AN: Oh ho ho ho! I am so happy, thanks to you reviewers ;) Well here is Chapter Five!!

Sakura: *points a finger* Look at Kero...I think he's in shock...

Kero: ^0^ ^0^ ^0^ ^0^ ^0^

Ice: ..................

Kero: PUDDING! CAKE! SWEETS!

Sakura: -.-;;;

Kero: *throws a peice of paper into the air* Here's da thank you list to all of you heavenly people out there!!

Kero's Thank You List =^0^=

Sakura Angel for the HUGE NEVER GOING TO BE GONE supply of pudding!!! What can I say?! I WUVE YOU!!
bad kitty arlia for the ice cream sunday with pudding sauce...it was..let's say unique ^^;;
Stars from Above for the YUMME strawberry cheesecake! MWUHAHAHA
No name for the mango pudding!! Even though Ice Star was trying to steal it from me because she likes it too >.
God of Death's Little Angel and Anime for the holy pudding :D

CCS crazygirl, thanks for the tip, but I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON PUDDING!! *rips up health pamphlet, dietary food diary, and coupon for Jenny Craig* MWUAHAHA

Jul-Chan, I will drink all your mountain dew FOREVER!! MOOHAHAHAA

AND I'M WAITING FOR THAT STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE Realla Nights >:[ !!!

And if I missed anyone, sowwie.

Love Kero forever and ever ^o^

Ice: Ok..on to the story..OHOHOHOHOH! And thank you for the carrot cake Jul-Chan ^0^ But Kero ate half of it > Neways, onto the story...

Disclaimer: No, I don't own CCS and it's character, so pooey. CLAMP owns it -.-


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To Guard our Love
Chapter Five: Friendship and Broken Hearts
Written by Enchanted Ice Star












**Meiling's point of view**

I turn my head when I hear Xiaolang's loud anguish cry. I was frightened, because I never heard Xiaolang scream like that...and it shook me to the bones when I turned around and saw him at the edge of the cliff leaning down.

At first I thought he was nuts and was going to jump or something, but then I noticed he was holding onto a pink glove with his hand out stretched. That glove...I had seen it somewhere...and of course I remembered.

It was the glove Kinomoto had been wearing.

And at once...I knew what had happened...

I was frozen in my spot, for I felt guilty since this morning I had just said I wished that Kinomoto would fall off a cliff. I really didn't mean it, and now, she did go fall off a cliff...

It's not like I hate her...but I hate any girls that go near my Xiaolang. I feel like anybody could take him away from me, and so I try to scare off anyone that goes near him. But Kinomoto keeps on following him, and I'm...I'm scared?

I love Li Syaoran with all my heart and soul, but I can see that he doesn't show the same emotions. Sure, he cares for me as a cousin...but I long for his love. I want to be loved...I want Xiaolang to love me, but love can't be forced neh?

Everyone thinks I'm mean and snobby, but no one sees that I am just trying to protect the one I love. Through my eyes, I pretend that every mean word Xiaolang says to me, is a nice word. Every glare he gives me, is a smile. But...that's all just my fantasy.


**Sakura's point of view**

I'm falling...falling...and I wonder when I'm going to hit bottom. I wonder what will happen when I do, would I die like a human? But I am already dead, aren't I? Would I magically be alright? I didn't know.

My eyes are closed, I can feel the wind blowing past me...have I given up on hope? No, I hear a cry, someone crying out my name.

"SAKURA!!!!"

My eyes shoot open, I can't see Syaoran anymore, but I can still hear his cry carried down by the wind. I moved one hand towards my neck, where the star key dangled and rested on my skin gently.

"Oh key that holds the power of darkness..." I mumble softly. "Reveal thy true form! I, Sakura, command you under contract, release and dispel!" I feel the key growing in my hands, and my star staff appearing.

With my other hand, I reach into my pocket and pull out the Fly Card. I gently brought my staff onto it, and light pink wings grow out of my back, and I levitate in mid air.

I gently fly down and land on solid ground, but on my skies. I returned my staff to its key form, as I glance up to where I had fallen. I couldn't see anyone or anything up there, but I had a feeling Syaoran was still there.

A small smile played on my lips, as I think about appearing in front Syaoran, alive and well. But then, how am I going to explain how I survived such a great fall? I would just have to think of a good lie, I guess.


