Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters don't belong to me, they belong
to Sunrise, and whoever else owns them. I'm just playing with Duo for a
while, please don't sue me.
Author's Note: This was a random little bit, I doubt I'll add on to it unless I get lots of requests to do so (hint hint!). This is as close to angst as I come, just so ya know, but I tried. Please enjoy what I've written, 'kay? Thanks!
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Life can be unfair sometimes, can't it? I know that mine is unfair most of the time… I mean, is it fair that I'm in love with my partner, best friend, and fellow Gundam pilot, Heero Yuy? I think not. Then again, there's not much that I can do about me feelings, ya know?
It's not like I didn't try to convince myself that I wasn't in love with him… I told myself it was lust, or confusion… Or just a phase, that I'd get over it…
But I didn't get over it. I tried to, but I just couldn't. Even telling myself that homosexuality is a sin, that I'll go to Hell when I die if I sleep with another man… It didn't help. I just don't care. If I could spend just one night in his arms, cuddling up close to him, feeling his skin against mine and his warm breath in my ear…
I'd die a thousand deaths, and lock my soul in Hell for eternity. At least he'd be there burning with me; we wouldn't have to be separated in death.
It's always been especially tough for me to love him, and even worse since I've never told him how I feel. Every time he goes off into battle, off on another mission, I don't know if he'll come back in one piece, or even if he'll survive. I always pray for his safety; there's nothing I can do when I'm not there to watch his back.
And now… Things are worse. Tomorrow he's getting married to Relena Peacecraft. It's too late to admit my feelings to him; all that could result from that is chaos, trouble. He doesn't deserve that, and neither does Relena.
I'll always love him, till the day we're both dead. And beyond that, even.
And he'll never even know…
Life can be unfair.
Author's Note: This was a random little bit, I doubt I'll add on to it unless I get lots of requests to do so (hint hint!). This is as close to angst as I come, just so ya know, but I tried. Please enjoy what I've written, 'kay? Thanks!
~ ~ ~
Life can be unfair sometimes, can't it? I know that mine is unfair most of the time… I mean, is it fair that I'm in love with my partner, best friend, and fellow Gundam pilot, Heero Yuy? I think not. Then again, there's not much that I can do about me feelings, ya know?
It's not like I didn't try to convince myself that I wasn't in love with him… I told myself it was lust, or confusion… Or just a phase, that I'd get over it…
But I didn't get over it. I tried to, but I just couldn't. Even telling myself that homosexuality is a sin, that I'll go to Hell when I die if I sleep with another man… It didn't help. I just don't care. If I could spend just one night in his arms, cuddling up close to him, feeling his skin against mine and his warm breath in my ear…
I'd die a thousand deaths, and lock my soul in Hell for eternity. At least he'd be there burning with me; we wouldn't have to be separated in death.
It's always been especially tough for me to love him, and even worse since I've never told him how I feel. Every time he goes off into battle, off on another mission, I don't know if he'll come back in one piece, or even if he'll survive. I always pray for his safety; there's nothing I can do when I'm not there to watch his back.
And now… Things are worse. Tomorrow he's getting married to Relena Peacecraft. It's too late to admit my feelings to him; all that could result from that is chaos, trouble. He doesn't deserve that, and neither does Relena.
I'll always love him, till the day we're both dead. And beyond that, even.
And he'll never even know…
Life can be unfair.