She Marched to a Different Beat
Disclaimer: I own nothing but that u would actually be able to recognize. However, I DOOO own Matt and Scarlet LeFaye and will do terrible, horrible, horrific things to u if I find that u have been "borrowing" her for any of ure writing. I also own any other characters I accidentally put in there without knowing I did so.
A/N: r u in tears yet? Good, u should be. This is very mentally draining to write since it is based on my emotions. I have several other ideas for fics. One of them might be about Oliver wood. He is so hot in the movie! How could they make such hotness fall off his broom in the quidditch game scene? Somebody needs to kick those writers..........anywayz, back to the point. So, I hope u like this fic. I'll be posting more soon and adding more action. I might stick a war of some sorts in there..... It would give me a chance to add some of the more interesting quotes from les miserable in there. Tell me what u think in ure reviews.
Thank God Gumlick has spell check, or you'll have to put up with my terrible spelling along with my grammar! (When I did spell check, Draco came up as Drano, which I thought was pretty funny, but I guess you didn't…)
Ch. 2 'Happier' Memories
Subconsciously the evil that was the trademark of Slytherin had seeped into me. I first became aware of it when halfway through our 4th year I joined Draco in insulting Harry Potter for the first time:
"Hey Potter, what'cha readin? Trying to learn how to fly decently?"
"Fuck off Malfoy"
"I would love for somebody to fuck me, but not right now. And why should I go away? The library's open for all the students....."
"And this is part of the library, is it not?" I joined in
"Ah, I see Malfoy went and got himself a little whore to do his dirty work......." Potter returned my comment
"Say that again and u won't be able to sit down for a week!" Malfoy shouted. "She's not a whore! You wanna see a whore? Look at the girl sitting next to you"
"MALFOY I'M WARNING YOU!"
"Warning me for what? You can't do anything to me"
"Oh really? We'll just see about that then......." Potter said reaching for his wand
"Looking for this?" Draco said twirling the wand in his hands "You'll have to be better than that"
And with that he cursed him. Only after we had left and were back in our common room that most people like to call a dungeon but we call it home, did he start talking to me again.
"Are you alright? I could have killed him when he called you that..."
"I'm fine. He'll need to do a lot better than that to bother me."
"Ok then, as long as you're sure. I really like you and I would never want anything to hurt you." (Where have we heard that line before? terribly unoriginal)
"I really like you too Draco." I said
And after a quick kiss we went to our separate dormitories. On the way there my mind was engaged in a fierce battle. Why was I always lying and leading people on? I knew I didn't like him like that; I liked Matt. But Matt was......well, anywayz I wasn't going out with Matt and until I was what could it hurt? It could hurt plenty but being the stupid sap that I was then, did I see it? Well, I probably did but dismissed it as nothing. Draco had asked me out but I had said maybe, never yes. In the back of my mind I knew things would soon start to get messy but why push it and make them start before they had to be? I should have gone straight to Draco that very instant and told him the truth. But does a true Slytherin ever do the right thing? Of course not...........
It had finally happened. Draco had found out about Matt. He yelled, he screamed, and then he went on and on about how I had let him down and he really cared about me and I was leading him on, etc, etc. finally, I just couldn't take it any more. I walked out and left. Well, you can imagine how that went over........ Unfortunately, Draco had enough power and influence to turn my life into a living hell. Like it wasn't already............
He was never mine to lose
Why regret
What could not be?
From: Les Miserables
For a while I stood it, but......... how long can a person survive with just a few friends who aren't even in her house? Not very. So I turned to a different outlet. I had special powers I had learned about during the summers I had spent at diagon alley with Tom. Left to my own devices I spent days in the bookshop reading. One of them was how to turn invisible at will. Well, back to the point. One night on one of my many escapades to the restricted section of the library I happened across a sub-section of it entitled 'dark magic'. This intrigued me. I selected a few volumes to read and spent the night there. They enthralled me, ensnared my senses, and awakened a presence in me that I could not name. It beguiled me and made me want to learn more. The more I learned the more I wanted to learn. Soon I began to try small spells on things like spiders and ants. I had never really been in favor of the dark side; but neither had I been opposed to it. When I realized what I had been doing and what it could lead to I made up my mind not to join Voldemort unless he was powerful enough to prevent there being any repercussions brought against me by my actions. In time black magic became my only outlet from the pain. I had almost no friends, and certainly none in Slytherin, I was very nearly alone. Of course I still longed to be with Matt but I had nearly given up on that ever happening as we hardly ever talked.
I love him
But everyday I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have
Never known
From: Les Miserables
I continued to be very much alone for a long time.........