**Normal point of view**

"Xiaolang! Xiaolang!" Syaoran slowly turned his head to look over his shoulder. Meiling was skiing towards him as she stopped in front of him with a worried look on her face.

"Is...is she...I mean did she..?" Meiling didn't have to finish her question because Syaoran just nodded, and slowly stood up with the pink glove still tightly held in his hand.

"It was my fault..." He muttered.

Meiling blinked, "Why? It wasn't your fault at all! It was Kinomoto's own fault that she chose to come up here when she didn't know how to ski!"

"...I don't know...I just feel like it's my fault..." Syaoran mumbled, his eyes still fixed to the edge of the cliff. "...I...I feel weird Meiling."

"...Weird? Maybe you're sick?"

Syaoran's grip on the glove tightened. "She...she died Meiling. I don't know why, but I feel helpless..." He shut his eyes, hoping to shut out all the thoughts that were running in his head, but it didn't help.

He felt a headache coming, and he felt his eyes burn. Why? Am I crying?! No...no way...>

Meiling glanced at Syaoran, who had his amber eyes shut really tight, locks of amber hair hid his face. She looked at him sadly, then she raised her head slightly towards the sky. Is...is Xiaolang crying for her? So many things have happened to me and him, but he had never cried...is he really crying, for some annoying girl?> Meiling looked back down sadly.

"Why don't we go back down the mountain...and tell Mrs. Leaung about the accident...they deserve to know," Meiling said in a soft voice. Slightly frightened at the state Syaoran was in.

Syaoran nodded slowly and turned around and started skiing towards the ski lifts. Meiling followed and they got on a ski lift that took them down.

All the time, Syaoran was staring down the cliff, hoping to catch sight of the color pink. And all the time, Meiling had her eyes on Syaoran, wondering what he was thinking of.

They got off the lift, and hurried towards the cabin where Mrs. Leaung said if they needed help, they should go there. They took off there skies in a hurry and found Mrs. Leaung right away sitting on a couch with a cup of coffee.

"Mrs. Leaung!" Meiling cried.

She looked up from the magazine she was reading. "Meiling, Syaoran, is something wrong?"

Syaoran had his hands clentched tightly in fists. "Sakura...Kinomoto-chan fell off a..a cliff.."

They noticed Mrs. Leaung's eyes widen, and horror was written all over her face. She stood up adruptly from her seat, "Are you sure?!"

"Of course they aren't!"

The three turned their heads towards the door of the cabin, where a smiling Sakura stood with her skies in one hand. "Li-kun, could you give me my other glove back?" She asked lightly.

Syaoran went wide eyed as he ran up to her. "I..I thought...you...fell..died!" Syaoran was lost for words, and he felt an urge to hug Sakura, but he held it back and simply gave the glove back to her.

Sakura giggled, "Well, I caught onto a branch sticking out of the edge, and I just dangled there for a long time. But then these people below me saw me dangling there, and they went for help. So well, er," Sakura stuffed her hands into her jacket pocket. "They called a what do you call those? Oh right, helipicoptors?"

"Helicoptors?" Syaoran corrected.

"Oh right! Yeah, so they got one of those things and picked me up!" Sakura finished with a sheepish smile on her face. I hope he believes this...>

Syaoran stared at her for a couple seconds, and scratched his head. "Whatever..." He walked by her and out of the cabin.

Sakura let out a sigh of relief, but then she caught the glare Meiling was sending her and she sweatdropped. "Do you really think I believed you Kinomoto? I think Syaoran was just in shock so he believed you, but I was in my right senses, and I seriously don't believe that lame lie you made up." Meiling walked out after Syaoran.

Sakura spun around and watched them put on their skies and ski away. "...Hoe.."

**Syaoran's point of view**

I was so surprised when I saw Sakura standing at the doorway, I thought I had gone nuts. But then she spoke and asked me to give her back her other glove, and I knew she was real.

Of course, I don't believe all that crap she said back there about helicopters picking her up from the side of a cliff. What stupid idiot would believe that? But I decided not to pry any further, because I just don't like forcing people to tell things they don't want to.

But why did I feel such a huge relief when I saw her alive? I thought I hated her and if she did die, it wouldn't have made a difference in my life. But I felt joy run through my veins when I saw her alive and well, standing there with a smile on her face...argh! What's wrong with me?!

