Disclaimer: gravi isn't mine...eh, too lazy. you imagine what's here.
The Difference Between Need and Want
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 7 - No words.
As Ryuichi held my shoulders, my body and mind were separate entities
in and of themselves.
My mind was going a million miles per split second while my body froze
as I turned red in embarrassment, though I acted like it was the most
natural thing in the world for my god to touch me...
Yeah...right.
"Excuse me, Ryuichi." I got up and left the room only to close the
door behind me and bite my fist to kill two birds with one stone: He was so adorable! And he touched me!!
"I'm not dreaming?" I pinched myself to make sure. With the positive
confirmation, I shouted, "Alright!"
Looking around cautiously, I sighed and did something that I thought
I'd never do even in my waking hours. Silently, I jumped up and down
like a fanatic fan girl and closed my eyes tightly to whisper to myself, "Ryuichi touched me. Ryuichi touched me..."
Then, I adjusted my collar and cleared my throat. "Geez, Tatsuha,
you're such a dork."
"Ahou." My brother, who had been there all that time watching me,
looked at me with his deadpan expression.
Pushing past me, he stopped and patted my head. "Wash your face. I
don't think you've noticed that your nose was bleeding, you idiot."
Blinking, I waved my hand sheepishly, "Eh heh heh..."
While washing my face, I couldn't help but smile. And it was the kind
of smile that wouldn't go away even if it hurt your face to do so
because you were so damn happy.
But pain was of no avail to Ryuichi! I'd take anything!
Bring it on!!!!
Being the avid fan of his that I am, I kneeled to the floor and bowed
towards his direction. "Oh thank you god. Thank you thank you thank
you!"
Feeling lightheaded again, little Tatsuhas inside my mind were
laughing, giggling, and jumping all over the place. One had a little banner saying, "Ryuichi!" Another one in a monk's uniform was dancing while saying, "You should be calm everyone."
But all the other chibi Tatsuhas jumped him and tied him up while
partying once more.
"Even my chibis are getting more violent," I pondered aloud. "Oh
well."
I was touched my god...I was touched by my go~od...I was touched by my
go~od!
You may not understand, but I've been in love with him for the longest
time. I know I wasn't supposedly to fall for a guy, but with someone
that cool, how could I resist?
And his mixed personality was just as crazy as mine...
...so cute to make me melt...
...yet so sexy to make me...make me...
"Tatsuha-kun, you're drooling," Shuichi said as he washed his hands
while I was still looking at the mirror of the bathroom.
I put my hand on the back of my head and started to laugh. "Eh heh
heh...Etou..."
And we'll leave it at that.
As I was walking back to the room, I couldn't help but start thinking
about how this all came about. Opening the door to the room, I
immediately searched for Ryuichi. My eyes were thinking on their own.
But, I still sat on the couch for a couple of minutes when I noticed
that it was already midnight and everyone was dispersing.
As everyone left, I said bye and Ryuichi took me out of the room. We
went to a corner and he patted my shoulder smiling. "Well, I'll see you later, Tatsuha-kun?"
"Okay."
As he turned around, he smirked cutely at me and kissed me quickly on
the lips. "Ja ne~."
I watched him go away with my hand in my pocket and looking cool. As
soon as he was out of sight, my knees gave out and I pinched myself.
"I'm not dreaming!!!! I'M NOT DREAMING!"
Shuichi came over to me and dragged me back to the room. "Instead of
swooning there, help us out."
There were Shuichi and Yuki picking up all the trash before going home.
They had only borrowed this place for Yuki's birthday, but knowing my
brother, we used the excuse of 'gathering'.
As I picked up around the room, I thought, "It was because of that look
when he was singing..."
No one has that kind of look. It was so soft, yet intense enough to
make it look so seductive that you couldn't resist unless you were really inhuman to do so.
But then, when I watched his videos over and over, I thought that he
was too cool for me to touch. People like that don't fall for ordinary
people...and a monk, no less?
Sighing to myself, I smiled wistfully.
All the factors were against me:
1) He was 15 years older than me.
2) He was a famous singer.
See, I could handle that if it were just that, but he was a 'he'
Ryuichi was a guy. And that used to depress me just knowing this single fact.
With all that, I knew that it would be impossible to even get a glimpse
of him. But then, I did. When I was 12, I know he has forgotten, but
I haven't.
Seguchi-san was just visiting Ni-chan. And he had brought a friend.
