Ok, so maybe some people weren't so happy with the ending, and I'll say,
neither am I, so I decided to change it. Probably something would change, I
dunno (^^') I'll see. I just type, that's all.
Anyway, I'll like to say realli big thanx to thoses who reviewed..(and criticised :P) realli, honest!! and here we go again…..review!!
Disclaimer: not mine.
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Rachel's POV
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'Whaddya mean I'll be divverent….?' I exploded, my language was slurred and I had no control over what I was saying.
What?
'Ellimist..' my rage was burning now, how…?
I HAD ALREADY SAID, TIME WAS NOT TO BE CHANGED. MIRAGE HAD MADE A BLUNDER WHEN THE FIRST TWIST WAS MADE. YOU HAVE ALREADY WITNESSED THE RESULT BETWEEN ALTERNATE UNIVERSES. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO, THIS MISTAKE IS YOURS, AND YOURS ALONE. ALL YOU MUST REMEMBER IS THAT THIS PROVOKE OF TIME IS PERMANENT. AND PERMANENT IT WILL STAY.
'You…left me here without any knowledge of change, space or time. It..it your mistake too…you took me here, you brought me to this time, now GET ME OUT!.' I was spitting fury, this Ellimist, what was he to know? To take us places, to use us, to tell us what to do. Just who was he to do this?
I AM BUT MYSELF, IN A GAME OF PLAYERS AND PIECES. I AM NOT ONE TO DO ANYTHING., FOR NOTHING IS TRULY IN MY CONTROL. BUT A GAME, AN ENTERTAINMENT, THAT IS WHAT WE EXIST IN, EVEN I. I ANSWER YOUR QUESTION NOW: I AM THE NOT ONE TO DO THIS, I AM NOT THE ONE WHO HAS DONE THIS.
'The answer me Ellimist… why? Why did this have to happen? Why did I have to do this, why did some of us cease to exist? Why mirage? Why Cassie, why Marco? Answer me this.' I was not calm, I didn't feel like I'd ever be calm. Holding down rage, controlling anger.
YOU ASK WHY I HAVE DONE THIS. WHY I HAVE LAY EVERYTHING IN YOUR HANDS. WHY I LET YOU CONTROL TIME AND SPACE. BECAUSE, CHILD, IT IS MY TIME TO SIMPLY CEASE TO EXIST, MY TIME IS OVER IN THIS WORLD-
'I thought you could live forever.' I said mockingly, and harsh.
LIFE, RACHEL, IS EVERYTHING BUT ETERNAL. MY TIME HAS COME, AS YOURS ONCE HAD. BUT, UNLIKE YOU, I AM NOT ONE TO CHANGE IT, TO CHANGE TIME.
'Your point exactly…?' I was frustrated, the longer it took him to get to the point, the more danger my friends were in.
I WILL GO. DIE, IF YOU MUST. I SAY AGAIN, MY TIME HAS ENDED AND IT IS TO YOU THAT I LAY THE BURDEN I ONCE HELD. THE BURDEN OF GAME, THE BURDEN OF WATCHING, BUT NOT CHANGING. RULES, CHILD, IT IS ALL THAT PREVENTS WHAT EVIL THAT HAS NOT ALREADY HAPPENED, TO OCCUR.
'So….?' I asked, pointedly.
YOU WILL BECOME WHAT I AM, THE ELLIMIST. EXCEPT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE RACHEL. WHATEVER KNOWLEDGE, STRENGTH, POWER I OWN WILL BE DOWNLOADED INTO YOU. YOU BELIEVED I WAS POWERFUL, YOU BELIEVED I WAS ALMIGHTLY. YOU WILL GAINED WHAT I HAD ONCE EARNED.
'But…why me? Why not Jake, or Tobias. Why the arrogant, ruthless, stupidly brave, insane….all I want to know is…..why me?.' Spluttering useless excuses, I couldn't be true. I was dead, wasn't I? I was one of the pieces in this insane game, now I would be the player.
THERE IS NO REASON. YOU HAVE LEARNT MUCH, RACHEL. AND YOU HAVE ADJUSTED TO IT. I AM THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HUMANS HAVE TAUGHT ME, AND WHAT YOU HAVE SHOWN ME. INSIDE OF YOU RACHEL, THERE ARE SECRETS THAT NO ONE MAY EVER KNOW OF.
