Disclaimer: Gravi's not mine...and you know what should go here.
Infatuation
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 12 - Asking god for advice.
For the rest of the day, I had looked at Tatsuha's smiling face as we tried to make dinner together. I acted as if nothing had happened and went back to making lyrics as he did his meditations in the bedroom while studying his school books.
The next day, I came into the concert stage early and put on the mic in the middle of the stage. I stood there singing along to the song I had just made. It took a whole two months, but I was finally done.
When I had finished, I closed my eyes and sighed.
Clap, clap, clap!
"Shuichi-kun~!" the voice in the crowd said. "That was a cool song!"
I looked down the stage to find Ryuichi-san waving like crazy to me.
He ran up to me and we both greeted each other with much genkiness while jumping up and down with Kumagorou sitting on his head. "Ohayou!"
"Ohayou!"
But then, Ryuichi patted Kumagorou's paw on my cheek. "Daijoubu desu ka?"
I looked at him and shook my head. "Ryuichi-san, can I talk to you?"
"Sure, what?" He just sat there on the floor.
And I followed.
Hey, what better person to ask than god himself, right?
(Insert Author's victory sign here along with a happy smirk.)
"Ryuichi, I have to ask you a serious question."
He nodded his head and took down Kumagorou from his head and threw it to my lap. "For courage, of course. If you feel like it's hard to say something, say it to him."
I nodded my head. I took a deep breath. "Well...how do I put this?"
He just listened attentively.
"I've been giving this much thought, but I'm still confused. At first it came as a question as to if Yuki loved me and then it switched to if I really love him. Then, I answered my own question with another one of, 'Can't he need me?' I went to Tatsuha and it made things more complicated. All these emotions and thoughts came crashing allthemore inside of me. And it didn't help that Yuki shouted at me how much he loved me and he didn't look like himself." I sighed and continued, "And all I really know by now are: 1) I just want to be happy and 2) I'm going out of my mind if I don't find an answer soon."
Ryuichi got up and looked out to the empty seats below us. "When I sing, I'm trying to find that emotion that I want to find in life. I can't find it anywhere else, but when I sing. I can't describe it, but it's there."
Then, he sat back down. Ryuichi placed one hand on his chin and the other on his knee. "But what do you really want, Shuichi-kun?"
Silence.
"I want to be needed." I finally said with my eyes lowered to the ground.
Then, I clenched my hands and stood up with my tears dropping onto the stage.
I knew the answer all along...
Hidden so far away in my heart.
"By Yuki..." I whispered. "Yuki dake da..."
Ryuichi got up and placed his hands on my shoulders. Then, he picked up my chin and smiled. "If you already knew, why did you ask me, Shuichi-san?"
He laughed to himself as he nervously stood up once more. Without looking at me, he said, "It's just like the way I feel for Tatsuha-kun..."
"Ryuichi-san..." I mumbled quietly.
Dokidokidoki...
Ryuichi then turned around and smiled. "What are you waiting around for? We've got to practice for tonight."
And off he went...
With Kumagorou still in my lap.
--
Author's note: Oh...I know I'm awful now... ^_~
Yuki dake da. - (by) only Yuki.
Infatuation
by Miyamoto Yui
Chapter 12 - Asking god for advice.
For the rest of the day, I had looked at Tatsuha's smiling face as we tried to make dinner together. I acted as if nothing had happened and went back to making lyrics as he did his meditations in the bedroom while studying his school books.
The next day, I came into the concert stage early and put on the mic in the middle of the stage. I stood there singing along to the song I had just made. It took a whole two months, but I was finally done.
When I had finished, I closed my eyes and sighed.
Clap, clap, clap!
"Shuichi-kun~!" the voice in the crowd said. "That was a cool song!"
I looked down the stage to find Ryuichi-san waving like crazy to me.
He ran up to me and we both greeted each other with much genkiness while jumping up and down with Kumagorou sitting on his head. "Ohayou!"
"Ohayou!"
But then, Ryuichi patted Kumagorou's paw on my cheek. "Daijoubu desu ka?"
I looked at him and shook my head. "Ryuichi-san, can I talk to you?"
"Sure, what?" He just sat there on the floor.
And I followed.
Hey, what better person to ask than god himself, right?
(Insert Author's victory sign here along with a happy smirk.)
"Ryuichi, I have to ask you a serious question."
He nodded his head and took down Kumagorou from his head and threw it to my lap. "For courage, of course. If you feel like it's hard to say something, say it to him."
I nodded my head. I took a deep breath. "Well...how do I put this?"
He just listened attentively.
"I've been giving this much thought, but I'm still confused. At first it came as a question as to if Yuki loved me and then it switched to if I really love him. Then, I answered my own question with another one of, 'Can't he need me?' I went to Tatsuha and it made things more complicated. All these emotions and thoughts came crashing allthemore inside of me. And it didn't help that Yuki shouted at me how much he loved me and he didn't look like himself." I sighed and continued, "And all I really know by now are: 1) I just want to be happy and 2) I'm going out of my mind if I don't find an answer soon."
Ryuichi got up and looked out to the empty seats below us. "When I sing, I'm trying to find that emotion that I want to find in life. I can't find it anywhere else, but when I sing. I can't describe it, but it's there."
Then, he sat back down. Ryuichi placed one hand on his chin and the other on his knee. "But what do you really want, Shuichi-kun?"
Silence.
"I want to be needed." I finally said with my eyes lowered to the ground.
Then, I clenched my hands and stood up with my tears dropping onto the stage.
I knew the answer all along...
Hidden so far away in my heart.
"By Yuki..." I whispered. "Yuki dake da..."
Ryuichi got up and placed his hands on my shoulders. Then, he picked up my chin and smiled. "If you already knew, why did you ask me, Shuichi-san?"
He laughed to himself as he nervously stood up once more. Without looking at me, he said, "It's just like the way I feel for Tatsuha-kun..."
"Ryuichi-san..." I mumbled quietly.
Dokidokidoki...
Ryuichi then turned around and smiled. "What are you waiting around for? We've got to practice for tonight."
And off he went...
With Kumagorou still in my lap.
--
Author's note: Oh...I know I'm awful now... ^_~
Yuki dake da. - (by) only Yuki.