Disclaimer: Maki Murakami owns Gravi and I just love it too much to leave it untouched.
The Difference Between Need and Want
by Yui Miyamoto
Chapter 4 - Hounto ni subete o shirimasu ka? (Do you really know everything?)
"Sachou!" I said with my voice a bit inclined to shout, but not quite. Here I had been trying to get his attention for about ten minutes and this was the first time he had seemed so distracted...yet...
Like always, the environment around him was very peaceful. But the look in his eyes was not that of the man I looked up to.
It looked defeated.
And that was something I wouldn't accept from him...
But, I kept my cool. If I freaked out for something like that, he might suspect more of me. That the way I looked up to him was the way Shindou-kun admired Sakuma-san.
That is not so, Sachou.
Before I could stop myself, I patted his shoulder without knowing why.
"So what is the update for Bad Luck?"
We then relayed to each other what the other needed to know.
When I was bowing and turning to leave the room, Sachou stopped me.
Then, Sachou did something that struck me as something out of his character. He walked up to the windows and looked down at streets and buildings of Tokyo below him. And he put his hands over one another in back of him.
Without taking a glance at me, he asked calmly, "I want to ask you something Nakano-san."
Turning around, I watched him carefully, I hesitantly answered, "Yes."
But I know deep inside, I'm screaming, "Anything. Just ask me anything..."
"Do you remember your first love?"
I had not expected that one...
Pulling somewhat of my collar and sweating a bit, I answered honestly, "Of course I do. Everyone does."
He nodded his head. "So true," he agreed while sighing. "So true..."
I, who wouldn't ever question him, blurted, "But why would you ask me something like that, Sachou?"
I wish I didn't have such a stupid mouth...
especially when it came to him...
Seguchi-san turned and smiled at me as he leaned on the window with his feet crossed.
That's so cute...
I wish I could be as cool as he is right now...
This was the type of perfection I wanted to reach.
With crystal clear blue eyes, he answered me, "I asked because I know you wouldn't lie to me."
I nodded my head. "Of course, Sachou."
He shook his head and pushed himself to come closer to me. He lifted his hands to my face and softly rested them on my cheeks.
"Uh, Sachou..."
What is he doing? I'm growing hotter and hotter...
I'm not supposed to feel this way...
But why aren't I protesting?
Not at all...
"Do you think I'm weak to do this type of thing?"
Shaking my head, I answered, "No, not at all!"
Still unable to look into his face, he harshly commanded, "Then look at me, Sagano-san!"
I slowly lifted my eyes to look at his.
"That's better."
He looked at me with a sorrowful look that I had wished couldn't cut me in two...
And then I felt his warm arms around my back.
You must know how much I have wanted so much to react back...
To be able to show my emotions without a second thought...
Burying his face into my hair, he embraced me even tighter. "That's better, Sagano-san..."
"For now, think of that person." Whispering to both himself and me, he said, "Look at me like that."
My eyes wandered to the ground as I agreed with a heart-filled yet usual sounding Hai.
That isn't so hard, Sachou. In fact, it's the easiest thing you've asked me to do.
Because you are.
Since you seem to know everything, I thought you already knew.
You would also have noticed how I have needed to quench this unending fear...
...this persisting need of wanting to be the one you love without showing any emotion at all...
So I guess you are have a vulnerable human heart...
for if you really knew everything, you would know I never wanted to hold my feelings back of my own free will...
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Author's note: Isn't Sagano so cute when he's so analytical?
The Difference Between Need and Want
by Yui Miyamoto
Chapter 4 - Hounto ni subete o shirimasu ka? (Do you really know everything?)
"Sachou!" I said with my voice a bit inclined to shout, but not quite. Here I had been trying to get his attention for about ten minutes and this was the first time he had seemed so distracted...yet...
Like always, the environment around him was very peaceful. But the look in his eyes was not that of the man I looked up to.
It looked defeated.
And that was something I wouldn't accept from him...
But, I kept my cool. If I freaked out for something like that, he might suspect more of me. That the way I looked up to him was the way Shindou-kun admired Sakuma-san.
That is not so, Sachou.
Before I could stop myself, I patted his shoulder without knowing why.
"So what is the update for Bad Luck?"
We then relayed to each other what the other needed to know.
When I was bowing and turning to leave the room, Sachou stopped me.
Then, Sachou did something that struck me as something out of his character. He walked up to the windows and looked down at streets and buildings of Tokyo below him. And he put his hands over one another in back of him.
Without taking a glance at me, he asked calmly, "I want to ask you something Nakano-san."
Turning around, I watched him carefully, I hesitantly answered, "Yes."
But I know deep inside, I'm screaming, "Anything. Just ask me anything..."
"Do you remember your first love?"
I had not expected that one...
Pulling somewhat of my collar and sweating a bit, I answered honestly, "Of course I do. Everyone does."
He nodded his head. "So true," he agreed while sighing. "So true..."
I, who wouldn't ever question him, blurted, "But why would you ask me something like that, Sachou?"
I wish I didn't have such a stupid mouth...
especially when it came to him...
Seguchi-san turned and smiled at me as he leaned on the window with his feet crossed.
That's so cute...
I wish I could be as cool as he is right now...
This was the type of perfection I wanted to reach.
With crystal clear blue eyes, he answered me, "I asked because I know you wouldn't lie to me."
I nodded my head. "Of course, Sachou."
He shook his head and pushed himself to come closer to me. He lifted his hands to my face and softly rested them on my cheeks.
"Uh, Sachou..."
What is he doing? I'm growing hotter and hotter...
I'm not supposed to feel this way...
But why aren't I protesting?
Not at all...
"Do you think I'm weak to do this type of thing?"
Shaking my head, I answered, "No, not at all!"
Still unable to look into his face, he harshly commanded, "Then look at me, Sagano-san!"
I slowly lifted my eyes to look at his.
"That's better."
He looked at me with a sorrowful look that I had wished couldn't cut me in two...
And then I felt his warm arms around my back.
You must know how much I have wanted so much to react back...
To be able to show my emotions without a second thought...
Burying his face into my hair, he embraced me even tighter. "That's better, Sagano-san..."
"For now, think of that person." Whispering to both himself and me, he said, "Look at me like that."
My eyes wandered to the ground as I agreed with a heart-filled yet usual sounding Hai.
That isn't so hard, Sachou. In fact, it's the easiest thing you've asked me to do.
Because you are.
Since you seem to know everything, I thought you already knew.
You would also have noticed how I have needed to quench this unending fear...
...this persisting need of wanting to be the one you love without showing any emotion at all...
So I guess you are have a vulnerable human heart...
for if you really knew everything, you would know I never wanted to hold my feelings back of my own free will...
--
Author's note: Isn't Sagano so cute when he's so analytical?