I glance over to my right, and I see Meiling looking ahead with a distant look in her eyes. That was unusual, usually she was so focused and all. But I could feel someone watching me, and I can bet a thousand dollars that it was Sakura.

Why was she always following me? I just don't get it.



**Normal point of view**

Sakura slowly made her way behind Syaoran and Meiling. She had a hard time keeping up with them, but she made sure she was behind them and kept them in sight at all times.

She was glad that they didn't go back up to the expert slopes, and they were just skiing around on small hills.

"Sakura-chan! Sakura-chan!!" Sakura turned around slowly in her skies and smiled when she saw Tomoyo and Chiharu skiing up to her with a frantic look on their faces. "Where were you?! We thought something happened when you were gone for so long!!"

"I was up there," Sakura pointed towards the mountain top.

Tomoyo and Chiharu's eyes widened. "What?! But you barely know how to ski!!" Tomoyo exclaimed.

"I know, but I just wanted to see the view from up there!" Sakura lied with a smile on her face.

Chiharu frowned, "But you could have gotten seriously hurt Sakura-chan! What if you fell off a cliff or something?!"

Sakura sweatdropped but shook her hands. "No way! I don't think I would ever fall off a cliff!!"

"Oh god!! Look!!" Chiharu exclaimed.

Sakura blinked, "God? Where? I don't see him.."

"No! Not god, I meant oh god! Look!" Chiharu pointed towards their right and Tomoyo and Sakura turned to look at what Chiharu was pointing at.

Syaoran and Meiling were tumbling down at great speed towards a bunch of trees and Meiling was crying out every couple of seconds.

Sakura's eyes widened, "Oh no!!! Syaoran! Meiling!" She pushed off with her poles and sped after them.

"...She sure learned fast," Tomoyo blinked.

"Your right, and this morning she couldn't even stand still on skies," Chiharu remarked.

Sakura frowned. Faster!! I need to go faster!!!> She could see Syaoran desperately trying to untangle his skies from Meiling's as they rolled down the hill like a snowball.

Sakura placed both her ski poles in her left hand and stuck her right hand into her pocket. "Dash card, please come to my aid but I can't call upon the star staff or else they'll see..." She mumbled in a soft voice.

She felt the dash card's spirit go into her skies, and suddenly she was speeding down the hill and next to Syaoran and Meiling. She reached into her pocket again and took out the sheild card. Form a sheild around Syaoran and Meiling so they won't get hurt!> Sakura thought in her mind, and she sighed in relief when a pink transparent sheild that only she could see, went around them.

Syaoran saw the tree coming, and he closed his eyes ready for impact, but it never came. He opened his eyes, and saw Meiling untangling herself from his skies, and they had magically stopped right in front of the tree unhurt.

"Are you guys alright?!" Sakura came skiing up to them with a worried look on her face.

Syaoran stood up slowly, followde by Meiling who was rubbing her knee. "Yeah, we're...fine.."

"What happened?!" Sakura asked.

"Meiling jumped onto me," Syaoran grumbled. "And I lost my balance and we were standing right ontop of a slope." He shot Meiling a glare and she looked down at the ground sadly.

"I didn't mean to," She mumbled.

Syaoran frowned, "How many times do I tell you that I don't like being attacked like that."

"I do not attack you! I hugged you!" Meiling said in defense.

"You practically hurled yourself at me, do you have any senses Meiling? We were ontop of a slope for god's sake!" Syaoran snapped.

Meiling's eyes watered, "Of course I have senses Syaoran Li! Maybe even more than you do, since you don't even notice how people around you care for you!" She turned around and skied away quickly.

"Ugh," Syaoran shifted his gaze towards Sakura, and narrowed his eyes. "How did...did you?"

"Hmm?" Sakura blinked innocently at him.

Syaoran frowned, "Don't act so innocent Kinomoto, you're anything but that."

Sakura's lips curved into a frown. "Li-kun, I kind of liked it how you called me Sakura, by my first name." She said simply and her frown curved into a smile. "I mean, I am living in your house after all, and I think it would be alright if you call me by my first name!"

"..." Syaoran glanced at the snow on the ground, not wanting to meet Sakura's gaze for some reason. He felt hot all of a sudden, even though it was freezing outside.

"If you don't want to, it's alright. But I thought we could at least be friends instead of being so...odd around each other," Sakura giggled slightly. "Well, I'm going back to the cabin! It's freezing out and I'll catch a cold! Oh, and stay out of trouble!!" Sakura smiled and turned around, ready to leave.

