Outside Looking In

by SpiritAnimal

Hmm... Well I wrote another poem...not as deep as the one's in the past. Not much to say about it. Really just reflections of a certain character ^^;

Outside Looking In

Disclaimer: * Sighs heavily * I don't own Fushigi Yugi or any of the characters in it…no matter how much I can wish beg or even pray to Suzaku himself. Ah well… * Sniffles *

I sit outside your circle of friends,

Outside looking in,

I wish I could be as close.

My heart yearns,

For a friendship,

Like what I witness,

Spending time with you,

And your group.

You all seem more like a family,

Close knit,

Inseparable.

As I sit outside,

Outside looking in,

I remember my mission,

What I was sent to carry out.

I close my eyes,

So no one can see the pain,

The turmoil in my soul.

You accepted me,

No questions.

Some would consider,

Such things as stupidity,

Naivete.

As I sit outside,

Outside looking in,

I don't see either.

All I see is,

Warmth,

Caring,

Loving.

I know it will be hard,

To do what I must,

But it has to be done,

It will help be to be free.

As I sit outside,

Outside looking in,

I take a deep breath,

Once again close my eyes,

And raise my flute,

To my lips.

I am sorry.

Please find it in your hearts to forgive,

What it is,

That I have to do.

For a short time,

I knew what it was like,

To have true friends.

As I sit outside,

Outside looking in,

I close my heart to the screams,

Screams of disbelief and pain.

I know what I am doing,

And it can never be forgiven.

I never asked to be,

What I am.

I never asked to be born,

As Amiboshi,

Of the Seiryuu Seven.