Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing, as much as I want to. I'm just borrowing them. I'm not making money.

AN: Another new idea. How's this one? Not beta-read yet, will be reposted when it's fixed...I hope it's understandable…ARGH!!! Thank you Reviewers!!
This part may be a bit confusing, but please read the note on the bottom. It will NOT be what you think!! ^.~

'blah blah' denotes thoughts


Unsure Feelings
Part 11: Determining an Identity


Heero brushed Katryna's hair from her face as he glanced at the clock. Neither of them had missions, but Heero had wanted to get up and file a report for Dr. J. But Katryna's head rested on his chest, and after the nightmare, he didn't want to wake her up. Besides, the clock read 7:15. The girl was still just getting her strength back…Heero grimaced, unable to feel his arm that was under the girl, but he made no move. He pulled the blanket up closer to her shoulders, and Katryna shifted, blinking sleepily. It seemed to take her a moment to realize she was using Heero as her human pillow, and Heero reached down, holding her hand, which had been resting on his stomach.

"Sleep well?" He asked quietly. Katryna shifted to see Heero, and Heero took the chance to pull his numb arm from under her. Seeing his grimace, Katryna bit her lip.

"Sorry Heero." She looked away, glancing at the clock and sighed.

"What for?" Heero sat up, looking down at her as he rubbed the circulation back into his arm.

"I woke you up in the middle of the night, cut the blood flow from your arm and kept you in bed an extra 20 minutes when you usually get up at 7."

"Don't worry about it." He automatically said. His gaze softened. "I enjoyed watching you sleep, I felt at peace. But next time, make sure my arms isn't totally under you."

"Mmhmm. And the nightmare. Gomen ne Heero. I shouldn't have panicked. I mean, you were right there holding me." Katryna bit her lip and looked away. "Still, how did he get into my mind and control me?"

"He probably caught you off guard Katryna. You were probably lost in your thoughts. Hypnosis."

"Hypnosis…" Katryna seemed to accept that explanation. "Anyway, I shouldn't keep you in bed anymore, I'm taking time away from your report and your daily schedule." Katryna sat up too, rubbing her eyes. "I'm going to go wash up too. Where do you want to work? I'll bring your breakfast up to you. Black coffee, two spoons of sugar, and toast?"

Heero shook his head. "Wash up and get changed. I'm going to do the same and meet you in the hallway. We'll have breakfast together, then I'll get to work."

"Sure." Katryna looked at Heero for another moment before heading to the adjoining bathroom. She turned at the door. "Why don't you head down to breakfast first? I want to take a quick shower."

"Aa. I'll meet you at the table then."

"All right." Katryna gave Heero a sleepy smile before she closed the door. Heero lay back for a moment, listening as Katryna turned on the tap and brushed her teeth. He sat up when he heard the shower turn on. Quickly making the bed, he nodded with satisfaction before placing his soldier mask back on and walked to the door of the room. On his way out, he grabbed the towel from the chair by Katryna's desk, which he had discarded it after drying his hair the previous night. He stepped outside the room as Trowa passed by.

"Is Katryna all right?" Trowa asked, concerned. Heero nodded.

"She's getting better. She still needs her strength." Heero said monotonously. Trowa nodded before a part smile crossed his European features.

"You like her, don't you." He stated. Heero almost frowned at him, but didn't answer. "She likes you too. It's plain for all to see. It's a good thing." Trowa continued.

"Maybe." Heero said before crossing the hall to his own room to wash up for the morning.

The Pilot of Wing Zero left his room five minutes later, washed up, laptop and jean jacket in hand. He was now dressed in jeans and a tank top. Pausing a moment, he heard the water in Katryna's room still running, meaning the girl was still in the shower. Turning, he started his walk to the dining room.

When he reached the room, he found Quatre and Trowa there, Duo not in sight. That was expected. With no missions, Duo probably slept in. The rest of them would have as well, but getting up early was a habit.

"Good morning Heero." Quatre greeted with a smile. Heero nodded a greeting. "No missions?"

"Not yet." Heero replied, accepting the cup of coffee and the toast set in front of him.

