Chapter 2
Sorry it took so long with this chapter, I'm going out of town for a few days, but when I get back I'll have the next chapter up. As always please review!
- Dr.Lovely
Chandler woke up the next morning still in the hospital. He really did hate it in there. It reminded him of "Monica's Death." God, he would give anything in the world to know what the hell was going on. But never the less he was happy. Besides the fact that he was supposed to marry Kathy, he was on top of the world. He would only have to stay in the hospital another day. He was looking forward to that more then anything, well besides seeing Monica again. She had called him last night before he feel asleep, saying that she would stop in that afternoon on her lunch-break. He couldn't wait. He had done some serious thinking the night before. He knew that he had to tell Kathy that he couldn't marry her. But he also had to tell Monica what was really going on. He knew that she would think he was crazy, and not believe him, but he needed too. She needed to understand what was happening. But then again how could she understand if he didn't know himself? "She would understand," he thought out loud. Monica understood him more then he understood himself. But he was still scared. Terrified even. "At least I have till this afternoon to think of what I'm going to say to her," he thought. But then shook his head, he knew that it didn't matter how long he thought about what to say, it would never be what he wanted to say to her. He could never explain how he actually felt about her; words could not describe the way he felt about her. He could not believe that things had come this far. He really had been blessed; he thought that he lost her forever that day. He shuddered at the thought. He never ever wanted to go through that again. To see her like that, to watch her slip away. Not to be able to do anything. To watch his life slowly die along with her. He couldn't believe that he had lived 3 years with out her. "It was my friends that kept me going," he thought. It was, they were so understanding with him. Chandler laid down and closed his eyes, suddenly they felt very heavy. He fell asleep and let his dreams take him back to the day when his life turned upside down.
Flashback May 2003
Monica Bing smiled at the apartment, it was beautiful. She couldn't wait for her husband to get home. It was their second wedding anniversary. They had decided to stay in; she had cooked a wonderful meal, his favorite. And he was bringing the wine. It was going to be wonderful. Monica checked the clock as she pulled the salmon out of the oven, he'd be home any time and she still had to change into her dress. She couldn't' wait, she thought she was going to go crazy waiting for him. She didn't even want to have dinner she just wanted to kiss him and be held in his arms while they danced then be carried off into the bedroom where they would make love all night long. She ran to the bedroom to change quickly, she wondered what Chandler would think of her dress. Her thoughts were suddenly interrupted as she heard the door being opened. She hurried and zipped her dress up the rest of the way. Then after a quick check in the mirror and a quick fix to her hair, she opened the bedroom door and smiled when her gaze met her husbands. He walked over to her captivated by how beautiful she looked, and kissed her lovingly on the mouth. She smiled when they broke and he pulled her closer to him, and wrapped his arms around her. Chandler kissed the side of her head and sighed, this is what he had been waiting for all day. He actually had to fight the urge to leave work early today. He didn't only because he knew that Monica was planning something and he didn't want to ruin the surprise. He couldn't believe it had been two years since they had been married. "It all goes by so fast" he whispered, barley auditable to his wife, who just pulled him closer in response. She didn't want him to go anywhere. Monica finally looked up at him, his eyes where closed, but opened when he leaned up and kissed is cheek, then mouth. "Happy anniversary, my love." She said and then took his hands and led him to the table. "The place looks beautiful Mon. He said sitting down, but his gaze never leaving her. "Why thank you, you hungry?" she asked as she got plates out of the cupboard. "Yes, starving in fact." She giggled at his expression. "I knew you would be" she said and turned to face him." But that can wait." He said as he extend his hand to his wife and she accepted. He took her into his arms and kissed her. She melted into the kiss immediately. He was so gentle with her, he was taking his time. She loved that about him. She moaned as she felt his hands through her hair then over her bareback. And even more when she felt his tongue gently tracing her lips. She had wanted this so bad. She felt his hands all over her, and tilted her head to the side encouraging him as his lips found her neck. Somehow her hands found his shirt and slowly began to unbutton it. She had to fight the urge to rip it off of him. Once all the buttons where done she slid it off his shoulders and then his arms. She heard him moan as she ran her hands over his now bare back. His lips returned to hers in a slow, passionate kiss. He knew that he couldn't wait any long he had to be with her. He bent down and pulled her up effortlessly and carried her off to the bedroom they had been sharing together for 5 years now. These have been the best years of my life, Chandler thought as he closed the door and gently set his wife on the bed. He could barley see her. The only light was from the moon from the nearby window. They maintained eye contact as they undressed each other. Chandler stopped when the only thing separating then was Monica's panties. That's when he allowed himself to drink in the sight of her. "God, you are so beautiful." He said and he gently caressed her body, and then kissed her chest. Monica closed her eyes, never wanting to forget the feeling that had taken over her body. She moaned and pulled him closer when she felt him remove her underwear, and then felt his lips on her neck again. "I love you Monica," she heard him whisper in her ear, and then pull her closer to kiss her mouth. "I love you too Chandler, always."
