I walked into the classroom quietly and slowly, with my head down. There
were a few kids in the room talking quietly. I walked over to my desk and
sat down. I put my briefcase next to it. I held my face with my hands and
sighed. Mimi, Mimi, Mimi, She was all I could think about. I needed her. I
needed her, badly. I couldn't go one more day without her, but it was for
her own safety. This was the only way I could protect her. Even if I saw
her with another guy, I had to be strong. "It's better this way." I
whispered.
A few minutes later I got up and leaned against the window. I sighed as I looked at what was outside. I observed everything with depressed dark blue eyes. My eyes then fell on someone familiar, someone beautiful. Mimi Tachikawa. She and two of her classmates were playing volleyball. I saw Mimi hit the ball with force. Doing so, she sent the ball far away. Her other classmates went to get it. "Ata girl." I whispered grinning. I looked at her for a few more seconds until I saw her turn around and look up at my direction. I turned away quickly so she wouldn't see me. I was about to sit on my desk, when I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around and smiled "Oh, hey T-" I was cut off short by Tai's fist. I fell to the floor and placed my hand on my mouth. I looked at my hand, it was covered with blood. It was then that I felt the warm liquid in my mouth. Tai's punches had never hurt as much as this one. This one really did hurt. Still, on the floor, I looked at him, scared. Everyone was looking at the both of us. There was complete utter silence.
"That was for yelling at Sora." He said. "And this is for Mimi." He finished as he kicked my penis, hard. Really hard. I screamed at the pain that soared through me. I put my hands on my penis, tears streaming down my cheeks, furiously. Nobody said anything as Tai left the room.
I sat in the park on a bench, waiting. I then saw her coming towards me. She smiled, her beautiful smile. I forced a smile on my lips and got up.
"Hi, Matt." She said.
I didn't have a chance to reply as she tried to kiss me.
"Mimi." I said as I pushed her away form me, gently. "We have to talk."
"What's wrong?" she said, looking at me scared. "Did I do something?"
"No. No, of course not." I said "You could never do anything wrong."
"Then, what is it?" she asked. She looked at me with her beautiful caring chocolate eyes which made me want to take her in my arms and kiss her.
"It's me." I said. "Mimi, I don't think we should see each other anymore."
Mimi's eyes widened. Her expression went form surprised to anger.
"It's because you love another is it?"
"Mimi that's not true! I-"
Mimi cut me off and said in a tone of voice I could never imagine hearing "How could you?! How could you, Matt?!"
I opened my mouth, but she cut me off again before I could say anything.
Tears welled up in her eyes "I hate you, Matt!" she said. I hate you!"
I closed my eyes. I could feel tears welling up. "Please, let me explain." I said as I almost started to lose my voice.
"I don't want to hear it! I don't want to hear it!" she yelled as she covered her ears.
I could feel my tears threatening to come out and my voice losing control. It was then that Mimi turned around and ran away from me. I ran after her crying her name and begging for her to let me explain. We ran until we were back at the entrance of the park. She then stopped outside in the middle of the street. It was then that I saw and heard a car coming straight at her "Mimi, watch out!" I yelled. Mimi turned around sharply. Her eyes widened as she saw the car. She screamed at the top of her lungs as the car made contact with her. Everything went by so fast. She finally hit the pavement. I didn't know what had happened to the car. I ran to her. She was lying on her stomach. I held my breath while my eyes widened at what I saw. Her eyes were open wide, and they were puffy red as blood came out of them. She had cuts, scratches and bruises all over her face, including her arms and legs. And if that weren't enough, there was a pool of blood coming out with fury, not stopping. "No…No! No!" I screamed as I took her lifeless body in my arms.
"Mimi, no!" I screamed as I shot up from my desk making it fall to its side, along with the books that I had open on it. I panted as I looked around me. I hadn't realized that I was still in school. Everyone was looking at me, scared. Even the teacher was scared by the outburst. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I kept repeating over and over as I grabbed all of my books and materials, put them in my briefcase and ran out of the classroom, the teacher calling my name.
I got home and closed the door behind me, slowly. I sniffed as tears welled up in my eyes, which I held back. I didn't deserve to cry. I took off my shoes, I didn't bother to put on some slippers. I left my briefcase there, not caring about anything; I went to the kitchen and went to the refrigerator. I opened it, it had what I wanted. I smiled sadly as tears started to well up again in my eyes, at them, the bottles. I took all of them in my arms and closed the door. I pressed my back against the wall and sank to the floor. I put all of the bottles beside me and took the first one and opened it. I let the alcohol make its way into my mouth and down my throat and closed my eyes, letting the tears fall.