That friend was Ryuichi Sakuma.
From the slit on the wall in between the two doors of the den, I
watched them talk. But I kept on staring at Ryuichi.
I was so close, yet so far. I wanted to reach out and touch him, but I
couldn't. I couldn't even find an excuse to come in because I would
get in trouble.
Even if I did find an excuse, I was so breathless that I didn't know
what to say. Picture seeing the person you had learned to love the most and never had a chance of seeing them, only to watch them walk through the threshold of your home trying to decipher if this was joke, a dream, or both....
But then, turning towards my direction, he smiled while looking around
the room. He was genki...
...and that made him so much cuter to me.
Blinking my eyes, I wanted to see more, but the maid got upset with me
and said I shouldn't peep in on other people. So, I went to my room
only to find that they were leaving at that moment.
Plastering myself to the window, I watched them leave. Seguchi-san
waved to me after being surprised that I was watching them. And then
Ryuichi dipped his head a bit and waved goodbye to me.
I smiled for such a long time after that. But then, I also wanted to
cry.
Until now, I had thought the same thing every time I read about or saw
him on TV:
Why was Ryuichi always so near and yet so far away from me?
WHAP!
"Ahou! Stop daydreaming about Sakuma-san again!" my brother scolded.
"Hai, hai." I nodded my head and was no longer distracted as I grinned
to myself.
"Wipe that disgusting grin off your face," my brother yet again
scolded. "It's most disturbing,"
I stopped wiping the counter and asked him seriously, "Ni=chan."
With a cigarette stuck in his mouth as he wiped the other side of the
counter, he answered, "Nani?"
"What do think of when someone says the words 'need' and 'want'?"
I had to ask him. Yuki Ni-chan never liked small talk, so I had to
always ask him random things like this to keep his interest.
But I really want to know, Ni-chan. You never tell anyone and even
Shuichi gets confused all the time because of that...
Because to me...
Ryuichi is more than a want to me.
Ryuichi is more than a need to me.
It's beyond love and obsession...something that I can no longer
describe with human words.
I'm most fortunate that my most important want and need...
...also wants and needs me back...
---
Author's note: kawaii...kawaii...Tatsuha and Ryuichi...so many
possibilities...
The Difference Between Need and Want
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 7 - No words.
As Ryuichi held my shoulders, my body and mind were separate entities
in and of themselves.
My mind was going a million miles per split second while my body froze
as I turned red in embarrassment, though I acted like it was the most
natural thing in the world for my god to touch me...
Yeah...right.
"Excuse me, Ryuichi." I got up and left the room only to close the
door behind me and bite my fist to kill two birds with one stone: He was so adorable! And he touched me!!
"I'm not dreaming?" I pinched myself to make sure. With the positive
confirmation, I shouted, "Alright!"
Looking around cautiously, I sighed and did something that I thought
I'd never do even in my waking hours. Silently, I jumped up and down
like a fanatic fan girl and closed my eyes tightly to whisper to myself, "Ryuichi touched me. Ryuichi touched me..."
Then, I adjusted my collar and cleared my throat. "Geez, Tatsuha,
you're such a dork."
"Ahou." My brother, who had been there all that time watching me,
looked at me with his deadpan expression.
Pushing past me, he stopped and patted my head. "Wash your face. I
don't think you've noticed that your nose was bleeding, you idiot."
Blinking, I waved my hand sheepishly, "Eh heh heh..."
While washing my face, I couldn't help but smile. And it was the kind
of smile that wouldn't go away even if it hurt your face to do so
because you were so damn happy.
But pain was of no avail to Ryuichi! I'd take anything!
Bring it on!!!!
Being the avid fan of his that I am, I kneeled to the floor and bowed
towards his direction. "Oh thank you god. Thank you thank you thank
you!"
Feeling lightheaded again, little Tatsuhas inside my mind were
laughing, giggling, and jumping all over the place. One had a little banner saying, "Ryuichi!" Another one in a monk's uniform was dancing while saying, "You should be calm everyone."
But all the other chibi Tatsuhas jumped him and tied him up while
partying once more.
"Even my chibis are getting more violent," I pondered aloud. "Oh
well."
I was touched my god...I was touched by my go~od...I was touched by my
go~od!
You may not understand, but I've been in love with him for the longest
time. I know I wasn't supposedly to fall for a guy, but with someone
that cool, how could I resist?