Chandler woke up and looked outside to find it was still dark outside. He sighed happy, and pulled Monica to him. He didn't want the night to end. It had been one of the best nights of his life. With the exception of London and of course his wedding night. All he wanted to do was hold her. He felt her stir underneath him and then opened his eyes when he felt her lips on his. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you babe," he said and kissed the side of her face. "It's alright, I don't mind." She answered. She watched as he sighed and slowly started to move." Where are you going?" she asked as she watched him untangle their bodies and reach over to the nightstand, fumbling around like he was looking for something. When he found what he was looking for he turned over and handed it to her. "Oh Chandler I thought we agreed that we weren't exchanging gifts this year." "I've been meaning to give this to you for along time now, since we've been married. I just haven't found the perfect time…open it." He said and Monica looked up at him and smiled then cautiously opened it. She gasped when she say what was inside. The most beautiful diamond earrings she had ever seen. "They were my mother's." he explained. "You like them?" he asked. Monica looked up astonished. "Like them? Chandler I love them, thank you so much." She said leaning in to kiss him. "My mother gave them to me when I went off to college, she wanted me to give them to the woman who stole my heart." She smiled, the tears threatening to escape. "I could never of given them to anyone else." "I'll treasure them forever." She said and looked up to and leaned in to kiss his lips. They made love soon after for the third and then fourth time that night.
When Chandler woke up he groaned, it was morning. Their night had ended. He was surprised when he turned over to grab his wife to find she wasn't there. He looked around and smiled when he saw that the earrings he had given her were out of the case, that when he found a note on the nightstand.
Chandler,
Morning baby, I wanted to make you breakfast this morning, but we didn't have milk or fruit. I ran to the store around the corner. Don't move! I'll be back before you know it. I love you darling. Xoxo.
Love you,
Mon
He sighed and rolled over, he was still so tired. He decided to fall back asleep so she wouldn't feel bad about him waking up and not finding her there. Within seconds his eyes grew heavy and the events of the night before took their toll and he was soon fast asleep.
Chandler woke up to the telephone in the living room, he looked around. Monica still wasn't back yet. He slowly made his way to the phone and picked it up right before the answering machine picked up.
"Hello?'
"Hi, this is the Beth Iserial Hospital, may I please speak to Chandler Bing."
"This is." Chandler answered, warily.
"Mr. Bing, I'm sorry in inform you, but there was an accident."
"What? I'm sorry are you sure you have the right number?" Chandler prayed he did.
"Are you the husband of Monica Bing?" he doctor asked.
"What happened to her? Is she okay? Is she alive!?" Chandler screamed into the phone.
"She's alive Mr. Bing, she was hit by a cab, but I'm sorry she's in very critical condition. She had you as her emergency number. I need you to get down here as soon as possible. "
Chandler dropped the phone, not wanting to listen anymore, and desperately wanting to see her. A million things ran through his mind, he couldn't live without her, how could this happen? What if she died? Chandler didn't know how he did it but, he arrived at the hospital 5 minutes later. He ran the entire way. Not daring to take a cab.