I don't know how long I had been sitting there drinking, all I knew was that I had already drank five bottles of Barcardi. I felt hot and dizzy. I had opened up my jacket and my shirt for some air, but all I could feel was sweat on my chest and face. My head hurt more and more every time as tears kept pouring out of my eyes.
I felt pressure in my head as I heard pounding on the door. No, it wasn't pounding, it was a soft knock. I pushed myself up and out of the kitchen and into the hallway, lazily. I opened the door and groaned at who I saw, pretending to be annoyed.
She looked up at me and bit her lip for a second and said Um-I-I-I forgot to give you this." As she offered me an envelope. I took it roughly from her hand. Mimi took a step back and looked at the floor. She swallowed, holding back her tears. More tears threatened to come down my cheeks. I could feel my lips tremble as a sob tried to escape my lips. I couldn't stand hurting her. She looked up at me and said "Tai told me what he did. I'm sorry." She approached me slowly with caution and lifted up her hand "Does it still hurt?"
This time it was my turn to step back. Mimi retreated her hand "That's not any of your business." I said coldly.
She looked down again and said "You're right, it's not." She then made eye contact with my hard cold eyes "I'm going now." Still making eye contact, she approached me once again and was about to kiss me when I pushed her away. She looked at me surprised "I love you, Matt." She whispered. I closed the door by slamming it in response.
I punched the wall as I sobbed uncontrollably "I love you too, Mimi." I managed to whisper. I slowly made my way back to the kitchen and sank down in the spot I had been in previously. I looked at the envelope and opened it. It had a letter inside. I took it out, I smelled her scent and I unfolded it. I drank some more rum before I read it.
My Dearest Love,
I do not know why you broke up with me, why you are doing this to me. Are you testing me, Matt? Are you testing me to prove my love for you? I'll change if you want me to. I will even have sex with you if that's what you want. Even if you don't love me anymore, I will offer myself to you if you want to. Sometimes I think that you still love me and other times I think you hate me. Do you Matt? I know you're not playing with my feelings. I know that you broke up with me for a reason, I just wish I knew what that reason is. I love you, Matt. I love you with all my heart and soul and will always. Thanks for loving me.
Mimi Tachikawa
"Oh, Mimi…" I whispered as I pressed the letter in my bare chest "No! No! No!" I yelled and got up in a fury as I felt anger boil inside of me for what I was doing to my beautiful angel. I started to throw things all over the kitchen. I threw the television set, the kitchen table and it's chairs, along with magazines and other papers that were in stacks before taking a good swallow at the bottle that I had been drinking from. I then took all of the other bottles and Mimi's letter with me to my room, got into the closet and closed the door. I panted softly as I sobbed and started to drink again. And before I knew it, everything went black.
A few minutes later I got up and leaned against the window. I sighed as I looked at what was outside. I observed everything with depressed dark blue eyes. My eyes then fell on someone familiar, someone beautiful. Mimi Tachikawa. She and two of her classmates were playing volleyball. I saw Mimi hit the ball with force. Doing so, she sent the ball far away. Her other classmates went to get it. "Ata girl." I whispered grinning. I looked at her for a few more seconds until I saw her turn around and look up at my direction. I turned away quickly so she wouldn't see me. I was about to sit on my desk, when I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around and smiled "Oh, hey T-" I was cut off short by Tai's fist. I fell to the floor and placed my hand on my mouth. I looked at my hand, it was covered with blood. It was then that I felt the warm liquid in my mouth. Tai's punches had never hurt as much as this one. This one really did hurt. Still, on the floor, I looked at him, scared. Everyone was looking at the both of us. There was complete utter silence.
"That was for yelling at Sora." He said. "And this is for Mimi." He finished as he kicked my penis, hard. Really hard. I screamed at the pain that soared through me. I put my hands on my penis, tears streaming down my cheeks, furiously. Nobody said anything as Tai left the room.
I sat in the park on a bench, waiting. I then saw her coming towards me. She smiled, her beautiful smile. I forced a smile on my lips and got up.
"Hi, Matt." She said.
I didn't have a chance to reply as she tried to kiss me.
"Mimi." I said as I pushed her away form me, gently. "We have to talk."
"What's wrong?" she said, looking at me scared. "Did I do something?"
"No. No, of course not." I said "You could never do anything wrong."
"Then, what is it?" she asked. She looked at me with her beautiful caring chocolate eyes which made me want to take her in my arms and kiss her.
"It's me." I said. "Mimi, I don't think we should see each other anymore."
Mimi's eyes widened. Her expression went form surprised to anger.
"It's because you love another is it?"
"Mimi that's not true! I-"
Mimi cut me off and said in a tone of voice I could never imagine hearing "How could you?! How could you, Matt?!"
I opened my mouth, but she cut me off again before I could say anything.
Tears welled up in her eyes "I hate you, Matt!" she said. I hate you!"
