Chapter 14
" Sally, we're here, your home"
Sally had sat with her eyes closed the whole journey from the arena to her house. Slowly she opened her eyes.
"Doesn't look much like a home anymore"
"What do you mean" Jeff was worried about her, she had become very distant and he really didnt want to leave her alone in that house for the night.
"It's his house, not mine i dont own it just live there,Cammies ok she can just go where Bryan goes, but i can't i won't have anywhere, this isn't my home anymore, i haven't got one." Sally burst into tears again, Jeff still had no idea what had upset Sally but he guessed now it was something to do with Mark.
"Come on lets get you inside" Jeff took Sallys hand and led her up to the house.Sally was trying to find her keys that were in her bag but she couldn't for crying, Jeff gently took the bag from her shaking hands and found the keys and opened the door.
Once inside the house Jeff looked for the light switches, Sally however just plodded into the living room and curled up on the sofa to cry somemore. Jeff finally found the light switch and walked over to Sal, he sat on the floor next to her and gently stroked her hair which had started to fall in her face.
"Why are you here?" she asked him nervously "What do you really want"
"What do you mean what do i really want?"
"Nothing, it doesn't matter, thankyou for bringing me back and the show and everything, it was really nice to meet you"
" I'm not leaving!!!" Jeff protested
"What?"
"I'm not leaving you here like this, I'm here because i don't like seeing people upset and i especially don't like seeing you upset, i've not come here to hurt you i just want to help if i can"
"You hardly even know me"
"No your right i don't, but i've looked in your eyes, i can tell your a great person, your not a bad person, just a lost one"
"excuse me"
"You don't know what you really want, who you really are, your afraid to be who you want to be"
Sally started to cry harder, *remind yourself to tell Matt to kick your butt for being a total idiot when you get back*
"I'm sorry Sally i didn't mean to upset you"
"You didn't i just realised your right, i am afraid to be who i want to be, if i wasn't maybe Mark wouldn't have cheated on me tonight"
Jeff stared at Sally, "Thats what has upset you?"
Sally started to cry again, this time Jeff climbed up onto the sofa and sat Sally up so he could sit down, he then pulled her to him and she snuggled up to him and cried. Jeff was filled with rage, he just didn't know why he was so mad, shes not the first girl to be cheated on and he hated to think of anyone being cheated on, but with Sally he just wanted to knock Mark out.
They sat there together for hours, Sally told Jeff how it was some girl who rang her to tell her she'd been sleeping with Mark and that Mark had a different girl on each trip he went on and was never faithful to Sally, she also told her that Mark wasn't going back to her, that he wanted a girl who didnt hide away from the world and that he was staying with her,and Sally knew she was with Mark because she heard him talking to Kya in the background.Sally had cried even more and Jeff just held her, Sally went on to tell him about how it had took her so long to trust Mark because she had been hurt so many times in the past, she told him how Cammie was the only person she knew she could really trust always, she had laughed when she told him about how the two sisters scare people with their closeness and how they know everything the other does. Jeff remembered the incident with Cammie knowing Jeff was in the bathroom with Sally even though he didnt think anyone noticed and that Cammie was destroying the room at the time. Jeff looked at his watch, it was 2am.
"It's late, or should i say early? you best get some sleep, i'll stay down here"
"This is where i sleep!"
"Why?"
"I cant sleep properly, so i end up coming down here so i dont wake Mark"
"Why cant you sleep properly?"
"Sometimes its just that i cant sleep, sometimes i have bad dreams and then i dont want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep peacefully but its rare these days, only when i get a week or so sleeping in Cams room i can get a proper nights sleep but by then Mark and Bryan are normally back so i'm back to square one"
"What about when your by yourself?"
"Cant sleep at all usually"
All Jeff wanted to do was take her away from all of it, just take her somewhere she could be herself and be happy, but he knew he couldnt or that she never would.
"What are you gonna do about Mark"
"I dont know! Leave? but where do i go? I can't be without Cam, I just couldnt"
They sat in silence for a while, Jeff guessed Sally was thining about what she was going to do.
" A long time ago i used to have the sweetest dreams,i was always so happy in them, things where perfect in them, i was where i wanted to be, i was with the people i wanted to be with and i was who i wanted to be! I just wanna close my eyes and be there again, You think if i close my eyes and then open them again i'd be there?"
"I dont know, things dont just become perfect you have to make it that way, you have to find whats perfect for you"
"This feels perfect right now" Sally looked up at Jeff
"Really?"
"Really! I feel so comfortable with you, like ive known you forever almost,i trust you, its too good to be true or im just imagining it coz im upset, but it does feel perfect"
"Then maybe if you close your eyes now you'll find your dream"
Sally smiled at Jeff, the first smile he knew wasnt forced, she leaned down to the floor and grabbed the clicker for the tv and flicked it on,
"i need the tv to sleep!" she said
"Can i ask why?"Jeff smiled
"Atmosphere" Sally said simply
"ah ok then, well you've got your atmosphere now you go find that dream"
Sally snuggled back up onto Jeff, she put her head on his chest and said "If i open my eyes and your still with me i will have"
Jeff sat staring at the tv for a while until he realised Sally was asleep. He gently kissed her head.