"Do you have any plans for today?" Quatre continued, watching Heero stir two small spoons of sugar into his coffee.

"System checks on Wing. Why?"

"Just to know where I can find you if anything came up." Quatre said.

The three of them lapsed into silence as they ate until 10 minutes later, Katryna walked in. She was dressed in a pair of loose khakis and an orange t-shirt.

"Morning." She said cheerfully, sitting down next to Quatre, across from Heero. "What's up?"

"The sun." Quatre replied.

"Hey! That's my line!" Katryna protested. Quatre chuckled.

"Any plans today for you Katryna?" He asked. Katryna thanked the cook for her breakfast, and took a drink before answering.

"Nah. No missions. Nothing. I figured that I could run a system check on Angelwing."

"Aren't you wearing too little? It's winter, you know."

Katryna shrugged. "I know. But my Gundam is in a hangar. It should be warm. Anyway, I want to do some laptop work before I do the system check."

"I see. Well, I'm off to do some paperwork myself." Quatre stood. "Meet you guys for lunch." He said as he left.

Moments later, Trowa stood as well. "I'm going to check on Heavyarms too." He said before standing and leaving.

Katryna waited until the door swung close before turning to Heero. His jacket hung on the back of his chair as he ate, and Katryna knew that most likely, his laptop was on the chair beside him.

"Doing checks on Wing 0?" She asked with a smile. Heero looked up and nodded.

"Hn."

"Hey Heero?"

"Hm?"

"When you finish, will you help me fix up the sensors on Angelwing? Some of them are a bit fuzzy."

"Sure." Heero answered. "I'll call you when I'm done with Wing, if you aren't there."

"O.k." Katryna watched as Heero stood, grabbing his jacket and his laptop. She smiled at him when he glanced back and nodded to her. Once again, the door swung close, and Katryna dropped her smile, alone in the large room. She took another bite of her muffin thoughtfully.

She had done a lot of thinking in the shower about her nightmare. First of all, she had to confirm, with the blood sample Iria had done for her, whether her DNA was similar to that of Kataryna McKnowan. This would require a lot of work hacking into coded databases that weren't open to many people, especially if this Kataryna McKnowan was special in some way, or had an important family. Second, she had to do a search on Zechs Merquise, and Milliardo Peacecraft, seeing as they were the same person. She had to find and confirm the connection between the Peacecraft family, and the McKnowan family.

Then, the last and worst part, she had to do some thinking about her nightmare. When she first became a Gundam Pilot, she had wondered about her past as well. Having been taught hacking skills, she had done some searches from what she knew about herself, but found nothing. She had, though, in her search, come across a locked up site. It taught someone to search their memories, search them minds, to retrace their steps in life. The problem was that it took time, patience, strength and it put the person into a trance-like state. By finding this site to review what she had to do, the side effects or possible risks, she had to find a time slot where she was alone.

This also meant she was going to be retracing and reliving her past alone. She shivered. She wasn't looking forward to facing that nightmare again, and that was the first place she knew she had to look.

She put down her muffin and glanced at the clock. 8:15. Heero would need at least up to an hour or two after lunch to finish with his Gundam. That gave her four hours until lunch, and two hours after that. And whatever time at night she had. With a sigh, she finished her breakfast, thanked the servant who cleared up her dishes, and headed to her room.

As she passed by Duo's room, she decided to peek in. She smiled at the sight. Duo's room was a bit of a mess, but cozy. Duo was still sleeping, snoring softly. He was on his side, hugging a spare pillow, the blanket at his waist. He wore a white tank top. His braid trailed off the side of the bed, and dangled an inch off the ground. Tiptoeing in, Katryna placed his braid onto the bed and pulled the covers up. Turning around again, she left the room as silently as she entered. Duo continued to snore, oblivious.



In her room, Katryna sat down at her laptop and started it up. A message popped up as soon as she started the network. 'He must have placed it here when I was showering.' Katryna realized.


Katryna,
Don't work too hard.
Heero


Katryna smiled and sent him a message back, knowing Heero was working with his laptop, but made sure the message wouldn't pop up. It wouldn't be right to disturb anything he was doing at the moment, and it may be important. Then, she turned back to her task at hand.