"Monica…Monica Bing…where is she, I need to see her…she's my wife…. where is she?" he screamed at the lady at the counter. "Room 530." She answered. She felt so terrible for this man. Chandler ran till he found her room and gasped at what he say, there she was, his beautiful wife lying helpless. Her face covered with cuts and bruises, and a gash across her forehead. Chandler felt like throwing-up. He made and attempt to go into the room, but the doctor stopped him. "Mr. Bing, I don't think that would be a good idea right now." Dr. Bechrich said holding out his arms to stop him. " I have to see her, how can you tell me that I can't? I'm her…she's my wife!" Chandler said screaming at the doctor. "You can go in in just a moment, but I need to explain something to you, please sit." Chandler did so, and finally tore his eyes away from his wife and set his head in his hands. "Mr. Bing, your wife has been in and out of consciousness. She's awake now. However she is very weak. She's suffered internal bleeding; the cab hit her and sent her flying 24 feet. She has a ruptured spleen and countless number of broken bones, most on her right side where she was hit." The doctor went on but was cut-off suddenly by Chandler "Is she going to live? All you're telling me doesn't matter right now, just please is she going to make it?" the doctor looked up and met Chandler's eyes that were red worn, he was crying. "I…I don't know. What I need from you right now is permission to operate." "Yes, anything, anything to save her." The doctor smiled. He didn't want to let this man down; he was going to try his hardest. " I have to see her…please let me be with her." All the doctor could do was nod. He led Chandler to the room his wife was in and left, giving him some privacy. They had been operating on her for an hour, when she came in she didn't even have a heartbeat, but they were able to get it back. He didn't think she would had made it this long, but the sooner they operated the better.
Chandler immediately reached out and took her hand. Letting the tears fall. She looked so different. He couldn't believe 2 short hours ago she had been fine; she had been in his arms. That last night they had made love, and everything was perfect. Monica felt someone take her hand and slowly opened her eyes that were heavy and hard to lift. She was so weak. She managed a slight smile when she saw it was chandler, she had been waiting for him since she had woken, the doctors had told her that he was on his way. She knew things weren't good, but she didn't know how badly. She knew know, she saw the look in his eyes, and the tears that wouldn't stop falling. She wanted to wipe them away but all she could do was muster up enough strength to move her hand to the edge of the bed. Chandler looked down and understood, he set her hand on his face and held it there. "I love you Monica, please don't leave me…I can't live without you. Please Mon…please." Monica didn't know what to do. She sat there not able to move and Chandler laid his head on her shoulder and cried with her. He sat like that for what seemed like a second before he knew it doctors from everywhere rushed in. "Mr. Bing, I'm sorry we need to get started." Chandler nodded and lean forward and whispered into her ear. " Don't worry babe, everything is going to be alright. I'm right outside." He kissed her lips. "I love you." Was the last thing he said to her and he got up and walked out of the room leaving his wife's life in the hands of the doctors.
Once outside he was so happy to see his friends standing there. The hospital had called Ross, and he told everyone what was going on. They all jumped up and hugged him. They were all crying. They all sat like that, not knowing what to say. Ross finally broke the silence. "I called my parents, they are on their way." "Thank you Ross, I don't know if I could of handled calling." "I know that's why I did it, they'll be here as soon as they can." Chandler nodded. And allowed his weary body to collapse in a nearby chair. "The doctor filled us in while you were in there, how does she look? Rachel asked nervously, she wasn't sure if she wanted to know. "Awful." Was all Chandler said. Rachel barley heard him. Hour after hour went by. Monica's parents showed up 10 minutes after she had gone into surgery. Nobody said a word. Chandler sat there looking straight ahead. All he thought about was her. He might never be able to hold her, kiss her, or make love to her ever again. His world was falling apart. He was sick to death of the gang trying to tell him to think positive. What if she didn't' make it? Then what would he do? All he knew was that he was sick of waiting. Ironically Chandler looked up just as Doctor Bechrich came out of the ER. He watched as Doctor Bechrich walked out of the room with his head low. Chandler heard a scream and turned around and noticed his friends where all there, how long had they been there? He watched as Dr. Bechrich came closer, all he wanted to do was run away. He knew what the doctor was going to tell him, that his wife was dead. He held his breath as he came closer and shut his eyes tight. "I'm sorry Mr. Bing, we did all we could." He turned around leaving them to mourn the death of his patient that he should of saved. Chandler stood there while everything around him broke down. He could hear Rachel and Phoebe sobbing, and watched as Ross hugged his devastated parents. Nobody offered to comfort Chandler; they knew it would do no good. Chandler walked down the hall to her room, everyone watched him. Nobody had to guts nor the heart to tell him no. Once he saw her he broke down. He took her lifeless hand in his and kissed it. Then laid his head on her should and told her that he loved her, like he did before. He stayed like that crying for over an hour when a nurse had to pull him away from her.