"Wait! ...Sakura," Syaoran started.

Sakura turned around, a huge smile spread across her lips. "Yes?" She said almost to excitedly.

"I..um..you can call me Syaoran...I guess," Syaoran scratched his head uneasily.

Sakura's smile brightened, "That's great!"

"I mean, don't get the wrong idea, I mean, because...I mean, since you let me call you by your first name, I should do the same," Syaoran felt uncomfortable now, and he couldn't put a sentence together. "Oh whatever! You get the point," He grumbled and skied off.

Sakura watched him disappear, and she giggled to herself.


**Syaoran's point of view**

I am alone right now, sitting against a tree. I had quickly skied away from Sakura, I don't know why...but I couldn't look her in the eye, it made me...feel weird.

I let her call me by my first name...and she let me call her by her first name. I guess it all works out...maybe I shouldn't be so mean to her. After all, she is living with me, and why should I make it hard?

I let out a sigh, my breath caught in the air like whispy smoke. I still don't get it though, I had saw Sakura skiing up to Meiling and I when we were tumbling down that slope, but...but she had suddenly gained extraordinary speed in one spilt second. It didn't make any sense, even the best skier couldn't gain speed that fast.

But I have a feeling, that Sakura isn't who she seems to be. I know she's hiding something...I've always noticed something weird about her. Her fascination with things that are so ordinary, and she couldn't even say helicopter correctly. There's just something...different about her. But I can't put a finger on it...

And I don't get how we just stopped right in front of the tree instead of crashing head first into it. I knew it had something to do with Sakura...I just know it. I think I saw her mutter a couple words, but I didn't hear them, I could only see her lips parting and closing. Maybe it was just my imagination, but...I doubt it.

She acts so innocent, and she never seems mad or sad when I'm so rude to her. But it's different with Meiling, when I'm mean with her, she throws a fit. But Sakura...I don't get it, she takes it so calmly and she just smiles! Smiles?!

I don't know if I should be nice to her, or to keep my guard up around her. But, I guess it seems more likely to trust her then not to, she seems...kind? What am I saying?! I'm suppose to hate her! Maybe something is wrong with me...I'm so confused.

I can call her Sakura, and she can call me Syaoran.

I guess, it all works out.


**Meiling's point of view**

I hid the tears from my eyes from him, I didn't want him to see me crying. He would think I was weak, weaker than I already was. I skied away and hid behind a tree, I could still hear him and Kinomoto speaking.

I heard Kinomoto say to Syaoran that he could call her Sakura. That disgusts me, that sweetness in her voice, what is she trying to do?! Get Syaoran to fall for her?!

But then...how could I think of that? Maybe Kinomoto's just like that...her sweetness is just part of her? I clench my fists tightly when I heard Syaoran tell Sakura to wait. And then I heard him say... "Sakura."

She giggled, I frowned. I felt like all my years of trying to protect Syaoran from other girls, were wasted. Syaoran had never called another girl by their first name except for me. But with Kinomoto, they had only met for around five days, and they were already calling each other by their first names.

I shut my ruby eyes to get the tears away, but they keep on coming back. I just have a feeling...I know this feeling will come true...and it's my greatest fear...yet I think it's coming true...

I think I'm loosing the one I love most...






AN: Messed up chapter folks. This chapter was by far the worst chapter in this fic >. I found it very badly worded...

Kero: *nods* But as long as I get pudding, then it's fine.

Ice: -.-

Kero: NOW PEOPLE, HAND OVER ALL YOUR PUDDING OR ELSE YOU WILL ALL BE CURSED!! MWUHAHAHA

Ice: That's not very nice Kero >.

Kero: MOOHAHAHAHA!

Ice: Where's Sakura-chan?

Kero: GONE! MOOHAHAHAHA!!

Ice: ...No, I mean seriously

Kero: I dunno, she's in backstage with the gaki.

Ice: How sweet.

Kero: We don't know what they're doing in there.

Ice: KERO!

Kero: Alright alright! I'll shud up.

Ice: Good, oh and I've got more pudding for you Kero ;)

Kero: Really?!

Ice: *wink wink* It's from troulp, he/she says that its got EXTRA sugar in it!! *wink wink*

Kero: AWESOME!

Ice: Well stay tooned and review onegai :D