Molly decided to give up
searching for Jack. She allowed Carey to think it was out of a
growing disenchantment with the game, but in truth, it was simply
because it seemed as if no one in this house could stay out of
anyone else's way for very long. The people she needed to find
would find her in time. And she had promised Irene that
she would get Carey out of the game. She was just having a little
trouble finding a way to do that, exactly.
She sank to the floor and frowned. He crouched beside her,
looking concerned. "What is it?"
"I just can't believe I did that," she finally said.
"I can't believe I went after Jack like that. It's like I
just can't control myself anymore, you know?"
"I know," he said sympathetically, placing his hand on
hers. "I feel it too. But you can control it, as
long as you remember that it isn't really you. I think there's
just something really weird about this place. I guess we
shouldn't be surprised."
She laughed and wiped away a few tears. "No, I guess we
shouldn't."
"So that idea you had about getting out of here you
still want to do that?"
"No. We can't leave your parents here, or Jack. We've got to
find a way to get everyone out."
There was a silence as both of them, presumably, attempted to
think of ways to achieve this. Finally, she couldn't take it
anymore and stood up. Carey, of course, followed suit. Molly
glanced at him with only a hint of irritation. "What is
it?" he asked.
"I can feel it starting up again," she lied. "You
better get out of here."
"No," he said firmly, grasping her shoulders.
"Just remember that it isn't you. Try to remember who you
really are."
"I don't think I can do that."
"I think you can." He smiled. She attempted to display
an internal struggle, shaking her head and wincing. When she
opened her eyes, he was staring back at her worriedly.
"Are you are you okay?"
"I'm not sure. I'm afraid." Without warning, he leaned
forward and pressed his lips against hers. She was too surprised
to put up a fight, and after a while it occurred to her that this
was like drowning. After the initial instruct to struggle and
restore the status quo, to return to the surface and breathe
again, there was a sort of peculiar bliss tinged with dread that
settled in once it became evident that this was something over
which she was not expected to have control, a fate she could
simply not deny. Of course, the dread came from knowing that
letting herself sink would lead to suffocation, blackness, forced
sleep, death.
At least that's how she'd always
imagined drowning would be. And that was how this felt.
She was surprised by his voraciousness. At first she had assumed
maybe it was a side effect of this uncontrollable instinct to
play and win that had taken them over, or just a spontaneous sort
of thing, but now it seemed more like it was a release of
something that had been repressed for a long, long time. And
maybe it was like that for her too, or maybe it wasn't--she
couldn't really be sure. The desire to win the game had blurred
her memory and her mind so that the only thing that was truly in
focus was the ability to strategize, to plot her inevitable
victory. But even that was sort of fading at the moment, until
there was virtually nothing left but sensation and relief.
The normal version of her mind fought hard to be heard, reminding
her: many years younger, son's best friend, best friend's son.
Bad idea. But there was an almost pleasing symmetry to it, wasn't
there? She decided to let herself fall. Maybe the suffocation
would be worthwhile, if only for the moment of bliss that
preceded it...
Jack led Irene by the hand into
the room where he had left Annie. His triumphant grin faded as he
noticed that she was not in the closet, nor was she hiding
anywhere else in the room, and the window was broken and a little
bloody. "Damn."
Irene pulled her hand away and looked inside the closet for
herself. She growled, looking out the window. No sign of Annie
anywhere. Irene felt the anger surge inside her and took her rage
out on the wall, slamming her fist into it as hard as she could.
This, perhaps, was not the best idea. She withdrew her hand and
noticed blood spring up in jagged lines across her knuckles. She
tried to wipe it away with her other hand, but the wounds were
fresh and tender, so she nearly yowled in pain. Without really
thinking, Jack took hold of the bleeding hand and examined the
scratches closely. She didn't bother to fight. "It's not
serious," he said, still holding her fingers.
"It feels serious."
"It isn't." Their eyes locked, and it almost became
like a scene out of a romance novel where the mutual gaze becomes
a sort of tractor beam, drawing the lips closer together until
there is no distance left between them. Their lips did meet, but
it was brief. Ned's voice boomed through the house, interrupting
everyone: "I found Annie! I can see her through the
window--she's getting on the bus, out front!"
Irene pulled back and regarded Jack with equal amounts of guilt
and suspicion. He nodded, and she gave him a small smile before
heading off at top speed to get Annie. He followed behind her at
a slower pace. Why do more work than was required of him? He was
close enough to see what happened when Irene opened the front
door and stepped over the threshold onto the front porch: she
collapsed as if the life had been removed from her body in one
smooth movement. His brow furrowed; was she actually dead?
He decided that it didn't really matter, looking quite pleased. Either way, she was out of the game.
One down. Three more to go.