And his mixed personality was just as crazy as mine...
...so cute to make me melt...
...yet so sexy to make me...make me...
"Tatsuha-kun, you're drooling," Shuichi said as he washed his hands
while I was still looking at the mirror of the bathroom.
I put my hand on the back of my head and started to laugh. "Eh heh
heh...Etou..."
And we'll leave it at that.
As I was walking back to the room, I couldn't help but start thinking
about how this all came about. Opening the door to the room, I
immediately searched for Ryuichi. My eyes were thinking on their own.
But, I still sat on the couch for a couple of minutes when I noticed
that it was already midnight and everyone was dispersing.
As everyone left, I said bye and Ryuichi took me out of the room. We
went to a corner and he patted my shoulder smiling. "Well, I'll see you later, Tatsuha-kun?"
"Okay."
As he turned around, he smirked cutely at me and kissed me quickly on
the lips. "Ja ne~."
I watched him go away with my hand in my pocket and looking cool. As
soon as he was out of sight, my knees gave out and I pinched myself.
"I'm not dreaming!!!! I'M NOT DREAMING!"
Shuichi came over to me and dragged me back to the room. "Instead of
swooning there, help us out."
There were Shuichi and Yuki picking up all the trash before going home.
They had only borrowed this place for Yuki's birthday, but knowing my
brother, we used the excuse of 'gathering'.
As I picked up around the room, I thought, "It was because of that look
when he was singing..."
No one has that kind of look. It was so soft, yet intense enough to
make it look so seductive that you couldn't resist unless you were really inhuman to do so.
But then, when I watched his videos over and over, I thought that he
was too cool for me to touch. People like that don't fall for ordinary
people...and a monk, no less?
Sighing to myself, I smiled wistfully.
All the factors were against me:
1) He was 15 years older than me.
2) He was a famous singer.
See, I could handle that if it were just that, but he was a 'he'
Ryuichi was a guy. And that used to depress me just knowing this single fact.
With all that, I knew that it would be impossible to even get a glimpse
of him. But then, I did. When I was 12, I know he has forgotten, but
I haven't.
Seguchi-san was just visiting Ni-chan. And he had brought a friend.
That friend was Ryuichi Sakuma.
From the slit on the wall in between the two doors of the den, I
watched them talk. But I kept on staring at Ryuichi.
I was so close, yet so far. I wanted to reach out and touch him, but I
couldn't. I couldn't even find an excuse to come in because I would
get in trouble.
Even if I did find an excuse, I was so breathless that I didn't know
what to say. Picture seeing the person you had learned to love the most and never had a chance of seeing them, only to watch them walk through the threshold of your home trying to decipher if this was joke, a dream, or both....
But then, turning towards my direction, he smiled while looking around
the room. He was genki...
...and that made him so much cuter to me.
Blinking my eyes, I wanted to see more, but the maid got upset with me
and said I shouldn't peep in on other people. So, I went to my room
only to find that they were leaving at that moment.
Plastering myself to the window, I watched them leave. Seguchi-san
waved to me after being surprised that I was watching them. And then
Ryuichi dipped his head a bit and waved goodbye to me.
I smiled for such a long time after that. But then, I also wanted to
cry.
Until now, I had thought the same thing every time I read about or saw
him on TV:
Why was Ryuichi always so near and yet so far away from me?
WHAP!
"Ahou! Stop daydreaming about Sakuma-san again!" my brother scolded.
"Hai, hai." I nodded my head and was no longer distracted as I grinned
to myself.
"Wipe that disgusting grin off your face," my brother yet again
scolded. "It's most disturbing,"
I stopped wiping the counter and asked him seriously, "Ni=chan."
With a cigarette stuck in his mouth as he wiped the other side of the
counter, he answered, "Nani?"
"What do think of when someone says the words 'need' and 'want'?"
I had to ask him. Yuki Ni-chan never liked small talk, so I had to
always ask him random things like this to keep his interest.
But I really want to know, Ni-chan. You never tell anyone and even
Shuichi gets confused all the time because of that...
Because to me...
Ryuichi is more than a want to me.
Ryuichi is more than a need to me.
It's beyond love and obsession...something that I can no longer
describe with human words.
I'm most fortunate that my most important want and need...
...also wants and needs me back...
---
Author's note: kawaii...kawaii...Tatsuha and Ryuichi...so many
possibilities...