By lunchtime, Katryna had found out about Kataryna's past, who she was, and her family. She was the daughter of a small, rich family, business partner with the Peacecrafts. This Kataryna was to marry the son of the Peacecraft family, Milliardo Peacecraft, as to 'tie them up'. But she had disappeared, and the two families had gone against each other due to business problems. The Peacecrafts thought the McKnowans were hiding Kataryna, while the McKnowans thought the Peacecrafts kidnapped their daughter. At the end, the Peacecrafts had destroyed the McKnowans. That, of course, wasn't mentioned, but Katryna knew that much. But then, the Peacecraft's kingdom, the Sank Kingdom, had been destroyed, leaving only Milliardo, and his younger sister Relena, alive.

After about an hour of hacking, she found the DNA sample of Kataryna McKnowan as well, from police databases. She sat back after she saved the sample to her computer and retraced her steps out of the databank so no one would trace her. Since she had copied the material, no one should even notice. Standing up, she stretched and went to her bathroom to wash up.



Heero glanced at the clock on his laptop and realized he had 15 minutes before lunch. Shutting down his system, he saw the message flashing and opened it. A half smile crossed his face as he read the message.


Heero,
I won't. Same to you. See you at lunch.
Katryna


Placing his laptop on the seat of his Gundam, he stepped out, closed the hatch, and washed his hands and face in the sink of the bathroom in the hangar. Then, he started to the mansion.



When Katryna stepped out of the bathroom, she was surprised to see Heero leaning against the doorjamb of her room. She smiled.

"Hi Heero!" She said.

"Hey. How was your morning?"

"Great. Managed to get somewhere in my work." She answered as she crossed her room. She paused almost hesitantly, wanting to give Heero a hug, but unsure if she should. Heero answered her inner question by giving her a hug.

"What were you up to?"

"Just a bit of searching and hacking."

"Aa." Heero kept his arm around her shoulders. "Lunch?"

"I'm starving." She said.

"You sound like Duo."

"I know."


Heero removed his arm as soon as they stepped onto the landing of the first floor, but Katryna didn't mind. She understood.

After lunch, Heero headed back out to his Gundam. Katryna watched him leave before she started up the stairs to Dr. Iria's office. Duo followed.

"Hey Katy! What are you up to?"

"Hm? Not much, just visiting Iria for a checkup like she asked me to."

"Are you feeing all right?" Duo stopped, stepping in front of her, concern obvious in his eyes.

"Yea." Katryna smiled. "What plans do you have for the day?"

"Not much. Maybe checking on my buddy Deathscythe, or my junkyard on L2."

"I see."

"How about you?"

"Heero's going to help me with my Gundam once he's done with Wing."

"Cool. Well, I better get going if I want to catch Hilde before she goes anywhere. I told her I'd call in the morning, but I slept in." Duo rolled his eyes before jogging off.

Waiting for Duo to turn the corner, Katryna continued to Iria's office. She knocked on the door and it opened a moment later.

"Katryna! Are you here for your DNA analysis?"

"Yes Dr. Iria. Are they available yet?"

"Yes, and it's Iria, remember?"

"Right." Katryna nodded as Iria handed her a disk. "Thank you Iria."

"No problem."

With that, Katryna turned to go back to her room. She sat down at her desk once more and took a deep breath before sliding the disc in and opening the documents to compare. Scanning both of the data, and double-checking it, Katryna closed her eyes for a moment before looking away, tears forming in her eyes. She looked up at the ceiling to stop the tears from flowing. She slammed the lid of her laptop closed, wiping away her tears angrily.


She couldn't hang around Heero or the others anymore. She would harm them.



For she was 100%, DNA matched, with Kataryna McKnowan.
















Saori: New Chapter 11!!! I'm so proud of me! Thank you my reviewers!!! I will try to update quickly..but March Break is almost over, and my busy schedule will be hard to keep up with..T.T Sorry!! But please, Review and tell me what you think!!! Sad? Do you think Katryna should run away? Should Heero tell her he knows? hm.....