Title: Goodbye to You
Pairing: Jessie/Katie
Rating: PG-13
Description: Songfic, No Happy Ending
Disclaimer: Nothing here belongs to me except the story/plot. I'm making no money off this, the characters are copyrighted ABC and/or the writers/producers/directors of Once and Again. The song is copyright Michelle Branch and/or her producers.
A/N: Since Jessie has been clueless/in denial since Day One about Katie's feelings for her, I was like, well, what if they hadn't kissed? What if there was no happy ending?
"I can't do it anymore," Katie paced quietly.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
"What do you mean?" Jessie asked anxiously, nervously.
Katie gestured expansively. "You. Me. This. Us."
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
"What are you saying?" Jessie demanded, voice trembling.
"You know what I feel for you," Katie said quietly, avoiding Jessie's eyes. Not wanting her to see the pain in her own. "I thought I could deal with…just being friends with you. But I lied. I can't. It hurts too much."
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
"Katie…." Jessie began.
Katie cut her off abruptly. "No, Jess. This isn't working. I'm sorry. I'll go now. Goodbye."
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
"What do you want from me?" Jessie demanded, getting up, striding over to block Katie from the door.
"I want you," Katie said gently. Put all her feeling into her eyes. And was crushed when Jessie stepped back after a few moments, either unwilling to unable to deal with the situation.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Katie stepped forward, gently tilted Jessie's face to hers. Tears overflowed from the younger girl's eyes and Katie let them fall freely from her own. Pressed a chaste kiss on Jessie's lips. And left.
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time.
Katie laughed, her arm around a female friend who was most definitely just a friend. The two were just being pal-y. She was slowly becoming comfortable, more or less, since she had broken off whatever she had with Jessie. She paused by a familiar locker. She didn't know where she was headed without Jessie…but she wanted to know how Jessie was doing. And, she had to admit to the little niggling voice inside her, that it felt good to throw her friend in Jessie's face, knowing what Jessie would assume. She turned to peck at her friend's cheek in response to a cute comment.
Across the hall, Jessie, stuffing books into her locker, looked up. A mixture of emotions flickered across her face, her eyes meeting Katie's as the other girl straightened up from her kiss.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
A challenge grew in Katie's eyes as she stared down Jessie. Flashes of emotion flickered across both girls' eyes
Then Jessie slammed her locker shut and stormed down the hallway in the opposite direction, as Katie spotted a group of friends, including Sarah, waiting for her up ahead. She went forward.
Neither looked back.
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star