Disclaimer: The song used is by Culture Club and the manga used is by Maki Murakami. Neither are mine, but used them and hope you enjoy how I did so.
Infatuation
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 6 - Do you really want to hurt me?
For many days, I stayed with Tatsuha as everyone was dying to find me. They wondered where I had been, or who I had been with since Tatsuha had lied about not seeing me after the cafe incident.
As those people left his doorstep, I held him tighter as I cried.
I was almost afraid that they would take me away.
But...Everything was silent.
For a moment, there was peace. None of this insecurity that had plagued me relentlessy for months.
It wasn't perfect...no, it wasn't. Tatsuha had some habits as I that we couldn't stand like the way I got too zealous over singing and sang in the shower at any time of the day. Or the way he would watch Ryuichi videos and then look at me with these hungry eyes that wouldn't let me say no...and well, um, wear me out...hee hee hee.
And so, after many calls, I finally made it to the station for our live performance.
"Where were you?!" Hiro and the others asked.
"Just thinking." They nodded their heads in relief and nodded among themselves. "Another fight with Yuki, ne? Mmhm!"
I facefaulted and shouted, "Why does it always come to that?!"
"Because it always does."
As we set up the stage, Tatsuha sat in the back row and crossed his arms. I smiled in his direction and looked down to avoid any more eye contact.
I remember the time we had been a tv studio before and he pretended to be Yuki...
...and ended up kissing me on the lips.
Embarrassingly, I blushed because I liked that kiss...but would never admit it...
even though I later found out it wasn't from Yuki at all...
"And today's guests are 'Bad Luck!'" the announcer said as the crowd shouted and squealed in response.
I then said, "Thanks for having us today. What we're going to perform is a song that was done long ago..."
"But of course, we put our sound in it and hope you like it," I continued. I looked straight into the camera with a smile and a wink, "This song is for you. And you know who you are."
"This is Bad Luck's rendition of 'Do you really want to hurt me?'"
The fast tempo played through Suguru-san's synthesizer..
"[whisper] Give me time
To realize my crime
Let me love and steal
I have danced inside your eyes.
How can I be real?"
(Then, Hiro's guitar protruded... and I sang my heart out...)
"Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Precious kisses, words that burn me
Lovers never ask you why
In my heart the fire is burning
choose my color
find a star
precious people always tell me
That's a step,
a step too far
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Words that I feel that I have spoken
I could waste a thousand years
Wrapped in sorrow words are token
come inside and catch my tears
you've been talking but believe me
if its true you do not know
this boy loves without a reason
I'm prepared to let you go.
If it's love you want from me
then take it away
everything's not what you see
it's over today.
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry...?"
At that moment, like the man of the shadows, I saw Yuki leaning back on the wall to the farthest corner of the studio. My eyes became wide and my heart raced faster and faster within my chest.
I couldn't breathe and I heard the mic's sharp squeak as it hit the ground...
It was then that all the turmoil inside of me clashed together...
While reaching out to him, I whispered, "Yuki?"
...and I fainted.
--
Author's note: This is really really hard...trying to find what I want to do! *tearing her heart out*
Infatuation
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 6 - Do you really want to hurt me?
For many days, I stayed with Tatsuha as everyone was dying to find me. They wondered where I had been, or who I had been with since Tatsuha had lied about not seeing me after the cafe incident.
As those people left his doorstep, I held him tighter as I cried.
I was almost afraid that they would take me away.
But...Everything was silent.
For a moment, there was peace. None of this insecurity that had plagued me relentlessy for months.
It wasn't perfect...no, it wasn't. Tatsuha had some habits as I that we couldn't stand like the way I got too zealous over singing and sang in the shower at any time of the day. Or the way he would watch Ryuichi videos and then look at me with these hungry eyes that wouldn't let me say no...and well, um, wear me out...hee hee hee.
And so, after many calls, I finally made it to the station for our live performance.
"Where were you?!" Hiro and the others asked.
"Just thinking." They nodded their heads in relief and nodded among themselves. "Another fight with Yuki, ne? Mmhm!"
I facefaulted and shouted, "Why does it always come to that?!"
"Because it always does."
As we set up the stage, Tatsuha sat in the back row and crossed his arms. I smiled in his direction and looked down to avoid any more eye contact.
I remember the time we had been a tv studio before and he pretended to be Yuki...
...and ended up kissing me on the lips.
Embarrassingly, I blushed because I liked that kiss...but would never admit it...
even though I later found out it wasn't from Yuki at all...
"And today's guests are 'Bad Luck!'" the announcer said as the crowd shouted and squealed in response.
I then said, "Thanks for having us today. What we're going to perform is a song that was done long ago..."
"But of course, we put our sound in it and hope you like it," I continued. I looked straight into the camera with a smile and a wink, "This song is for you. And you know who you are."
"This is Bad Luck's rendition of 'Do you really want to hurt me?'"
The fast tempo played through Suguru-san's synthesizer..
"[whisper] Give me time
To realize my crime
Let me love and steal
I have danced inside your eyes.
How can I be real?"
(Then, Hiro's guitar protruded... and I sang my heart out...)
"Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Precious kisses, words that burn me
Lovers never ask you why
In my heart the fire is burning
choose my color
find a star
precious people always tell me
That's a step,
a step too far
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Words that I feel that I have spoken
I could waste a thousand years
Wrapped in sorrow words are token
come inside and catch my tears
you've been talking but believe me
if its true you do not know
this boy loves without a reason
I'm prepared to let you go.
If it's love you want from me
then take it away
everything's not what you see
it's over today.
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry...?"
At that moment, like the man of the shadows, I saw Yuki leaning back on the wall to the farthest corner of the studio. My eyes became wide and my heart raced faster and faster within my chest.
I couldn't breathe and I heard the mic's sharp squeak as it hit the ground...
It was then that all the turmoil inside of me clashed together...
While reaching out to him, I whispered, "Yuki?"
...and I fainted.
--
Author's note: This is really really hard...trying to find what I want to do! *tearing her heart out*