Monica was buried 4 days later; she was buried in her wedding dress, with her wedding and engagement rings. She wore a silver cross around her neck, a gift from her mother, and the earrings chandler had given her the night before the accident. She was wearing them when she was hit. Chandler sat stoned face during the entire ceremony, he didn't hear anything when Ross and Phoebe sobbed their way through their speeches about Mon. He didn't want to believe any of it. He couldn't believe that he had had his last night with her, that he'd never be able to see her, kiss her, hold her, and make love to her. His knew that his life would no longer matter now that she was gone.
Present
Chandler woke in a cold sweat. He closed his eyes trying desperately trying to get the images that were still vivid out of his mind. His eyes snapped open when he felt a hand on his face. It was her. She smiled warmly at him, and asked him what was wrong. "Bad dream." He replied. He was so glad she was here before Kathy, but he still had to tell her what was going on. And he still had to break it off with her. Man, he had a lot to do in the next few days. The only problem was that Kathy had been around so much that he didn't have the time to talk to Monica. And whenever he told Kathy that they needed to talk she would practically run out of the room. He had to do something about the situation and fast. Monica scooted a chair next to Chandler's bed and asked him how he was feeling today. "Much better, now that you are here." Was his reply. Monica smiled, which caused him to. " I can't imagine how boring it gets being in here. At least you get to go home tomorrow. I bet you miss living with Joey huh?" Chandler's face fell; he forgot that once he would get to go home that it wouldn't be with her, in their apartment. "What's wrong?" she asked noticing the look on his face. "It's nothing, I just don't know if I want to live with Joey anymore…it's just things have changed now." This surprised Monica. " Well, at least it won't be for a long time, you and Kathy will be moving in together I'm sure." "Yeah…about that, I don't think that's going to happen." Monica looked at him surprised again. "Well, your just full of surprises this morning aren't you?" Monica said as she laughed. "You have no idea." Chandler thought. "You're going to call it off…" Chandler nodded, "Why?" she asked. She was starting to really worry about her best friend. He was changing his mind about everything lately. "I don't love her." He said simply. "When did you find out about this?" "I'm not sure, I feel like I just woke up or something. I know what I want now, and I guess she's not it. I don't mean to sound harsh or anything, it's just that I always wanted somebody who wanted kids, she doesn't. I want to move to the suburbs, she wants to stay in the city. I just don't have the feelings that I used to anymore." Chandler finished. At least he hadn't lied completely. "You want kids? And want to move out of the city?" asked a very astonished Monica. "Yeah, I never did before, but now everything has changed." "I never thought I would ever hear you say that." Chandler laughed. If she only knew that it was because of her. She changed his life. He wanted to do all this because of her. Chandler and Monica sat and talked all afternoon. She had been there for almost 4 hours when Kathy walked in flowers in hand. "Hi sweetheart." She said while kissing him hello on the cheek, and shooting Monica a dirty look. "Um… Mon, do you mind? I kinda have something important to talk to Kathy about." Kathy smiled; he was getting rid of Monica for her. Monica smiled knowingly, and kissed his cheek, and said that she would be back later tonight after work. Kathy shot her another look after she kissed Chandler. She would have to put a stop to that she thought. She smiled happily when she left. "Now baby what is it that you needed to talk to me about…"? Chandler sighed this was going to be a long afternoon.
TBC…Find out how Kathy takes the break up, and if Chandler tells Monica what he knows. Find out what's going on in the next one! I finally figured it out! I know this one wasn't as long, but the next one will defiantly be! Please REVIEW! Thanks!