I closed my eyes. I could feel tears welling up. "Please, let me explain." I said as I almost started to lose my voice.
"I don't want to hear it! I don't want to hear it!" she yelled as she covered her ears.
I could feel my tears threatening to come out and my voice losing control. It was then that Mimi turned around and ran away from me. I ran after her crying her name and begging for her to let me explain. We ran until we were back at the entrance of the park. She then stopped outside in the middle of the street. It was then that I saw and heard a car coming straight at her "Mimi, watch out!" I yelled. Mimi turned around sharply. Her eyes widened as she saw the car. She screamed at the top of her lungs as the car made contact with her. Everything went by so fast. She finally hit the pavement. I didn't know what had happened to the car. I ran to her. She was lying on her stomach. I held my breath while my eyes widened at what I saw. Her eyes were open wide, and they were puffy red as blood came out of them. She had cuts, scratches and bruises all over her face, including her arms and legs. And if that weren't enough, there was a pool of blood coming out with fury, not stopping. "No…No! No!" I screamed as I took her lifeless body in my arms.
"Mimi, no!" I screamed as I shot up from my desk making it fall to its side, along with the books that I had open on it. I panted as I looked around me. I hadn't realized that I was still in school. Everyone was looking at me, scared. Even the teacher was scared by the outburst. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I kept repeating over and over as I grabbed all of my books and materials, put them in my briefcase and ran out of the classroom, the teacher calling my name.
I got home and closed the door behind me, slowly. I sniffed as tears welled up in my eyes, which I held back. I didn't deserve to cry. I took off my shoes, I didn't bother to put on some slippers. I left my briefcase there, not caring about anything; I went to the kitchen and went to the refrigerator. I opened it, it had what I wanted. I smiled sadly as tears started to well up again in my eyes, at them, the bottles. I took all of them in my arms and closed the door. I pressed my back against the wall and sank to the floor. I put all of the bottles beside me and took the first one and opened it. I let the alcohol make its way into my mouth and down my throat and closed my eyes, letting the tears fall.
I don't know how long I had been sitting there drinking, all I knew was that I had already drank five bottles of Barcardi. I felt hot and dizzy. I had opened up my jacket and my shirt for some air, but all I could feel was sweat on my chest and face. My head hurt more and more every time as tears kept pouring out of my eyes.
I felt pressure in my head as I heard pounding on the door. No, it wasn't pounding, it was a soft knock. I pushed myself up and out of the kitchen and into the hallway, lazily. I opened the door and groaned at who I saw, pretending to be annoyed.
She looked up at me and bit her lip for a second and said Um-I-I-I forgot to give you this." As she offered me an envelope. I took it roughly from her hand. Mimi took a step back and looked at the floor. She swallowed, holding back her tears. More tears threatened to come down my cheeks. I could feel my lips tremble as a sob tried to escape my lips. I couldn't stand hurting her. She looked up at me and said "Tai told me what he did. I'm sorry." She approached me slowly with caution and lifted up her hand "Does it still hurt?"
This time it was my turn to step back. Mimi retreated her hand "That's not any of your business." I said coldly.
She looked down again and said "You're right, it's not." She then made eye contact with my hard cold eyes "I'm going now." Still making eye contact, she approached me once again and was about to kiss me when I pushed her away. She looked at me surprised "I love you, Matt." She whispered. I closed the door by slamming it in response.
I punched the wall as I sobbed uncontrollably "I love you too, Mimi." I managed to whisper. I slowly made my way back to the kitchen and sank down in the spot I had been in previously. I looked at the envelope and opened it. It had a letter inside. I took it out, I smelled her scent and I unfolded it. I drank some more rum before I read it.
My Dearest Love,
I do not know why you broke up with me, why you are doing this to me. Are you testing me, Matt? Are you testing me to prove my love for you? I'll change if you want me to. I will even have sex with you if that's what you want. Even if you don't love me anymore, I will offer myself to you if you want to. Sometimes I think that you still love me and other times I think you hate me. Do you Matt? I know you're not playing with my feelings. I know that you broke up with me for a reason, I just wish I knew what that reason is. I love you, Matt. I love you with all my heart and soul and will always. Thanks for loving me.
Mimi Tachikawa
"Oh, Mimi…" I whispered as I pressed the letter in my bare chest "No! No! No!" I yelled and got up in a fury as I felt anger boil inside of me for what I was doing to my beautiful angel. I started to throw things all over the kitchen. I threw the television set, the kitchen table and it's chairs, along with magazines and other papers that were in stacks before taking a good swallow at the bottle that I had been drinking from. I then took all of the other bottles and Mimi's letter with me to my room, got into the closet and closed the door. I panted softly as I sobbed and started to drink again. And before I knew it, everything went black.