Disclaimer: I own nothing but that u would actually be able to recognize. However, I DOOO own Matt and Scarlet LeFaye and will do terrible, horrible, horrific things to u if I find that u have been "borrowing" her for any of ure writing. I also own any other characters I accidentally put in there without knowing I did so.
A/N: r u in tears yet? Good, u should be. This is very mentally draining to write since it is based on my emotions. I have several other ideas for fics. One of them might be about Oliver wood. He is so hot in the movie! How could they make such hotness fall off his broom in the quidditch game scene? Somebody needs to kick those writers..........anywayz, back to the point. So, I hope u like this fic. I'll be posting more soon and adding more action. I might stick a war of some sorts in there..... It would give me a chance to add some of the more interesting quotes from les miserable in there. Tell me what u think in ure reviews.
Thank God Gumlick has spell check, or you'll have to put up with my terrible spelling along with my grammar! (When I did spell check, Draco came up as Drano, which I thought was pretty funny, but I guess you didn't…)
Ch. 2 'Happier' Memories
Subconsciously the evil that was the trademark of Slytherin had seeped into me. I first became aware of it when halfway through our 4th year I joined Draco in insulting Harry Potter for the first time:
"Hey Potter, what'cha readin? Trying to learn how to fly decently?"
"Fuck off Malfoy"
"I would love for somebody to fuck me, but not right now. And why should I go away? The library's open for all the students....."
"And this is part of the library, is it not?" I joined in
"Ah, I see Malfoy went and got himself a little whore to do his dirty work......." Potter returned my comment
"Say that again and u won't be able to sit down for a week!" Malfoy shouted. "She's not a whore! You wanna see a whore? Look at the girl sitting next to you"
"MALFOY I'M WARNING YOU!"
"Warning me for what? You can't do anything to me"
"Oh really? We'll just see about that then......." Potter said reaching for his wand
"Looking for this?" Draco said twirling the wand in his hands "You'll have to be better than that"
And with that he cursed him. Only after we had left and were back in our common room that most people like to call a dungeon but we call it home, did he start talking to me again.
"Are you alright? I could have killed him when he called you that..."
"I'm fine. He'll need to do a lot better than that to bother me."
"Ok then, as long as you're sure. I really like you and I would never want anything to hurt you." (Where have we heard that line before? terribly unoriginal)
"I really like you too Draco." I said
And after a quick kiss we went to our separate dormitories. On the way there my mind was engaged in a fierce battle. Why was I always lying and leading people on? I knew I didn't like him like that; I liked Matt. But Matt was......well, anywayz I wasn't going out with Matt and until I was what could it hurt? It could hurt plenty but being the stupid sap that I was then, did I see it? Well, I probably did but dismissed it as nothing. Draco had asked me out but I had said maybe, never yes. In the back of my mind I knew things would soon start to get messy but why push it and make them start before they had to be? I should have gone straight to Draco that very instant and told him the truth. But does a true Slytherin ever do the right thing? Of course not...........
It had finally happened. Draco had found out about Matt. He yelled, he screamed, and then he went on and on about how I had let him down and he really cared about me and I was leading him on, etc, etc. finally, I just couldn't take it any more. I walked out and left. Well, you can imagine how that went over........ Unfortunately, Draco had enough power and influence to turn my life into a living hell. Like it wasn't already............
He was never mine to lose
Why regret
What could not be?
From: Les Miserables
For a while I stood it, but......... how long can a person survive with just a few friends who aren't even in her house? Not very. So I turned to a different outlet. I had special powers I had learned about during the summers I had spent at diagon alley with Tom. Left to my own devices I spent days in the bookshop reading. One of them was how to turn invisible at will. Well, back to the point. One night on one of my many escapades to the restricted section of the library I happened across a sub-section of it entitled 'dark magic'. This intrigued me. I selected a few volumes to read and spent the night there. They enthralled me, ensnared my senses, and awakened a presence in me that I could not name. It beguiled me and made me want to learn more. The more I learned the more I wanted to learn. Soon I began to try small spells on things like spiders and ants. I had never really been in favor of the dark side; but neither had I been opposed to it. When I realized what I had been doing and what it could lead to I made up my mind not to join Voldemort unless he was powerful enough to prevent there being any repercussions brought against me by my actions. In time black magic became my only outlet from the pain. I had almost no friends, and certainly none in Slytherin, I was very nearly alone. Of course I still longed to be with Matt but I had nearly given up on that ever happening as we hardly ever talked.
I love him
But everyday I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness that I have
Never known
From: Les Miserables
I continued to be very much alone for a long time.........