I nodded, eyes downcast. I didn't want to hear what he was to say next. I didn't want this to happen to me. I wanted out, to be home, to see Jake and Tobias, and Cassie and….i just wanted things to be normal again.
TO EVERYONE ELSE, YOU ARE RUTHLESS, BRAVE, INSANE, AS YOU HUMANS CALL IT. BUT YOU MUST UNDERSTAND, THAT NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS, YOU SHOULD BELIEVE WHAT YOU TELL YOURSELF. AND THIS: THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE HERO YOUR FRIENDS KNEW YOU WERE.
I didn't want to cry either. I don't know why it was sad, it just was. And I just cried.
'So, you will just leave…like go? Where?'
UNKNOWN. EVEN A BEING LIKE ME DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE FULL MEANING OF DEATH.. OR LIFE. MIRAGE HAD BEEN ENSLAVED BY POWER, DO NOT LET IT OVERCOME YOU, FOR POWER AND FEAR ARE THE GREATEST ENEMIES OF ALL. I TELL YOU THIS:
'What was done was done and what was said was said. You can do nothing to change that. But, what will come may not come and what was predicted may not occur. Rules and changes have governed this game, but a player remains a player. When defeated, he aims for success and when succeeds, does not despise defeat. Mistakes are forgotten after time goes on, but success is remembered. If the opposition has conquered a game, resigning will do nothing but lead to defeat. As the end draws near, there is but only one victory: Experience.'
With this final speech, he disappeared. Without wanting to, maybe he had wanted me to see the end. The strands of space time stood before me once again, and this time it was not my shine of light that faded away into nothing, but his. And when it did, a billion years of knowledge entered me. Thousands of species, millions of galaxies.
It was the end…the end of Rachel….well, sort of….I would always be Rachel, the Animorph, but as the Ellimist had said, his time had finished and it was my time now. And I would do what I could.
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Is it beta? Not realli, if u ask me. Im losing it. Im going mad. Actually, im gunna start a new fic with dis ending as a beginning.^^'
So….i hope it'll be beta….AND…even if u think dis fic is bad, give me another chance. I'll try to write beta…..please….?
Anyway, I'll like to say realli big thanx to thoses who reviewed..(and criticised :P) realli, honest!! and here we go again…..review!!
Disclaimer: not mine.
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Rachel's POV
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'Whaddya mean I'll be divverent….?' I exploded, my language was slurred and I had no control over what I was saying.
What?
'Ellimist..' my rage was burning now, how…?
I HAD ALREADY SAID, TIME WAS NOT TO BE CHANGED. MIRAGE HAD MADE A BLUNDER WHEN THE FIRST TWIST WAS MADE. YOU HAVE ALREADY WITNESSED THE RESULT BETWEEN ALTERNATE UNIVERSES. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO, THIS MISTAKE IS YOURS, AND YOURS ALONE. ALL YOU MUST REMEMBER IS THAT THIS PROVOKE OF TIME IS PERMANENT. AND PERMANENT IT WILL STAY.
'You…left me here without any knowledge of change, space or time. It..it your mistake too…you took me here, you brought me to this time, now GET ME OUT!.' I was spitting fury, this Ellimist, what was he to know? To take us places, to use us, to tell us what to do. Just who was he to do this?
I AM BUT MYSELF, IN A GAME OF PLAYERS AND PIECES. I AM NOT ONE TO DO ANYTHING., FOR NOTHING IS TRULY IN MY CONTROL. BUT A GAME, AN ENTERTAINMENT, THAT IS WHAT WE EXIST IN, EVEN I. I ANSWER YOUR QUESTION NOW: I AM THE NOT ONE TO DO THIS, I AM NOT THE ONE WHO HAS DONE THIS.
'The answer me Ellimist… why? Why did this have to happen? Why did I have to do this, why did some of us cease to exist? Why mirage? Why Cassie, why Marco? Answer me this.' I was not calm, I didn't feel like I'd ever be calm. Holding down rage, controlling anger.