"And i pray to god you find that dream with me in it too"
" Sally, we're here, your home"
Sally had sat with her eyes closed the whole journey from the arena to her house. Slowly she opened her eyes.
"Doesn't look much like a home anymore"
"What do you mean" Jeff was worried about her, she had become very distant and he really didnt want to leave her alone in that house for the night.
"It's his house, not mine i dont own it just live there,Cammies ok she can just go where Bryan goes, but i can't i won't have anywhere, this isn't my home anymore, i haven't got one." Sally burst into tears again, Jeff still had no idea what had upset Sally but he guessed now it was something to do with Mark.
"Come on lets get you inside" Jeff took Sallys hand and led her up to the house.Sally was trying to find her keys that were in her bag but she couldn't for crying, Jeff gently took the bag from her shaking hands and found the keys and opened the door.
Once inside the house Jeff looked for the light switches, Sally however just plodded into the living room and curled up on the sofa to cry somemore. Jeff finally found the light switch and walked over to Sal, he sat on the floor next to her and gently stroked her hair which had started to fall in her face.
"Why are you here?" she asked him nervously "What do you really want"
"What do you mean what do i really want?"
"Nothing, it doesn't matter, thankyou for bringing me back and the show and everything, it was really nice to meet you"
" I'm not leaving!!!" Jeff protested
"What?"
"I'm not leaving you here like this, I'm here because i don't like seeing people upset and i especially don't like seeing you upset, i've not come here to hurt you i just want to help if i can"
"You hardly even know me"
"No your right i don't, but i've looked in your eyes, i can tell your a great person, your not a bad person, just a lost one"
"excuse me"
"You don't know what you really want, who you really are, your afraid to be who you want to be"
Sally started to cry harder, *remind yourself to tell Matt to kick your butt for being a total idiot when you get back*
"I'm sorry Sally i didn't mean to upset you"
"You didn't i just realised your right, i am afraid to be who i want to be, if i wasn't maybe Mark wouldn't have cheated on me tonight"
Jeff stared at Sally, "Thats what has upset you?"
Sally started to cry again, this time Jeff climbed up onto the sofa and sat Sally up so he could sit down, he then pulled her to him and she snuggled up to him and cried. Jeff was filled with rage, he just didn't know why he was so mad, shes not the first girl to be cheated on and he hated to think of anyone being cheated on, but with Sally he just wanted to knock Mark out.
They sat there together for hours, Sally told Jeff how it was some girl who rang her to tell her she'd been sleeping with Mark and that Mark had a different girl on each trip he went on and was never faithful to Sally, she also told her that Mark wasn't going back to her, that he wanted a girl who didnt hide away from the world and that he was staying with her,and Sally knew she was with Mark because she heard him talking to Kya in the background.Sally had cried even more and Jeff just held her, Sally went on to tell him about how it had took her so long to trust Mark because she had been hurt so many times in the past, she told him how Cammie was the only person she knew she could really trust always, she had laughed when she told him about how the two sisters scare people with their closeness and how they know everything the other does. Jeff remembered the incident with Cammie knowing Jeff was in the bathroom with Sally even though he didnt think anyone noticed and that Cammie was destroying the room at the time. Jeff looked at his watch, it was 2am.
"It's late, or should i say early? you best get some sleep, i'll stay down here"
"This is where i sleep!"
"Why?"
"I cant sleep properly, so i end up coming down here so i dont wake Mark"
"Why cant you sleep properly?"
"Sometimes its just that i cant sleep, sometimes i have bad dreams and then i dont want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep peacefully but its rare these days, only when i get a week or so sleeping in Cams room i can get a proper nights sleep but by then Mark and Bryan are normally back so i'm back to square one"
"What about when your by yourself?"
"Cant sleep at all usually"
All Jeff wanted to do was take her away from all of it, just take her somewhere she could be herself and be happy, but he knew he couldnt or that she never would.
"What are you gonna do about Mark"
"I dont know! Leave? but where do i go? I can't be without Cam, I just couldnt"
They sat in silence for a while, Jeff guessed Sally was thining about what she was going to do.
" A long time ago i used to have the sweetest dreams,i was always so happy in them, things where perfect in them, i was where i wanted to be, i was with the people i wanted to be with and i was who i wanted to be! I just wanna close my eyes and be there again, You think if i close my eyes and then open them again i'd be there?"
"I dont know, things dont just become perfect you have to make it that way, you have to find whats perfect for you"
"This feels perfect right now" Sally looked up at Jeff
"Really?"
"Really! I feel so comfortable with you, like ive known you forever almost,i trust you, its too good to be true or im just imagining it coz im upset, but it does feel perfect"
"Then maybe if you close your eyes now you'll find your dream"
Sally smiled at Jeff, the first smile he knew wasnt forced, she leaned down to the floor and grabbed the clicker for the tv and flicked it on,
"i need the tv to sleep!" she said
"Can i ask why?"Jeff smiled
"Atmosphere" Sally said simply
"ah ok then, well you've got your atmosphere now you go find that dream"
Sally snuggled back up onto Jeff, she put her head on his chest and said "If i open my eyes and your still with me i will have"
Jeff sat staring at the tv for a while until he realised Sally was asleep. He gently kissed her head.
"And i pray to god you find that dream with me in it too"