather satisfied with it (otherwise I wouldn't have posted it) and I don't think his reputation takes any damage of this. It's
just fiction after all. =o)
# You may notice a small quote from the (super great) movie "Pearl Harbor". I just
thought it sounded so great, that I had to use it. No harm intended. =o)
# Some of you may have noticed that Quistis is not included in Squalls fic, don't worry Quisty fans, she's coming….. Sooner or later. =o)