YOU ASK WHY I HAVE DONE THIS. WHY I HAVE LAY EVERYTHING IN YOUR HANDS. WHY I LET YOU CONTROL TIME AND SPACE. BECAUSE, CHILD, IT IS MY TIME TO SIMPLY CEASE TO EXIST, MY TIME IS OVER IN THIS WORLD-
'I thought you could live forever.' I said mockingly, and harsh.
LIFE, RACHEL, IS EVERYTHING BUT ETERNAL. MY TIME HAS COME, AS YOURS ONCE HAD. BUT, UNLIKE YOU, I AM NOT ONE TO CHANGE IT, TO CHANGE TIME.
'Your point exactly…?' I was frustrated, the longer it took him to get to the point, the more danger my friends were in.
I WILL GO. DIE, IF YOU MUST. I SAY AGAIN, MY TIME HAS ENDED AND IT IS TO YOU THAT I LAY THE BURDEN I ONCE HELD. THE BURDEN OF GAME, THE BURDEN OF WATCHING, BUT NOT CHANGING. RULES, CHILD, IT IS ALL THAT PREVENTS WHAT EVIL THAT HAS NOT ALREADY HAPPENED, TO OCCUR.
'So….?' I asked, pointedly.
YOU WILL BECOME WHAT I AM, THE ELLIMIST. EXCEPT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE RACHEL. WHATEVER KNOWLEDGE, STRENGTH, POWER I OWN WILL BE DOWNLOADED INTO YOU. YOU BELIEVED I WAS POWERFUL, YOU BELIEVED I WAS ALMIGHTLY. YOU WILL GAINED WHAT I HAD ONCE EARNED.
'But…why me? Why not Jake, or Tobias. Why the arrogant, ruthless, stupidly brave, insane….all I want to know is…..why me?.' Spluttering useless excuses, I couldn't be true. I was dead, wasn't I? I was one of the pieces in this insane game, now I would be the player.
THERE IS NO REASON. YOU HAVE LEARNT MUCH, RACHEL. AND YOU HAVE ADJUSTED TO IT. I AM THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HUMANS HAVE TAUGHT ME, AND WHAT YOU HAVE SHOWN ME. INSIDE OF YOU RACHEL, THERE ARE SECRETS THAT NO ONE MAY EVER KNOW OF.
I nodded, eyes downcast. I didn't want to hear what he was to say next. I didn't want this to happen to me. I wanted out, to be home, to see Jake and Tobias, and Cassie and….i just wanted things to be normal again.
TO EVERYONE ELSE, YOU ARE RUTHLESS, BRAVE, INSANE, AS YOU HUMANS CALL IT. BUT YOU MUST UNDERSTAND, THAT NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS, YOU SHOULD BELIEVE WHAT YOU TELL YOURSELF. AND THIS: THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE HERO YOUR FRIENDS KNEW YOU WERE.
I didn't want to cry either. I don't know why it was sad, it just was. And I just cried.
'So, you will just leave…like go? Where?'
UNKNOWN. EVEN A BEING LIKE ME DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE FULL MEANING OF DEATH.. OR LIFE. MIRAGE HAD BEEN ENSLAVED BY POWER, DO NOT LET IT OVERCOME YOU, FOR POWER AND FEAR ARE THE GREATEST ENEMIES OF ALL. I TELL YOU THIS:
'What was done was done and what was said was said. You can do nothing to change that. But, what will come may not come and what was predicted may not occur. Rules and changes have governed this game, but a player remains a player. When defeated, he aims for success and when succeeds, does not despise defeat. Mistakes are forgotten after time goes on, but success is remembered. If the opposition has conquered a game, resigning will do nothing but lead to defeat. As the end draws near, there is but only one victory: Experience.'
With this final speech, he disappeared. Without wanting to, maybe he had wanted me to see the end. The strands of space time stood before me once again, and this time it was not my shine of light that faded away into nothing, but his. And when it did, a billion years of knowledge entered me. Thousands of species, millions of galaxies.
It was the end…the end of Rachel….well, sort of….I would always be Rachel, the Animorph, but as the Ellimist had said, his time had finished and it was my time now. And I would do what I could.
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Is it beta? Not realli, if u ask me. Im losing it. Im going mad. Actually, im gunna start a new fic with dis ending as a beginning.^^'
So….i hope it'll be beta….AND…even if u think dis fic is bad, give me another chance. I'll try to write beta…..please….?