Doublemeat Reunion
by Colleen Hillerup
Buffy was sobbing now, in her lover's arms. "I've been so horrible to you. I took and I didn't give anything back. I hurt you over and over." Her head was buried in his chest, and she wrapped her arms around him tightly. "It was me, it was me, it was me..."
"Buffy, look at me." He tipped her head up, pained by the sight of her red eyes and tear stained cheeks. "How many times did I try to kill you? How many people have I killed? I didn't plan on loving you, but I do. I never expected to be with you. When it happened, I never expected it to be easy."
"I didn't plan on loving you, either." There, the words were out, and it hadn't been so hard.
"Love me?" Had he heard right?
"I pushed you aside. I kept my distance, even when I was with you. When we decided to break it off, just be sort of friends, I told myself it was a relief. That I wanted it. When all I wanted was you."
Spike tried to continue the conversation, encourage her to say what she needed to say, but his heart was back on "loving you." "Tonight," he asked, "what was different tonight?"
"I'd never had to face it before, what I did to you. You never mentioned it, my friends never asked what had happened to you. Even Dawn must have assumed you were in a fight. It never came up, and I could hide it away and pretend it never happened." She reached up and touched his brow. "But tonight, when Sophie asked what had happened, when Clem said how badly you'd been hurt...." She looked around. "They're gone. Where did they go?"
"Spect they felt a bit awkward. Besides," he smiled, "I don't reckon they need much of an excuse to be alone."
"I guess they'll be okay." Buffy ran her finger along his cheekbone. "How could I ever have done anything to this beautiful face?"
"My face is fine. It's my heart... Say it again. About lovin' me."
"I tried not to love you. But I do. I love you." Her lips trembled as she fought back more tears. "You should run while you can. I've been told I'm full of love. I might overwhelm you."
"I'll risk it. All I've dreamed about, all I've wanted, right now, here in my arms. Buffy, I love you so m...." His words were stopped by her lips on his.
by Colleen Hillerup
Buffy was sobbing now, in her lover's arms. "I've been so horrible to you. I took and I didn't give anything back. I hurt you over and over." Her head was buried in his chest, and she wrapped her arms around him tightly. "It was me, it was me, it was me..."
"Buffy, look at me." He tipped her head up, pained by the sight of her red eyes and tear stained cheeks. "How many times did I try to kill you? How many people have I killed? I didn't plan on loving you, but I do. I never expected to be with you. When it happened, I never expected it to be easy."
"I didn't plan on loving you, either." There, the words were out, and it hadn't been so hard.
"Love me?" Had he heard right?
"I pushed you aside. I kept my distance, even when I was with you. When we decided to break it off, just be sort of friends, I told myself it was a relief. That I wanted it. When all I wanted was you."
Spike tried to continue the conversation, encourage her to say what she needed to say, but his heart was back on "loving you." "Tonight," he asked, "what was different tonight?"
"I'd never had to face it before, what I did to you. You never mentioned it, my friends never asked what had happened to you. Even Dawn must have assumed you were in a fight. It never came up, and I could hide it away and pretend it never happened." She reached up and touched his brow. "But tonight, when Sophie asked what had happened, when Clem said how badly you'd been hurt...." She looked around. "They're gone. Where did they go?"
"Spect they felt a bit awkward. Besides," he smiled, "I don't reckon they need much of an excuse to be alone."
"I guess they'll be okay." Buffy ran her finger along his cheekbone. "How could I ever have done anything to this beautiful face?"
"My face is fine. It's my heart... Say it again. About lovin' me."
"I tried not to love you. But I do. I love you." Her lips trembled as she fought back more tears. "You should run while you can. I've been told I'm full of love. I might overwhelm you."
"I'll risk it. All I've dreamed about, all I've wanted, right now, here in my arms. Buffy, I love you so m...." His words were stopped by her lips on his.